The Resetting Lady

[154]

“Icella, Miss Karen Haier is here again.”

“Why do you keep coming to see me?”

“He wants to be friends with you.”

Verdick was a funny face.

Many people begged to cling to themselves and reduce any damage. I’ve seen some beggars clinging to Isela. However, it was the first time that a woman who succeeded the blood of an aristocrat came to Isela, even if she was poor.

Most of all, friends. Berdick had no choice but to laugh at the words.

Who will be friends with whom? No matter how many friends you have, Karen will have to wait on Isela. It was quite tempting. Verdick wanted to see Isella play Karen very much. Like you want to be the aristocrats.

“As I said before, Karen Haier also has the blood of the Great. It’ll help me make my debut.”

“I don’t like it.”

Isela turned her head around.

“But I brought you a gift. It’s a pretty luxurious thing.”

“You don’t have to see it. If you’ve prepared something luxurious at that level, doesn’t that mean there’s something else you want? I hate girls like that all the more.”

Berdick put back the necklace he had held.

***

“…what happened?”

“I didn’t see you.”

“I see.”

Karen drank cold water one after another. Isella’s refusal was not a courtesy, but there was no other way but to drink cold water. Karen had to calm down even the burning insides. Raymond looked at the scene uneasily.

“What about Nancy?”

“I went to the jewelry store to ask if I could get a refund.”

“Oh, will it work?”

“I don’t expect much from you, but I think it’s okay to look forward to it.”

Raymond, who took the balance instead of Karen, sighed.

“I’ll pay you back later.”

“You don’t have to pay me back. Everything I have is yours.”

“That’s touching. Let me lie down for now. I’m exhausted.”

Karen got up, tottering, and lay down on the bed. Dust glistened in the air. It was still an early afternoon to fall asleep. There was nothing to do because Isela didn’t even meet Karen. Karen lay down and murmured.

“Why don’t you even meet me….”

Raymond paid more to move to the most expensive place in town, but Raymond’s eyes still didn’t like the room. The floor was a little squeaky and the bed was clean but narrow. Raymond sat next to Karen.

“Do you really want to be friends with Miss Isela?”

“Yes, it’s my goal in my life.”

“Carran, you don’t even like Miss Isella, do you have to do that?”

Karen turned her head and glared at Raymond.

“That’s up to me.”

“It’s because I don’t understand. I understand that you want to make friends. But it doesn’t have to be Miss Isela.”

Raymond hated Verdick. He did not turn the anger away from his daughter Isela, but he did not intend to whisper his love to her. Raymond had to suppress his emotions whenever he saw her. I had to try not to cause irrational anger. After the memory came back, Raymond had to continue to check that Isela was not taking necessary steps, but was acting with his hatred projected.

Karen was more than Raymond’s position. Icela and Karen were never in a situation where they could get along. Business relations were prioritized between them. There’s Verdick, there’s Hire, there’s Raymond.

He was abused by Berdick, robbed of his property, and sometimes killed by him. If Karen wasn’t a re-living person, Karen would have just been a life where she was killed and ended by Berdick. Isela was such a daughter of Verdick. Why do you want to be friends with her?

The opponent is so bad.

It was hard for Raymond to understand her idea of getting close to the enemy in life. Raymond knows Karen’s former life. Even though Karen matched Isella as much as she could, Isela did not treat Karen as a maid or more. It was also sympathy and guilt that Raymond first began to be attracted to Karen.

“I don’t want you to kill Isela.”

Karen replied on her face.

Raymond tried to pet Karen and stopped.

“You don’t like my murder?”

His voice seemed to tremble a little. Raymond was a soldier. There were countless people he killed. And Karen has killed a man. Of course, I didn’t think Karen would feel rejected by that. Karen never showed such a sign last time. But why is Karen saying this now?

Raymond became a little nervous. What mistake did he make last time? Because of the fingernails? Did he get sick of Raymond because he sympathized with Verdick and Isela? When Karen killed, she thought everything was a book. Did he accept reality and then feel rejected again? Enough to burden Raymond?

Raymond bit his lips.

I never imagined Karen would reject her. She loves herself as much as she loves Karen. And it was a matter of no doubt. We were the only ones who could understand each other.

Karen said she was not good enough. What does that mean?

At first, I thought it was a matter of convenience. But that’s not all. Karen said she needed a friend. One Karen was enough for Raymond. It’s not fair.

