Chapter 47
The twilight was dark, and large swaths of wet snow fluttered around the peach trees, falling on the branches and petals, forming a soft and thin layer.
Gu Changan wandered around the peach tree a few times, slowly sat down against the tree, and stared at the splendid flower core for a long time.
It's ridiculous, he can't even cut himself off.
I have thought about it countless times, and when the sword touched the neck, I was handcuffed by the city again.
Now that I have completed my mission and gave the sixty-four-year-old story a happy ending, I can finally get rid of it but find that I have nowhere to start.
How to kill the soul?
This is the rage of a savage dog.
It was also Gu Changan's own doubts.
But he knew very well that the obsession of keeping the family gradually disintegrated.
It was really tiring to walk all the way. I have lived my life to be worthy of the nation, and I have not let down the old guards of the city. That's enough.
The sound of "creak" came from the silent desert, and there were traces of two rows of wheels running over on the snow, and a carriage gradually came into view.
Facing the wind and snow, the empress showed a smile on her delicate and flawless cheeks, pretending to be casual:
"meet again."
Gu Changan didn't speak, just stared at her.
"I want to find a quiet place to practice, and the lonely city is the most suitable." Li Wan was a little cautious, and after saying that, he rode his horse close to the peach blossom tree.
"You don't need to feel guilty." Soul Shadow didn't look at her again, and said solemnly:
"Don't you think your actions are stupid and absurd?"
"Oh." Li Wan nodded his chin and didn't explain anything. He just continued to drive to the city gate and asked:
"In the territory of the Tang Dynasty, I should have the right to live for a long time, right?"
Without waiting for an answer, he went to the city on his own initiative to settle down.
Although she did not dare to falsely claim that she was Yao and Shun, she was still a hundred and eight thousand miles away from being ignorant and ignorant.
After making a decision, all kinds of stability maintenance measures were arranged secretly.
Besides, Pei Jingshu is fully capable of handling the government affairs of the three states with ease.
Looking at her back, Gu Changan's eyes were confused, he had no reason to expel him, and perhaps deep down he didn't want to refuse the care from the Central Plains.
He suddenly smiled, it's so pitiful to die alone, and it's good to have someone watching.
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Li Wan was busy for a few hours, and walked up to the top of the city in the middle of the night. There was no moonlight tonight, and the shadow and the darkness merged into one. Only by the weak light of the lantern, could he discern the motionless black fog of the watchtower.
"The barbarians definitely won't dare to come again, do you still want to stay?" She sat next to her, her tone was like chatting with an old friend, like a waterfall of blue silk dancing in the wind.
"I'm used to it," Gu Changan said.
"You can try to change." Li Wan stared at him.
Quiet and silent.
Seemingly not realizing that after a few words, Li Wan's expression was slightly unnatural, and he asked:
"Tell me about your childhood, listen to you slowly."
Gu Changan remained silent, his youth was lackluster, he suddenly noticed a Buddhist shrine lying alone in the corner of the watchtower.
Shaking his wrist, the altar fell into the palm of his hand.
"You gave it back to a monk named Speculation to thank him for his gift, but it doesn't belong to me."
Gu Changan handed it to the Empress.
Li Wan was slightly stunned, and gave a soft hum, and then talked about his girlhood. The journey to the end of the world with swords will always accumulate a lot of memories, experience interesting things in all corners of the world, and witness life.
Gu Changan listened attentively to her trivial remarks, and he also drew pictures of rivers and lakes in his mind.
Carrying a three-foot Qingfeng with a hand to do nothing wrong, wandering in a boat and reading the scenery of the two gorges, unrestrained and free, this is the life of a chivalrous man in a dream.
Looking at his quiet listening posture, Li Wan's eyes flashed for a moment, and he asked mysteriously:
"If you left the lonely city when you were ten years old, what would your life be like?"
Gu Changan did not answer.
"Having an unparalleled talent in martial arts, he has lived a life of wanton happiness, and even went to nine days to embrace the moon and pursue the avenue of longevity."
Li Wan's voice was getting lower and lower, and when he finally turned his head, the candlelight reflected a pair of red eyes.
Completely opposite life.
On the one hand, there is suffering and despair, and on the other hand, there is freedom and arbitrariness. National justice completely destroyed him.
Gu Changan left the city and floated under the peach tree. He didn't want to be entangled in past memories. It was the same choice to do it all over again. He just wanted to be happy for the rest of the time.
It was the only day in his life he lived for himself.
Li Wanji moved his lips and looked up at the endless snowfall. After hesitating for a moment, he said loudly:
"You take me away!"
Like the sound of gold and stone, it echoes endlessly in the snowy night.
