Philstar or Gaju’s Regression

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Emilia’s first life was literally a series of shocks.

“Are you saying that Emilia became Philstein Assassin? ”

If you still want to know more,

“Yes, he actually trained assassins. At first, I thought I might treat you like a princess because I was sorry I made you a murderer, but Lord Pilstein was very upset that you had to train properly to pay for your meal. Normally, he was lazy and slow, but he was only strictly toxic to himself. ”

Freya continued to speak.

And in his full-fledged appearance, Loan scratches and curls his head with an awkward expression.

I’m not the owner of such a laid-back personality right now, but if you think about it as a child, you might say it’s a little bit like that.

Just as Hans called him a lazy genius right before.

“Well, maybe so….. ”

Plus he’s a ruleless man.

Therefore, each time he became a different person, he would be different now and then.

“It must have been better for Emilia anyway. He said that his body was very hard, but that was why he was able to shudder the paradoxically distressing thoughts. ”

Soon Freya told me how Emilia felt at the time.

“….. Yes? ”

“It’s a lot better to be an assassin than to get old and die in slavery and cut your own life off. ”

In the words of Freya, who is speaking as if Marge herself were Emilia,

“… I’m sure it is. ”

Loan sighs deeply and nods.

“Even though Lord Pilstein was strict in his training, that doesn’t mean he didn’t do anything as bad as his husband or his slaves. No, rather, after the training, he said he was as good about it as an old friend. ”

“An old friend….. ”

“I once asked you why you didn’t kill yourself in Nero, and you said you didn’t have to kill because you were already dead. The same is true of the Slave Ground. I brought Shemchi to save people. ”

“Aah.”

“But now it’s the eyes of a living person,” he replied, laughing, “and Emilia knew her heart. When I saw her smile, my chest fluttered and my head turned white. That’s how I liked Lord Philstein. ”

“I see….. ”

Maybe it was inevitable that Emilia became fond of Loan.

He was imprinted like a childhood visionary, and it was he who rescued her from the caterpillar.

“And from time to time, he used to train until sunset and lend his back to exhausted Emilia, who said he couldn’t forget the moment. He felt good, strong, and stable. As many times as I wish time had stopped like this. ”

Looking at him like that, Freya explains the feelings Emilia felt again.

It was quite specific, and the situation was also clear.

“…… that wasn’t the first time. ”

Thanks to her, Loan remembered the time she was training with her at the Academy.

Emilia who has been leaning on her back under the Red Sunset.

I wanted to be ashamed at the time, but I didn’t even know why it was a gesture that kept me so deeply missed.

“So, was that when Emilia told me? ”

Within days, Loan really asked with personal curiosity.

I wanted to see the roots of the deep connection that has been going on since then.

“No. Emilia couldn’t confess. ”

Soon after Freya took it out,

“…… ahhh. ”

Loa nods with a slightly awkward face.

“Emilia couldn’t tolerate herself. Because the body, of course, and the life itself was ruined, you thought it was mindless to say that. ”

Even if Emilia came back to Phylstein Castle and found the purpose of life, it would not have been possible to regain her lost self-esteem.

“You did….. ”

With a heavy sigh in his heart, he nodded.

“But that wasn’t the only reason. ”

Freya shakes her head again.

“Sir Philstein was already married at the time. With Nim Parviti.”

And in light of the shocking facts she brought out,

“…… huh? ”

Loan’s eyes grew again.

“Yes?”

Are you saying you married Parviti?

It’s so awkward because she’s family.

“…… yes, I can. ”

On the other hand, I also thought that if this had not happened, it would have been the same.

He’s been thinking about making a family with Parvity a few times.

Her affection and kindness were the same, and she was the only woman I knew.

“So I couldn’t talk. Parviti is really beautiful and sweet. He was beautiful and innocent enough not to compare with a completely ruined Emilia. ”

It was not possible to understand why Emilia had such a heart.

I’m glad she wasn’t crazy at the time.

No, maybe it was crazy.

It looks like it’s walking on a slab of ice.

“…… yes. ”

Thanks to that thought, to Loan, who nodded with a heavy face,

“In fact, every time I went back in time after that, Lord Philstein met a new lover like Busha or Kara, and Emilia had a lot of trouble. Why are there so many beautiful and attractive people next to you? ”

Freya has told me another news.

“Huh?”

It seems that every time Emilia went back in time, all the lovers who guarded her side were different.

But…..

“Busha and Kara…? ”

That was the two of you?

Of course, since the emotions of my previous life are being conveyed as they are, it’s not unusual that there are two people who are showing great affection right now.

“Well, Lord Philstein didn’t do anything wrong, but Emilia was unfair, so she stayed up for a few days. Especially because it was as deep as the hostile relationship with Kara. ”

“Ugh, um……. ”

Emilia has so many regressions, that the vastness of her life will be enormous even if she writes a book.

So now I had to move on.

It won’t matter.

