V4: C43: Reasons Written in Stellar Fire
The divan was an island in a sea of past sorrows, and the twins were its beating heart.
It was Kuro who spoke first, his voice thick with tears he didn't bother to wipe. "In the Black Keep… and after the Plaza… we were broken. A fissure. We thought we were… unworthy of any of this. That love was a weakness we could not afford."
Shiro nodded, his single eye glassy, clutching Statera's robe. "But now… now we see. It's not a weakness. It's… it's the reason. The reason for everything. You pulled us from the fissure." He looked around at all four of them, his face a mask of vulnerable devotion. "We never want you to leave. A world without you… a world without all of you… would be a world with no light. We'd rather di…"
The word was cut off as four pairs of arms crushed them in a simultaneous, panicked embrace. A unified, sharp gasp of horror filled the room.
"Don't!" Nyxara choked out, her voice a ragged plea. "Don't you ever, ever give voice to that shadow!"
"We do not speak of that," Statera commanded, her Polaris light flaring with a protective, desperate intensity. "Not here. Not ever."
"That is a song that must never be composed," Lyra whispered, her melody a dissonant threnody of fear.
Lucifera's voice was the final, absolute decree, cold with a terror that surpassed all logic. "The concept is forbidden. We are here. Now. Forever. You are ours. That is the only reality we acknowledge."
The momentary, terrifying glimpse into the abyss, the thought of a world without their anchors, was too much to bear. It was swiftly buried under a torrent of weeping, grateful, smothering affection, the baby talk returning not as a game, but as an incantation against the dark.
"Our reason for being!"
"Our good, good boys!"
"Our wittle stars, our everything!"
"Never, ever speak of a world without us! We are here! Now and forever!"
And in the heart of that velvet dark, pinned by the immense, terrifying, and wonderful weight of being the sole reason for four universes to continue spinning, Shiro and Kuro
The weight of the confessions did not shatter the sanctum's peace; it deepened it, transforming the air from mere safety into something sacred. The divan was no longer a piece of furniture but an altar, and the six of them were a single, breathing devotion. The silence that followed was not empty, but thick with a love so immense it had its own gravity, pulling them all closer into its core.
It was Lucifera who moved first, but it was not the Sirius Councillor who acted. It was Mommy Luci. With a soft, wordless sigh, she began to un braid a section of Kuro's hair, her fingers, which could dissect cosmic truths, now moving with a tender, fussy precision. "So tangled, my little storm cloud," she murmured, her voice a low, humming thrum devoid of any analysis. "All this big, fierce energy makes such a mess of your wittle feathers. Mommy has to fix it."
Across the nest, Nyxara, her face still glistening but her light now a steady, warm aurora, reached for Shiro. She took his hand, tracing the lines of his palm with a feather light touch. "And these wittle stars," she cooed, her voice a soft, playful whisper. "So many serious lines for such a smol, soggy Rain Baby. Look, this one here, that's the line for 'how many times I will kiss my son's forehead today.' It's a very, very long line." She promptly leaned down and pressed a loud, smacking kiss to the centre of his palm, making him jolt and flush a brilliant crimson.
The tension broke, not into laughter, but into a wave of gentle, possessive reclamation. The baby talk returned, but it was different now. It was not a weapon of conquest or a shield against the court. It was the native language of their hearts, a lexicon of love written in silly words and softer touches.
"He's blushing! He's blushing!" Nyxara announced with gleeful triumph, cradling Shiro's hand to her cheek. "The Rain Baby's internal thermometer is going all wibbly wobbly! Quick, Statera, does his Polaris light need calibrating?"
Statera, who had been contentedly watching Lucifera's braiding, let her light pulse in a warm, teasing rhythm. "His light is perfect, Nyxie. It's just a little… over cuddled. A common and delightful condition in our wittle infants. See? My Storm Baby is suffering from the same affliction." She pointed a gentle beam of light at Kuro's ears, which were, indeed, burning a tell tale scarlet.
Kuro, trying and failing to maintain a shred of princely dignity under Luci's meticulous grooming, grumbled. "It is a biological response to… excessive stimuli. Not an 'affliction.'"
"Aww, listen to him!" Lyra sang out, her melody a tinkling, joyful counterpoint. "Using his big words! He thinks he can out logic the cuddles! It's the most adorable, futile thing in the cosmos!"