"Resurrection from a dead body, don't mind that I am a woman." She stared straight at the peach tree with anticipation in her eyes.
"I read too many Taoist classics, do you think any bizarre conjecture can come true?" Gu Changan asked.
"I'm willing to try." Li Wan's attitude was decisive, and there was no sign of flinching in his eyes.
It doesn't matter if she fails, she repays the debt with her death.
If it succeeds, Gu Changan will lead the rise of the Tang Dynasty and recast the glory and glory of the dynasty.
For the Chinese nation, Gu Changan must be more important than her Li Wan.
"I don't have the right to deprive you of your life, and I'll ask you to leave." Gu Changan was indifferent.
It seems that only Grandpa Qin knows that he does not want to die, but does not want to live.
Li Wan's eyes darkened, and finally he sighed softly.
Ghosts have never been seen before, and it is nonsense to take away their homes, but she is willing to try with her life in exchange for that man to lead a new life.
But Gu Changan didn't even think about it at all, and her tough attitude cut off her thoughts.
Li Wan stood there silently, twitching her fingers from time to time, as if she was looking for a new topic. The task of leading the conversation was still too painful for her.
"Stop talking and do your own business." Gu Changan noticed her embarrassment and said calmly.
Li Wan was relieved, and he meditated cross-legged. He was free from any state affairs, and concentrated on concentrating his internal energy.
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As the days passed, Li Wan gradually liked this boring life. The two of them couldn't even speak a word all day. They sat at the top of each other like statues, but the silence was not a kind of comfort.
Her cultivation level has risen rapidly, Pei Jingshu has sent letters every three or five times, and nothing has happened to the court.
With the passage of time, it seems that everything is slowly getting better, but why is he getting darker and darker, the once thick black mist has now become lighter.
Two clear and hoarse voices resounded in the world.
"Master of the academy is about to knock on the door of heaven, and he said that you gave him the courage to gamble, either a land fairy, or his death;
The long river of purple energy gushed out of Jinling Academy, and in more than a month at most, the land of Shenzhou will usher in the first half-open heavenly gate. "
"Um."
"The barbarians invaded Zhao and Shu at the same time seven days ago. With the advantages of the Hexi Corridor, Beiliang can quickly support Zhao."
"Um."
Li Wan told the recent major and small events in the Central Plains together, and occasionally there would be a response from the opposite side, and I wonder if he was listening carefully.
"Sometimes I'm very scared. Maybe one day the Chinese nation will be completely defeated. Maybe we can't continue the ancient civilization even if we fight to the death. Maybe the sky really wants to destroy our hard-working people."
Her voice fell suddenly, and she watched the shadow of the soul that was getting darker day by day, which always gave rise to a sense of powerlessness and even despair.
"Think about where you are standing. A group of old soldiers can swear to stick to it for decades. There are 70 million people in China. The bones become mounds and the blood bleeds into rivers. They must also drive out the barbarians!"
A hoarse and determined voice came from under the peach tree.
Li Wan was silent, it seemed that only when he mentioned the righteousness of the nation would he have strong mood swings.
Gu Changan laughed at himself, always thinking that after completing his mission, he would remove the national chains, but the chains had already entangled his soul.
That's why he didn't dare to recast his physical body, he couldn't live freely, but another cycle of bruises and wounds, killing the enemy and killing the enemy, never ending.
Born in a lonely city, he had no choice, and he had no choice if he shouldered heavy responsibilities. At the last moment of his life, he always had a choice.
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In the blink of an eye, it was already cold winter. Last night, a strange scene appeared in the lonely city. Nineteen sword qi was suspended in the air, and Li Wan broke through the realm of enlightened people.
But breaking through the realm couldn't bring any joy, the soul shadow was getting worse and worse, it was almost impossible to see the face, and he was more and more commemorating the peach blossom tree.
"Who will save him..." Li Wan stood leaning on the railing, she knew that Gu Changan's demise was irreversible, but she still expected a miracle.
He had never been out of the city, but he knew a lot of things, from astronomy and philosophy, down to folk farming, and occasionally said something, Li Wan felt that he had benefited a lot.
Gu Changan sees farther than anyone else, but the more she is like this, the more sad she will be. If she had known about the lonely city earlier, she would rather have been stinking for thousands of years and ordered not to guard it.
Pigeons in the sky flew in the snow, parked on the railings and chatted non-stop.
Li Wan took off the silk book tied to its leg as usual, and the silk book was sandwiched with a letterhead.
She glanced at it briefly, and suddenly felt a thunderbolt, her face was pale, and she was clutching the letterhead with such strength that she almost tore the pages of the paper.
Li Wan tried his best to restrain his grief, pretended to be calm, and slowly came under the tree and said softly:
"Qin carpenter is gone."
