You Will Only Be Mine

I stared at her, waiting for a reply, which I didn't get. No matter how much passed, she didn't say anything. Her eyes looked into mine, and my shoulders relaxed. I have seen this expression before, in a similar situation. I let go of her shoulders and pulled her by her arms before holding her tight close to me. Is Ai angry? Yes, she is.

Is that all? No, absolutely not. That is not like Ai just being angry with me. She's sad.

"I'm sorry, Ai," I apologized to her yet again, and she didn't say anything, but still clung to me. "If I'm going to get the silent treatment, I would rather have you suck off all my blood every night than that."

"Would you let me?" she asked in a low voice, and I nuzzled my face against her hair.

"As much as you want," I said, and she pulled away from my chest before looking at me. Those eyes still looked sad. What can I do to change that? I don't want Ai to be sad. Anything but that, please.

"Kazu-kun," she called out my name, and I snapped out of my thoughts. "You worry too much."

"I know," I said with a little smile, but her eyes didn't change.

"You don't know your own limits," she said, and I suddenly felt like I was in the middle of a declaration. Is this a list of everything wrong with me?

"I try my best not to overdo things," I said, rubbing the back of my head.

"You are becoming overconfident easily," she said.

"Yeah…I do sometimes," I said, remembering all the times I had these new powers get to my head.

"You should be lucky I love you so much," she said, and I clapped my hands together and bowed my head as if to pray to her. No, I am praying to my goddess right now.

"My utmost gratitude for loving this feeble being. Kindly ask for anything you want as a sacrifice," I prayed to her.

"You think I have too many faults," she said, and I quickly looked up with my mouth agape. No, that is not it…

"That's n- "

"Don't lie to me, Kazu-kun, you know I hate it when you lie," she said and grabbed my hands. "I know myself, there are so many faults in me. I am not perfect, but I want to be the perfect woman for Kazu-kun. I don't like how you have to worry so much about each of my issues and have to tiptoe around topics with me."

"No, that is no- "

"Then why did you hide it from me?" she said in a sterner tone, and I went quiet. There is no denying her logic, I know that myself. No matter how much I want to deny, no matter how much I want to say that she is wrong. There was nothing I could come up with as an excuse to make me sound convincing to her.

She is absolutely right. I tiptoed around her because I knew she gets overly jealous. I did everything in my power to keep things from her to the point of only drinking from Akira when I was sure she was sleeping, because I know how quick she is to jump into violence when her jealousy takes over. I have two rules to stop her from actually hurting a human, and I didn't tell her anything because I doubted whether she could handle knowing this in her current mental state after everything happened. This is just so messy, I can't even believe how we didn't fight more than the little we did before.

"Kazu-kun doesn't have to worry around me," she said, with a little smile on her face, her eyes still looking at me sadly. "I will fix everything in me; I will be the ideal woman who is worthy to stand by his side."

What nonsense is she saying? If anything, I am the one who should fix myself to be worthy of her.

"Ai, that is not true, you are absolutely perfect the way you were," I said, fighting back. "If anything, I should fix things about me. I should not have been so overly cautious around you, making you feel that way."

"No, Kazu-kun shouldn't think like this," she said, leaning in closer. "I am the one in the wrong; otherwise, he doesn't have to worry so much. I don't like to worry, Kazu-kun. She has far more important things to think about than worry about me. His life is on the line."

"As if yours isn't. Ai, we both are targets, so the same goes for me. You have to worry so much about protecting me and taking care of me that you don't even properly look after yourself. You jump into any dangerous situation without a second thought," I said, my voice rising a little.

"You're one to talk, running out of the group and facing that asshole all on by yourself. Do you have any idea how hurt I was thinking you were dead for so long? I was so broken I couldn't even take my own life, wanting to live the rest of my slow life to take revenge for you. Do you have any idea how much that hurts?" she raised her voice too.

"That was all because he took you away from me, and doesn't act like you would do the same thing if I were the one taken away. Hell, I know you will charge into this head-on all by yourself. At least I had some other backing me up, too," I retorted.

"And you know full well what happened to those people. They were all dead, not much help at all," she said, and I felt the anger inside of me starting to build up.

"That's enough," Natsumi-san said, hitting both of us on the head hard. I'm pretty sure I lost a lot of IQ points with that hit. "I thought you would have a proper discussion, but you just started blaming yourself and then went on to accusing each other. Seriously, what else did I expect from you two? Especially you Kazuki, weren't you the one with the cooler head? What was all this?"

I rubbed my head and looked up at her. I could see the disappointed look on her face. She was not happy with this outcome whatsoever. I lost my cool yet again. I was supposed to be apologizing to Ai for what I did, but I don't even know how we ended up in this discussion. Natsumi-san let out a sigh and slammed both of our desks hard. I'm so glad that isn't my head.

"Now listen here, you two," she said, glaring at us. "Just listening to you gives me a headache. How self-loathing can one be when they start a proper discussion by talking down about themselves and saying they will "fix" themselves? Fix what exactly? And if you do, how long will you even keep up with that? One year, two years? Don't joke with me and say forever because I know that is not true."

"But Natsumi-san, I don't want Ai to worry so much," I said, looking at Ai, who didn't meet my eye. "And that is because I always end up doing something reckless."

"Ever thought that it is because she cares about you?" Natsumi-san said, smacking my head. Was the hit necessary?

"I know she cares about me a lot," I said, rubbing my head.

"Then you'd better learn to live with her worrying about you your entire life. If you love someone, you would not want anything bad to happen to them. Every moment they are away from you, you may feel uncertainty and wonder if they are safe. Ever thought to look at it this way?" she said, and I lowered my head.

"I did," I said in a low voice.

"If you did, then why not apply that logic here?" she said back coldly, and I had no reply for her. "The same goes for you Ai. Kazuki is the biggest worrywart I have ever met in my entire life. This kid will worry about you even if you are next to him twenty-four-seven. There is nothing you can do about it; you're like that too, right?" she said, and Ai lowered her head and nodded lightly.

"I swear to god, the similarities in you two are a lot more than you think, so stop acting like you don't properly understand each other, and if you don't, talk. Don't fight or argue, sit down and talk. You two have very big mouths so why not use it where it actually matters?" Natsumi-san said, put her hand on our shoulder. We looked up to see her, and she had a soft smile on it. "You two have some screw loose here and there, but I can say without a doubt you are made for each other. No one will ever put up with either of your shenanigans than you two. Kazuki's parents were the same. Only they can keep up with each other. It's like I am brought back all those years."

I don't remember much about my parents aside from their faces. A bit of their habits here and there, their faces and voices, but I don't recall any more than that. "What do you mean by that?"

"Those two would also start flirting with each other with no care about where or with whom they are," she said coldly, and both our faces heated up.

I guess I did inherit that from my parents.

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