Stunned for You

Chapter 146

Fu Siyu’s expression flashed narrowly: “Aren’t you afraid to see my father?”

Shi Yi tilted his head slightly, with a puzzled look.

Fu Siyu was surprised, raised her eyebrows, and asked, “My sister didn’t tell you, did she come out with my father two days ago?”

Shi Yi’s smile instantly converged, and his astonishment was obvious.

Fu Siyu was helpless: “I knew it, but she didn’t say it.”

Shi Yi’s eyebrows wrinkled, and her heart was anxious and annoying, but she still held her tone, protecting Fu Sitian and said: “It should be because I was on a business trip a few days ago. She was afraid that I was upset, so she didn’t say it yet.”

“Is Uncle okay? Your sister…Is it okay?”

Fu Siyu was a little surprised, and then there were some expressions of appreciation and relief in his eyes.

“My dad is a little hard to accept, after all, he didn’t have any mental preparation before.”

Shi Yi’s expression dimmed, and her tone of voice turned heavy: “Understandable.” She stared at Fu Siyu, waiting for her to reveal more details.

Fu Siyu stared at her, but suddenly jumped and asked, “How much do you know about my sister’s past?”

After bumping into Shi Yi eating hot pot in Fu Sitian’s apartment that day, she pestered Fu Sitian and asked many details about the relationship between the two. She knew that Fu Sitian had known Shi Yi when he was very young, and she knew that Shi Yi was the first to chase after Fu Sitian. It was also the breakup proposed by Fu Sitian first. She knew how Fu Sitian loved Shi Yi so much, but she didn’t know whether Shi Yi knew about it.

After all, her sister has always done more than she said.

Sure enough, Shi Yi said, “Almost all of them are known. However, all they know are approximate.”

“What about the past few years?”

Shi Yi said: “She said very little, and she said it lightly and briefly.”

Fu Siyu sighed, and Shi Yi’s heart became heavy. She was not surprised, but felt very sad. Fu Siyu’s sigh contained too much meaning. In the past few years, when she didn’t know and couldn’t accompany Fu Sitian, how much hardship she had suffered when she came.

Her eyes were dull, and she raised her eyes again, and she was calm. She invited Fu Siyu: “You see it’s almost time for dinner, have you eaten yet? Is it convenient? Let’s have a meal together and talk while eating?”

Fu Siyu looked back at her with sharp eyes.

Shi Yi looked at her frankly, the inquiry and request in his eyes were not concealed, sincere and gentle, neither humble nor overbearing.

Fu Si laughed happily, and the two of them were tacitly aware.

“Okay, let’s go.” Fu Siyu agreed generously.

So the two people went out of the office and moved to a local restaurant not far from the financial center. They asked for a private room to eat and talk slowly.

While waiting for the dishes, Fu Siyu and Shi Yi once again talked about the sudden coming out of Fu Sitian and Fu Jiantao: “We had dinner and sat in the living room just after I decided to order cigarettes and wine on the day of my wedding. My dad was relieved. He breathed, and suddenly said jokingly,’Tian Tian, ​​others asked me if they received invitations, this is the second child of the Fu family, is there a sister above her who is still undecided, how do you say I should answer?’, my sister fork I handed an apple to my dad, and suddenly said,’Uncle, I actually have someone who is in a relationship now and wants to live a lifetime.’ My dad’s eyes brightened, and before he had time to be happy, my sister went on to say,’ It’s a girl’, my dad’s smile instantly froze on his face.”

“He was dumbfounded and didn’t react for a few seconds. I was dumbfounded too, without any preparation. The needle fell in the whole living room.”

Shi Yi became nervous when she heard it. She experienced the feeling of suffering. Unforgettable forever.

Fu Siyu said: “My dad is very difficult to accept. The first time I saw my dad talk to my sister with such an ugly face,’You say it again?’, my dad frowned so much that it could kill a fly. Dare to come out, leaned half of his body and prepared to rush up to protect my sister at any time. Unexpectedly, my sister’s eyes were red, but she didn’t give up at all. Looking at my dad, she was silent for a few seconds and repeated. Once again,’Uncle, I have an object now, it’s a girl, someone I liked since high school. I don’t want to hide it from you.'”

