Philstar or Gaju’s Regression

57Ch 20. Sincerely (2)

“ ……. ”

Even the long shadows of the sun shriveled shamelessly, Lorelai was now indistinguishable from whether this was a dream or a lifetime.

I can’t believe I’m alone with Roman!

“Do you have anything else you’d like to see? ”

So even if he talks nicely,

“Oh, no……. ”

I was so embarrassed that I had to shake my head.

Since this morning, Alicia has been wanting to keep her eyes peeled, and I never thought I’d ask you to do this!

“But it’s the most thriving place on the continent, and there’s nowhere you want to go? ”

But I didn’t feel bad.

No, I was rather happy.

Loan is also Loan, who counts Lorelei’s feelings and asks again more kindly.

“…… I don’t really know. ”

Alicia, who has been with me for a long time since I was a child, was also quite happy to think of herself.

“As Loan goes….. ”

So Lorelai, who felt as if she had received an unexpected gift, answered with a pale smile,

“Let’s go the other way around today. Seven streets would be a lot, so that’s one street you’ve never been to. ”

Loan said with a smile.

“A street?”

And when Lorelai asked with a blunt face,

“One street is the largest Luote market on the continent and Yoki Square. I think the atmosphere was fine, especially at sunset. ”

Loan responds by stuttering past memories.

Although it may be an assassination route, the Bolognese sightseeing course is not well known to Loan either.

But even so, Bolognese was a place that came a lot after Castle Philstein, so there were some memorable places.

One of them is Ruote Market and Yokki Square, just a mile away.

It was a place that Busha liked, so she had her own memories.

“…… Yes, Loan. I’ll follow Loan as he goes. ”

Of course, Lorelai could not know of such a situation.

She nods shyly thinking that she knows this Bolonez.

“There are merchants from all over the continent in the Luote market, so there will be lots of fun stuff. ”

Ron, who thought he should lead Lorelai well, continued to stammer his memory,

“…… Yes. ”

I don’t know what to say. Just give me a short answer, Lorelei.

“…… hmm. ”

Then spontaneously static flowed.

I think it leads to having to give and take horses.

After answering with a single answer, it can hardly be easily followed.

So Lorelai stares at Roman in an awkward atmosphere.

“Especially in Schwabaltz, there seemed to be a lot of fun stuff coming in….. ”

He seems pretty awkward, too.

‘.. I don’t know what to say! ’

Lorelai is in a hurry.

“Ah……. Yes…. ”

But my mouth didn’t fall easily.

I really didn’t know what to say.

It is the principle that slaves should not say things that their master has not told them to do.

Even though Alicia has not been hard on other nobles, she has always been short and concise because of her education within the Dyke family.

And the personality itself was very introverted.

Now that I’ve lived like this my whole life, it would be right to say that I can’t even talk.

It’s even the first time I’ve ever really liked someone.

So I felt even more frozen.

‘I really suck….. ’

I’m sorry for making the atmosphere weird, and I’m pathetic about not being able to say anything right.

Lorelai, who was so unconscious, was troubled by the tears.

“I’m sorry. I don’t like horses… ”

Loan opens her mouth with a embarrassing face.

“Oh, no! It’s not like that! ”

I’m the one doing the wrong thing, and I don’t want to make it difficult!

For the first time, Lorelai made a loud noise.

“I just think I’m too pathetic and not enough……. ”

Suddenly, it would be foolish to talk about this again, but I couldn’t help but tell you.

Then he’ll think this awkward atmosphere is his fault!

That’s what she really hated.

“…… we seem to have a similar personality. ”

Loan nods with a pale smile.

“There’s no way Loan would do that….. ”

He is a person that is loved by all the nobles or nobles.

He’s even a Sword Master.

A common slave who can’t be compared to me!

I saw Lorelei shaking her head.

“I always blame myself when things get bad. If I was a little better, if I was a little better. ”

Loan said with a calm face.

It wasn’t just to comfort Lorelei.

“I’m afraid I’m going to ruin something, and I don’t want to see anyone else get hurt because of me. At some point, he was kind of pathologically avoiding it. I care a lot, in particular. For the precious, for the important. ”

A story that reminds me of a previous life that had failed perfectly, and I really took it seriously.