“Anyway, go ahead, Freya. ”

In the words of Loan, who is holding the stake to understand Emilia’s emotions and thoughts as much as possible,

“Yes. Then, when Emilia was trained enough to act as an assassin, Egbert, the emperor, began to become more and more ruthless. The quarrel with the aristocrats of the aristocratic coalition never ceased for the purpose of the emperor’s sovereignty, and the emperor came to visit the Philstein family to deal with it. ”

Freya followed.

“Absolutely. ”

It was only natural that the reckless Egbert came to the Philstein family, the best assassin.

“… and you must have seen Emilia there. ”

And there will be no happy ending in a world of disaster.

Obviously, in the words of Roan, that they would have found Emilia,

“Yes. After receiving the news, Emperor Egbert decided to eliminate Emilia. At that time, unlike before, she was completely transformed into a bishop of the Ariman Church, and even Emilia became an assassin, so there was no reason to leave her alone. ”

Freya also replied with a serious face.

“….. I’m afraid so. There were pathological corners to maintaining power. ”

Overall, it was not difficult to understand because it was in line with Loan’s previous life.

“So anyway? ”

When he recalls the situation and asks,

“Egbert thought that even the Philstein family who spent a long time with Emilia could be a very dangerous enemy. I sent troops to frame Emilia for plotting treason, and that way the Philstein family was a mess. ”

Freya also answered.

“… I see. ”

There were no exceptions.

Egbert decided to deal with the Philstein family as much as he wanted to remove the obstacles.

“Everyone would have died the same way then. ”

Although I expected it, the bitter answer was that while Ian nodded with a penetrating face,

“Yes, most of the family members of William and Philstein were killed, and Emilia, along with Lord Philstein, only managed to get out of there. But Emilia couldn’t abandon the idea that it was all her fault. ”

She talked about the first part of Emilia’s life, almost the last part.

“… after…. ”

A continuum of trials.

Roan sighs again at Freya as she walks a harsh path.

“It was all your fault. And I was angry with Lord Philstein, and I told him everything was Emilia’s fault. ”

In what she soon said,

“I’m sure….. If that’s the case….. ”

Loan nods with a heavy sigh.

I would say no, but that was already the case at the time.

And if you’ve been through that without knowing anything, it would be weird not to say that.

“It’s the last time, isn’t it? ”

Roan then looks at Freya to tell her the final story.

“Yes, Emilia decided to kill Egbert who caused all this division herself. All the brothers who were close were killed by that hand, and now they’re destroying Lord Philstein’s family and home. ”

Soon Freya nodded and spoke.

“I guess you have some confidence. You know the structure of the Emperor better than anyone. ”

“… I’m sure it is. ”

“But that couldn’t have been possible. Even though he knows the geography well, Emilia can only do the part of one assassin now. ”

“I’m afraid so. Assassinating Emperor Rosesta is almost impossible, even a skilled assassin. ”

At that point, Loan also shakes his head with excitement.

Eliminating him requires skill enough to pierce countless escort troops.

That means you should at least be on the Sword Master Half Row.

Even Romain now has a death wish to make. Will Emilia die at that time?

“Emilia, who was after the raid, was caught and drank quickly. ”

According to the expected answer,

“I’m sure….. ”

Loan nods with a very bitter smile.

It was too bitter, even though he already knew.

Her life seemed so poor that her heart would be torn.

“But then Lord Pilstein showed up and saved Emilia again. ”

At that moment, Freya told me a little flip.

“Me?”

“Yes, Lord Pilstein was looking for a chance to avenge Father and Family, but I couldn’t just leave Emilia. ”

And in what she said,

“…… ahhh. ”

Loan nods and speaks with a blunt face.

I don’t think I could have turned my back on Emilia at the end of the day.

“But even if Lord Pilstein was a Sword Master, it was hard to defeat both the imperial knights and the soldiers who were endlessly pushed. Moreover, Parviti was held hostage there. ”

“…… Parviti? ”

“Yes, so Lord Philstein lost his life there, and at your sacrifice, Emilia was saved for the third time. ”

But the consequences are death.

“…… Is that really salvation? ”

Thinking about Emilia’s feelings, Loan shakes her head with excitement.

“I was literally just saved in that situation. Running along Lord Pilstein’s prepared escape route, he repeatedly travelled to the Southern Grand Pia Coalition. He escaped the Rosesta Empire, but Emilia couldn’t stand it. because even the person you love died because of you. ”

Loan felt frustrated by Freya’s bold explanation.

Now Emilia must have been really psychically driven to the end.

Seeing his miserable face,

“Emilia couldn’t stand it and took her own life. It was Lord Philstein who was able to survive Emilia’s death in the first place. ”

Freya nods her head that the idea is correct and delivers her final message.

That was the last day of Emilia’s first life.

