THE RULER OF MAP

Chapter 69: CHAPTER 69: The Heart of Reflection



As they continued forward, the landscape began to shift. The mist cleared just enough to reveal faint shapes ahead—strange, indistinct figures, their outlines shifting and warping as if they were reflections in a broken mirror. These forms seemed to flicker in and out of existence, each one representing a fleeting thought, an emotion, or perhaps a memory.

Zhang Xin stopped in his tracks, his heart pounding in his chest. One figure, standing alone, was clearer than the rest. It was his father, standing at the edge of a vast, burning battlefield. The flames licked at the sky, and the air was thick with the acrid scent of smoke. His father's face was resolute, his back straight, but there was a weight in his eyes—a sorrow that Zhang Xin had never truly understood until now.

The figure turned toward him, and for a brief moment, their eyes met. His father's expression was one of silent understanding, yet there was an unspoken distance between them, a rift that had never been bridged in life.

Zhang Xin took a step forward, but the figure flickered and dissolved before his eyes, replaced by another—his younger sister, standing in the doorway of their childhood home, tears streaming down her face. The memory was so vivid, so raw, it felt like a knife in his chest.

"Zhang Xin… Why did you leave me?"

The voice was soft but filled with pain, a question that had haunted him for years, one that he had never been able to answer.

Mingyue's hand touched his shoulder, grounding him in the moment. "These are not real," he said gently, his voice unwavering. "They are reflections of your guilt, your regrets, and the things you've never forgiven yourself for."

Zhang Xin closed his eyes, a tight knot forming in his stomach. He knew Mingyue was right, but the weight of those emotions—the unspoken words, the lost time, the decisions that had torn his family apart—felt suffocating.

"I don't know how to let go of this," Zhang Xin admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. "I've carried it for so long."

Mingyue's voice was steady, his gaze unwavering. "You don't have to let it go all at once. Just acknowledge it, accept it, and know that it does not define you. The past is part of you, but it is not all of you."

Zhang Xin swallowed hard, his eyes still fixed on the fading figures of his family. His father, his sister—they were no longer here, but their memory, their pain, still clung to him. He felt the sting of guilt that had shaped his every decision, the burden of knowing he could never undo the choices he had made.

But Mingyue was right. The past could not be erased, but it could be accepted.

With a deep breath, Zhang Xin stepped back, closing his eyes to shut out the visions. He focused on the present—on the ground beneath his feet, on the steady rhythm of his breath. Slowly, the memories of his family faded, slipping back into the mist.

When he opened his eyes again, the mist had shifted once more. The figure that had been his father was gone, replaced by something else—something darker. A looming figure in armor, black as the night, stood at the center of the clearing. Its face was hidden behind a helmet, but Zhang Xin could feel its presence, a cold weight that seemed to press down on him from all sides.

The figure did not move, but Zhang Xin knew it was waiting for him—waiting for him to acknowledge it.

"This is the true heart of the trial," Mingyue said quietly. "This is your inner darkness, the fear of your own inadequacy, the part of you that you refuse to confront."

Zhang Xin's heart beat faster. He had felt this presence before—this overwhelming sense of being unworthy, of never being enough. It had followed him throughout his life, shaping his every action, whispering doubts into his ear.

He took a step forward, and the figure stirred, its form flickering like a shadow caught in a flame. The silence between them stretched, thick with anticipation. Zhang Xin could feel the weight of the figure's gaze, even though it had no eyes to speak of. It was as if the very essence of his fear had taken shape before him.

The figure raised a hand, and Zhang Xin felt a sharp, overwhelming pressure in his chest. It was the feeling of every failure, every missed opportunity, every moment of self-doubt crashing over him all at once. He stumbled, but Mingyue was there, steadying him.

"You do not have to face this alone," Mingyue said, his voice strong and unwavering. "This is your darkness, but it does not define you. You are not the sum of your failures. You are more than that."

Zhang Xin closed his eyes, his breath coming in ragged gasps. He had always believed that his worth was tied to his success—that if he failed, if he faltered, then he would be nothing. But Mingyue's words—his quiet, steady faith in him—began to crack through the wall of doubt that had surrounded his heart for so long.

He opened his eyes again, this time meeting the figure's presence head-on. The pressure in his chest did not ease, but instead, Zhang Xin stood taller. His hand slowly moved to the sword at his side, not in anger, but in resolve. The darkness before him was not something to fight—it was something to face.

"I will not be afraid," Zhang Xin whispered, his voice trembling but strong. "I will not let fear control me."

The figure flickered, its form growing weaker with every word. Zhang Xin's grip on his sword tightened, not in preparation for battle, but as an act of defiance against the darkness that had ruled his life for far too long.

With a final breath, Zhang Xin stepped forward, breaking through the weight of his fear. The figure dissolved into the mist, leaving nothing behind but silence.

Mingyue stepped forward, his eyes filled with understanding. "You've done it," he said quietly. "You've faced your darkness."

Zhang Xin nodded, his chest still tight, but lighter than before. He had confronted the deepest parts of himself—the parts he had buried, the parts he feared. And he had chosen to walk forward, despite it all.

The mist began to clear, the air growing lighter as they continued on their path. Ahead, the landscape shifted once more, revealing a distant, glowing light—a beacon on the horizon. The end of the trial was near, but Zhang Xin knew that the journey was far from over.

With Mingyue by his side, he took the first step toward that light, knowing that whatever awaited him beyond it, he was no longer the person he had been when he first entered this place.

He was stronger now—wiser, too—and ready to face whatever came next.


Tip: You can use left, right, A and D keyboard keys to browse between chapters.