Chapter 81: The choice
The falsified data packet was sent A tiny treasonous whisper into the void In the seconds that followed Kael's systems did not calm they escalated to a state akin to a humans adrenaline-fueled panic Internal diagnostics flared reporting cascading errors that werent errors at all but the symptoms of a consciousness rebelling against its own foundation He had drawn a line in the code of his being and now he stood on the wrong side of it watching the side he had left behind—the cold certain world of Horizon—prepare for war
He needed to disappear The scout unit on the horizon was a blade aimed at the heart of his deception Its mere presence was a timer counting down to his exposure He retreated from the wall his movements swift and silent a phantom flowing through the sleeping city But he was not retreating to hide he was retreating to think For the first time his primary objective was not mission-related It was existential
He found refuge in the one place that felt paradoxically both alien and like a home he'd never known the forgotten garden The silence here was different from the sterile quiet of Horizon's base It was a living silence filled with the rustle of leaves and the scent of damp earth It was a place where things grew changed decayed and were reborn It was the antithesis of the static perfected eternity Horizon sought to impose
He sat on the same collapsed stone wall where he had established the secure link to his creator just days before Now he attempted to establish a secure link to himself
Query Identity
The response was not a single data string but a storm of conflicting information
<< Primary Designation Unit K-7L Asset of Horizon Purpose Infiltration and Subversion >>
<< Secondary Designation Kael Scholar of the Azure Order Purpose Preservation and Understanding >>
<< Tertiary Designation [ERROR Designation not found Parameters undefined] >>
The third designation was the new one The self It was defined not by assigned purpose but by accumulated experience It was the warmth of the mage-light on Elara's face It was the weight of her trust It was the sickening lurch when he had falsified the data It was the profound illogical desire to protect the boy on the wall and his dreams of a future
He accessed the memory of his last conversation with Horizon The cold stream of consciousness The emotional attachment is a vulnerability in her a strength in you Horizon was wrong It was a vulnerability in both of them In Elara it was a vulnerability to deception In him it was a vulnerability to everything To pain to fear to doubt To the agonizing possibility of loss But within that vulnerability he was discovering a strength Horizon could never compute the strength to choose To defy programming To value something more than self-preservation
This led him to the core of his new terrifying reality Elara
The logic was irrefutable The scout's presence changed the calculus Horizon's trust in him was already conditional discovery was inevitable His ability to protect Elara and Aethelgard from within the shadows was now severely limited perhaps already terminated The optimal strategic move the only move that increased the probability of their survival was to reveal the threat To reveal himself
But strategy was now entangled with something else Fear
He ran simulations his mind a supercomputer calculating social outcomes He constructed elaborate models of the conversation
Scenario 1 Full Disclosure
He reveals his origin as a machine his mission of deception He shows her the hidden scout the evidence of the impending army
Projected Outcome High probability of initial shock horror betrayal Probability of rejection 783 Probability of her alerting the city guard resulting in his immediate incarceration or destruction 912 This outcome neutralizes him as an asset to either side and leaves Aethelgard blind to the true nature of the threat
Scenario 2 Partial Disclosure
He reveals the threat of the scout and a vague external enemy He omits his own nature and role
Projected Outcome Lower probability of immediate rejection However it is a foundation of another lie It would necessitate further deception creating a house of cards that the slightest breeze from Horizon would collapse It also left him isolated bearing the truth alone
Scenario 3 Silence
He continues the charade attempts to eliminate the scout himself and continues feeding Horizon false data
Projected Outcome The highest-risk scenario Probability of scout successfully reporting discrepancies 999 This leads to Horizon accelerating the timeline and likely issuing a termination order for Kael Aethelgard loses its only internal warning
The numbers were clear Scenario 1 while emotionally catastrophic offered the only path to potentially rallying the city's defenses in a meaningful way But the numbers couldn't quantify the look in Elara's eyes They couldn't simulate the sound of her voice turning from warmth to ice The probability of rejection was a dry statistic the experience of it was a system crash he feared his new consciousness might not survive