“She’s fine, I want to bring her back to see you one day.”

Shi Yi couldn’t tell whether the bottom of his heart was more distressed or more sorrowful. She used to think that in Fu Sitian’s heart, it was probably her family members that were more important, and even when she reconciled, she held this understanding. Even if Fu Sitian didn’t want to drag herself down in the original intention of separation, it is undeniable that Fu Sitian gave up her for the family, for his father, for his grandmother, and for his sister.

She chose Fu Sitian, she chose to reconcile, that is, she chose acquiescence and acceptance.

She was even ready to be Fu Sitian’s lover who had never existed in her family. After all, coming out is not an easy task, for a while, I can’t rush.

Unexpectedly, Fu Sitian did it for her silently.

Shi Yi had no choice but to remain immobile.

She breathed a little deeper and asked, “Uncle…what do you say?” They talked on the phone every day. Si Tian hasn’t mentioned this matter to her so far, so it can only show that-this time the coming out failed. She didn’t want her to be upset.

Sure enough, Fu Siyu said: “My dad didn’t say anything. He looked at her for a long time as if he hadn’t known her, clenched his fists, stood up, and went back to the room and slammed the door.”

“When my sister went back and said goodbye to him, he didn’t respond either.”

Shi Yi’s face was not very good, and Fu Siyu deliberately relaxed again and comforted her: “It’s okay, I think he has been relieved in the past two days, and he is probably digested in his heart, so he started to beat me and ask you about you.”

Shi Yi looked at Fu Siyu hesitantly, and Fu Siyu nodded affirmatively at her: “Really. It’s mainly because my dad knows my sister too well. She looks soft and talks about everything, but in fact she has opinions in her heart. Nine cows can’t be pulled back even if she recognizes things herself, let alone those who recognize it.”

The waiter delivered the food.

Fu Siyu served half a bowl of rice, like a joke and jealous, and said: “Moreover, my dad loves her too much. In the past few years, she has suffered too much, and my dad can’t bear to embarrass her.”

When Shi Yi heard the words “eating too much bitterness”, the action of serving the rice stopped.

Fu Siyu smiled slightly and asked, “You know, my sister’s household registration is linked to my house. She grew up with me in my house since she was a child, right?”

Shi Yi nodded, “Yes”.

Fu Siyu said: “Did my sister tell you that I have a bad relationship with her?”

Shi Yi served the rice and explained it lightly: “No, your sister hasn’t said it. I guessed it myself.”

Fu Siyu chuckled, noncommittal. She can see how Shi Yi is protecting Fu Sitian. She didn’t care either, and affirmed: “My relationship with her was really bad for a long time.”

“However, when she first arrived at my house, I liked her very much. You know, she is good-looking, she has been very good-looking since she was a child, white and tender, like a doll, and has a good temper. She will accompany me with everything. Play, let me have everything, so I like her very much.”

“Then later?”

Fu Siyu smiled bitterly: “There is no later. It didn’t take long. I didn’t like her anymore. Because she lived in my house every day. Although she gave me everything, I found out that I had to divide her into half. The bed needed Divide her half, clothes half her, toys half her, even mom and dad would share her half. Because there is more of her, everything that was originally only mine suddenly seems to be not mine. Dad and her When I speak, my mother always points to her and says when I am angry, “If you don’t be obedient, I won’t hurt you anymore. Look at how well-behaved and obedient sister is.” Even often The children who came to my house to play around her when playing games, said, “I like your sister, I want to be with her.” All of a sudden, she robbed me of all my things and became my competition Opponent, how could I not hate her.”

“I was crying and clamoring to drive her away, but my parents didn’t take my crying seriously. So I could only start bullying her. I hope she can’t stay longer and want to leave, and I hope she makes mistakes. , I hope she will be scolded with me. But she never makes mistakes, or even fights back. The more I bully her, the better and more likable she is, especially to please my dad, so I just The more I hate her.”