“Ah……. ”

“It’s natural to be afraid of failing, but maybe it’s because he’s afraid of being hated. ”

Loan is almost flawless to others, but in fact he has quite a lot of trauma.

All of his loved ones suffered miserable consequences, and he also suffered death as a result of the betrayal of the family and Egbert, who had been spared their lives.

“It’s really hard to be hated. ”

So, in the words of Loan, who is more sincere, Lorelai nods cautiously, saying, “I’ve felt that way before.”

“… but Loan is a good man. I’m not the one to hate. ”

“I’m trying to be a good person because I know I’m not. I’m not that good. ”

A failed family member.

If it had been a good household, the Philstein family would not have received such an end.

Behind the strong confidence, he sighs deeply, saying that these shades have always been hidden.

“So I don’t really know if I’m doing well right now. I’ve never done anything like this before. ”

Whether the opponent was a royal or a noble, it was always the right Loan.

“…… Ah. ”

Lorelai, who was so skillfully leading everyone, who didn’t know he was thinking about this, was quite surprised.

“I couldn’t handle people well with swords, I couldn’t handle people well. He’s black, but he’s really not good at this. I’m not confident, so I’m afraid of honesty. ”

Loan honestly says there’s a lot of things he’s really thinking about.

“…… I really didn’t know. Ron is doing too well, so I didn’t know you were thinking this. ”

Is it a genuine corporation?

Lorelai, who longed for Loan and had some admiration, said,

“The truth is, even though it’s really hard, I don’t wear a tee. Like Lorelei.”

So we laugh that there are so many similarities, and Loan alternates himself with Lorelei.

“….. You did. ”

Lorelai laughed again at the look.

I don’t know what to say, but it wasn’t as far away as it used to be.

I thought I might be the same person as myself.

Apparently he’s a special person, though.

“I’m worried because I’ve been having a hard time lately. Me, Alicia, too. ”

“…… Yes. ”

Lorelai blushes her face.

But what would you do if you were still unfamiliar with this part?

“But I don’t want to pretend I don’t know what it is and feel clumsy. I don’t like that. I don’t even know how to talk to you. ”

Then he said to her with a gentle smile.

“So if you have something on your mind, tell me. I’m going to listen and try to make sure I understand. ”

Let’s touch the black eyes, so sweet.

“…… Yes, Loan. ”

Lorelai steals the snowflakes with her hands, clumped for some reason.

When I saw the snow that sank while listening to Loan’s story, I felt like I was crying again.

“… I don’t like this, but I just keep doing it. So I’m more upset. ”

I hate myself because I feel so weak and lousy.

He seemed to take out his honest heart for the first time since he became a slave.

“So am I. I don’t like it right now, but it looks weak. ”

Huhu laughed and said,

“… I never thought I’d hear that from Roman. ”

Lorelai smiles and steals her eyes again.

I didn’t think that Loan, who was stronger than anyone, would tell me the exact story of her heart right now.

“This is a secret. Keep it a secret. ”

“… a secret? ”

Soon he stood side by side and whispered, and Lorelei opened her eyes and looked at him.

“I cry quite a lot when I’m alone. ”

“Really?”

This is also an unimaginable story.

Once again, he shrugs as if he is embarrassed by Lorelai.

“There’s usually a lot of tears. I’ve been taught not to cry in front of other people since I was a kid, pretending to have no blood or tears. Maybe Parvity knows all about my shameful past. ”

“Unh!”

Lorelai burst into laughter.

Loan and tears!

It was a really unmatched combination.

“…… I’d like to see it. ”

So it was also true that there was more curiosity.

“You can’t do that. It’s embarrassing.”

“… I don’t think it’s embarrassing. ”

“Do you intend to be a ringing man or a bad woman? ”

The first time I see Loan’s playful question,

“… I don’t think so. ”

Lorelai shakes her head again with a smile.

“I thought about it. If Lorelai were a bad woman, there would be too many men crying. ”

Lorelai blushes her face with shame.

That would be a pretty compliment.

“… but I don’t have that kind of choice. ”

“Yes?”

And soon she took out the anguish she had in her heart.

