NOVEL NEXT Chapter 15: I wish I could un-recall gow we almost had it all
"Can we talk about the other day, when I....." Hayden trails off and I suddenly blush as I get the reminder
I clears my throat to appear normal before saying "Yeah? What about it?"
He grits his teeth "It can't happen again"
My heart drops to my stomach. I know he's right but hearing him say it makes me feel some type of way. Not the good way.
"Nobody has to know" I immediately feel stupid the second the words are out of my mouth.
He shakes his head "They'll eventually know and when they do, all hell would break loose. It's better to put a stop to this before it goes further"
My throat closes up and my chest tightens, I don't know why I suddenly have this strange need to cry. I always knew there was never a chance for Hayden and I, because tradition wouldn't let there be. So I put the feelings I have for him in the back of my mind behind a red door with his name on it, this amazing man I refuse to love. But obviously do.
I swallow and nod "Of course. I understand, Sir Hayden"
The muscle in his jaw ticks and I glance at his hands to see it clenched by his side, he says "Goodnight, my queen"
I give him a small smile and force myself to not cry "Goodnight"
We stare at each other for a moment in silence before he walks out and close the door behind him, leaving me all alone.
My bottom lip quivers and I blink away tears as I take a seat on my bed, all the while keeping my eyes on the door hoping he might come back in.
He doesn't.