Suddenly Reincarnated Into R-19 Novel

I found myself in the hallway of the mansion, making my way to Lord Lukas's room. My task for the day was to clean his bed, but I paused when I caught sight of something that made my stomach churn.

There, sprawled across his table, was Lord Lukas with a maid—one of my fellow servants, Mylene. I chose to ignore them and focused on the bed instead, replacing the sheets with fresh linens. But as I did, my eyes were drawn to a sticky substance on the blanket.

"Ahhhh... Lord Lukas, please, harder! Hmmmm..." Mylene's moans echoed in the room, and I felt a wave of nausea wash over me.

After finishing my cleaning duties, I turned to leave, but suddenly Lukas grabbed my arm, causing me to clench my fists in anger at his audacity.

"I'm getting bored with this girl; you're next," he declared ominously. I couldn't let him finish; I grabbed a cloth and wiped down the table where the liquid had spilled.

"Tsk! Are you trying to ignore me?" he snapped irritably.

"My Lord," I said firmly, "I must tell you that I find no pleasure in sex. I'm afraid you would be disappointed with me."

"How do I know if we won't try?" His eyes widened as he stepped closer to me.

"Lukas?" Just then, Rafael entered the room.

"What are you doing here?" Lukas asked with annoyance.

"I just wanted to talk to her for a moment, brother." Brother? Were Rafael and Lukas related? They looked nothing alike.

"Go ahead," Lukas said with a forced smile before stepping back. Rafael extended his hand toward me.

"Let's go; I have something for you. I hope you'll like it," he said cheerfully.

He led me into the garden and placed a flower crown on my head.

"You're really kind, Henny. That's why I wanted to give you this. You look cute," he said with a warm smile that made me feel safe for the first time in ages—like an angel had descended from the heavens just for me.

"Thank you, Lord Rafael," I replied shyly.

"Oh! It's nothing! I should be the one thanking you!" His cheeks flushed slightly, and I couldn't help but whisper, "Cute."

"What?" he asked, tilting his head in confusion.

"You too, Lord Rafael... you're cute and handsome," I admitted boldly.

"I'm sorry! I'm leaving now!" He suddenly turned and ran off, leaving me clutching the handmade flower crown tightly in my hands.

"I'm not done yet, Henny!" Just as Rafael left, Lukas reappeared before me again. He grabbed my chin forcefully and pressed his lips against mine.

"Cute, huh?" he murmured against my mouth.

"Why can't I see pleasure in your eyes, Henny? Am I not good enough?" His words struck me like a blow; I felt paralyzed and unable to respond.

After he kissed me, he walked away while I leaned against the wall for support. The urge to vomit overwhelmed me.

"Disgusting!" My fists clenched tightly as blood trickled from my lip where I'd bitten down hard in frustration.

"All of them are disgusting!" The memory of what had just transpired faded quickly as Lukas's torment continued unabated.

"Move your hips, Henny..." he commanded from above me. But I lay still, staring blankly at the ceiling without an ounce of emotion in my eyes.

"Ahhhh... Hmmmm... I can't believe you can satisfy me, Henny," he taunted as he quickened his pace on top of me.

"Disgusting," I muttered under my breath. This caused him to pause momentarily before grinning at me wickedly.

"Yes, Henny. I'm disgusting." He kissed me again, but this time I refused to respond. Afterward, I retreated to my room and wrapped my arms around myself tightly as tears streamed down my face.

I cried silently at first but then burst into laughter mixed with sobs.

"Hahahahhahahhahha! Did I do something wrong for you to make my life like this? What sin did I commit?" My laughter echoed through the empty room as tears continued flowing freely down my cheeks.

"I'm so full of this never-ending cycle repeating itself!"

"Henny! Are you crying?" The voice of Lord Rafael broke through my despair. Startled by his presence, I stood up quickly to open the door for him.

"Henny?" He looked at me with concern etched across his features; his eyes were filled with sadness upon seeing my state.

"It's nothing, my Lord! Please ignore me! And honestly... it's better if you don't come here anymore." My cold gaze met his as I tried to push him away emotionally.

"But—" Before he could finish his sentence, I shut the door firmly and returned to sit on the edge of my bed. Perhaps if I died again, life would finally become peaceful for once. It seemed impossible that I'd ever live again after everything I've endured here.

What purpose did this life serve anyway? Why should I continue living? If somehow fate allowed me another chance at life after this moment—I would ensure that they witnessed a different version of Henny altogether!

I heard loud knocking at my door but ignored it entirely as I reached under my bed for the rope I'd hidden there.

"F*ck this world! I'm going to leave this hell!"

Rafael's Point of View

Why isn't Henny opening her door? Panic gripped me as fear grew inside—what if something terrible was happening to her? In desperation, I broke down her door only to find her lifeless body hanging from a rope!

"Henny!" Without hesitation, I rushed forward and cut the rope from her neck; but it was too late—she had already lost her breath and her body was cold against mine.

"Why are you doing this? Who pushed you towards suicide, Henny?" All I could do was hold her lifeless form tightly in despair.

"What happened?" Lukas appeared suddenly behind me.

I stood up slowly; only one thought filled my mind:

"You killed her, Lukas! You pushed her into taking her own life!" My voice rose in accusation as disbelief washed over me when witnessing how Lukas's expression changed—guilt flickered across his face for just a moment before it hardened again into indifference.

Henny's Point of View

"You have wasted your life again," spoke a green light in this dark place surrounding me.

"I wasted it because that life had no purpose," was my reply—my eyes devoid of emotion as exhaustion seeped into every fiber of my being. All I wanted was peace now; it was time for rest.

"You still have a chance to live in that world—"

I interrupted immediately: "For what purpose? To suffer through another miserable existence?"

"No, Henny. The truth is that you're here in this world so that you can be free to make your own decisions moving forward. It's up to you whether or not you'll follow along with the story or take control of your own fate."

"I need to leave. You know you can overcome this; death is not an escape from your problems—you must face them no matter how difficult they may be."

The presence faded from view just as that dream ended abruptly when time reset itself once more around me. Looking down at my wrist revealed a new number: 1 etched there clearly. Tsk!

"Henny?" My gaze shifted toward Penelope standing nearby now looking concerned about me.

"Are you alright?" she asked hesitantly while eyeing me suspiciously; clearly noticing how pale and withdrawn I've become lately.

"Do I look okay to you?" My words surprised her visibly; she hadn't expected such bluntness from me today!

"Henny? What happened to you—"

I cut her off before she could finish speaking: "Maybe if I kill all of you then perhaps my problems will finally come to an end." A smile crept onto my lips at that thought—why hadn't it occurred earlier?

Destiny truly is cruel towards me; why can't it allow complete hatred towards myself instead?

"What are you talking about—"

I reached out and touched her chin gently before continuing: "Because of you all—I've become miserable! You're all disgusting—it makes me want to vomit!"

"Henny! That hurts!" Perhaps if they despised me enough then maybe they'd finally leave me alone... The thought made me chuckle maniacally which caused Penelope's expression shift dramatically into shock and concern for what she saw unfolding before her very eyes!

"Henny! You've gone insane!"

"Yes, my lady! And I'll take every last one of you straight down into hell!"