Your Mother’s Right There

Putting down the phone, Tang Jian asked on my side, “Is there something urgent?”

I turned around to look at his face, and looked very white under the grey sky at the airport: “A friend has something wrong and wants to see it.”

He asked, “Let me go with you.”

“No,” almost subconsciously, I rejected him: “No, I just hit it myself.”

He didn’t force me to mean that, his eyebrows and tone were soft: “OK, then I’ll pick you up?”

I was stunned. I couldn’t bear to refuse again. “Well, okay, pick me up at the door of the Municipal People’s Hospital in half an hour.”

After saying goodbye to Tang Jian, I took a taxi, and I felt inexplicably boring and uneasy at this time. The whole portrait was canned in an unventilated glass container, I just wanted to escape quickly, a little faster . At the same time, I also have to force myself to face the fact that I am worried about Gu Xingzhi. As the distance to the hospital is getting closer, my worry is growing and growing.

So in the end, when I got out of the car and looked for the address of the ward that Gu Xueqi reported to me, I walked with a little trot.

Gu Xueqi greeted me at the door of the ward. I suppressed the slight gasp and asked, “Are you okay?”

She pushed open the door smoothly, and there was not much space. Gu Xingzhi lay with her eyes closed, her eyelashes covered the eyelid densely, the bed was covered with white bedding, and his left hand was still dripping.

Very shameful, my nose is sore.

Gu Xueqi also glanced at it, and then turned to me: “Because Gu Xingzhi was drunk before, so Lin Weiyuan did not know that he could not drink at all.

“Uh.” I don’t know what to say.

“Come here,” looking back, Lin Weiyuan was standing behind us. He carried a bag of snacks and drinks and handed it to Gu Xueqi: “Eat, shout for a long time. You are hungry. Xue Jin, how about you?”

“Eat before going to the airport.” I took the opportunity to close the door of the ward.

Lin Weiyuan framed the door and did not let me take it up completely: “Want not to go in and see him?”

“Isn’t it okay?” I replied: “That’s no responsibility for me …”

“Ah ~ Gu Xing stopped waking up ~” He interrupted me suddenly.

I almost looked back like a conditioned reflex in the ward: “Really?”

Gu Xingzhi’s gang was still calm and steady, while Lin Weiyuan and Gu Xueqi next to me were already sneering—ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I glared at them.

Lin Weiyuan stopped laughing: “Go, he is sleeping anyway, and he will not be able to wake up in a while,” he said again. “Alcohol poisoning should not happen. The doctor said it would be dead. Gu Xingzhi was lucky this time. Just shock. “

Shock is a very serious situation. I asked Lin Weiyuan: “What the **** is going on?”

He told me, “This afternoon and Gu Xingzhi had dinner with the customer, he proposed to have a drink, and I would be happy to accompany him. In fact, he is a drink, he is drinking while looking at the phone, and finally Called bottle by bottle directly at the bar counter, the face of the drunken person should also be blushed. I saw that the situation was wrong, I took him out, and fell to the ground before reaching the door. Xue Jin , Actually, I deceived you. He did n’t say a word from start to finish that day, and of course did n’t mention your name. But after he entered the emergency room, I looked at his mobile phone that he had n’t been willing to let go. On the SMS interface, from Wangcai, I guessed that these two should be called you. Compare your number stored in your mobile phone, and sure enough, every message he reads is your text message, it’s all yours. “

Me: “Fuck, we have been together for so long, you don’t even remember my number!”

Lin Weiyuan: “Will you separate the key points? No wonder the reading comprehension of the college English exam is so poor!”

Me: “Lying trough! I don’t want to compare with your terrible perfect score!”

“I’ll grass the two of you family, noisy wool. Really unqualified, this is in the hospital!” Gu Xueqi gave us a hand.

Lin Weiyuan: “Aren’t I from your family? So what do you want from me?”

Gu Xueqi: “I’ve been tired for a long time.”

Lin Weiyuan: “…”

Me: “Gu Lingza, stop yelling and paying attention to your qualities. Do you think you are a city manager?”

Gu Xueqi: “Xue Jin! At that time, I got the wrong card to get 0 points. Why are you always holding my little braid? You are too cheap … Lin Weiyuan, you laugh at your sister …”

…

Lin Weiyuan: “Xue Jin, go in and see him.”

Me: “… Okay, barely make it difficult.”

Gu Xueqi: “You are arrogant again.”

