Chapter 16: Chapter 15: Departure for London
The wind howled through the trees, rattling the windows of Longbourn as Jane Bennet stood before the mirror in her chamber. Her reflection stared back at her, pale but composed, though the turmoil beneath her placid exterior was nearly too much to bear. A letter from Caroline Bingley, so polite and yet so cutting, had arrived two weeks prior, and its words still echoed in Jane's mind. Mr. Bingley had left Netherfield for London, and if Miss Bingley's tone was any indication, he had no intention of returning soon.
The letter had been nothing short of devastating. Miss Bingley, in her calculated manner, had made it abundantly clear that her brother's attention was better spent in the company of Miss Darcy, the sister of Mr. Darcy. She had even suggested that such a union was all but inevitable, a foregone conclusion that left Jane feeling humiliated and discarded.
Jane sighed as she adjusted the lace collar of her traveling dress, trying to summon courage she did not entirely feel. The prospect of leaving Longbourn was daunting, but she had made up her mind. A visit to her Aunt and Uncle Gardiner in London was just the distraction she needed—and perhaps, she thought with a pang of longing, an opportunity to see Mr. Bingley again.
Her sister Elizabeth entered the room, her sharp eyes immediately noticing Jane's nervous fingers tugging at her gloves. Elizabeth stepped closer, resting a hand on Jane's arm.
"Dearest Jane," Elizabeth said softly, "you do not have to do this, you know. If seeing him will bring you more pain than comfort, stay. You owe him nothing."
Jane turned to her sister, her expression conflicted. "I know you mean well, Lizzy, but I must go. It's not only for him. Aunt Gardiner has been asking me to visit for ages, and London… Well, it will be a change of scenery. I cannot spend another week pacing this house and waiting for news that may never come."
Elizabeth regarded her sister with both pride and sorrow. Jane's nature was so gentle, so forgiving, that Elizabeth worried she would excuse Mr. Bingley's absence entirely. Elizabeth wanted justice for her sister's heart, but Jane sought only understanding.
"You are too kind," Elizabeth murmured, "but if you must go, then go with hope, not desperation."
The carriage was waiting outside, its wheels half-buried in the snow that had fallen the night before. Mr. Bennet stood near the door, looking uncharacteristically somber. He was not one for grand displays of affection, but as Jane prepared to leave, he gave her a rare embrace.
"Write to us, Jane," he said gruffly. "And don't let the city change you. Your mother would have us believe London is filled with nothing but rogues and rakes."
Jane smiled faintly and promised to write often. Mrs. Bennet, on the other hand, was far from subdued. She clutched Jane's hands tightly, her face a mask of exaggerated concern.
"Oh, my sweet girl, I shall pray every night that Mr. Bingley sees sense and returns to you!" she wailed. "Do not let those city women snatch him away!"
"Mama, please," Jane said gently, "it is not my intention to chase after Mr. Bingley. My visit to London is for Aunt Gardiner, not for him."
Mrs. Bennet sniffled theatrically but allowed her daughter to climb into the carriage. As the horses began to pull away, Jane waved through the frosted window until the house and its inhabitants were out of sight.
The journey to London was long and cold, the roads uneven and the countryside blanketed in a dreary gray mist. Jane tried to distract herself by counting the milestones or watching for birds, but her thoughts inevitably returned to Mr. Bingley. She had replayed their every interaction in her mind, searching for clues, for reassurance that his affection had been real.
When the carriage finally rolled into London, its clatter echoing through the cobbled streets, Jane felt a mixture of relief and trepidation. The city was a world apart from Hertfordshire, its grandeur intimidating. The buildings loomed taller, the air was thick with the mingled scents of smoke and horse, and the streets teemed with carriages and pedestrians. Jane's nerves frayed further as the carriage wound its way to Gracechurch Street, where the Gardiners' modest but elegant home awaited.
Aunt Gardiner greeted Jane with open arms and a warm smile. She was a woman of refined manners and genuine kindness, and her presence was immediately soothing.
