I Can Hear the Saint’s Inner Thoughts

58 – As long as I protect my virginity (1)

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Victoria had prepared for this moment, endlessly.

Praying day and night to the celestial Lumina, seeking a way to save Astal, teetering on the brink.

Though heartbroken and unable to swallow food or drink, she did her best to appear unaffected, so as not to worry him.

To s*xually stimulate Astal, she fashioned an outfit from his robes and bandages, accentuating her figure.

Finally, following the oracle delivered by Lumina, she received permission to save Astal’s life by helping him masturbate.

“…Victoria. Even so, lying is wrong.”

Astal sighed deeply, watching Victoria’s hand reach for his lower garments.

He clearly believed that Lumina, a celestial being who valued a maiden’s purity, would never permit such an indecent act.

“That celestial Lumina… the god who didn’t even react as you were dying, suddenly she’s having a whim like this?”

“It’s not a lie.”

Victoria shook her head at his words. She had, admittedly, entertained the thought of bearing his child.

‘Of course, the thought of forcing myself on you… and raising a child who looks just like you is burning within me…’

But Astal’s life was more precious than such selfish desires. She wouldn’t even fear having her limbs cut off and sold, if it meant saving him.

It was just masturbation. Hand-led pleasure, and the man she loved could live.

“I received confirmation that gently removing the flower… like the way you used to do it for me… it’s not impossible.”

“So, you’re going to…”

“Yes, masturbation. It’s also called self-pleasuring. Stimulating the male genitals with your hand, s*xually arousing them until semen is ejaculated.”

Victoria spoke slowly, in as dry and emotionless a tone as possible, defining the act of masturbation. Forced to uphold her chastity because of the celestial, she had instead developed a keen interest in this kind of knowledge.

Saying these words and phrases felt clumsy and embarrassing, but she believed this was the most effective way to arouse Astal, with his twisted desires.

“Originally, I was going to appear wearing nothing but an apron, but it seems those are hard to come by even in the Demon Realm…”

Victoria said, looking down at the awkwardly tightened bandages around her chest. The soft, plump curves of her breasts were only further emphasized by the bandages.

“…Wearing your robe with nothing else, and covering my vulgar breasts with these bandages was the best I could manage. I sincerely hope you’re satisfied.”

“……”

Astal didn’t bother to answer. The feeling of blood rushing downwards, and his hardening cock that was tormenting him, was the reason.

He should have been pushing Victoria away, but seeing her working so hard to save him weakened his resolve.

“Ah, it’s finally going down a litt─.”

Victoria spoke in a bright voice as she looked at Astal’s lowered trousers, almost all the way down. It moved only with effort, inching along as if something was firmly holding it in place.

That’s when it happened.

Thwack.

Victoria felt something hit her face and pass by. It pulsed like a heartbeat, burning like fire, but as hard as steel.

“Ah…”

Looking up at Astal’s cock, which still had length to spare even after covering her face, Victoria felt a sense of defeat rise from the depths of her heart.

She had never felt like this even when facing a stronger enemy; the thought that, purely as a female, she could not win against the male flashed through her mind.

Even considering the difference between a powerful dragon hybrid and a human male, she felt that if *that* were to enter her p*ssy, she would only moan and surrender her womb.

“Are all…men equipped with such large and monstrous things…? This…it’s practically a weapon…”

Her voice trailed off as she asked, looking at Astal’s cock, its veins bulging grotesquely, throbbing as if about to violate her at any moment.

“I don’t think so. I’ve had a lot of inconvenience because of this size, too.”

Astal replied, barely managing to speak through gritted teeth.

He was doing his best not to get fully erect in front of Victoria, but ever since she confessed her feelings for him, every touch, every interaction with her had become a stimulus for him.

Astal’s cock was now fully erect, flaunting a size and length that dared anyone to approach.

“…Indeed. You seem to possess a truly magnificent instrument.”

Watching it, Victoria felt a slight sense of relief. There had been a time she worried he might lack interest in women and be unable to get aroused by her.

Victoria tentatively took it gently in her hand. While the rest was rock-hard, the tip was soft and yielding, almost…cute.

It was a sensation she was experiencing for the very first time.

‘It’s like seeing a different side of Astal. Cold and hard on the outside, but warm and adorable inside…it’s similar.’

Victoria used her hand to stroke it upwards, then downwards, wondering how the seeds for creating a baby emerged from this place.

“If the questionable books I’ve read are to be believed, a white, sticky fluid, ‘semen,’ emerges from this end to impregnate a woman. That is the act of ejaculation, or ‘coming’.”

Victoria recited the knowledge she possessed while moving Astal’s cock around in her hand. She assumed that doing this would quickly produce the seminal fluid and induce ejaculation.

“…Judging by your expression, you look like you’re about to cry in agony. Am I…doing something wrong, perhaps?”

Was this not how it was done?

Masturbation involved rubbing or stimulating with one’s hand. So, should she rub it with both hands, or just hold it and shake it?

Victoria hesitated, caught between the knowledge in her head and the reality of what she was feeling.

“Hold it lightly and move it up and down at a steady pace. Not too fast…Slowly…”

The solution to Victoria’s dilemma came, surprisingly, from Astal himself.

Originally, he’d been thinking he’d rather just use his own hand to relieve his lust, but he doubted the Celestial God would allow it.

