Chapter 65
Chapter 66:
This thought gave me an enlightenment. Miss Pan De’s behavior has been explained.
Unlike me, she has always been bold. I almost thought this was Miss Pan De’s nature. With her style and skill, she couldn’t be too bold. Even if one day she was willing to bet and lose, she might have already made a lot of money. Only those who want nothing else will be fearless. I ask her, naturally trembling. She doesn’t want me to give charcoal in the snow, it must be because I have no desires and no desires.
——I thought it was like that. I think this is a certain necessity, the law of the world, the iron law in the reinforced jungle.
I am self-righteous.
She likes me.
The dodge, her forbearance, and her restraint that I caught in her eyes that day puzzled me. What an unscrupulous person Miss Pan De is in my heart, how could she be defeated in just ten seconds of staring at each other? I even think she may be in poor condition. Maybe one day when the company’s project is over, she will no longer be my partner and no longer busy every day. We can still maintain a longer confrontation. Then I might. Will lose.
I even want to stare at her. This wish scares me.
She likes me and scares me even more.
I can’t tell if I am afraid of her or myself.
“Do you think my idea really doesn’t match the optimization framework?” I said again. This is simply a questioning knowingly. I can think of a lot of the words Miss Pan De used to prevaricate me; but I really can’t find anything to say.
I have to say something to dispel the ambiguous air.
“Even if you count the people in our team, it’s hard to say that anyone in the company knows the mega team model better than you.” She praised me without surprise, not knowing whether it was true or false, “Your plan It just happened at the wrong time…After the new company is announced, we will do it again.”
I nodded: “Thank you.”
“I didn’t ask you immediately last week.” She looked at me for longer than before. “I was wondering if you would be angry or frustrated, but I didn’t notice anything during the video conference with you the next day. .”
“I never get angry.”
“Seriously?” She looked over almost immediately.
I was stunned for a moment. The picture was a bit familiar, but I nodded and said shamelessly: “I’m very professional.”
She looked at me unscrupulously for the first time tonight, with a gentle expression, a bit like coaxing a child.
After all, I did get angry with her not long ago. Understandable.
Miss Pan De uses chopsticks very well, even better than me. Although I feel my fingers are sensitive in most things-after fourteen years of piano practice, flexibility is not a problem-but it is really difficult to hold peanuts with chopsticks. I used to like to eat peas, but I couldn’t hold them correctly, so my mother let me take a spoon to eat.
Speaking of which, I haven’t eaten peas in more than ten years.
“Can you pinch tofu? Tofu made of peanuts is the kind that is very soft…” I told her, “One pinch will break.”
“Is it like raising tofu?” She said a Roman-sounding word, but I couldn’t understand it, so she explained patiently, “The outside is wrapped in a layer of low-gluten flour and deep-fried. The inside is very tender. Eat in a restaurant. Usually there are bonito flakes.”
Dried bonito flakes are also Roman sounds. I was a little embarrassed to let her explain, and turned off the subject: “Do you speak Japanese?”
“a little bit.”
“What is your standard for’a little bit’?” I squinted.
She tilted her head and smiled slightly. Speaking of familiar life topics, Ms. Pan De relaxed a lot, and no longer deliberately avoided looking at each other as before, and said: “How well can I order food? At least I can understand Kanesaka Shinji’s menu.”
She was talking about a high-end sushi restaurant named after the chef, which is super popular here. I went to a branch in Singapore to experience the so-called “Omakase”. The owl comment was very mysterious, but the actual feeling was so average.
“Sounds more than you said.” I deliberately teased her, “Like’two dots’.”
She was not accidentally amused by me: “Shiori said that my pronunciation is good, but the grammar is simply a disaster. I still feel that’a little bit’ is closer to the actual situation.”
“Are you a classmate at the boarding school?” I guessed that when she heard her voice very familiar.
She nodded, a little surprised: “Do you remember? I should only mention it once.”
Suddenly I felt that it was not right, so I said, “Maybe it’s a coincidence.”
Miss Pan De didn’t ask anything more, and returned to the topic of tofu: “That kind of fried tofu is really hard to pick up.”
“Then I finally found a place better than you.” I said, “I never break the tofu.”
She was startled: “That’s why you asked me this?”
I also froze for a moment, and laughed and said, “Yes! Your technique of peanuts makes me jealous.”
She sighed softly: “Well, it’s fair. I forget that you sometimes show…innocent appearance.”