"Dearest Jane," Aunt Gardiner said, taking her niece's hands in her own, "you look tired from your journey. Come inside and rest. We shall have tea, and you can tell me everything."
Jane followed her aunt into the sitting room, where a fire crackled invitingly. The walls were lined with bookshelves and framed sketches, and the scent of fresh bread wafted in from the kitchen. It was a home of comfort, not ostentation, and Jane felt some of her tension ease.
Over tea, Aunt Gardiner listened attentively as Jane spoke of Mr. Bingley and Miss Bingley's letter. Jane was careful not to let bitterness creep into her voice, though it cost her some effort. Aunt Gardiner, however, was not fooled.
"I see how this troubles you, my dear," Aunt Gardiner said thoughtfully, "but do not let Miss Bingley's words weigh too heavily on your heart. If Mr. Bingley's affections are true, he will not be so easily swayed."
Jane hesitated. "But what if… what if he has already forgotten me? Perhaps I misread his intentions."
Aunt Gardiner shook her head. "Men like Mr. Bingley are not so easily forgetful. He seemed entirely captivated by you when we met him at the assembly. If his absence is due to outside influence, then I can only hope he will find the strength to follow his heart."
The next few days were spent in relative tranquility. Jane accompanied Aunt Gardiner on visits to the milliner and the bookseller, and even attended a small dinner party with some of the Gardiners' friends. She tried to distract herself with the sights and sounds of London, but the thought of Mr. Bingley lingered in the back of her mind.
One afternoon, as she sat by the window embroidering, Aunt Gardiner entered the room with a knowing smile.
"Jane, my dear, I thought we might take a stroll along Bond Street today. The shops are particularly fine, and the walk will do us good."
Jane agreed, though she suspected her aunt had an ulterior motive. Bond Street was fashionable, a place where one was likely to encounter acquaintances—or rivals.
As they strolled past the elegant storefronts, Jane's heart quickened at every familiar figure. But it was not Mr. Bingley she saw. Instead, it was Caroline Bingley, stepping out of a carriage with all the self-importance of a queen descending from her throne. She was accompanied by Louisa Hurst, her sister, and the two women immediately spotted Jane and Aunt Gardiner.
Miss Bingley's smile was a careful mask of politeness as she approached. "Miss Bennet," she said with feigned warmth. "How unexpected to see you in London."
Jane curtsied, her voice steady despite the pang of unease. "Miss Bingley. I am visiting my aunt and uncle."
"How delightful," Miss Bingley said, through her eyes betrayed her indifference. "London must seem quite overwhelming after the simplicity of Hertfordshire."
Jane said nothing, unwilling to rise to the bait. Aunt Gardiner, however, stepped forward with a gracious smile.
"Indeed, Miss Bingley, but I find that Jane adapts quickly to new surroundings. And how is your brother? We were sorry to lose his company in Hertfordshire."
Miss Bingley's smile tightened. "Charles is well. Very busy, of course. He has been spending much time with Mr. Darcy and his sister. Georgiana is a very accomplished young lady."
The implication was clear, and Jane felt her cheeks flush. She wanted desperately to ask after Mr. Bingley, to know if he had truly forgotten her, but the words would not come.
Miss Bingley did not linger long, offering only a clipped farewell before rejoining her sister. As the Bingley carriage disappeared into the crowded street, Aunt Gardiner turned to Jane with a gentle expression.
"Do not let her rattle you," Aunt Gardiner said. "Miss Bingley's motives are transparent."
Jane nodded, though her heart ached. She realized that seeing Mr. Bingley might not bring the closure she sought. Still, she resolved to hold her head high. If she could not win his love, she would at least preserve her dignity.
The days that followed brought no sign of Mr. Bingley, and Jane began to accept that her journey to London might not yield the results she had hoped for. Yet amidst her disappointment, she found solace in the kindness of her aunt and the quiet strength she discovered within herself. London, with all its chaos and charm, became a place of transformation. Jane resolved to leave her heartache behind and face whatever lay ahead with grace.