The Absolute Beings Obsessed with My Defeat Addiction

Helen, regaining her composure, glared at me.

“Yes, since I’ve become an accomplice as you said, I can’t say that Yuris saw such depravity.”

“You know well.”

“To think you were watching such lewdness while pretending to be perfectly fine… I’m disappointed, Yuris.”

Her face completely flushed, she stepped back, adjusting her clothes.

“…You didn’t see it, did you?”

“What do you mean?”

“…That. The vision I saw.”

“Do you want me to tell you the truth? Or would you prefer a little lie added in?”

“…No. Don’t answer. I know exactly what you would say.”

“Understood.”

She was certainly sharp; it seemed she quickly caught on that I had indirectly experienced her vision.

“I hope Lady Silvesta becomes a regular at our shop. As you can see, we don’t have many customers.”

“W-Why would I come back to a place like this?”

“Wasn’t it enjoyable?”

“D-Don’t be ridiculous! It was not enjoyable at all!”

“Considering that…”

“What?”

I stopped speaking at Helen’s urgent interruption, as she seemed ready to argue.

“No, it’s nothing.”

There was no need to provoke her further.

I wasn’t sure if it matched her tastes, but it was true that she had enjoyed it quite a bit in the end.

Just because it wasn’t spoken aloud didn’t mean that fact disappeared.

However, if I provoked her any further, she would likely become hostile towards me.

For now, it was best to let silence reign.

“Anyway, please come by anytime. On your second visit, I’ll offer you a 50% discount.”

“I won’t need to come again. I won’t be coming.”

“Then it seems our service was lacking, which is unfortunate.”

There were many areas for improvement.

But at least it was certain that Helen was satisfied.

‘Even though she wasn’t originally my type, she enjoyed the very situation of her collapse.’

For someone who had always succeeded, defeat was bound to be a strange feeling.

And the more unfamiliar that sensation was, the greater the shock would be when it approached.

While the feeling of defeat in reality could drive a person to the edge, to ruin.

‘But defeat in a vision carries no such risk.’

The unfamiliar sensation of collapse was all there was.

That sensation could be thrilling enough to become addictive for someone.

Just like Helen now.

“Anyway, I ask that you keep our customers’ information confidential. Commander Yuris is also a valuable customer to us.”

“…I understand. But you know, right?”

“Of course. Today, Lady Helen did not come here.”

“You know well.”

Hmph!

With a snort, Helen paid and hurriedly left the shop.

I watched her retreating figure.

The process had been rough, but the outcome was satisfying.

I had managed to suppress the idea of reporting our shop to the radical reformists of the Goddess Church, as well as the thought of discovering Yuris’s weakness to blackmail her.

Since she seemed satisfied herself, she likely wouldn’t try to ruin this place.

‘Though she did insist she wouldn’t come again.’

I thought as I watched Helen flee.

She would definitely come back.

Just like Yuris did.

“I need to prepare properly for the next customer.”

To be honest, it wasn’t a perfect vision.

I had extracted the nerd she hated the most based on her memories, but I couldn’t confidently say I had perfectly realized it.

After all.

‘There was too little information about that nerd.’

The meager details were all I had.

She didn’t even know the guy’s name.

Nor did she know his personality or academic performance.

So, I had imprinted the image of the nerd through Professor Simond, who had definitely existed in her memory.

That was why.

I had forced the issue, asking if I had manipulated her memories or if they had liked each other.

With limited information, their relationship could only be limited as well.

‘I’ll need to conduct some preliminary research.’

I needed to gather precise information about what kind of person the nerd was and what kind of treatment he received.

For a vivid vision, appropriate verification was necessary.

“I’ll be visiting the Royal Academy for the first time.”

Thinking that, I began preparing for the next vision.

***

“Welcome, Miss.”

Returning to the mansion, Helen felt relieved seeing the maids and butler welcoming her as Lady Silvesta.

‘I wasn’t abandoned after all.’

The stories she had seen in the vision were all lies.

She couldn’t even fathom how tense she had been.

What if, by some chance, she had truly been abandoned by her real family?

If that had been the case, she felt she wouldn’t have been able to endure it.

“Butler, I missed you.”

“Ah, to hear you say such a thing, what happened at the Academy today?”

“Nothing. Nothing at all. Just…”

The image of the nerd who had forcibly oppressed her in her mind surfaced.

The expression of the nerd in the vision, laughing as he pressed down on her.

“Miss?”

“Oh, it’s nothing. Just tired.”

“Shall I prepare a bath for you? We have new aroma oils and bath salts that came in yesterday. There’s nothing better for relieving stress than this. You’ll love it.”

“Please do.”

Taking a bath with bath salts and aroma oils was one of Helen’s favorite pastimes.

The delightful sensation she felt every time the soft aroma and bubbling foam brushed against her skin was indescribably pleasant.

Every time the fragrant scent enveloped her body, it reminded her that she was a precious person.

But now, she couldn’t easily smile at those words.

“Then I’ll let you know shortly. Please rest in your room.”

“Thank you.”

Noticing her changed demeanor, the butler took a step back.

“Butler.”

“Yes, Miss.”

“What would happen if I lost my spirit powers?”

“What would happen? Regardless of spirit powers, you are still you. The proud daughter of Silvesta.”

“Is that so?”

But in the vision…

Get a grip.

It was just a vision.

A fantasy created by that man.

Why was she being swayed by it?

Yet, it was too vivid to simply brush aside.

As if it were real…

They said that illusion magic deceives the senses, so no matter how much you pinch yourself, you wouldn’t feel pain.

But his vision was different.

‘I felt everything.’