Lucifera didn't even look up from her braiding. "There is no logic here, my tempest," she stated, her voice a warm, final decree. "There is only Mommy's hands in your hair. There is only the fact that you are here, and I am here, and the universe has finally arranged itself into a correct and proper order." She tied off the tiny, perfect braid with a strand of silver thread pulled from her own robe. "There. Now my Storm Baby is suitably pretty."
The teasing was a gentle, swirling current, pulling them deeper into the comfort. Lyra began to hum a nonsensical song about a grumpy little star who thought he didn't need naps, weaving Kuro and Shiro's names into the melody. Statera joined in, her light pulsing in time, casting their entangled forms in a soft, rhythmic glow. Nyxara abandoned Shiro's palm and instead began to massage his shoulders, her touch melting the last vestiges of tension from his frame.
"So tight, my love," she whispered. "All that big, brave holding on. You can let go now. Mommy has you. Your Nyxie will never let the bad things get her Rain Baby."
It was this, the sheer, overwhelming, smothering certainty of it all, that began to erode the foundations of their composure. They had spent their lives building walls: Kuro with strategy and fury, Shiro with silence and street smart survival. But here, in this nest, there were no walls to build, no enemies to fight. There was only the relentless, tender, all encompassing ocean of their mothers' love, and they were drowning in the best possible way.
The shift began subtly. Kuro, who had been enduring Lucifera's attentions with a grumpy tolerance, slowly leaned back until his head was fully resting against her chest. His good eye closed, and a long, shuddering sigh escaped him, a sound of pure, unguarded surrender. Seeing this, Shiro seemed to fold in on himself, turning to burrow his face against Nyxara's side, his single hand fisting in the fabric of Statera's robe.
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The mothers felt it instantly. The teasing softened, the baby talk shifting from playful to profoundly soothing.
"That's it, my storm," Lucifera murmured, abandoning the braid to simply wrap her arms around Kuro, rocking him just slightly. "Let it all go. Let Mommy hold all the heavy things."
"My sweet, sleepy nebula," Statera whispered, stroking Shiro's hair. "You're safe here. You're home. We have you, and we will never, ever not have you."
It was then that the fear, the dark, inverted reflection of their love, finally surfaced. Shiro, his voice muffled by Nyxara's robes, let out a small, broken hiccup. Then another. A tremor ran through him.
Nyxara stilled. "Shiro? My love? What's wrong? Was Mommy's singing too off key?"
He shook his head, unable to speak for a moment. When he pulled back, his face was a mess of silent tears, his single amber eye wide with a terror that was entirely new
It was then that the fear, the shadow of the world outside their nest, finally surfaced. Shiro had been quiet for a long time, listening to the teasing, feeling the safety wrap around him like a second skin. But the memory of the Refractorium, of Antares's dagger, of the vast, looming shadow of Ryo, was a cold splinter in his heart. He tried to fight it down, to be the brave infant they believed him to be, but a small, choked sound escaped him.
He trembled, his shoulders shaking as he fought a losing battle against the tears. His voice, when it came, was a ragged, wet whisper, torn from a place of profound vulnerability. "When… when the war comes…" he began, his breath hitching. He squeezed his single eye shut, as if to block out the vision. "You'll… you'll be with us, right? You won't let them… let them take you away? We can't… I can't…"
He couldn't finish. The thought of standing on a battlefield, of facing the cosmic horror of Ryo's legions without the living fortress of his mothers around him, was a terror so vast it stole his words. A sob broke free, and then another, silent and shuddering, his small form curling in on itself as if struck.
Seeing his brother, the resilient, street tough survivor, reduced to this raw, terrified child, was the final crack in Kuro's own composure. The strategist, the prince, vanished. A low, wounded sound, like a dying animal, escaped his throat. He turned his face into Lucifera's robe, his own body beginning to shake with the force of suppressed tears. "Don't let us be alone out there," he pleaded, his voice thick and broken. "Please. We can't do it alone. We're not strong enough."
The sight of their sons, their fierce, beautiful, broken boys, shattered by the mere phantom of separation, unleashed a simultaneous, ferocious wave of maternal instinct. The air in the sanctum shifted.
"Oh, my babies! My sweet, scared little stars!" Nyxara cried, her voice a heartbroken wail as she gathered the weeping Shiro into her arms, crushing him against her chest. She rocked him, her multi hued light enveloping him like a physical blanket. "Did you think for one tiny second your Mommy would let you go it alone? Oh, my darling Rain Baby, no! Never! Where you go, my light goes! I will be the storm around you, my tempest! The nasty, icky war field is just a new place for us to have cuddles!"
