Chapter 11: Denial
I simply can't do anything without Alicia on my mind. I know I mentioned that our relationship was mostly physical, but what else do I require from her beyond that? I have sealed off my heart's remnants, so I shouldn't be feeling like this for her. No, it's only a fleeting attraction. When I am done with her, as I have done with every other girl I have been in a relationship with, I will break up with her. But the thought of it definitely makes me feel uncomfortable, God knows. I simply cannot bear the idea of her being with another man. I am not familiar with this feeling.
The desire to fully possess her. I believed that her absence would lessen my crush on her, but actually it only made me want her even more. Is it only about the physical aspect? I believe not. I have had a number of great lovers before, so what sets hers apart? Yes, as soon as I laid eyes on her in my office, I knew I wanted her. I was amazed to see that she was the same little girl I had encountered earlier. She resembled Adrian somewhat, but she definitely inherited traits from her mother too. Adrian said that his high school girlfriend became pregnant, and her parents decided to give Alicia to him and his parents to prevent it from affecting their daughter's future.
The shy little girl I saw that day is no longer here, she has been replaced by a more confident and outspoken woman, the present Alicia. I don't know how I'm going to survive this whole weekend alone, I miss her like crazy. This is getting out of control, and I've realized how frequently I get jealous. I just can't seem to control it. It's all her fault for being so darn pretty. The thought of her with another man drives me insane.
The last time I spoke with her was last night, she seems happy visiting her grandparents. She really needed this rest, I know. So why am I flying in my private plane to visit her? I saw her yesterday after work, it's only Saturday. I chuckle to myself, "what have you done to me? Hmm, my beautiful Alicia." I must be going crazy.
I possess a penthouse in Charlotte, North Carolina. I had already informed them that I would visit after I finished my conversation with Alicia. "Mr. Bernard, welcome," I handed over my suit to the cleaner. "Miss Denise, I appreciate your help. How have you been doing?" A smile formed on her face. Denise has been working as the housekeeper for approximately two years ever since I purchased the property. After saying hello to Denise, I immediately headed to my room upon arriving at Lyon's Enterprise branch in NC. She is aware to give me space upon my arrival, since I prefer not to be bothered.
In the last decade, numerous aspects of myself have undergone transformations. Who would fault me? The life I find myself in now is not the one I had envisioned for myself. It is extremely difficult to trust someone again, particularly when it comes to my heart. Despite Alicia being a good girl, my heart's emotions are closed off. That's the reason I made it clear to her initially that I am not looking for a committed relationship. But recently, I have observed that it is me who desires more. It occasionally bothers me.
After I got settled in, I texted her.
Me: 'hey what part of NC do you live in?' In less than a minute, she replied.
Alicia: 'why do you want to know? 😋'
I chuckled, wondering what she'll say when she finds out that I couldn't even leave her alone for two days. I feel like a bad person.
Me: 'just tell me, will you?'
Alicia: '********* NC, but why do you want to know though? Are you stalking me now🤣🤣'
Me: 'what if I am? Don't you miss me?'
Alicia: 'so I can't leave you for long without you missing me huh, Lyon'
Damn, I enjoy it when she calls me by my name, it always sounds lovely to my ears. I really miss her and can't wait to have her in my arms and do things to her sexy body. Just thinking about it turns me on. It's funny how one woman can have this effect on me. The only person who has ever made me feel this way was Mia, but I push those thoughts out of my mind because I don't want to ruin my mood.
We texted for quite a while before I finally relaxed in my bedroom. This week has been really tough. I had been planning on opening another branch of Lyon Enterprise, hoping it would become a multi-billion dollar company. I never thought I would achieve this in just a few years. I guess focusing on work instead of love has made me the man I am today. I vow not to love again, and since then my life has been great. I don't need any woman to bring me down - I'm better off on my own.
The next day, which was Sunday, I decided to visit her. My driver, Raymond, parked at the front of her house as I called her on the phone. "Hey," she said from her side of the phone. "Hello," I replied. "Alicia, would you like to come out of your house?" She grew silent for a while before exclaiming, "I knew something was fishy when you asked me for my home address. Are you parked outside?" From her voice, I could tell that I wasn't the only one going crazy from not seeing each other. I chuckled, "Yeah, I'm parked outside."
In a few minutes, she came outside. Seeing her from my car, I wanted to jump out of it. My body was excited, and I wanted that girl in the lovely blue gown in my arms, with her shiny blonde hair. She is the epitome of beauty.
She spotted my car and walked towards it. Raymond got out of the driver's seat to open the door for her. As she approached, I felt my palms get sweaty. Why am I suddenly so obsessed with her? Why does seeing her excite me so much? Lyon, you're not a kid, but she makes me feel like one.
Once she got in the car and the door was open, I couldn't control myself. I pulled her into my arms and kissed her passionately. She responded with equal enthusiasm. My body felt so hot that I couldn't think straight. Raymond knew not to interrupt and stood outside. I kissed her fiercely, exploring every part of her mouth. Her breathing became rough and so did mine. She sat on my lap, her hands on my shoulders. I held her waist and grind her ass against me. The movement alone made me moan. I was like a starving man, and I knew it. I moved her dress out of the way so I could touch her smooth thigh. Her skin felt divine and sinful. I broke off the kiss, and she grunted in displeasure.
She looks like a goddess, did she just pout? I smiled. "You should have told me you were coming today. I would have prepared. Or were you not planning on going further?" If she was in my head, she would have called me a pervert. But I'm beginning to think I'm not the only pervert here. The look on her face has told me she wants to eat me alive. "That is what you call a surprise, Alicia. What fun is it if I told you I was coming?" I chuckle. "Still, so you don't plan on doing anything?" She asked with a sly smile across her face. My dick keeps getting harder and bigger the more she does that. "What excuse do you want to give to your grandparents?" She smiled mischievously. "Oh, I had already solved that. Why do you think it took quite some time for me to come out?" Now that's my good girl. I gave another powerful kiss before I called Raymond.