Shadows before dawn.

You got a new radio.

I bought another Gundam kit.

Yeah we argued yesterday

But today we saw the end of it. 

And

You used to read my journals back when we were just friends.

I think I left a part of myself back in that dimension.

We walked to get pizza at least once a month it seemed

And

I would think of you so much, my mind would paint such vivid dreams

And

It didn't matter what the weather was like or even the season

You had a man back then, subconsciously I helped you cheat

And

I didn't want to leave.

But I'll forever run.

Run. 

I'll run. 

Run. I'll forever run.

Because you'll never love me deeply enough

I'll never really be the one...

Or is that all inside of my head?

I have such big feelings.

It can't end here

It's just begun.

I am insecure

Because you knocked 

Over my confidence.

That shit is broken...

Yeah, that shit is broken.

It wasn't on a pedestal 

Yet still too high

To fall from.

Too many tears, it's soaked in.

Soaked in.

Liquor 

It is so much quicker

So much to say.

One more sip

One more shot

Our tongues become much slicker. 

But yesterday.

It was a little different.

You were calmer

I was high as ever

I could read your temperament 

But I'll forever run

Because I never wanted this sort of feeling for us.

You used to tell me about all of the ways that he hurt you

And I never got to remember them all. 

I simply couldn't remember them all.

You read my journals back in the heat of the summer days

I didn't get to study before the test in the much cooler fall. 

I can't get out

Of our memories 

Out of what could have be.

I mean...

What could have been?

I shake it all off and wake up to lingering thoughts here once again.