There Is No Spring in the Stolen Field

23. give up

After the meeting with the homeroom teacher, I didn’t feel so good.

I already noticed that the homeroom teacher was stronger than me during the close battle with Luna.

However, the things he told me today only hurt me more.

“Seria. I’ll be honest. At this level, I’m defeated by his subordinates before I even go before the Demon King.”

“How does the teacher know that?”

The homeroom teacher spoke calmly.

“Because I’ve fought. With the Demon King’s subordinates.”

I was startled.

I had a hunch that perhaps the subordinates the homeroom teacher was talking about were not the ragtag spy demons I had killed.

“Then I… what should I do…?”

I thought I had already learned a lot.

I could guarantee that I could defeat anyone.

However, as I met Luna and my homeroom teacher, I felt that my confidence was gradually diminishing.

Besides, recently, when holding the sword with Sirius’ case, he couldn’t even concentrate.

I was nervous.

The homeroom teacher nodded as if he understood.

“There’s no hurry. You’ll hardly have to fight alone in the future. Besides, the proof period is three years. I’m sure by the time this process is over, the ship will be stronger than it is now.”

Certainly, I thought that there would be something to learn from the man in front of me.

“yes.”

I was furious, but nodded.

Still… I didn’t have enough strength.

“Yes. Of course, you will gradually learn how to match the sum in a party unit, but never neglect training.”

The homeroom teacher once again told me how bad I was, and told me to call Luna.

Luna was unlucky, but she was curious about what kind of evaluation she was receiving.

“It’s your turn. Luna Giaros.”

Luna went to see her homeroom teacher, and I finally had time to be with Sirius.

“Dog star.”

“yes?”

“Does Dingxin think I’m weak?”

Feeling frustrated, I wanted to ask anyone.

“no?”

Sirius looked like he was asking something like that.

“What did the homeroom teacher say?”

“that is…”

It was embarrassing.

“…In this state… there is absolutely no chance of winning against the demon lord…”

I was nominated as a warrior, so I wondered if it was possible to use it because I was making such a weak noise.

However, I believed that if it was Yuwol, he would definitely cheer for me.

Because that kid always cheered me up when I was struggling. Even if it’s a trifle.

“No. I think you have a chance if you become stronger.”

Sirius encouraged me quite seriously.

I don’t know if it’s anyone else, but the man’s words, speaking in a voice like Yu-Wol’s, reassured me of my anxiety.

“Is that so…? If I train more… I’ll be able to become stronger…?”

It’s ugly, but I wanted to hear his cheering one more time.

“Because you’re a warrior. It’s definitely possible.”

He smiled brightly at me.

I missed that face so much that I resisted the urge to touch his face.

“Thank you. Sirius. It seems that training is the only answer.”

When the words didn’t follow and an awkward air flowed, I turned the topic to something else.

“By the way, did you eat some fruit yesterday?”

“Ah… fruit~ Mmm~ It was delicious!”

He paused for a while, and told me that it was delicious half a beat late.

I wish I hadn’t put it in my mouth yet. It’s okay if you don’t lie about that.

“Let me know if you want more. There are still many in the room.”

After saying that, I left the gym.

After the interview, I swung my sword to my heart’s content for the first time in a long time.

I checked each of the basic skills handed down from my master.

I neatly drew a semicircle with my sword and ended today’s training with that.

My whole body was wet with sweat, but I felt refreshed.

A word from Sirius.

Since you are a warrior, you said that it would be possible.

okay. There was no need to think hard about it.

I am a warrior, and there was nothing I couldn’t accomplish with my will.

Back at the dormitory, I washed up, changed into pajamas, and had a simple dinner.

I sat on the sofa and stared blankly out.

The sun that has already gone down has signaled the end of today.

I went out onto the terrace, wondering if I might have a chance to talk to Sirius again.

And a deep sigh like a lie carried through the wind to my room.

Apparently, today was a lucky day.

“Why are you sighing like that?”

I stuck my head out and tried to talk to him as naturally as possible.

“It’s just… These days, I feel like I don’t know myself very well.”

Saying that, Sirius looked very weak.

