The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

203 – Bottomless Swamp

If you know the facts, your perspective will change. After I realized that Ellie had lied to her, she reconsidered what had happened with me from her perspective. And I finally realized how long she had been lying.

After confessing, I finally regained control of my body, which had been leaning forward. I feel empty as all the blood has drained from my body. Even light breathing is difficult as the heart and lungs are squeezed. Even though I was prepared to see clear evidence that the restrictions had been activated, I felt like my heart was breaking.

“… are you okay?”

Ellie approached me with a worried expression. I now know that the appearance was perfectly calculated.

I spoke slowly so that Ellie and my inner Ross, who was probably watching all of this, could hear clearly.

“Ellie, you actually knew, right?”

Ellie lowered her gaze at the question without context.

“… what?”

“In fact, I wasn’t planning on helping you with your confession, but rather hindering it.”

Ellie didn’t say anything to what I said. She just stares at me with an expressionless face.

After our conversation with Nelson about Ellie, I had a question. The essence of probability is to make sense. Although it did not appear in the original novel, it is actually probability that the accumulated relationships and fates in the novel overlap and flow naturally. The idea is to create a plausible past based on the present story that appears in the novel.

Using the perspective I learned from Nelson, I tried to understand Ellie anew based on probabilities. And we arrived at one possibility. Ellie is endlessly greedy. She is stubborn and quick-witted. By saying she was nice, she conveniently took advantage of Ross. Using that as a clue, I searched my memory.

I have limitations in detecting Ellie’s lies. Although it was an ambiguous condition called Eli’s faith, it was easy to find out what Eli was thinking.

“You sensed my plan to keep you by my side from the beginning and took advantage of it.”

It all makes sense if Ellie knew from the beginning that Ross was planning to use her emotions to keep her by his side.

Ellie calculated that for everyone to be happy, she had to have her first experience. If Ellie really meant to give me the first time, the constraint should have been triggered in return for her rejecting the offer. However, even with my suggestion to completely end the relationship, no restrictions were put in place. From the beginning, Ellie knew that I would reject her offer.

I went back in memory from that moment. In my conversation with Ellie, I remembered the moment when I rejected her words and betrayed her trust. And we found the first moment when the constraint was not triggered. It was after the final match of the duel when I confessed Ross’s dark plan to Ellie.

Ellie was betrayed. She even looked shocked by my confession. However, the restrictions were not activated. Although Ellie was betrayed by Ross, whom she clearly trusted, the restrictions were not activated. Rather, Ellie was thinking of using my guilt to kill Bella.

The reason why the restriction was not triggered on my confession can be easily deduced. If Ellie had actually known Ross’ plan from the beginning… Rather, if you were using it in reverse, you would not have betrayed trust, so the restriction would not be triggered.

In the novel, Ellie undergoes a spiritual awakening due to Ross’ death. The death of a long-time childhood friend will definitely have a huge psychological impact. But what if the world thought that there wasn’t enough possibility for Ellie to awaken? So, for the sake of plausibility, if we created Ross and Ellie’s independent past… The story so far makes plausible sense.

From the beginning, Ellie knew Ross’ plan. Ellie was rejected by Ross, who pretended not to know her, and she was shown to be having a hard time. She uses Ross, who comforts her but also feels guilty, to become closer to Roel. In a way that took advantage of the guilt of both people.

Using Ross, who has a crush on her, is a risk-free and safe method that Ellie has used for a long time. If she were to show her Ross the image of Roel brushing off her pollen from her clothes, Ross, who would mistake her appearance, would definitely explode. The plan may have been for Roel to feel sorry for Ellie, who was having a hard time due to Ross’s obsession, and to comfort her, gradually growing closer to her.

However, Ellie did not calculate that a variable called an unholy artifact would appear in the Academy. I was truly shocked when Ross, whom I had conveniently taken advantage of by saying he was good, was corrupted by his plan and died. This is a more likely reason for Ellie’s awakening. She regretted that she did something bad, but didn’t mean to kill her. It was her awakening point.