Me: “Shut up.”

××××

During the journey from the door of the room to Gu Xingzhi’s bedside, I put my steps very lightly, gradually approaching, until Gu Xingzhi’s entire face was clearly seen in my eyes. , Thinking he was on the same side as usual.

Looking at him so close at the moment, it was really a lot thinner, the cheeks on both sides of the cheek were stuck in, and his face and fingers were pale.

I poked the back of his hand with my finger, like a block of ice, and sighed slightly in my heart, tucked him into the quilt for him.

After this series is completed, I find that there is nothing more to do, unconsciously, a lot of things are lost. When I went to see his face again, my heart almost missed a moment—

Gu Xingzhi was already awake, staring at me intently, his pupil like a deep black hole.

“Wake up?” I lowered my hand and looked straight back.

He didn’t speak, and sat up with his arm around the pillow. He probably held a hanging needle in one hand and his body was weak.

This series of simple movements made him look a bit difficult, but Gu Xingzhi only frowned occasionally, and finally completed.

In the meantime, I didn’t help him any movements, just looked coldly beside, intentionally coldly.

Gu Xingzhi is still noble, even if he is ill. His eyes swept toward me standing on the side of the bed. The first sentence turned out to be just a smile: “Xue Jin, you came to see me.”

His hoarse voice is not good, but this childish smile almost makes me feel a vigorous and radiant.

I smiled: “Well, come and see you. It’s a relief to be like this now. I’m going home tonight to celebrate the month of drinking.”

He frowned slightly, and his usual majesty reappeared: “Don’t do this.”

“What about me,” I sat down next to his bed: “Continue to be stupid, will you cry for you? See you like this and cry all day again because of the distress? Or are you used to having a girl You’ve done it yourself, what about Yun Wei? Why didn’t you see her? Couldn’t even cry out to see someone? “

“Regardless of her business,” he interrupted me impatiently: “It seems that you still care.”

“Yo, speaking of Yun Wei’s bad words, don’t you like to hear it?” Looking at Gu Xingzhi, my adrenaline controlled the brain, saying the words that even I myself don’t believe: “Gu Xingzhi, I am very You just woke up, you probably do n’t know why I came to see you, your good brother Lin Weiyuan told me you have this alcoholism and my reason, I ’ll take a look at you and see how much you have to pay Medical expenses. Please do n’t be so confident. I care about my RMB, not you. ”I paused and continued to finish my speech:“ But you can say so neatly now. I should n’t have to pay me anymore?

Gu Xingzhi took hold of my exaggerated waving arm because of the excitement and stopped me.

Instinctive resistance wanted me to get rid of him, but his words stopped my instinct for a second. When he spoke, his eyes seemed to be indefinite lights: “I am not good, very bad.”

“That means I still have to pay?” I threw his hand away and threw it back to the bed: “Okay, let’s discuss how much medical expenses I have to pay.”

“Well,” Gu Xingzhi lowered his eyes and raised it again, but calmly asked an unrelated question: “Who are you with now, that foreigner, or Tang Jian, or your student?”

This question hit my anger all at once, and I have no way to maintain a steady tone of voice: “No matter what you do, whoever you are with will never be with you again. Gu Xingzhi, it seems we have no way Pleasant consultation is going on, let me go first, you should take care of yourself. “

Gu Xingzhi put his back away from the pillow behind him and leaned his shoulder a little tired. At the next moment, he used my left hand without a hanging needle to pass my face and forced me to look at him. It’s that indifference, ruthlessness, and all the expressions I hate: “You still can’t face me right now. If you don’t make it clear today, you better not leave without permission.”

“Enough.” I opened his hand that stopped at my jaw and stood up against the edge of the bed.

“Xue Jin!” Gu Xingzhi’s voice increased several schedules.

It is estimated that I heard the sound inside. The door of the ward was probably pushed open, followed by a young face of a female nurse. I walked past her and walked out the door.

There was a commotion behind him, I could hear the nurse screaming softly, “Mr. Gu, don’t pull the needle yourself!”, I could hear Gu Xueqi calling my name, and Lin Weiyuan stopped his voice with anger, I The scenery in front of me was as blurred as if soaked in the muddy water.

Suddenly, someone hugged me tightly from behind, and the tears that had been engulfed in my eyes suddenly spurted out, followed by a light-colored sick suit with the power of its owner, and the smell and temperature quickly wrapped me.