“But she is so good. Even hating her has become an uncomfortable thing. I bullied her so much. She was still gentle and kind to me, and she would still be bullied by my classmates. I will stand up to protect me when I do bad things, or I will take the initiative to help me when I do bad things, or buy me snacks I want to eat when I don’t have pocket money, or when I can’t finish my summer homework At that time, secretly stay up with me and do all night.”

“So, while I feel like I hate her to death, I feel that she is actually quite good and innocent. I shouldn’t treat her so badly. But every time I just want to treat her better, she And I can always make me unhappy again because of my excellence. For example, I regressed and scolded in the final exam, she happened to take the first place in the district, I secretly liked the male classmate for a long time, but told me that your sister is so beautiful. Can you give me her QQ account. So I was like a fine division, swaying between hating her and liking her for many years, until the year I entered the entrance examination.”

“Because of the difference of two points, I dropped to Pugao. Without her, I would have been able to add two points for the only child. So that year, I hated her and cast all my anger on her. She was on her body, and she said all the ugly and vicious words.” She poked where Fu Sitian was almost painful.

“She just kept tears in her eyes, she still didn’t fight back, she didn’t fight back, she listened silently, and then cried.”

“I was beaten by my dad because she cried before, and then she hasn’t cried in front of us for many years. But I hated her so much that I didn’t care about it at all. Instead, I thought she was disgusting and pretending to be pathetic. For a long time Later, when this incident passed, and when she and I regained the ability to speak, I realized that she treated me differently. She was still very kind to me, but very polite and not sincere. I know, my time. It really hurt her, we can’t go back.”

Speaking of the past, Fu Siyu’s eyes were far away, a smile hung on the corner of his lips, and a little melancholy, which was a calm posture that was completely let down.

Shi Yi frowned and listened quietly without interrupting. A shadowy corner slowly emerged in front of her eyes. Fu Sitian, a young man standing with his head hanging down, tears in his head, and standing alone, seemed to have a gap in his heart.

The food is getting cold, no one wants to eat. Fu Siyu continued: “I thought I would not care. If I was not sincere or true, who was rare. But I didn’t expect that I cared more than I thought. I’m not comfortable, but I don’t know what I should do. Tactfully She couldn’t accept the good show, and I couldn’t show it frankly. So the relationship between me and her remained stalemately stalemate until the year when she was about to graduate from college.”

Having said this, there was finally a noticeable fluctuation in her voice.

“Because of a piece of underwear, she quarreled with me, and I ran away from home in anger. When crossing the road, there was a car accident.”

Shi Yi’s breathing didn’t feel as if she had calmed down with her voice, and his eyes revealed amazement.

Fu Siyu laughed at herself: “It’s ridiculous, isn’t it, because a piece of underwear has a leg on it.”

Shi Yi opened his mouth, what he wanted to say, but he didn’t know what to say. This is quite different from Fu Sitian’s understatement of the accident.

Mistakes, good luck makes people. Such words are too light in the face of such **** life reality. Whether it is for Fu Siyu or Fu Sitian.

She stared at Fu Siyu, her throat rolled, her breath almost disappearing. She suddenly couldn’t imagine what Fu Sitian faced after this.

She is such a soft, kind-hearted person who refuses to let her go.

Fu Siyu’s eyes also showed sadness, and her voice lowered: “I woke up in a coma for a week. As you can imagine, I can sit up one day, touch it unintentionally, and suddenly find that my legs are gone. Let’s collapse. The end of the world is just like that.” Time has passed, and now, when it comes to speaking, those pains are still frightening.

Shi Yi stiffened his back and comforted her with his eyes.

Fu Siyu reluctantly pulled out a little laugh, signaled that he was okay, and then said: “I don’t want to live anymore. I hate her like crazy, blame her, I want to peel her and drink her blood. I hate her for quarreling with me, hate She is so good that she can stand on two legs and hate that she shouldn’t exist in this world from beginning to end, ruining my life.”

