The Hero’s Brother Is Bound To Be Depressed

282 – The truth of existence

Around Jin Xian, who introduced himself as Los of Longing, numerous translucent geometric patterns spiral in multiple layers, and white spheres of magical power create runes, revealing their presence like stars in the universe.

A technique that has never been seen before and is close to a level of power that even Archmage Ellie is unable to achieve. Just by looking at it, I was able to experience the phenomenon of ‘opening eyes’. Loss of Longing was at a level that had escaped the realm of transcendence and reached an unset level above it.

Feeling my heart tremble, I paused for a moment and asked Jin Xian in an even voice.

“Why did you give yourself the word craving?”

Jin Xian, who was creating a beautiful pink sky around her that looked like something you would see on the ceiling of a club room, frowned at my question.

“Somehow you ask the most important thing first. “It’s hard to explain.”

Jin Xian, who released the magic surrounding him and returned to his normal clothes, sat down on the sofa and laughed.

“The reason I named it ‘craving’ is simple. To distinguish between the various Loss of the multiverse. Loss of that world, Loss of this world… It’s hard to say this, isn’t it? I gave each one a name to make it easier to distinguish them. Ross of hope, Ross of despair, etc. For your information, as I said before, I will call you the worst Ross. I will not accept any rebuttal. “Trash!”

As I saw Jin Xian waving his invisible baton, I asked a question to draw out the story further.

“Are you here watching Ross from another world?”

“Yes, because I am an observer. I’m just watching with interest what choices other Ross makes. I never intervene. “There are many beings I need to hide my existence from.”

I bit my lip at Jin Xian’s words. The inherent contradiction I felt before stimulates my heart.

“If there were more Loss in other worlds… “Then what am I?”

“I told you, this is the worst Ross.”

“That’s not what you mean!”

As I shouted, Jin Xian, who was drinking cola, stretched the corners of his mouth. I continued speaking while glaring at Jin Xian.

“If there are many mes in the multiverse… What exactly is the existence of me? Did Jin Xian, possessed by the novel, split into numerous Loss of the multiverse? Or are you just a copy of me with the same soul? How can I so easily accept that there is another me just like me? “Is there a being that can truly be called Jinxian?”

I felt a visceral discomfort just knowing that Ross, called Dantalion, was in the demon world. It was an essential instinct that comes from knowing that there is a being like oneself. Isn’t it human nature to reject doppelgängers?

However, since I did not meet Ross from another world in person, the doubts that had stopped at a nerve-wracking level exploded when I met Jin Xian, who was my true self in front of me. Endless doubts and denials about my existence are pushing the existence of Jinsian in front of me out of my mind and forcing me to erase it. I desperately resisted the shaking of my hips in response to that will.

Jin Xian, with a strange smile, spoke sharply.

“That’s the fundamental theory, your anxiety only comes from uncertain information. “I know the truth about the Akashic Records, so I just accepted everything.”

My heart is beating like crazy. She started to explode, as if she wanted herself to explode. The essence of the country begins to collapse. Jin Xian must have noticed this and placed her hand on my shoulder with her magical hand. My heart, which had been racing loudly as if I had been administered a sedative, continues to beat softly as if it had never been like that before.

“Let’s cool off. Questioning the meaning of existence is a disease of doubt that destroys oneself. “Don’t try to understand everything in the universe, just accept it and you will be able to survive.”

I let out a deep sigh and wiped my face.

“… sorry. Of course I thought there would be one. I never thought that there could have been countless other me possessed in other worlds. “Because this wasn’t a discarded setting.”

Jin Xian suddenly clapped his hands. He spoke to me with one corner of his mouth twisted, as if he had just thought of something unpleasant.

“Okay, let’s talk about it one by one from there. Have you ever questioned your own possession?”

“question… ? Of course there is. I was curious as to why I had to be possessed by a novel I wrote. I didn’t do it all year long, and I didn’t get a 5,700-character comment from a reader with the worst ending. “Now I suspect that my possession was to resolve a configuration error regarding the cult leader.”

“Wow, you can’t believe you’re making such an inference based on uncertain information. “Maybe your unique ability isn’t space magic.”

“Wait a minute, my unique ability is space magic… ? “I just took Rosalyn’s chance and used it.”