“I have a lot to say to you, but if you are angry, I’m afraid it will only make you more angry,” its owner said: “I want to explain to you, but you don’t give me any chance, What am I doing to make you happier now? “

Gu Xingzhi sounded a little low, but he still didn’t understand anything. I could only respond to him like this: “I don’t see you.”

I can clearly feel his arms resting on my shoulders stiffen.

“To be honest, I will be happier only if I don’t see you. Your family, your character, and some of your actions will only make me hate, get bored, and disgust,” I kept adding words to my feelings. Color is probably the last effort before the collapse of the army: “You can let go, Tang Jian should have come to pick me up, I don’t want him to wait outside for too long.”

There was hardly any gap between the words falling with me, Gu Xingzhi let go of me, and I quickly walked away and left his vision very quickly. Turning over the floor-to-ceiling glass door of the corridor, I turned around and gave him a quick glance.

I must have been dazzled, otherwise I seemed to see him with a red ring in his eyes, standing intently and looking in my direction.

Turning another corner, I received a call from Tang Jian and said I had arrived at the hospital.

I stood there for a while and waited for the small tears left in the corners of my eyes to dry, and quickly walked out of the inpatient building.

××××

Sitting on the side of Tang Jian ’s co-driver, I turned my face to examine his profile for a while. It was estimated that I was uncomfortable looking at him. He pulled the corner of his lips: “What’s wrong? Looking at me so deeply.”

“You are going to the United States,” my answer made Tang Jian’s smile stiffen: “Look at it a few times, remember that my first love was like this.”

“Xue Jin,” he stared straight ahead, still meticulous: “I can’t go, just say, I can stay for you. Maybe your mother hasn’t forgiven me, but it doesn’t matter, I have nothing to do with it No.”

I retracted my gaze and placed it on my hands resting on my thighs, turning away the topic: “Alex likes you, do you know?”

His tone of voice was still relaxed, and he understated it lightly. “Of course, I have been with each other for such a long time. I also like him, so interesting, he was such a good buddy during that time in the United States.”

“Uh.” I should say, not going to say anything.

After a long time, Tang Jian asked me: “That means no chance at all?”

I let go of my hands and hung it freely on both sides: “It should be. Time has passed so long that I can’t find that kind of thing.”

When the red light stopped, Tang Jian left an empty hand on my head and treated it like a young stuffed animal, as he had done to me countless times, gently rubbing it twice.

——So will you regret it? Did you just leave like this?

——Yes, I will regret my whole life, I think I am so strong and courageous, but in fact shameful and cowardly. Now think about it, you do n’t have to leave at all. Or just go back and take you with you.

——I would regret it for so long … Ah …

That day Tang Jian took me home and happened to be hit by my mother’s loose game. Tang Jian greeted her politely. She also called him “Little Tang” in the same tone as she used to. After Tang Jian left, she followed her mother. When going upstairs, when she was almost at the entrance of her home, she asked me:

“Why, reunited with him again? The good horse is eating grass again?”

“…” I was silent for a while, grabbing her petite shoulder: “Mom, continue to arrange a blind date for me ~”

“Well, I finally grew a little bit, I haven’t lived in vain for thirty years,” Mommy put her hand behind my ear and clipped it to her ear. “Go and fix my hair tomorrow. It looks like this, and I should have a new look. . “

“Hmm!” I was like a daughter, spreading her hands and hugging her from the side.

××××

In the next two months, I almost devoted myself to work and blind date. Of course, my work has become more and more energetic, but the results of the blind date have been less fruitful. I do n’t know if it ’s “you ’re too demanding,” “you are too old,” or “a little higher education”, the so-called factors in the blind men ’s mouth still hold me back, or as I said before, the starting point for Gu Xingzhi Too high.

I often blame each other with my mother, she said I do n’t know how to work around. I said that she did not struggle, there was no family that had made good for generations, and gave me a bamboo horse that had ordered a baby kiss since I was a child. From the time I was born, I arranged for the man whose life is destined to live together. Today, I still have to continue to tirelessly screen out a true love and a lover who really suits me in the vast sea of ​​people.

He may come, or he may never come.

The flash of fire will be over in September, and the study of KD class is coming to an end.

At the same time, Gu Xueqi also brought me a message that Gu Xingzhi was about to get engaged.

When I walked downstairs after class that day, I almost thought it was an illusion. I saw Gu Xingzhi’s car parked downstairs.

It creeps in the thin night, like a silent dark monster.