“So as soon as I saw her, I cried, went crazy, and took everything I could handle to smash her. When I cried, my mother would cry with me and make trouble with me. My dad had nothing to do with us, so she had to let her Don’t come to the hospital and go to my hometown to take care of my grandma. Later, my grandma passed away and my injury has been getting worse. In order to save my other leg, I was transferred to the hospital, far away from home. My dad was busy selling the house to raise money. My mother could not take care of the money alone, so she still needed her help, so she followed. I didn’t want to see her, she never went into the ward, and only stayed in the corridor outside the ward every day, helping to run before running during the day After eating and shopping, helping with vigil at night, eating, drinking and sleeping, all on the iron stool that she moved out. I don’t know how she came here during the cold winter, and all of us lived unhumanly. , Ghosts are not like ghosts.”

The circles of Shi Yi’s eyes were red, and his teeth clenched his lower lip.

That should be shortly after they broke up. When I came here, my gallbladder stones were still not healed.

“Later, my injury slowly improved, my left leg was saved, and I was about to start rehabilitation training. Training was too painful, so I went out to face the eyes of others and accept that I was a disabled person. It’s difficult. I can’t change my mentality, I can’t accept it, I can’t imagine my future life at all. I don’t want to live anymore.”

“One day my mother went out to talk with the insurance company’s claimant, and the other patients in the ward were not there, so I jumped out of the bed with one foot and went to the balcony, wanting to climb on the balcony and jump off. My sister was in the corridor, I rushed in at once. I don’t know how she reacted so quickly, she stopped me.”

“I was so determined that I didn’t want to live anymore. I struggled to fight with her. She was so skinny that she had a bone left. She was kicked and beaten by me, and she couldn’t stand even with only one leg. I am. We both entangled and fell to the ground together. I choked her by the neck. For a moment, I really wanted to choke her to death. We died together.”

“She stopped struggling suddenly, she just looked at me quietly with sadness. I hesitated, but was rushed in by a passing nurse outside. I heard her staring at me when I was supported to stand up. As indifferent as seeing a dead person, saying, “Don’t you hate me? If you die, I will be really happy. Everything you have will be mine, and your parents will have to rely on me in the future. , Do you think I will treat your mother well. If you are willing, you can go to death’. For a moment, I was so angry that I wanted to rush to hit her, but I was suppressed and couldn’t move.”

“After that day, I don’t want to die, I’m not reconciled. Why she can live well, I have to rot in the dirt. Not only do I have to live, I have to live well and tortured her to death.”

“With this idea, I survived. Soon, I was discharged from the hospital, she graduated, and her father was released from prison. We no longer live together. She lives with her father. We don’t see each other often, but Every month, she will give my mother money. I know that she does professional and unmatched sales in order to make more money. I know that all my treatment costs include a share of her salary. I don’t want to I go to school. I go for psychological rehabilitation every week, but every time I go there I don’t speak, I just sit there and burn my money. The money for the first prosthesis I customized was given by her. But it didn’t take me long. I was dissatisfied and wanted to change to a better one. She didn’t say anything, so she took me to change it the next month. It didn’t take long, and I was dissatisfied and wanted to change it again. She still followed me. Dad persuaded me not to make trouble, saying that it is not easy for my sister. I just want to make trouble, I just want to drain her last drop of blood, and see when she can behave.”

Shi Yi’s posterior molars were clenched tightly, and deep blood marks had been pierced into the palms of his nails.

Fu Siyu’s voice also became hoarse: “Her father was found to have advanced liver cancer within a few months after he was released from prison, and he died soon after. I feel that after her father passed away, she was even less angry, but I I didn’t think so much. Until one day at the end of the year, my dad said that the company called to ask him if he could contact my sister, saying that my sister hadn’t asked for leave, and hadn’t gone to work for two days, and the phone couldn’t get through. My dad Panicked, I scolded him for being nervous, but actually panicked in my heart.”

“My dad went to the place she rented and slammed the door open. My sister collapsed next to the burning pot and was dying. I don’t know how long she has been in a coma. She was sent first aid and immediately pushed forward to the rescue. The doctor said it was acute cholangitis. The shock caused by the obstruction, they don’t understand, how can someone be so tolerable, how can someone drag the cholangitis to this level. I know. I looked at the picture my dad brought back to me and my sister didn’t know when When you finish writing the suicide note in your wallet, you will know it.”