The black mist stiffened at a speed visible to the naked eye, as if bound by invisible forces, and had not moved for a long time.
"How did you die?" Gu Changan turned around and seemed to ask very calmly.
Li Wan didn't answer him directly, but said, "The imperial court took care of the funeral and was buried in Zhonglie Cemetery."
After a while, the two didn't speak again, just quietly watching the crow hovering over the peach branch.
Gu Changan seemed to be indifferent to the scene of the crow eating the peach petals, but he kept listening to Luoxue's voice.
He paused for a while without speaking, and then suddenly asked:
"Suicide?"
Li Wan looked sad: "Yes."
Then he handed over the folded letterhead.
Gu Changan's face was expressionless, and he browsed it calmly. The handwriting was like a crab walking everywhere.
"Chang'an, the moment you saw the letter, the old man was already smiling at Jiuquan."
"I remember we told a joke. During the Zhenguan period, there was an unlucky prisoner surnamed Cui. Whenever the court granted amnesty, he could not get his turn. He has been in prison for 40 years."
"Finally came out. Prisoner Cui should make a change and start anew? A few days later, he deliberately stole the shop again and wanted to go to jail, but he was old and old, and the court took pity on him. He just gave a verbal lesson and let it go."
"The next day, prisoner Cui hanged himself at home."
"He left a suicide note saying that he couldn't live without prison and that life outside made him suffer all the time."
"Before the old man didn't understand, how stupid would he be to find his own way?"
"Hahaha, I'm going to hang myself after writing the letter."
"Sixty-four years of life is like making a wooden box with my eyes closed. The traces and details have long been carved into my heart. A few days after returning to my homeland, I can still laugh and walk around the streets, slowly It's going to be tough."
"I only have Qiuci City in my mind. When I eat a perch, I feel the smell of yellow sand in the meat. Everything looks like bricks and stones in the city wall. My chess friends see that I am often demented and comfort me to learn to adapt to a good life first."
"Alas, sixty-four years is too long, so long that the old man's soul is imprisoned in the city."
"That's right, the government informed the old man the day before yesterday that your grandmother Xu hanged herself. She said that life is boring. There is no lonely city, no Chang'an, and no sand in the sky. She doesn't know how to live."
"She knitted a lot of thick clothes, ran to the government and begged to be sent to the Western Regions, and she died when she got home."
"Don't be sad, being able to die in your hometown is what we Anxi people dream of."
Gu Changan's eyes gradually became blurred, and a misty white mist seemed to rise in front of him, but no tears rolled down no matter what.
"The old man must have a beginning and an end in his life. I can die in my ancestral home in my homeland, and I can still have the folks in Qinjia Village carry the coffin for my funeral. I don't know how many old soldiers will be envious."
"It's just... It's just, the old man thinks of you every day, are you sleeping well? Are there still barbarians attacking the city? Are you still there?"
"If you can see the letter, please fulfill the old man's last wish."
"Go to the Central Plains. If you really don't want to live, you have to go to Chang'an City to say goodbye."
"This is your wish when you were young, and you have to have a beginning and an end."
"Anyway, the old man is forcing you. If you don't go to Chang'an City, the old man will die."
"If there is a next life, I can't be a crippled burden. I will definitely accompany you to defend the city. Let's kill happily."
"gone."
The phantom seemed to be gradually cracking, and his hands and feet were twitching violently. Gu Changan hurriedly leaned on the tree trunk and shredded the letter again and again.
Vaguely, the old man reappeared in the wind and sand in the sky, and he walked bumpily, showing his old yellow teeth, but he was clearly dripping hot blood.
Looking at the crazily twisting black mist, Li Wan felt that it was a little difficult to breathe, as if a heavy object had been pressed on her chest, she opened her mouth, but there was no sound.
Gathering up her courage, she walked to her side step by step, raised her arms and hugged Gu Changan, just wanting to convey even a trace of warmth.
Gu Changan was silent, his shoulder blades trembled and twitched, and his choked voice almost whispered:
"My relatives are buried by me. They are all buried with my own hands. Grandpa Qin has been with me the longest, but I haven't been able to bury him."
"You can't live a comfortable life, why do you have to die in front of me!
"
Those words seemed like a needle pierced through the cold night into Li Wan's heart. She resisted the tears and patted Gu Changan's back lightly.
The fog was getting thinner and thinner, and Li Wan was afraid that a gust of wind would blow it away.
Can it last until next spring?
Gu Changan murmured in pain: "Grandpa Qin, I promise you, I will go to Chang'an City."
Li Wanmeng was shocked, and slowly let go of him, staring blankly with red eyes:
"I'll take you home."
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ps: The second update will be added at 6 pm.