At my answer, Jin Xian snorted as if it was ridiculous.

“Don’t you remember what Ellie said in the previous world? Even Ellie, who has reached the level of a great wizard, cannot recognize spatial coordinates and create dimensional passages during battle. That’s because you have a natural talent close to the power of space magic.”

“B-but I had low natural magic power, so I couldn’t use space magic properly at first.”

“But you solved that problem yourself.”

I frowned at Jin Xian speaking as if it was obvious. I tried so hard to freely use space magic. I don’t like it when it’s easy to say.

Jin Xian must have sensed my annoyed gaze and said with a smile.

“Change your perspective, not why you were possessed… “It means questioning why you had to possess yourself at that moment.”

“What is that… .”

“Our novel begins with Roel entering Transcendence Academy and becoming a student. However, we begin to possess Ross after Roel becomes a second year student. “Have you never once wondered why there is a one-year gap in our possession?”

Until now, I have never had any doubts about the moment I was possessed by Ross. Strangely enough, I recognized it as ‘natural’. I felt the contradiction in Jin Xian’s words and felt suffocated.

“Your questions and my answers so far lead to one correct answer. Because that is the truth that can explain everything. The reason why Jin Xian, who came from beyond outer space, was able to possess Ross in numerous multiverse worlds, and the reason why there was a one-year gap between the beginning of the novel and Ross’s possession… .”

Jin Xian deliberately paused and finished speaking slowly, as if he was talking to himself.

“Because we were fake possessors.”

“… what?”

“Because Jin Xian, who first possessed Ross, is dead. “I’m probably waking up from a dream I can’t remember and writing a novel.”

Jin Xian’s words were so absurd that I burst into laughter. She couldn’t stop her laughter from leaking out anymore. As she laughed loudly, Jin Xian scratched her nose.

“Have you lost your mind over the cruel truth? Just take it stupidly. “It’s comfortable to think of yourself as a character in a game, just like you become a character in a novel.”

“Shut up! You must have done it! I’m dead? And we’re fake, what kind of bullshit is that? “They said it was the correct answer, but it didn’t explain anything!”

“No, that’s fully explained. If only we were copies of the first Jinxian. If I am the 1031st Jinsian, then you are the 19201st Jinsian. “The copy using the dummy data of the original Jinxian is our truth.”

I feel like I’m having a nightmare. It makes me want to slam my forehead against the wall and wake up. But my heart still beats softly thanks to Jin Xian’s magic. There is no way to explode the anger that is burning in your heart.

“As expected, you are trying to deceive me. “You fraudster.”

When he said that while getting up from the sofa, Jin Xian snorted.

“What benefit do I have from lying like this? This is my first time seeing Ross so extreme in one side. That’s really stupid. How are you the last Ross? “Looking at it now, it looks like any hope left will be lost.”

“shut up! So tell me, if we are copies, why are we possessed a year after the novel? “That’s a contradiction!”

Jin Xian spoke calmly without any sign of embarrassment at my point.

“Of course it was because the saint needed time to prepare.”

“A saint… What kind of bullshit is this all of a sudden? “I haven’t even met a saint yet.”

Hearing my words, Jin Xian took a deep breath and said.

“Someone used probability to forcibly invade the world, citing an error in the setting of the novel at the end. So, in order to eliminate the intruders, God possessed Jin Xian, the creator of the world, in the novel. Because I thought that was the right answer. But the first Jinxian failed, and the world was forever trapped in a cycle of repeated birth and extinction. God stored the soul of the deceased Jinxian in the Akashic Records, and the saint of the next world used it to possess us to Los. The current situation is that it has been repeated endlessly. “To find the one true vision that will break the shackles of eternity, that is God’s purpose.”

Jin Xian got up from the sofa and stood in front of me. And he looked straight at me and said.

“The reason we were possessed a year after the novel began is because the saint needed time to download and modify Jin Xian’s soul from the Akashic Records. The soul of Ross, who failed in another world, is modified by taking lessons from past failures and becomes a saint ver. 19201 Time to create Jinxian.”

As he said that, Jin Xian smiled mischievously.

“The existence of a saint is a large capacity USB used to possess Ross with the copied soul of Jinxian. That’s why we are fake possessors. “We are the ones who simply copied the data into Ross’s soul and overwrote it.”