“What might happen if the young lady finishes the academy and goes back to the Dyke family……. I have to do what the Marquis tells me.. ”

I laughed and took it out thanks to Loan, but there was still sadness in my eyes.

It’s not even allowed to like someone.

So it was rather a tragedy to like someone.

You have to give yourself to someone you really like, someone you don’t even know.

And I will never see you again.

No, he won’t like me as a slave.

“Ah……. ”

I thought so, but sadness was pushed again.

“That’s not going to happen. ”

This time it was different than before.

My sweet black eyes hovered over a mountain of strength.

“I’ll make sure that doesn’t happen. I will somehow.”

I was convinced.

“Even if I can’t change the world by myself, I can save the people around me. So don’t worry too much. ”

And he was still sweet.

In the red sky, in the extraordinarily glowing black eyes,

“…… Yes. ”

Lorelai nods with a clunky face as if she had met salvation.

And then,

“… I think I’m going to cry again. ”

Soon my eyes became moisturized again.

How can you not cry when someone in your heart is saying that?

Farr, in her trembling voice,

“You can do that. ”

He nodded, saying he could cry.

“Yes……. ”

Lorelai is so unbearable, she shed tears.

I know things can’t get any better right now, but it was the first time anyone knew my mind.

And it was really impressive because someone was a Loan.

“…… uhhh. ”

Was it when you were nine years old that you were banned from crying?

The first Lorelai I felt after that.

Soon afterwards, Loan, whose eyes were red with tears, looked at her with sad eyes.

“… I’m not pinching this. ”

And recalling Emilia’s words, Loan hugs Lorelei.

I don’t know what you’re talking about, but in desperate need of someone’s arms, she nods and buries Loan’s face into her arms.

“…… Yes. ”

*

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“This is an amulet used by Schwabalts’ sailors. ”

“Amulet?”

Lorelei, who came to Luote market with tears, was much brighter than before.

“The sea is a dangerous place. ”

“…… Ah, to come back safely? ”

I don’t know if it was because I put down the burden of my heart that I had suffered alone or because I opened the door of my heart, but it was clearly different from before.

It’s not a simple answer, it’s what she looks like to ask questions.

“That’s right. I put a piece of paper in my pocket with a wish, and I said that if I kept it for three years, my wish would come true. But a wish could be a wish to make the Dallas fish, a wish to make nothing happen, a wish to get married. ”

Loan laughs and explains that he is glad he finally knows.

“Yes, but why three years? ”

“At Schwabalts, they say they recognize a sailor over three years old as a real sailor. There must have been quite a few people who died or lost their lives before that. So at first, I think I started that three-year term with Bertie. ”

And then,

“You know very well. You’re the Philstein family, too? ”

A Schwabalts merchant selling Amulets in the Luote Market recognizes Loan and pretends to be his thumb.

“…… that’s the way it is. ”

This is Loan, who wandered the continent for assassinations.

So he replied with an awkward laugh that the depth is shallow, but of course there’s a lot he knows.

“… As you can see, Loan is amazing. ”

Lorelai looks at him with compassion.

She can’t change her introverted personality, but she is still expressing her mind comfortably.

“…… it’s not knowledge that has been learned in a good way. ”

And he laughed awkwardly, saying that this compliment was still embarrassing.

“Ah……. ”

Lorelai also smiled a little while covering her mouth with her hands.

“Anyway, give it a try. ”

Soon Ron pointed to the pouch on the board to change the subject.

“…… I don’t know the letters. ”

Lorelai frowned and said,

I can say it, but I don’t know the letters.

“It’s okay. You can use it in Miskatonic. Your wish is to write down what you want. ”

“Ah……. That’s okay….. ”

Lorelai looked embarrassed at the words.

“…… I don’t remember very well. ”

She was taken to Dyke territory as a child and enslaved.

So even the native language, Miskatonic, I didn’t remember very well.

“I’ll do it! ”

But when she nodded,

“I’ll do two. ”

Loan who smiles at the merchant and points to his pockets.

“Oh, you can do three! ”

“Three for two? ”

“That’s not it, haha! Anyway, pick your favorite color! ”

Then the Schwabalts merchant smiles and gestures to pick the pouch he wants.