Even the pleasure she didn’t want to feel was vividly present.

That was why.

It kept sticking in her mind, refusing to leave.

“What if I lose my powers? Would the head of the family, or rather, my father, abandon me?”

“Why would you say such a thing? You know he wouldn’t do that.”

Suddenly, she snapped back to reality at the butler’s confident voice.

“Right. My father wouldn’t do that.”

It’s just a vision.

Just an illusion…

‘Forget it. Just forget it.’

As she rested in her room, she closed her eyes and called upon her spirit.

– The free wind and the land of order, come forth and fulfill the contract.

The spirits of wind and earth revealed themselves.

– Shyaaah~.

– Pwoo.

The high-ranking spirit of wind, resembling a wildcat, and the high-ranking spirit of earth, resembling a muscular ape, stood before her.

Unlike in the vision, she could exert her power properly now.

Her spirit sensitivity was still intact.

Seeing the spirits that had made a contract with her in the spirit realm respond immediately to her call, Helen sighed in relief.

So, the sensitivity remained.

That was truly an illusion.

In her relief, she bit her lip.

“Why didn’t you respond earlier?”

– Shaah?

– Pwoo?

The high-ranking spirits tilted their heads, seemingly confused.

“…Never mind. Go back. I just called to check.”

At her words, they silently returned to the spirit realm.

“Miss, the bath is ready. The maids will assist you.”

Entering the bathroom, where everything was prepared, she received help from the maids as she undressed.

The mirror reflected her body, clad in nothing but air.

Normally, she would have admired her flawless beauty and reaffirmed the greatness of Silvesta.

But the memories of the vision left as scars, and as soon as Helen saw the mirror, she involuntarily recalled her image being violated in the vision.

The disgraceful sight of her legs spread like a crab as she pleasured herself.

“Gasp!”

“Miss, is there something uncomfortable?”

“No, it’s nothing…”

The maids asked her in alarm.

It wasn’t their fault.

It was just her own issue of not being able to escape the vision.

Feeling her body heat up, Helen bit her lip and hurriedly stepped into the tub.

If she had been even a moment late, the maids would have noticed the female fluid escaping from her.

Regardless of the shameful thoughts, the bath salts and aroma were too fragrant and soft.

‘This will help me shake off that sticky vision, even if just for a moment.’

Helen let out a light sigh.

“It’s nice. Really nice.”

The warm bathwater, the fragrant bath salts, and the soft foam created by them, along with the aroma oil she would apply to her body after the bath.

Receiving the maids’ attentive care, she savored this feeling and thought.

‘Something feels lacking.’

***

After a dreadful day, Helen returned to the Academy once more.

‘Now, I’ll forget. The memories of that day were just bad luck.’

She thought that searching for Yuris’s weakness had only led to unnecessary thoughts.

Sighing, she entered the school and saw a familiar man in the classroom.

Originally, she shouldn’t have been familiar with him at all, but due to yesterday’s memories, he was etched in her mind.

The outcast, the nerd.

And the thugs surrounding him.

For some reason, the thugs were bullying the nerd.

“P-Please don’t…”

“Come on~. You think we’d listen to you just because you say that?”

“T-That’s my allowance for the week…”

“Not our problem. If you want to stay, you have to pay the protection fee, you know? We’re keeping you safe so you can attend the Academy without any issues, right?”

“But…”

“Either take a beating from us or hand over that money.”

“T-That’s…”

The thugs were all familiar faces.

The same men who had laughed at her for losing her family in the vision and slapped her.

Just thinking about it made her blood boil.

“Enough?”

Under normal circumstances, she would never have intervened.

Was it because of her experience in the vision, where they had mocked and slapped her?

She glared at the thugs and said.

“Lady Silvesta?”

“Stop it. Aren’t you ashamed as students of the Royal Academy?”

“…”

“Act like a noble if you’re a noble.”

Recognizing her, the thugs clicked their tongues and stepped back.

“Tch, fine.”

There were few nobles who dared to stand up to Silvesta.

As the thugs retreated and returned to their seats, the nerd hesitantly looked at her.

“Th-Thank you.”

“Ah.”

When Helen met the gaze of the nerd who had lifted his head, she instinctively flinched.

It was a reflexive reaction born from yesterday’s experience.

Her body was briefly afraid of that nerd.

However, the nerd seemed completely oblivious to her reaction.

“O-Oh, I’ll definitely repay you for today.”

His voice, barely above a whisper, expressing gratitude, quickly cooled her flustered heart.

Ah, right.

This is reality, isn’t it?

“What do you mean by repay?”

“Uh, uh?”

“Did you forget who I am? I am Helen of the Silvesta family. A man from a humble family like yours can’t do anything.”

“A-Ah, I’m sorry…”

“A loser should act like a loser and not make a peep. Don’t even think about talking to me.”

Her words came out sharper than usual.

She could see the nerd shrinking back at her barbed words.

Good.

This is how it should be.

This was the relationship between her and this nerd.

A dynamic where he had to squirm at her every word.

She almost mistook herself for being on the same level as this loser because of that brief moment she saw in the vision.

“Don’t think you helped me. From now on, don’t ever speak to me first.”

“Y-Yes…”

Ignoring the nerd’s words, she headed to her seat.

‘He’s definitely different.’

He couldn’t possibly be the same person as the nerd from the vision.

‘What was I expecting?’

She shook her head and tried to organize the rising delusions.

There wasn’t much time left in class.

I need to hurry and get ready.

As she was preparing for the lesson, she saw him.

“Why is that man…?”

A familiar man entering through the main gate of the royal academy.

It was the illusionist.