Chapter 120: You Must Be Happy
"Among these children, Xiao Rui's favorite was still Little Xun, the girl who found the admission ticket. She was only eight years old at the time!" Grandma Chen said, "Unfortunately, Little Xun had congenital heart disease. It was because of this illness that her parents chose to abandon her at the orphanage door."
"The year Xiao Rui graduated, Little Xun's heart disease relapsed, and the condition became aggressive. Xiao Rui even contacted the best hospital in the country, but there was still no cure for the disease. Even after receiving a heart stent, a severe rejection reaction occurred, and eventually, Little Xun passed away in the hospital!" tears tinged Grandma Chen's voice.
"At the time, Xiao Rui was the most devastated. She couldn't forgive herself for not being able to save Little Xun, so a month later, she came to me and said she was going abroad to study further. She vowed to find a cure for heart disease because otherwise, she felt she would not do justice to Little Xun!"
"Just like that, five years went by in a flash!" Grandma Chen sighed, "Honestly, I know that Xiao Rui couldn't control that situation. Having congenital heart disease, it was just Little Xun's unfortunate fate! But I worry that Xiao Rui has never been able to get over her guilt."
While speaking, Grandma Chen pulled out a yellowed diary from a drawer: "This is Little Xun's diary. I think I should give this to Xiao Rui. Could I entrust this matter to you?"
Looking at the yellowed diary bearing the name Chen Xun'er written in slanting, uneven handwriting, Ling Feng took a deep breath and solemnly accepted it: "Rest assured, I'll give it to Xiao Rui. And I also believe that Little Xun, in Paradise, must be very happy!"
When Ling Feng and Grandma Chen returned to the activity room, Yun Hanrui was smiling and decorating the Christmas tree, blowing up balloons with the children.
Ling Feng was surprised to see, besides Yun Hanrui and Mu Ziyi, a young woman in her twenties there. This woman had an ethereal aura, giving off an elegant vibe. Although she wasn't as striking as Xiao Rui, her demeanor was distinctly unique.
"This is Deng Xintong, who recently came to help at the orphanage. Speaking of which, Little Deng is still Xiao Rui's junior. She is also a student at Yan University!" Grandma Chen said with a smile.
Yun Hanrui shot Ling Feng a look and said, "I've already met Little Deng, Grandma Chen. You don't need to introduce her to Ling Feng. He's not a good guy!"
Ling Feng gave a wry smile, wondering if she could save face in front of outsiders!
Grandma Chen chuckled, taking it as just a spat between a couple, but what she didn't realize was Yun Hanrui meant it sincerely!
In Yun Hanrui's eyes, someone like Ling Feng, who liked to flirt, should stay far away from Deng Xintong, so as to prevent this innocent junior from being tainted by Ling Feng!
"Big brother, come and help us decorate the Christmas tree!" Xiao Qing next to him came over and warmly took Ling Feng's hand, saying, "This Christmas tree is really too tall; we can't reach the top!"
Ling Feng smiled and took the colorful lights and tinsels from Xiao Qing's hands, placing them on the Christmas tree.
That afternoon, Yun Hanrui stayed at the orphanage, playing games with the kids, cooking, singing, and dancing around the Christmas tree.
As Ling Feng watched all this, seeing Yun Hanrui's unbridled laughter and relaxed smile, he suddenly felt that Yun Hanrui, in this state, was incredibly beautiful. This beauty, an illumination of humanity, radiated from her soul!
It had been many years since their last meeting, and Yun Hanrui was having a great time with the children. But happy moments are always short-lived, and as night fell, it was time for Yun Hanrui to leave the orphanage and go home.
"Sister Yun, when will you come to see us again?"
"Yes, Sister Yun. You won't stay away for years again, will you? We've missed you!"
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As they parted, tears glistened in the children's eyes, their hearts reluctant to let go.
Yun Hanrui's gaze was complex, and a flicker of guilt and self-blame passed in the depths of her eyes.
"No, I'll often come to see everyone!" Yun Hanrui finally decided, gently patting the shoulders of the children around her.
On the way back, Yun Hanrui was silent, her thoughts unknown.
"What's wrong? Didn't you have fun this afternoon?" Ling Feng, driving the car, asked.
Yun Hanrui gently shook her head, "You don't understand, there are some things that outsiders can't comprehend!"
Ling Feng smiled, "Are you referring to Chen Xun'er's matter?"
Yun Hanrui suddenly turned around, "You... how do you know? Could it be that Grandma Chen..."
Ling Feng took out the diary from his bag, "I think you've gotten yourself into a dead end! Although Little Xun'er has left this world, it's not your fault. Why do you keep dwelling on the past and blaming yourself relentlessly?"
A flash of pain crossed Yun Hanrui's eyes, "You don't understand, I clearly promised Little Xun that I would save her, but I…"
"That's why I say you women are too sentimental!" Ling Feng stated indifferently, "Not all promises have to be kept, as long as we are guilt-free about our efforts. I think you should read this, it's Little Xun'er's diary, and she left it for you!"
Yun Hanrui's hands trembled as she received the diary and gently opened it, the familiar yet crooked handwriting appearing before her eyes.
"June 7, today the weather is very hot. I found a wallet on the street, it had a lot of money and a paper with a picture of a very beautiful big sister. The big sister must be so worried about losing her wallet, so I decided to wait there for her. I waited for an hour, and when big sister came, I handed her the wallet. She smiled so happily, and I was happy too…"
"August 6, today big sister came again to teach us knowledge. I like big sister the most. She is pretty, knowledgeable, and her voice is also pleasant. I wish I could be as beautiful as big sister someday…"
"September 10, today is Teacher's Day, and we decided to give big sister a surprise. I drew a picture specially. Big sister was very happy to receive our gift, but I don't know why she cried. But big sister said she cried because she was happy, yet Little Xun only cries when in pain!"
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"May 13, my chest hurts badly today, and then I fainted. I know my heart disease acted up again. Everyone was afraid to tell me, but I know my condition is incurable! I'm so scared, I don't want to leave everyone, I want to keep listening to big sister's stories, hearing about many things we don't know, but I know my time is limited!"
"June 1, today is Children's Day, but I could only spend it in the hospital. However, big sister and everyone were with me. Big sister told me she would definitely save me. I know it's impossible, but seeing big sister's eyes red with tears, I pretended to be really happy! With everyone caring so much for me, I think dying now would also be blissful!"
"June 25, my body is getting weaker. Seeing the doctor's disappointed eyes yesterday, I knew my time was up! I think if I died, sister would be very sad. She would definitely blame herself. But sister, Little Xun is very happy. You told Little Xun many magical things, Little Xun likes you the most!
It's just that God feels lonely, so he wants Little Xun to come up and tell him stories. So, big sister, I have to go first. You and everyone must be happy…"
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The last entries were crooked, and Yun Hanrui's hands holding the diary trembled incessantly, her tears falling heavily.
"Little Xun, rest assured, your sister and everyone will definitely be happy!"