Chapter 7: Chapter 7: Torn Between Two Worlds
The kiss with Ren lingered in Aya's mind long after they had parted ways. Every inch of her body still felt the electric thrill of his touch, the way his lips had captured hers, claiming her in a way that felt both thrilling and dangerous. But the moment she left the rooftop, the weight of reality crashed down on her. The guilt, the responsibility, and the pain of lying to Hikaru gnawed at her every step.
Aya had always been the girl who played by the rules. She had never allowed herself to cross certain lines. But Ren… Ren made her question everything. It wasn't just the kiss—it was the way he saw her, the way he made her feel alive, like she was more than just the quiet, predictable girl she had always been.
But what about Hikaru? How could she continue to be the girl he trusted, the one he confided in, when she was harboring such a secret? Hikaru had always been there for her, in ways no one else had. How could she betray him like this? She didn't know how much longer she could carry this weight. She didn't know if she could keep pretending that everything was fine, when her heart was divided in two.
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The Next Day
Aya arrived at school with a heavy heart, dreading the moment when she would face Hikaru. Her stomach twisted in knots as she spotted him near the entrance, looking as carefree and happy as always. How could he be so unaware? How could he smile at her, not knowing the storm brewing inside her?
As they walked to their first class together, Hikaru seemed especially chatty, completely oblivious to the inner turmoil Aya was experiencing.
"I was thinking about going to that new café after school," Hikaru said brightly. "You want to come with me? We can catch up. It's been a while since we've had time just for us."
Aya nodded absentmindedly, forcing a smile. "That sounds nice."
But inside, she felt like her heart was breaking. Hikaru deserved so much better than this—the lies, the distance, the secret she was keeping from him. But how could she tell him? How could she explain what had happened? The fear of losing him, of shattering the trust they had built for years, kept her from speaking the truth.
They spent the rest of the day in silence, Aya's thoughts constantly drifting back to the rooftop, to Ren's kiss, to the feelings she was struggling to control. She couldn't tell Hikaru now—not when he was so happy, so unaware of the danger hanging over their friendship.
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That Afternoon
After school, as promised, Hikaru led Aya to the new café. He seemed excited, chatting about random things, but Aya couldn't focus on his words. All she could think about was Ren. Would he be waiting for her at the rooftop again? Would she allow herself to go back to him, despite the growing sense of betrayal she felt toward Hikaru?
"Aya, you're so quiet today," Hikaru said suddenly, his voice tinged with concern. "Is something wrong?"
Aya hesitated, her heart racing. She had to say something. She couldn't keep pretending everything was fine. But how could she explain everything? How could she explain the pull Ren had on her, the way he made her feel like she was finally living, and how that conflicted with her long-standing loyalty to Hikaru?
"I've just been thinking," Aya said softly, trying to keep her voice steady. "About everything."
Hikaru looked at her closely, his expression softening. "You don't have to think about it alone, you know. You can always talk to me."
Aya swallowed, her throat dry. "I don't know how to talk about this…"
Hikaru's eyes softened, and he reached out, taking her hand in his. "Aya, whatever it is, I'm here. Always."
The simplicity of his gesture almost broke her. She could feel the depth of his affection for her, his unwavering support, and it made the guilt burn even more. She didn't deserve him. Not when she was so conflicted, not when part of her was already slipping away from him.
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Later That Evening
Aya returned home, exhausted, mentally drained from the emotions that had been swirling inside her all day. She didn't know what to do, how to handle the mess she had created. She walked to her room, shutting the door behind her, and sank onto her bed, staring up at the ceiling.
Her phone buzzed with a message. It was from Ren.
"I know you're confused, but you don't need to hide from me."
Aya's breath caught in her throat as she read the message. Was he right? Did she even need to hide from him anymore? Her heart told her that she wanted to be with him—that the moments she had spent with him, the connection they shared, were real and undeniable. But what about Hikaru? Was she really willing to lose him for the thrill of being with someone like Ren?
She could feel herself being pulled in two directions. She loved Hikaru, but she couldn't ignore what was growing between her and Ren. She didn't know if she could be the person she had been for so long, the reliable friend who always did the right thing. What if doing the right thing meant losing herself?
Her phone buzzed again. Another message from Ren.
"Meet me at the rooftop tonight. We'll talk."
Aya's hands trembled as she stared at the message. She knew she couldn't keep running from this. She had to make a choice—confront Hikaru and tell him the truth, or give in to Ren and see where this reckless path would lead.
She took a deep breath, her heart pounding in her chest. Tonight, everything would change.
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