“Then I……. ”

Soon, Loan lifts a pocket with a black wavy pattern on it.

“It’s also black. ”

When Lorelai laughed at him,

“Give this to Lorelei. ”

Loan handed Lorelei her pouch because it wasn’t his.

“…… Yes? ”

“Lorelei picked mine. He said it wasn’t much fun to pick. ”

Busha did.

In the words of Loan, recalling his past memories,

“…… hmm. Yes.”

Lorelei opens her eyes and looks at the stall, which she never thought she would choose.

Was there so much color in the world?

When I look at the colorful pockets and see that she can’t make a decision easily,

“Since you chose black hair, you can choose pink. ”

Schwarz merchant turns to Lorelai and Loan with his eyes full of interest.

“That’s what lovers do. ”

A boy and a girl of my age who came to the mayor of Luote together.

Of course, it would be right to think of the two as lovers.

It’s strange, of course, to write about slavery and the commoners’ relationship, even to honor.

“Well, it’s not like that….. ”

Anyway, when Lorelai, who was blushing with the merchant’s words, shrunk into a very embarrassing face,

“….. It’s worth it. ”

A Schwabalts merchant who nods to make sense of anything.

“… with this! ”

Whether Lorelai, who was too ashamed of it, wanted to run away quickly, as the merchant said, let’s pick a bag of light pink flowers like her hair,

“…… that’s a lot of fine color. ”

Loan nods with a nice face that meets the most burdensome colors and designs.

“…… Yes. ”

Lorelai, who laughed and drank without me knowing what she looked like.

“Well, you can write your wish here. One closed pocket should not be opened until three years have passed. Then your wish won’t be fulfilled! ”

Soon, Schwabalts merchant smiled and pointed to a table with paper and pens that wrote down his wishes.

“All right, let’s go. ”

“Yes, Loan….. ”

Lorelei, who was still embarrassed by the merchant’s gaze, followed him.

And two people standing next to each other in front of the table.

“What’s your wish, Bill? ”

“Yes? That’s….. ”

Lorelai asks Loan’s question and looks at him.

I am very hesitant to tell him my wish.

“No, you don’t have to talk. I didn’t mean to teach people their wishes. ”

“Ah, ah……. ”

Then, it’s a good thing Lorelai sighs of relief.

Isn’t she so cute?

Loan, who burst into laughter, shook his hand and grabbed the pen.

“Well, let me write down my wish. ”

“Yes! Me too….. ”

Lorelai grabs the pen with her face, which seems strange.

It’s an awkward move because it’s not even ripe.

“…… I don’t know if I can do well. ”

Lorelai looks at Loan while talking to herself.

“So am I. It might be a sword.”

Let’s show Loan the awkward hand that Pen is not used to.

“Unh!”

Lorelai bursts into laughter as she is nothing different from herself.

“I don’t think I need to be good at making wishes. A desperate heart is important! ”

And then Loan writes down the letters first.

“Yes, Loan. ”

Lorelai also began to write her wishes on paper as if she had obtained them.

“… Ah, that was it. ”

She stutters her memory and writes her hard wishes in Miscatonic language.

Loan smiles after completing his wish.

No matter how familiar Loan was with swords rather than pens, he had lived for 30 years in Gaza and could not be weaker in letters.

I was just trying to relax Lorelai.

‘…… Cute. ’

After all, Lorelai, who was really focused and taking her wishes seriously, went beyond being cute and looked lovely.

“Hmm……. ”

However, Lorelai seems not to know that Loan is looking at her.

“…… what was it. ”

It seemed like a god who had not listened to her wishes would have been a bad god if he had not listened carefully to her wishes.

“…… I’ll do the math first. ”

Loan, who didn’t want to disturb Lorelei like that, whispered to the Schwarz merchant with a pale smile.

“Got it.”

He smiles and nods.

“How is my princess? ”

And he asked me about Hannah.

Schwabalt himself is not that big a country, so of course Hanna’s news is curious.

“I’m doing very well. ”

Within a minute, Loan nods, bursting with a fluffy smile.

“You know, it’s perfect. ”

“Yes! You have no choice! Your beauty is great!”

