The calm

Cyra pov:

Finally I felt silence again and darkness which cocoons around me like a blanket. Then again with the amount of peace I felt, pain manages to slip it's way through my joints muscle and bones I felt like I was being skinned alive, I felt the cracking of my bone like I was hit by a truck.

Once again it stopped but with a different outcome this time around. I felt like taking a huge breath which I did and I didn't choke I felt like moving and I did. Overall I felt alive, is this what it feels when one dies, at last I decided to open my eyes against the better judgement of my brain and when I did I nearly fainted on the spot.

I was glowing and I could breath underwater. I was about to ask how it was possible to not only breath underwater but shift as well, when I had just been obviously rejected

"you know you can stop with the questions and get us out of here, I'll tell you things you need to know, okay?" A voice interrupted my thoughts

"Oooookayyyyyyyyyy".. I answered while I swam to the river bank.

Once at the riverside I changed back to my human form then laid in the grass looking up at the sky

"You tried to kill us without my opinion on the matter" I could hear the pain in her voice

"Am sorry Aurora, I...." I couldn't even finish the sentence or give excuses because she's right that's what happened.

I crossed my legs together then bent down and cried, for all the stupidity I've portrayed, for being naïve, for reducing myself to nothing, for allowing myself being pushed and punched as a bag but one thing I didn't cry for is for being alive.

I don't know how long I cried or how much I cried because I ended up sleeping as well, strong pair of warm hands gently counsel me onto something smooth and warm. My head moved onto something boosted. I felt strong muscles beneath me. Lap. I was on someone's lap. My pulse accelerated, and even with my sluggish and incoherent thoughts, I knew this was not normal. A faint memory ushered me to recall little details.

Like the scent of the person, I jolted out of my former mates laps

"What do you want from me, alpha" I asked spewing his title with venom

"You're going to freeze up, if you don't get warm" he said not looking to meet my gaze

"How is that any of your business?" I asked getting away from him.

He looked up to meet my eyes then said "As much as I hate you, your death means my death and I can't have that"

"You don't have to worry about your precious live, ALPHA you won't be dying anytime soon just leave me the hell alone and I'll leave you too" I assured

He then stood up dusted himself and said "That's good to hear and remember we are not mates, why I haven't rejected you yet is am saving both of us from the pain of rejection but that doesn't mean you should raise your shoulders, stay in your place slave I already have the perfect mate a man would need, do you understand me slave"

"Very clear, alpha" I replied while looking directly at his eyes. He just nodded and left

One thing is for sure he hates me and I hate him too and the feeling is definitely mutual with my wolf too. I looked at my wet clothes and decided to head home which is a very long journey from where I am, I sigh while remembering what my foster dad would always say

Life is a journey. We win some, we lose some. It doesn't always have to go the way we want it to. The challenge is to bring it back on track no matter how awry it goes.

Or at least that's what I tell myself as I walk through the forests all alone. "You're not alone" I heard in my head "We will always be together, always and forever unless you plan on dying" I chuckled as I heard the last part "thanks for everything Aurora, I promise no more trying to kill myself "

I have no idea what am going to do now being in the same pack with my ex mate while acting as if what he does, does not affect me. All I have is hope and will, hope for a better outcome to this whole plan of mine and the will to keep pushing through each day and eventually get my revenge and happiness. I'll keep pushing no matter what, trying to survive and find it.

What's 'it'? I have no idea. There is something that is pulling me towards it and I take the bait, as what do I have to lose? Maybe this will be a good thing and I can finally live that meaningful, peaceful life I always wanted. A life where I did not have to hide anymore and could settle down.

Little did I know...

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