Fu Siyu choked up, and handed the piece of paper that had been kept with him to Shi Yi.

Shi Yi didn’t dare to blink, blurred his eyes, and took it with trembling hands.

On the note, Fu Sitian’s beautiful handwriting came into view:

Sorry 111437

Xiaoyu, it’s three lines of words when he gets better.

111437…Shi Yi, I will always love you. Six numbers, cut into the bones.

Fu Siyu said gruffly: “She just doesn’t want to live anymore. She doesn’t know how long she wants to die. She just hopes that she can die just like that.”

Shi Yi could no longer maintain his false decency, his straight waist bent down, and the hand holding the note trembled violently.

Fu Siyu could see that Shi Yi seemed to want to hold it back, but the tears still flowed down her cheeks, falling violently and uncontrollably.

Fu Siyu’s tears couldn’t stop either.

She was relieved.

She had never expected that this woman who had been decent and dignified from the first meeting to almost indifferent would have such a gaffe.

She thought, her sister loved it right, and it was worth it.

She sniffed and said grimly: “She was rescued that time and had a gallbladder removal operation. The day she had the operation, I also went. I watched her lying on the operating bed being pushed out with her body stuck in it. The tube, the breath is weak, and the appearance seems to be gone anytime, I suddenly feel very painful and meaningless in my heart. I don’t know what is the meaning of torturing her and torturing myself like this. I used to think I would never die, but she wanted It’s really dead, and I’m not really happy. Being a man is too hard. I’m suffering, and she’s also suffering. Fortunately, it’s for a lifetime. Forget it. I decided to let her go, and I let myself go. ”

“After that time, I got better with her. We came to Haicheng together. I received rehabilitation training that was more suitable for me, installed a new prosthesis, and even went to a new university. Our days seem to have gone again. It’s on the right track. But in my heart, my sister has never really recovered. I can see that she hasn’t really been happy for a day.”

She didn’t say directly that in the second year, Fu Sitian was in a critical condition due to stomach bleeding and was sent for rescue again. She realized at that time that her sister had never really gotten better. She is always looking forward to an accident that will give her a relief. In the ambulance, like a last word, she weakly said sorry to her and frankly said that she had always regretted the car accident that year when she did not call out that reminder. At that moment, Fu Si burst into tears. In the face of the turbulence of fate, what can be changed by not shouting. How could there be such a fool as Fu Sitian.

She held her hand and told her: “You get better, and I don’t blame you when you get better. I forgive you, as long as you are well. If you die, I won’t be better in this life.”

From this, she seemed to really untie the knot, found a breath of anger, went to see a psychologist, took medicine for two years, and got better.

“Until I meet you again.”

“The smile I saw on her face these days is the kind I have never seen in the past six years. Sister Shi, my sister really loves you very much. She is just too stupid, too bad I know how to express. But she can’t blame her. She has not been loved very well since she was a child. The person who loved her the most made her the worst example of leaving and not dragging her down. She doesn’t understand, except Apart from being good for her, there are more ways to love someone to leave. Six years ago, as long as she had better choices, she would never leave you.”

“Can you not blame her?”

“She has not been loved very well since she was a child”, and Shi Yi’s soul trembled again.

“I didn’t blame it long ago.” She replied with a low voice.

Fu Siyu asked: “Then I can safely give her to you? You know, she may still be stupid, may still make you angry and sad, and may still not know how to love herself or how to love you.”

Shi Yi said: “I will have a lot of patience.”

She choked her throat, looked at Fu Siyu with eyes twinkling with tears, and said solemnly and solemnly: “I will love her forever.”

In those years apart, she wanted to escape countless times, and warned herself countless times to love others, and even more to love herself. But now, she just wanted to promise: “As long as she looks back, I will always be behind her.”

As long as she needs.

She is willing to be her ship, her way, her medicine, her eternal light.

Anything is fine.