A Schwabalts merchant who is as happy and laughable as Hannah’s compliments.

“I’m really worried that the Duke is not feeling well. You should be fine until the Princess finishes Linguini Academy. ”

Then he wept.

Duke Schwabaltz’s health is not so good.

“…. Duke Schwabaltz? ”

That’s what Loan said.

“Ouch!”

Schwabalts merchant had a face he wanted to see.

“No, nothing! ”

He was a hasty merchant.

‘Is that why Hannah was able to take over the regime? ’

Ron, who already knows the future, was able to puzzle himself.

Actually, Hannah’s reign was pretty early for her age.

At the time, Hannah was such a powerful person that she didn’t feel that strange.

However, if Duke Schwabaltz was in poor health, perhaps Hannah would have been the owner of Schwabalts without enough preparation.

Of course, her personality has been preparing for the moment when she will be the master of Schwabaltz for a long time.

“Thirty fairy tales anyway! ”

“Yes, here. ”

In any case, there is no need to bring more stories to the merchant.

It was a bit like listening to a third party about her family, and Hannah was the type to be honest when she asked.

To Loan, who finished his calculations with a bold face,

“Yes, that’s right. You can draw another line up there. ”

“Oh! I remember! ”

I saw a familiar face.

“… Kara? ”

I never thought I’d meet Kara at the Luote Market!

“Hello, Loan! ”

Kara, wrapped in a bandage around his right arm and neck, greeted him with a bright face.

“I came to see the chapter, and I saw it from afar! I was going to say hello…. ”

And as she said with a shy face,

“Aah.”

I wish I could do that enough. Roan nods.

Most Rosestas have Duty Blonde or brown hair, so his black hair is too noticeable.

“But I was talking to Lorelei. ”

Unlike Lorelai, who had little memory, Kara remembered the Miscatonic language.

“Then you know what Lorelei wants, Kara. ”

Soon, when Loan playfully asked,

“Oh, no! ”

Lorelai shakes her head with a piece of paper with a red wish that quickly bursts out of her face.

“I only taught you letters because you can’t see your wishes. It must have been Lorelai’s wish. ”

Lorelai blushes again at Kara’s words, who has not lost her light despite the bad things.

“… because that’s the wish. That’s because it’s a wish. ”

I might cry again if I tease you more.

Unlike her usual silent appearance, when her true appearance was revealed,

“Of course. It’s good to make a wish. ”

Loan also smiles and puts the paper in his pocket to stop playing games.

“What wish did Loan make? ”

Then Kara looked at Roan’s pockets and showed interest.

“It’s a secret. It’s a wish to be fulfilled. ”

And Roan, who straps his pockets.

“Yes, that’s right……. ”

With a smile on her face, Lorelai tightly sealed her pockets with a string.

“…… I think I should do one too. ”

Somehow, Kara has a little sad face because she feels marginalized.

“Do one. I’ll give you a present.”

Loan smiles and nods comfortably.

“Oh, thank you! Then go to Yoki Square first and wait! I think I should be careful with my wishes too! ”

It was Kara who joined naturally.

“Yes, Kara! ”

Lorelai was also brighter in her appearance as a trendy person.

“Got it.”

Wouldn’t that be a big deal?

And since it happened yesterday, there may be something else today.

“Then we’ll go to Nucky Square first. ”

Loan steps to pay Schwarz Merchant 15 more dongs, saying he’ll be comfortable taking Kara home.

“Now that this is an amulet, you can keep it in your arms. ”

“Yes, Loan! ”

Loan and Lorelai are talking like lovers and heading to Nucky Square.

Kara raises her red pouch with her cold, hardened face.

“Oh, my God, you picked the red one. ”

“It’s like blood. ”

“Huh?”

I wonder if the Schwabalts merchant heard something wrong. Kara naturally walks to the table while she tilts her head.

“…… I don’t like being nice to other people. I just want you to be nice to me. ”

Soon she touched her neck.

“And Lorelai, there’s no hope. Obviously you’ll be frustrated again. The world is just full of pain. So let me help you. ”

I wrote a wish with an expressionless face.

‘May Lorelei be freed from this painful world. ’