“Did I disappoint you?”

“What are you talking about?”

Karen frowned and turned to her side by side. Raymond lay slanted beside Karen. I can feel Karen’s skin. Raymond hugged Karen tightly on the shoulder.

“Lord Raymond?”

I wanted to go back to my own world. There are so many things to think about in the world.

It’s terrible that Karen is dying again and again. However, I felt that my heart was sinking because I felt anxious when I was in contact with my body. I might be able to get out faster next time. The last time we acted too far and that the first time Karen may have inconvenient. Before that day, I will put the servants and maidens together again so that they can be with the young men of good character.

Maybe this is okay, too.

Even if the eternal life is never over, it will be over for hundreds of years if it is two, not alone. Raymond is the only one who understands Karen even when others are around, so Karen will be next to herself forever.

“…Ah.”

Raymond realized again why he was afraid of hugging Karen in his last life. He thought it would be okay for Karen to live forever. Karen continues to die but eventually comes back to life. Unlike hundreds of years when Raymond didn’t know Karen properly, she will not commit suicide anymore, and they will continue to meet again and again.

“Now I’m so… from daylight.”

Karen blushed but did not stop Raymond from digging. They were still newlyweds. Raymond wasn’t the only one with a sweet body. Raymond hugged Karen. Karen frowned in pain and did not move anymore.

“You can hit the curtain.”

“There’s no one to look at because there’s no place that’s in contact with this building.”

“Oh, come on.”

Karen grabbed Raymond’s back hair. And the tongue was mixed. Their clothes came off in a hurry.

Raymond didn’t think any more. The mind is governed by the body.

***

After a long time Karen lay beside Raymond and looked up at him.

“I don’t think it’s a good idea.”

“Am I not good enough?”

“No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no. Now that you talk about it, it’s not important. Can you not try to solve it with your body?”

“…yes, I’m sorry.”

Raymond’s face seemed a little hot. Karen stabbed Raymond in the chest and continued.

“There’s no way I hate you. With that little thing.”

But maybe it’s because there is no one else who can love other than Raymond. There is no one else in Karen’s world. It’s just the two of us.

“Surely, Lord Raymond, you look old.”

“Yes, yes?”

“You said that when you get older, you become insidious. You have to speak up. Why are you so nervous? Why do you hate that I said I wanted to be friends with Miss Isela? Your attitude is too much.”

“Last time I… Aren’t you disappointed because you touched Miss Isela? It feels like that to me that you are trying to protect Miss Isela.”

Raymond said it was a bit unfair.

He never had trouble with his personal feelings for Isela. Rather, he tried to control his hatred of Berdick because he was in such a good position to solve it for Isela. But for Karen, her morals and beliefs were of no value.

But what if Karen is disappointed with what she did and hates her?

Raymond avoided Karen’s eyes. I was a little depressed. Karen shouldn’t do that to herself. The last Karen didn’t show any sign of it. But a person’s feelings were not made out of courtesy or duty. Just as I felt repulsed even if I tried to be polite to Isela, Karen felt repulsed by herself being cruel. if you can’t help yourself

“I’ve already killed some people. Why are you digging like that?”

“It’s not a matter of reason or reason.”

“Lord Raymond.”

Karen climbed onto the Raymond. Raymond moaned a little, but it wasn’t the weight he couldn’t bear. Karen’s eyes glowed in the afternoon sun. Karen said, looking down at Raymond from above.

“Think it over. Would you do this because I really like her more than you? Is there anyone in the world that’s more important than Lord Raymond?”

“You don’t have a choice, do you? I know that you need friends as much as you need a lover. There are people whose friends are more important, and you want to be friends with Isella… I feel like I’m rejecting my last life.”

“…you’re not just a lover, you’re a companion. That’s why I’m doing this.”

Karen went on, looking up at Raymond from above,

“I’m doing this because I don’t want to force you to do something you don’t want to do. Lord Raymond doesn’t want to kill Miss Isela. Because I don’t like to kill people.”

Karen’s hand swept down Raymond. A soft emotion came out of his voice. Then he lowered his head. A shower of red hair wrapped around Raymond like the sun. The red lips touch and fall.

A gentle affection fell from the gaze of Raymond.

“I just want to let you do what you want to do.”

Because I love you.