You were the one who freed me from being locked up, why are you locked up?

While thinking about how to encourage him, I decided to try one thing.

I stood barefoot on the ledge on the terrace of my room without saying anything.

“Yo… Hero?”

Sirius’ voice was startled.

I took one step over the railing, jumped lightly, and landed on the railing of Sirius’ room.

A cool breeze brushed my cheeks.

His dark eyes entered mine.

“I… I’m going to jump from now on.”

I was confident that I would never get hurt even if I jumped.

“yes…?”

“Here and now. I’m going to jump off the floor.”

To the perplexed man, I recklessly notified him.

I’m lucky today, so let’s try to see if I’m lucky until the end.

I spread my arms out wide and counted.

“three.”

Sirius’ eyes widened.

“two.”

How will he react?

“one.”

I just wish I hadn’t neglected it.

With that thought in mind, I put my center of gravity back.

I felt gravity pulling me strongly.

That was the moment.

My body, which was about to fall, was rescued by Sirius’ hand.

And his next words were telling his truth.

“What are you doing, Seria?”

Sirius, with an angry voice, grabs my shoulder and calls me Seria.

As expected, you are Yu-Wol right…

Sirius had never called me Seria before.

From the first meeting at the entrance ceremony, even when we ran into each other, he never called me the hero.

A tone that seemed to genuinely care about me.

The last note that rises unusually when my name is called.

How can it be so different from before?

“You say you don’t know you well… Yuwol…”

Then I’ll let you know. who you are

Only then did Yu-Wol say alas. He looked at me with a wanting expression.

“I finally understand who you are… a little bit…?”

I felt the strength in his hand on my shoulder loosen.

I covered his face with both hands.

“I missed you. Yuwol-ah.”

My lips touched his.

The second kiss with him was hot.

As much as I missed you, as much as I searched for you, as much as I wanted to do for you, we shared feelings in the hope that my heart would reach him.

Even though it seems like it’s been quite a while, it still feels like it’s not enough.

After a deep kiss, silence passed between us.

Both of us were breathing heavily, our faces red.

He would know. That there is no point in hiding it from me anymore.

but. He distanced himself from me, blocking me from approaching.

why…?

“I’m sorry… Hero… I’m sorry… But I’m not that person…”

his voice trembled

“…Yuwol-ah…!”

This was not the story I was hoping for. I didn’t do this because I wanted this result.

“…forget about today… and I’m not Mr. Yuwol… I’m… Sirius…”

“Please… why… why are you running away…!”

I was desperate I longed for Yu-Wol so much.

I had promised myself over and over that if I ever met again, I would never let him go again.

“…I’ll just go in… from now on… please don’t do that kind of joke again…”

He went back to his room and hid himself as if he were running away, leaving me behind.

“…Yuwol-ah…!”

I called his name again and again toward the place he left.

No… I can’t do this…

I never thought that he would push me away when I met him again.

Was I the only one who missed him?

Maybe he was actually living happily somewhere I didn’t know. The thought passed by.

But his trembling voice rang in my ears.

It was never the voice of a happy person.

It was a voice that sounded like it would burst into tears any moment.

I had no strength in my legs.

He’s a warrior who shouldn’t kneel anywhere…

I sat down and stared at Yu-Wol’s tightly closed window in that position for a while.

It seemed that Yoo-wol was still hiding a lot from me.

Maybe that’s why he can’t come to me…

The answer could be found in the three years since we were separated.

Yuwol, what the hell happened to you…

What the hell is keeping you from coming back to me…

He felt so far away through the thin glass window.

It’s so close, I can’t even put my hand on it.

How much time had passed… I robbed my seat and got up.

My thoughts have been sorted out.

I’ll give up.

If the reason I can’t approach you is because you’re not ‘Yuwol’.

I’ll let you go. the child I loved.

instead of ‘Sirius’. i won’t give up on you

No matter what name you are, no matter how different you are.

you said

I am a warrior.

sure it would be possible

I don’t know what you’re afraid of

I’ll make sure to get you out of there.

Yuwol.

It was a moonlit night.