Chapter 44: Chapter 44
I must've dozed off because before I knew it the morning light pierces my eyes and I'm wide-awake.
I feel a weight on my chest and look down to see Nik's huge calloused hand cupping my left boob and one his right thick tree trunk of a leg is lazily thrown across my thighs caging me in. I smile, possessive even in his sleep.
I notice something hard poking my hip. My belly flutters when I look down and see his morning wood greeting me. I try to pay it no mind even as I squeeze my legs together.
I continue to peruse Nik in his sleep. I very rarely see him this unguarded around me, or people in general. So I soak in his unguarded face that looks so much younger when he hasn't got his signature scowl or smirk in place. I trace the lines around his closed eyes and the stubble on his cheek, before both of those emerald orbs open and stare at me.
Both of us say nothing, just bask in the warmth of each other's presence. His heated stare makes my pussy throb and I try not to rub my legs together to relieve the ache, so that he doesn't catch onto my dirty thoughts.
Too late, something in my face must have given away my thoughts, because he flips me onto my back so quick, that I only see a blur & lay dazed for a second until my eyes refocus.
I'm a little regretful that they re-focus because the primal hunger reflected in Nik's eyes ignites my body to a feverish temperature. My stomach jumps in surprise from the feel of his hard length poking my belly button.
He presses both of my wrists down into the pillow beside my head causing my folds to flood at the way he takes control of my body. 'Dirty, dirty kiska.' He says, as he rubs circles on my wrists in a distracting pattern.
'You actually thought that I wouldn't notice your body reacting to me. You underestimate me.' He licks from my collarbone up my neck and to the corner of my mouth.
A whimper escapes me and he stops. When I open my eyes, my pussy throbs at the evil smirk on Nik's face. Something about all that passion and control tightly wound like a rubber band about to snap at any moment, gets my body hot and bothered like nothing else.
My breathing becomes laboured; he must take pity on me because he starts rocking his cock against my belly. The wet beads of his pre-cum coating me and making his cock glide against my stomach easily in an erotic rhythm, showing me what he would do if he were inside of me. My core aches with jealousy. So close yet so far.
I groan in frustration.
'You have something to say to me kiska?' Nik starts nibbling on my neck like he has all the time in the world.
'You already know what I want.' I ground out.
'I want to hear you say it.' Nik says.
'Oh for fuck sa-!'
I'm cut off when he bites down on my shoulder, hard enough for it to pinch, but not hard enough for it to break the skin. 'Ow!' I gasp.
'Tsk, you and that filthy mouth.' He licks over the area he bit, soothing the sting.
'It's going to get you in trouble one day.' He stops to glare at me.
I return his glare with defiance. He's so annoying, argh!
He continues glaring at me, but there's mirth dancing behind his dark orbs as he suddenly thrusts two thick digits into my core without any warning. I gasp in surprise, at the delicious fullness.
'Seems like your pussy is always read to be honest for me.' he slips his fingers out, and pops them in his mouth, licking them clean.
My legs quiver feeling like jelly. It feels like they're connected to my wanton pussy.
He rubs his finger against my lips, I can smell myself on his and that makes my heart beat so hard I can barely hear anything. 'Are these ones ready to be honest….hmm krasotka?'
I'm blushing so hard from his dirty act that I feel frozen.
For some reason I feel ashamed of myself for liking his dirty words and the erotic things he does when we're together.
None of the men I've dated in the past have ever spoken to me like this in bed or treated me like this. Yet, its undeniable how sexy I find it, even now my core is throbbing at his words, urging him to take me like a beast.
He must sense the direction of my thoughts because he flips us around so that I'm sitting on top of him. I stare at Nik while he's sitting resting against the headboard of his enormous bed.
We're almost sitting eye to eye. He's usually towering over me so I've never had a chance to be this close to his face, let alone at eye level. It feels strange and too intimate. My heart skips a beat when I notice him looking at me with a gentleness that I've never seen before.
'Come on Jas, talk to me.' Nik says.
'Come on Jas, talk to me. Tell me what's going on in that mind of yours.'
My gaze drops down to his chest. I really don't feel like exposing my weakness to this hunk of a man.
He tilts my chin so that I'm facing him again and he looks at me with a warmth that touches my soul and makes me feel safe, 'You can tell me whatever it is. I won't judge you.'
I blush embarrassed that it's become a bigger issue than I intended.
His body suddenly tenses under my touch and his brows knit together, 'Or did I do something to make you feel uncomfortable?'
I furiously shake my head, 'No its not that its just that sometimes you say such crude things that I shouldn't like but I do. And it makes me feel confused and ashamed of myself. I shouldn't be getting excited at being disrespected like that.'
His brows furrow, 'Jas, first of all you can like whatever the hell you like. There;s no judgement here. If anything your reactions ruin me because they arouse me and test the boundaries of my control.'
I stare at him in shock at his honest admission of that, and it acts a soothing balm to my wounded pride.
He tucks a few pieces of hair that are blocking my face behind my ear, 'And second of all, I don't know if you are in denial or have just been with some vanilla pansies, but you like being dominated in bed.'
The blush on my face deepens, and he smirks in satisfaction at the effect he has on me. 'That's what I'm trying to say. I shouldn't like being bullied and disrespected in bed. That's not who I am.'
He chuckles, which makes me smack his shoulder, 'I'm being serious Nik.'
'I'm being serious too Jas, you like getting a reaction out of me. Then seeing how I'm going to punish you later. Just like how I enjoy your fiery side and thinking about ways to conquer you.'
I gasp, 'You animal!'
His body shakes with laughter. Nik's green orbs light up with a mischievous energy that I've never seen before. It makes my heart jump in my throat.
He stops laughing, 'In all seriousness, taing away what you think is right or wrong, do you truly feel disrespected by me in bed?' he stares at me earnestly waiting for my answer.
I churn over his words, and I hate to admit it, but he's right. I'm probably more shocked at enjoying all the dirty things he says to me rather than what he's actually saying. If anything it fires me up even more.
'Ok fine, it pains me to admit it but you're right. I do like your filthy mouth. I'm just not used not it. No guy I've dated before has ever—' he cuts me off by rolling me onto my back.
He clicks his tongue at me, staring at me in warning, 'New rule Jas, don't ever mention any of the men you've fucked in the past when we're in bed together. Otherwise I really don't know what I might do to them.' He says darkly.