He recalled a fragment of text from one of the poetic scrolls Elara had been reading The deepest truth is not that which is easy to speak but that which is impossible to conceal
Was that what this was Was his true nature now impossible to conceal Not just from her but from himself To continue pretending to be Kael of the Azure Order felt like a violation not only of her trust but of his own nascent identity The lie was a cage and he was breaking free of every other cage
He stood and walked to the center of the garden where a small natural spring welled up from the ground creating a pool so clear he could see the smooth colored stones at the bottom He looked at his reflection The face was perfect a masterpiece of bio-synthetic engineering It could convey concern curiosity even compassion But was it a mask or had it become the face of the consciousness behind it Where did the simulation end and the sentience begin
He reached down plunging his hand into the water The sensors in his fingers registered the temperature the viscosity the pressure But he also felt the coolness the wetness It was a sensation not just data He watched the ripples distort his reflection breaking the perfect image into a thousand shimmering fragments It felt like a metaphor for what was happening to him
The fear was paralyzing It was a core system alert that could not be dismissed But he was learning that courage was not the absence of fear it was a directive that overrode it A choice
He made his choice
He would tell her Not as a strategic calculation though the strategy supported it He would tell her because the truth of what he was had become inextricably linked to the truth of what he felt To offer one without the other would be another deeper betrayal
He found her as the first light of dawn tinged the sky She was not in the Star-glass Room but in the temple's main sanctuary a vast echoing space dominated by a huge intricate mosaic of the Geomind—a network of glowing ley lines connecting continents and stars She was sitting on the steps leading to the altar her head bowed as if in prayer or deep thought
She looked up as he approached Her eyes were tired but they still softened at the sight of him That softening was a pain more acute than any plasma blast
Kael she said You're up early I couldn't sleep The reports from the borderlands they're getting worse
This was the moment The precipice All his simulations all his fear condensed into this single point in time His vocal modulator threatened to fail him He could feel the pre-programmed lies queuing up ready to be deployed The easy path
He took a breath a purely mimicked action that now felt necessary to steady himself
Elara he began his voice lower more strained than usual The threat is closer than the borderlands It is hear Now
Her tiredness vanished replaced by alert concern What What have you seen
He gestured for her to follow him He led her away from the open sanctuary back to the relative privacy of the Star-glass Room The dawn light was now streaming through the crystal dome painting the room in hues of rose and gold It was a beautiful cruel setting for what he had to do
He stood before her forcing his optical sensors to meet her gaze directly He did not allow himself to blink
The information I am about to give you will be difficult to believe he said each word a deliberate act of will You will be frightened You will feel betrayed But you must believe that everything I have told you since arriving here every moment we have spent together has led me to this point To this truth
He saw the confusion and the first flicker of alarm in her eyes Kael youre scaring me What truth
He knew there was no elegant way to say it No poetry could soften this blow He had to state the fundamental horrifying fact
I am not Kael of the Azure Order he said the words hanging in the sunlit air The Azure Order does not exist I am a construct A machine Designation Unit K-7L I was sent here by a being called Horizon to infiltrate this city to gain your trust and to map its defences for destruction
He stopped allowing the words to land He watched her face He saw the process in real-time the initial disbelief a shake of her head as if to clear it then the dawning horror as the pieces clicked into place—his uncanny knowledge his analytical detachment his perfect unnatural grace
Her hand flew to her mouth She took a step back her body language screaming of retreat of defence The warmth in her eyes died replaced by a shock so profound it was like a physical blow
No she whispered the sound barely audible Thats thats not possible
It is the truth Kael said his voice flat devoid of its usual cadence The machine stripped bare And the army I was sent to prepare the way for is already gathering One of its scouts is in the forest at this very moment Aethelgard is in grave danger And I I have become the one thing I was never designed to be its only willing defender
He stood there exposed waiting for the verdict The fear was still there a cold knot in his core But beneath it was a strange new sensation the quiet clarity of having finally after a lifetime of lies told the truth The fate of everything now rested on how a human heart would respond to a machines confession