Ch. 173
In sage mode, Zheng Qian suspected he had been possessed by a ghost just now.
He looked hesitantly at the guarantee letter that he and Lin Nan had just signed, completely bewildered.
How had he suddenly fallen for his own student?
And it was love at first sight? Acting like something was wrong with his head, happily agreeing to Lin Nan's request, even saying things that seemed like sexual harassment?
This student was clearly male... but even though he was male, that scene of acting cute was still quite captivating.
Only after Lin Nan left did he regain his senses, but that love-at-first-sight feeling from before still couldn't quite be dispelled.
I don't really have feelings for my own student, do I?
While the advisor was questioning his life, Lin Nan returned to the empty dormitory in good spirits.
But when she thought of little Lin Nan who had run away from home, that smile instantly collapsed.
She had only solved the problem of not living in the dormitory, and had even sold her appearance to do it. What was there to be happy about...
Lin Nan immediately became melancholy again. If it weren't absolutely necessary, she really wouldn't want to leave the dorm to live alone off-campus.
Besides, she didn't have much money left.
Lin Nan looked at the bank text on her phone and her face darkened.
She had been doing part-time flyer distribution work every weekend, and the wages were basically enough for her food expenses, but the problem was that as a student, her other expenses were also quite high.
A week ago, Cola had a fever and taking her to the hospital cost over 200 yuan.
Half a month ago, buying cat food and toys for Cola also cost several hundred yuan.
Plus daily water and electricity bills, expenses, and occasionally improving her meals...
Lin Nan had calculated her spending. Originally her money should have lasted until winter break with some left over, but if she rented a place, her money probably wouldn't be enough.
"Money really is the most important thing..." Lin Nan muttered to herself, but couldn't think of anywhere else she could work part-time to earn money.
Moreover, it was finals period now, and she still needed to use magic to review her coursework. Otherwise, if she failed courses, she'd have to pay for makeup exams next semester.
How about using charm magic on uncle and scamming some money?
After getting used to cheating with magic, Lin Nan was beginning to habitually solve all difficulties with magic.
Besides, she had already become a girl, so using more magic would only make her prettier. For her, unlocking magic had become a kind of reward.
After all, there was no way to go back to being male, so she might as well be a beautiful girl.
Although she tried to comfort herself this way, tears still disobediently flowed down.
For her, no matter how beautiful she became in the future—whether devastatingly gorgeous or however else—it still couldn't compare to returning to her former ordinary male identity.
She sighed deeply, somewhat unwillingly touching that unfamiliar organ again, then her mouth twitched and she collapsed onto the desk feeling hopeless.
"How nice it would be if this were all a dream."
Lin Nan knew she shouldn't stay so depressed. It was just becoming female a month early. With her psychological resilience, crying once should be enough, not continuing to be weak and melancholy like a real little girl.
"Time to find a rental."
She wiped her face with a towel, trying her best to hide the redness and swelling around her eyes, then pressed her lips together and left the dormitory once again.
Since the problem had already occurred, what she needed to do was solve it.
But the problem was...
When Lin Nan had just walked out of the dormitory building and looked up, she saw that the school was somehow filled with large numbers of students.
This made her entire body stiffen instantly, her expression freeze, then she retreated back into the dorm building like a coward.
She didn't dare go outside anymore...
Earlier, because it was class time, there were almost no people visible on campus, so she had dared to hurry past with her head down. But now it happened to be break time after 10 o'clock.
Lin Nan couldn't explain why she was so afraid of outsiders' gazes. Perhaps deep down she had always considered herself a monster. Being watched constantly, she unconsciously felt guilty, afraid that the biggest secret in her heart would be discovered.
"Lin Nan!"
The dormitory door was suddenly pushed open. Looking back, Lin Nan found it was Chen Yao, who had sprinted back during the ten-minute break between classes.
"What?"
She turned her head away, not daring to let Chen Yao see her red and swollen eyes.
"Nothing, just came back to check on things." Chen Yao was breathing heavily as he placed a takeout container from the cafeteria on Lin Nan's desk. "And to bring you lunch."
"It's only ten o'clock."
"You didn't eat this morning." Chen Yao was somewhat worried about Lin Nan's condition.
Since going out with him yesterday to meet Dong Juan, Lin Nan seemed off somehow. Although he knew her period might be affecting things, he was still deeply concerned.
"Are you okay?" he finally asked hesitantly.
Although he knew he couldn't solve Lin Nan's problems, if he could serve as someone to confide in and help Lin Nan relieve some psychological pressure, that would be good. Otherwise, if Lin Nan continued being depressed like this, she might develop clinical depression.
However, Lin Nan, who had just pulled herself together, immediately felt her nose sting at this question, and grievances flooded her head.
She wanted to appear strong and turned away, but still couldn't stop the tears from overflowing, gradually beginning to sob.
Chen Yao watched Lin Nan's constantly trembling shoulders, his heart aching. He hadn't expected this question to directly make Lin Nan cry. He frantically ran to get tissues, wanting to slap himself.
Why did I have to ask unnecessary questions!
He felt heartbroken for Lin Nan but didn't know how to comfort her: "Um... don't cry."
Chen Yao stood there helplessly. He had wanted to step forward and hold Lin Nan's shoulders, but today's Lin Nan was emanating an unfamiliar aura.
Usually, no matter how Lin Nan changed, he still emanated a familiar quality, undamentally still the person he knew. But from this morning, he had discovered something indescribable about Lin Nan that made him feel somewhat estranged.
"How about I treat you to something good?" Chen Yao asked tentatively.
Lin Nan's sobbing paused for a moment, and only then was Chen Yao certain that the person in front of him was still the familiar person he knew, unchanged at all.
"You should go to class first." Lin Nan shook her head in refusal.
"Well... okay then." Chen Yao checked the time and realized class would start in two minutes. He hurried to the dormitory door, but still looked back at Lin Nan with concern. "If anything happens, just tell me. Even if it can't be solved, you can at least vent."
"Mm."
Listening to Chen Yao close the door and walk away, Lin Nan finally turned around, her face streaked with tears like a tabby cat, forcing an ugly smile.
"You really just left when I told you to go?"
She sat wearily in front of the computer, looking at the black cat sitting on the desk, sighing softly while reaching out to stroke Cola's head.
The cat cooperatively lowered her head slightly, meowing softly as if comforting her.