Chapter 7: 〈Episode 7〉What is a lover (1)
"you…"
Cha So-young, who was about to say something, froze as soon as I said that.
'what.'
Green light, wasn't it?
I tilted my head at the frozen Cha So-young.
I didn't think that Cha So-young didn't understand the meaning behind those words. Otherwise, she wouldn't have become so stiff.
And I didn't say that because I was drunk in the atmosphere, saying that we kissed each other and that I got an erection and was caught by Cha So-young.
'We've known each other for years, and a 100-day kiss? Does that make sense?'
There may be a love that starts biting and sucking each other after only a week of dating. There may be a lover that stops kissing each other on the cheek after 100 days.
However, as someone who knew Cha So-young from just a few dozen minutes ago, I could not possibly tolerate the actions of 'Shin Jae-hyeok' who accepted Cha So-young's confession.
When Cha So-young said that the kiss was all she had, at first I thought that maybe both Cha So-young and 'Shin Jae-hyuk' had lower libidos than other people.
Maybe they have different sexual ideas or maybe they love each other that much.
But when you think back to that kiss that made Cha So-young's trapped longing leak out, you know that's not it.
Cha So-young endured it. She said that they started dating soon after she became a senior in high school, so she may have waited at least half a year, or at most, more than 10 years.
It was so pitiful, so I stepped forward.
If Cha So-young led me with a kiss, then this time it's my turn to lead Cha So-young.
Thinking about what each other wants. That would be the most primal feeling of a lover.
'by the way…'
Putting aside the fact that the man and woman have switched places, why has this large childhood friend in front of me remained frozen for so long?
'I hope I didn't do something wrong.'
As that thought came to mind, I couldn't wait any longer and opened my mouth.
"… Do you not like it? It's too early…"
"No. That's not it. Jaehyuk."
Cha So-young denied what I said in a slightly urgent voice.
When I stared at him intently, wondering what he meant, Cha So-young hesitated for a moment before adding.
"I don't hate it either. Absolutely not. It's just, that… I knew it was big, but it's the first time I've seen it like that. I was surprised. And…"
After talking nonsense, Cha So-young grabbed my shoulder and pushed me away, as if she had come to her senses. I also untied the arm around my waist.
"Jaehuk. Even though you and the Shin Jaehyuk I know are different people, the basics are all the same, right? Things like when we were young, your family history, how you were at school, and things like that."
Cha So-young took a deep breath and asked with serious eyes. Her face, which had been bright red, had somewhat returned to normal. I nodded.
"There's a mock exam next week. So you… he told me to stay away from each other for about a month. It's not like we've been avoiding each other. It's just that we haven't seen each other in person since we keep it a secret at school anyway."
This guy is crazy.
I wanted to slap Shin Jae-hyuk's face, which was covered in shame, inside that cell phone.
"I like it when you say it like that. It's really… really nice, but we've both been through a lot in one day, haven't we?"
"He must have said that because he studied hard and didn't want to regret it, but I thought that if everything fell apart in one day like this, you might regret it. That's why I thought about it. I thought it wouldn't be right to just accept it as good."
I laughed out loud. It was a little strange that he said something like that at the end after hugging and kissing her so much.
Where was the beast that was licking its lips as if it was going to eat me?
I thought to myself, that's how much patience you need to have to wait like that.
Maybe there's another reason I don't know about.
Anyway, it's not that I don't understand Cha So-young's feelings. At least she thought about it as much as I did. And after thinking about it again, she must have come to a conclusion.
But I had no intention of stopping. I looked straight into her shaking eyes and said.
"That's what he said. I don't want to force you to endure it for that reason."
"… you didn't force me…"
"You did hold it in, right? You sucked my lips earlier. You kissed me first, and you hugged me too. Isn't that what is holding it in?"
It was hard to deny, so Cha So-young let go of my shoulder and turned her body to face me, slowly avoiding my gaze.
Even though she's a 'woman', it seems embarrassing to speak so directly, making a grumbling sound and scratching her head.
So I took courage once more.
"… I can't stand it either, Soyoung."
Saying that in a small voice, he grabbed Cha So-young's hand and placed it on top of my thing that was sticking out of my pants.
As if that was the final blow, Cha So-young's body shook violently along with the hand that was being led by mine.
Gulp. Cha So-young swallowed as she looked at the hand and glanced at me. When our eyes met, Cha So-young quickly fixed her gaze on the floor.
I looked at Cha So-young intently, hoping that she had made up her mind.
Hooooo. Cha So-young took a deep breath, grabbed my hand in return, and stood up abruptly.
"Let's go to my house."
A hard voice. It seemed as if Cha So-young's emotions were hidden within it could be seen.
"My parents went on a trip.
"Goodbye~"
We passed a shop and started walking again.
Cha So-young had reached into the pocket of her skirt. She took a quick glance at it, causing the symmetrical skirt to become asymmetrical, before looking at Cha So-young in profile.
Even though she knew she was looking at her, Cha So-young kept her gaze fixed straight ahead.