He figured the culprit who’d made Victoria hear his innermost thoughts was none other than the Celestial God, Lumina.

“…Ah, so you’re just a beast succumbing to your desires after all? Only now do you meekly ask me to help you. You truly are an incorrigible scoundrel and pervert.”

Victoria’s eyes curved into a smile at Astal’s words. She realized she could potentially use this to her advantage.

Just yesterday, the man had adamantly rejected her confession, and today he was begging her to help him come.

“Hooo…”

Victoria, even after hearing what Astal said, deliberately breathed heavily on his member, acting like she wouldn’t let him finish easily.

With Victoria’s cold breath on it, his cock twitched greatly, becoming even larger and harder.

“Our Mother in Heaven, please do not make me a woman enslaved by lust…”

Victoria knelt, closing her eyes, gently enclosing Astal’s cock in both hands as she prayed.

“Saint Victoria beseeches you, please allow me tonight to release the pent-up desire of my beloved.”

The saint, considered the most devout and pure in this world, was now holding a man’s cock, praying to God in a sacrilegious pose.

“…Having properly received permission, our actions will be condoned. As long as we only use our hands, you said it doesn’t matter how much of your white fluid I’m covered in.”

“……”

As she said this, Victoria continued to caress and stimulate Astal’s cock. She targeted the head with the palm of her hand, constantly searching for his weakness.

“…It’s said that there are many men and women in the world who don’t pursue relationships, but simply spend one night together. Just to relieve their s*xual urges like this.”

As she said this, Victoria recited the things the nuns of the Holy Kingdom had said, in order to justify her actions.

“What… what are you trying to say?”

“In the end, aren’t we just fake lovers, not the real thing? Bound by rules and contracts, a mere facade of a relationship.”

Victoria’s lower body was already leaking clear, sticky fluids.

Because of that, she felt the robe she wore naked against her skin sticking uncomfortably to her vulva.

‘Now I understand why those vulgar books describe the uterus dropping, the lower abdomen trembling, or true nectar flowing out to impregnate…’

Victoria had previously thought that those books used exaggerated descriptions only to excite men, but,

‘In the end, in front of this man, I’m not a saint, but just a female animal…’

She realized that it wasn’t a lie, just from seeing and touching Astal’s cock.

“Just for today, why don’t you leave it all to me, and think of it as just resolving some long-repressed desires…?”

Victoria said, nibbling on Astal’s earlobe as she spoke, while using her other hand to bring Astal’s cock against her stomach.

The prominent bulge on her lower abdomen, pressing right against the area of her womb, Astal’s cock seemed to know exactly how to drive a woman wild.

How good would it feel to have this inside her?

In Victoria’s mind, a crude fantasy bloomed, wondering if she, too, would let out beastly, vulgar moans.

“Hehe, it seems your lower half is quite honest. They say those who like each other become alike, and I’m a little happy we’re even similar in this way.”

“……”

“Mmm…, *chuup*, *huut*…. *haup*…. *jjoop*…♡, do you get turned on by kisses like…. this…? I can feel your cock twitching against my stomach, so clearly…♡”

Victoria continued to stimulate his manhood as she gave Astal a deep kiss. His cock pulsed hot against her belly, seeming to beg to be allowed to ejaculate quickly.

“Behe…♡ No can do…. I’m going to torment you until the dead of night…. I’ll make you remember only me, and give you pleasure that’s so good it drives you insane…♡”

Each time, Victoria would adjust the strength of her grip and the speed of her movements, expertly teasing Astal by stopping right before he could come.

Astal watched as Victoria, frighteningly, continued to find his weaknesses, and felt that he couldn’t take it anymore.

At this rate, he really felt like his cock was going to explode.

“Victoria. Just…. how much do you need to torment me to be satisfied? A man goes crazy when this happens…”

Astal strongly gripped Victoria’s breast with his hand, tearing at the bandages that were wrapped around them.

“I, I am merely fulfilling a sacred duty, according to the oracle of the Heavenly God. *Huut*….”

Every time he flicked her nipple, which stood erect and swollen, with his finger, a seductive voice escaped her lips.

The normally slightly inverted areola was now a hardened tip from arousal, making her more sensitive to stimulation than usual.

“There is absolutely…. *huut*, no room for personal feelings to be involved…. *Haat*…. Ah, Astal-nim…. Stop…!”

“Don’t lie. Just stimulating your nipples like this…. and you’re already soaking wet down there. Shouldn’t you give up your title as a saint? Even a succubus wouldn’t be this sensitive.”

Gently stroking her chest, Victoria shuddered at the waist, unable to stand properly and collapsing.

Having never masturbated before, she was now discovering her erogenous zones for the first time.

“…Spread your legs, Victoria.”

Lost in a wave of pleasure, Victoria curled her toes as Astal spoke in a stiff tone.

“In the end, I just have to use my fingers without touching the virginity…”

Astal spoke slowly, already looking at the flooded floor. He rationalized that because they were only fake lovers, he could relieve his lust simply.

Because the sight of the saint, aroused by his own member, her p*ssy twitching slightly as if begging to be filled, dripping with the honey of love, was simply too exciting.

“I’ll help you masturbate too. You look like you’re in a lot of pain right now.”

Astal, very slowly and carefully, inserted his thick fingers into Victoria’s vulva, being careful not to damage her hymen.