I feel a little hot on my face.
Miss Pende seemed to have broken away from that wonderful restraint. She is really a natural conversation master, and I will completely forget the purpose of meeting today after a while. But facing her, I dare not relax my vigilance. The little voice recorder was lying in my jacket pocket with the key. As long as I reached out and gently pressed the paddle, it would start to work.
I wonder if it is written on the almanac?
It seems not suitable for calculating each other today.
Miss Pan De’s clothes have always been outstanding, but today she is even better, clearly dressed up. We are here today from the company. I met her once earlier. She still wears a light-colored suit that only executives dare to consider. At the moment, it is clearly the same clothes, but the feeling is very different. The shirt button has an extra button. What else is there?
I watched it for a while before I noticed it. Her earrings were exposed.
She pulled her hair to one side, there was a bright beauty. I have only seen Miss Pan De wear earrings of moderate length before. I never thought that such a long pendant would suit her so quietly. I quietly thought that she must not usually wear earrings. Women in the workplace with excellent external conditions do have an advantage year-on-year, but they are therefore very restrained and never want to be **** in their professional image. And this pair of earrings…
I drank saliva.
“There is a great coffee shop on the east coast. Unfortunately, alcohol is not allowed in the shop now. Maybe you should go there and try their specials after the seal is completely unblocked.” I just said something wrong. Open a topic.
She was startled, her expression a little complicated: “It will be a long time later.”
“Yes, there are more than 40,000 cases now, and it’s hard to say when I will see the end…” I casually said, “Maybe next spring? I think there is still great hope before the end of next year, and the vaccine should be launched on a large scale. Now, one has to expect something.”
Miss Pan De looked at me: “Will you be willing to see me, at that time?”
I was a little lost: “Why not?”
She suddenly retracted her gaze and looked away: “Sometimes it’s really hard for you to understand.”
Obviously there is no content in this statement. I was silent for a moment and said: “Maybe it was my unintentional mistake.”
“It’s really hard for people to keep caring about everything.” She nodded and said slowly, “But at least people will care about the things they think are important.”
“You are right.” I looked at her, “A careless mistake means that I don’t pay enough attention to it.”
“Is that what you want to tell me?” She raised an eyebrow.
I looked away and nodded almost impossible to find out: “It depends on how you understand it. But Freud also said that there are no so-called jokes in the world, and all jokes have serious elements.”
“Sigmund Freud is a narcissist with a brain full of male logocentrism.” Miss Pande stared at me, “Don’t use his words to prevaricate me.”
“Wow. This evaluation is very strict.” I deliberately avoided the importance.
“He is worthy of this evaluation.” Miss Pan De held her arms, her eyes were cold, “Are you going to hide forever?”
She was angry.
I was silent: “What do you want?”
“Meet once. It’s just the two of us.” She said, “There are no more temptations, jokes to cover up the truth, no more lies, no more identity-so no worries. I am not from BCG, you Nor is it a member of Crab Shell, just me and you, only me and you, we meet once on this premise. What do you think?”
She kept looking at me as she spoke.
Miss Pan De’s eyes were too serious, even though the prevarication had reached the lips, I couldn’t say it. To her perfunctory is undoubtedly a great disrespect.
I said solemnly, “That’s probably not appropriate, Sonia.”
“There is nothing inappropriate for a single woman to see another single woman.” The aggression in her eyes has diminished a little, but a thin layer of joking follows, “Or, you are still learning Self-identification?”
My heart is overwhelmed, and I don’t even know why I can act so calmly: “Is this a date?”
“No.” Miss Pan De shook her head, “I said, without any identity.”
I should refuse. I should reject her, I should…
But I was speechless. I can’t even speak, and Miss Pande is always the same, her nervousness and expectation are not concealed.
After a while, I said, “When?”
“Does this count as’agree’?”
I’m not used to answering “yes” or “no” directly, but I force myself to adapt and say, “Yes.”
My eyes lit up. She is so happy.
Miss Pan De has a pair of slender hands. She is very thin, but her knuckles are not distinct, and her fingers are long and thin, very classically beautiful. In contrast, her whole person is soft and rigid, as if something independent of the body has become her bones, making her proud of the world.
Yes, she is a dancer. Her dance must have started a long time ago, and she became one with her, making her a stunning beauty with bones and flesh.
Those trance-like fragments, deja vu scenes, did not come out of thin air.
At this moment, my instinct once again declared victory: I seem to have seen her.