I glared at Ellie, as if demanding an answer, forcibly supporting my tired body that felt like my whole body was being weighed down. Ellie, who was silent for a moment, straightened her body. She then smiled the bright smile she always had.

“How did you know? “I thought you wouldn’t notice until the end.”

Ellie’s calm voice makes everything feel distant. It may be Ross’s instinct to let out a laugh. It will not be easy for her to accept that she has been deceived and manipulated. But he has to accept it, no matter how hard it is. That was the truth.

Even in all the moments when she smiled brightly by my side, was jealous of Luna, and had our first kiss with no clear meaning, Ellie never once loved me.

What she wants is not to be in a romantic relationship with me. That was why her restraints were triggered in return for his confession of love, rather than her refusal as an answer as usual, as she wanted.

In order to find out the truth, I confessed something I had no intention of confessing. If he had really meant it, his heart would have stopped because his love for Luna had changed. At the cost of a false confession, I finally found out the truth.

It was a cloudless night. The cool night air passed between us. I felt like I was going to collapse at any moment, but I held on. The story isn’t over yet.

“The reason why the town of Destin trusted me… “It was because of the belief that I wouldn’t do anything harmful to you, who I thought was unique, right?”

When asked that question, Ellie said with a slightly bitter expression.

“Ross, I just thought of you as a real friend.”

I immediately responded to that blatant lie.

“No, you never even considered me a friend. I loved you with all my heart, but you found me easy to use as you please… “I just wanted to own it.”

Ellie’s obsidian eyes narrow like a cat’s.

“so… ? Even if I thought of you as a possession rather than a friend, it wouldn’t hurt you, right? “You were satisfied just by being by my side.”

I was speechless at Ellie’s shameless words. But Ellie continued her words with an expression that seemed like she didn’t truly understand her.

“I was everything in your life. Before you lost your memories, you had no reason to live without me. I saved you from committing suicide several times. Then of course your life is mine… ?”

My vision is blurry. Suddenly, emotions well up inside me. It feels like someone is grabbing my heart. It’s cruel. The only person Ross trusted was the person he should not have trusted the most.

“It was all your intention. You were convinced that I could not help but love you even if I lost my memory. you… “Because you made me that way.”

Ellie once said that to me. She believed in me, that she would like me again like she always did. Even if she has no memories, her heart will remain the same. Ellie was confident that I would not abandon her under any circumstances. The reason for her confidence was simple. Because I was Ellie’s property.

Ellie wants to be loved. It was a twisted and distorted self-love. She wanted Ross, who hovered around her and only looked at her, to always be by her side, even if she looked away. She wants to be obsessed. For Ellie, Ross was just that role.

“If it weren’t for that stupid disabled b*tch, you would have come back to me. If only she hadn’t taken it from me… There was no need to have this conversation. “Because you were mine from the beginning.”

I felt like I wanted to shout out loud when Ellie said this as if it were obvious. Rather than using words, I wanted to express the pain of my heart that felt like it was going to burst, spitting out emotions.

But unlike my violent impulses, my voice was extremely calm.

“I loved you with all my heart. Even though I know you like my brother… Even though I knew there was no chance for me, I couldn’t give up.”

Now I understand clearly. Ellie is a bottomless swamp that she can never get out of once she dips her foot in it. She mistakenly thought that the swamp, which was suffocating her and making her so lonely that no one could approach her, was the only thing that made her hold on and protected her. Her uncontrollable emotions flow as her tears. Her lips tingled. She may be shaking. In my blurry vision, I looked straight at Ellie and asked pleadingly.

“Why on earth did you do that to me?”

Ellie raised her head and looked at the night sky. She was silent for a moment, then Ellie lowered her head and met her gaze. Obsidian-like eyes drew a line. Ellie spoke in a low voice with a gentle smile.

“I just wanted to be the unconscious words that come out of your mouth.”