Statera was there in an instant, wrapping herself around both Nyxara and Shiro, her Polaris glow blazing not with cold truth, but with warm, absolute promise. She pressed her cheek to Kuro's heaving back. "My brave, silly storms! Listen to Mommy! There is no 'alone'! Not for my infants! My light will be your path, your shield, your very surest step! If the big, mean war tries to get between us, we will just have to cuddle it into submission!"
Lyra flowed over them, her hum becoming a tangible, harmonic shield that vibrated with the force of her love. She draped herself over Kuro's side, her melody weaving through their sobs. "The song of our family cannot be split, my darlings! It is one big, beautiful, messy song! On the battlefield, it will be a lullaby for you and a scream for your enemies! They will hear your Mommy's song and know they are finished!"
Lucifera held Kuro the tightest, her face a mask of fierce, tearful devotion. She kissed his temple, his hair, his damp cheek. "Hush, my son. Hush, my wittle logic breaker. The battlefield is just a messy, outdoor version of this nest. And Mommy Luci will be there, braiding your hair and breaking anyone who looks at you wrong. There is no 'without us.' It is a impossible thing. A silly, wrong thought. You are ours. We are yours. That is the only rule of any war we will ever fight."
The fourfold vow, delivered in a torrent of weeping, gushing, utterly serious baby talk, was an avalanche of love that finally smothered the fear. The twins, surrounded, held, and covered in kisses and promises, felt their terror not defeated, but out loved. Their sobs slowly quieted into hitching breaths, then into the exhausted, peaceful sighs of children who finally, truly believe they are safe.
Utterly spent, they went limp in the embrace, their tears drying on their mothers robes. They were rearranged gently in the nest, a tangle of limbs and soft sighs. Shiro was curled into Nyxara's side, one of Statera's hands resting on his head. Kuro was pillowed against Lucifera, with Lyra's arm draped over him.
For a long moment, there was only the sound of their synchronized breathing, a soft, wet, contented sound in the dark. Then, Nyxara's voice, thick with unshed tears of her own, cut through the quiet with a gentle, final decree.
"Alright, my darling, sleepy little constellations," she whispered, nuzzling Shiro's hair. "All those big, scary, icky thoughts have been cuddled away. It's long, long past bedtime for my wittle warriors."
As if on a celestial cue, Lyra began to hum. It was not the complex harmony of the Refractorium, but a simple, ancient lullaby, a melody that seemed to be woven from the very silence of the mountain's heart. The sound didn't just fill the air; it seeped into the furs, into their skin, a gentle vibration that promised nothing could harm them here.
While Lyra's song wrapped around them like a warm blanket, the other three mothers began their own soft, whispered litany, their words weaving through the melody.
Nyxara, still cradling Shiro, leaned down until her lips were against his temple, her voice a bare whisper. "That's it, my Rain Baby. Let your wittle eyelids get all heavy. Your Nyxie has you. My light will be your nightlight, forever and ever. No nasty pyres in your dreams, just cuddles and kisses for my best boy."
Statera, her hand gently stroking Kuro's back in a slow, circular pattern, pressed her own kiss to his shoulder. "My strong, brave Storm Baby," she murmured into the fabric of his tunic. "You just sleep. Mommy's Polaris is right here, your very own North Star. It will always, always show you the way home to us. No getting lost for my sweet infant. Never, ever."
From behind Kuro, Lucifera's voice was the softest of all, a warm breath against the shell of his ear, each word a silken thread in the tapestry of safety she was spinning around him. "My logical little storm is all out of thoughts now, isn't he? Good. No more thinking. Just sleeping. Mommy Luci is right here. I will be your anchor in the dark. My arms will always, always be your fortress. Nothing gets past me. Nothing touches my son. Now sleep."
The combined effect was a sublime, psychic cocoon. Lyra's hum was the structure, Nyxara's promise the warmth, Statera's assurance the direction, and Lucifera's vow the unbreakable lock on the door. The Lovecraftian horror of the outside world was not just kept at bay; it was rendered meaningless, a faint, forgotten rumour against the overwhelming reality of this love.
The twins, utterly spent and more secure than they had ever been in their lives, did not just fall asleep. They dissolved into it. Their bodies went boneless, all weight and trust. Their breathing deepened, syncing with the rhythm of Lyra's lullaby and the whispered mantras in their hair.
They were the centre of a living universe that would never, could never, let them go. And as the last ember in the hearth died, leaving only the soft, pulsating glow of the mothers to light the velvet dark, the six of them slept, a single, breathing entity dreaming only of each other.
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