"…"
"… … "
We walked along the sidewalk quietly as if nothing had happened. It seemed as if the left and right hands that were held together were saying that it was natural for them to be together.
Thump. Thump. The sound of my heart beating is strangely loud. Cha So-young must be feeling the same way as me, but on the outside, she looks calm.
Perhaps because of my leisurely pace contrasting with my complicated inner thoughts, it took me a little longer than the distance to get to Cha So-young's house.
A two-story, blue-based country home.
A few more minutes' walk from here, and a couple of turns down an alley, you'll come to a single-family home with a red roof and block walls, the house my mother and I live in.
Before opening the door and entering the house, Cha So-young looked back at me and said.
"Did you contact your mother?"
"I'm with you, so I can just text you."
I see. Cha So-young said with a smirk.
In the old memories, Cha So-young's house was not much different except for the slight change in the furniture's position. The living room is seen in front, the kitchen inside, and the stairs attached to the wall.
It's been a few years since I last saw it, so I felt a sense of nostalgia.
"So… do you want to wash it first?"
Until a few dozen minutes ago, she was talking nonsense, but now his voice is low and close to his usual level.
"Oh, you don't have any underwear. Sorry. Should I get you some from the convenience store?"
"It's okay. It's not like the underwear will wear out if you wear them for another day. You don't have to worry about it."
"Oh, really?"
When Cha So-young looked at me with a suspicious look, I went into the bathroom to tell her not to argue.
Compared to our house, it was almost as big as a bathroom. It wasn't overly big, though.
There was no need to bother with shampoo and body lotion, so I just washed it off in 10 minutes.
As I came out of the room after cleaning, I ran into Cha So-young, who was carrying a box the size of my torso.
Cha So-young's gaze was fixed on my chest. To be exact, on the two nipples in the center of it.
A faint excitement that had not yet subsided could be seen in his expression.
'… I don't think there's anything to see.'
I eat while roughly calculating calories and do all the housework, so I'm neither fat nor skinny, but my short height and small body are not that bad.
Some people might like it, but at least I don't have a good self-assessment of my body because I think a more masculine physique looks better. And I'm sure other people think the same.
'What will it look like here?'
A world where the roles of men and women are reversed. If we think about it according to the ideas of the previous world, there would be more cases of women courting men.
Besides, when I think about all the stares I felt at school today, I'm sure…
'You crazy kid. What are you thinking?'
It seemed too rude to say this in front of the lover I was about to spend the night with.
As I quickly shook my head as if to shake off my thoughts, Cha So-young finally opened her mouth.
"Hey, you came out early? It's okay if you wash for a long time."
Cha So-young looked straight into my eyes again as if nothing had happened and spoke, though her words were stammering.
I had a bit of pride and it was my first time seducing the opposite sex, so unlike my appearance, my mind was racing like crazy, but seeing her flustered like that actually made me feel relieved.
"You don't need to wash for a long time. I don't know about it though."
"Here? Oh, um. I see. What are we going to do about the uniform? My parents are coming tomorrow evening. Should I wash it?"
Suddenly, a thought occurred to me. Do Cha So-young's parents know about our relationship? If they do, what do they think of Shin Jae-hyeok?
When I recalled that the reason I distanced myself from Cha So-young in the previous world was because of the difference in wealth, I had a petty thought that I might look like a thief to them both.
In the first place, this isn't a problem that can be divided into men and women.
So I asked Cha So-young more about her secret love life.
"Do your parents know that you and I are dating?"
"Huh? Of course. Well, I did tell you and asked you to keep it a secret just in case."
It was fortunate. I had a rough idea of how a friend of the opposite sex who crossed the line before we started dating would look.
"Wait in the room. I'll go wash up and come back."
"okay."
I quickly entered the room, thinking that Cha So-young might take off her clothes right then and there.
If the warm body I felt through my thin summer clothes at the park were to come closer to my bare skin, I honestly felt like I would panic more than Cha So-young did a little while ago.
I sat on the bed and looked around the room.
It looked like a typical bleak boy's room, except for the dolls and stationery-like things that didn't seem appropriate for a 'girl's' room lined up on top of a long drawer.
There was soft moonlight streaming in through the window next to the bed, so there was no need to turn on the ceiling light.
It would be strange to make it brighter in the first place.
Heart pounding
It's starting to feel real.
You're doing it now. With Soyoung.
Once I realized that, I no longer had distracting thoughts.
In the quiet room, the sound of the heartbeat was particularly loud.
I sat still on the bed and waited for Cha So-young, imagining that cheeky body that was pulling me into its arms as if it were my younger sibling.
I felt strength slowly being put into my lower body, which had been going on and off.
Squeak
As I turn my head at the sound of the door breaking the silence, I see a figure coming into the darkness.
A voluptuous, sensuous body with the outlines of the chest and buttocks clearly visible in the moonlight.
It was beautiful.
When I was alone and relieving my sexual desires, I admired Cha So-young's body as if I was looking at a work of art, as the flesh-colored feast I had seen on video, came to me in real life.
I noticed that Cha So-young's throat was moving greatly.