“He said that there was no one left beside him, and that your heart and head were full of you, and it wasn’t so hard to cut yourself off. If you die, you may be able to meet everyone who was dear to you, but you’re willing to laugh and cut your life off. That was the last memory of the moment. ”

And Loan, who heard it, nodded in silence.

“I see….. ”

The face of Emilia as a child I saw in my dreams.

And her last to be sainted.

And now the face.

All of Emilia’s looks pass through her head, and a great deal of grief is poured out.

“After that, Lord Philstein will know. Emilia, who came back in time, hoped more than ever to be a real hero. I wanted a better self because my previous life had failed. ”

“…… I know. I feel that way.”

“So I used the memories of my previous life to become a knight, and I became a wizard. ”

“Yeah, I guess so. So, did you learn magic through Nialatotep in Lives? ”

When she learned magic.

I think that’s important.

“That was before you met me. I don’t know. You never talked about it, you never asked. ”

“Yes?”

That didn’t seem to be something Freya knew otherwise.

“Yeah, but the end didn’t change anyway. With the power of Emilia, it was impossible to stop the Emperor with the power of the Ariman Church, and the only way to do this was to realize that Lord Philstein was to assassinate him. When you defeated all your talents and became your first lover. It was also very important for Emilia. You haven’t liked it since we first met. ”

“…… yes. ”

After all, it seems that the reporters briefly knew about Emilia’s regression.

“But for everyone’s sake, Lord Philstein chose his own death, and Emilia realized it only after she had done it. What I truly wished for was not the peace of the world, but your own peace and yours. ”

Look at Emilia’s heart.

“….. Yes, I did. ”

Her mind would always have been two things.

The world is above all a giant affection.

And perhaps a greater guilt than that.

In the first place, her life was filled with them.

“And now it’s too early……. ”

Soon, Loan cleared his mind.

I still don’t understand why Emilia killed William, Parviti and Hans.

“After all, what Emilia wants is for me to be a hero. Being loved by everyone. ”

I thought I could clearly understand her purpose now.

If Loan kills Bolonez IV now, he will eventually make the same choice as before, and will be more likely to become a traitor than a hero.

Even if the substance of Bolognese IV is revealed, the interests of the human world are more vile and evil than that.

“ ……. ”

So she’s just trying to stop Roan from assassinating Bolonez IV somehow.

“… and maybe it will make me shine more? ”

At the same time, if we preach something evil that cannot be dealt with by human power, people will eventually be forced to rely on Ron, who transcends human power.

Three incidents he had already gone through.

Because of that, Loan was called the hero of the Old World.

“Yes, so go anywhere other than Bolognese and rest! Then Lord Philstein will have nothing to lose! ”

Soon Freya smiled brightly and nodded.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about Bourne’s past, but I think I convinced Roan anyway.

“… but I can’t leave Emilia alone. ”

Regrettably, however, Loan’s choice was different from hers.

“Yes?”

Didn’t I think of it at all?

As Freya’s eyes widened,

“That way, Emilia will fall in love. You will be tied to the wholesale level with Bolonez IV, and you will hear curses and resentments. Eventually, I might lose my life in my hands. ”

Loan shakes his head that he has no choice but to head to Bolognese.

“But that’s what Emilia wants! ”

Freya raised her voice in a panic.

“No, that’s not what Emilia really wants. ”

Loan shakes his head decisively.

“Because that’s not what I want. ”

“Yes?”

“You want me to be happy, Emilia. ”

Her happiness is soon his.

“So you shouldn’t. Because I like Emilia that much. I can’t be happy to let you do that. After all, it’s just pushing me into living hell. ”

Then this is the wrong beginning.

In his words,

“…… that. ”

Freya doesn’t say anything anymore.

It is true that Emilia is working for him thoroughly.

And if he says it’s not what he wants, obviously her choice will be the wrong one.

“Anyway, we’ll talk about the rest later. We don’t have much time. ”

And Loan got up from his position that it was time to take the road again.

It’s complicated, but her heart alone was sure to confirm it.

So while I think I can convince her enough,

“Heeing.”

Just now, thanks to the commotion, the horse that had escaped into the forest came back.

“Welcome. ”

Soon Loan got on top of the horse.

“I’ll be sure to bring Emilia back with me, so I’m waiting for you to rest in a safe place. And thank you so much for telling me. ”

I thanked Freya.

It’s true that she killed precious people, but it’s also true that she provided clues to a better future.

“…… Yes. ”

Then Freya nods with a shaky face.

“Then!”

And Loan said,

“Heeing!”

I ran back to Bolognese with my horse.

At least it was clear that Emilia is for him, and that she really loves him.

‘Then I must kill you! ’

And even while he was away, adding to his joy,

“…… I can’t believe we just left the injured like this, let’s sell it. ”

Fraya, left alone there, looks at the back and looks a little sharp and shrugs within.

“But it has to be. Lord Philstein is just as obsessed as Emilia. It was made like that in the first place. ”

Within a week, she got up in bed with a meaningful horse.

Then I began to take a step south.

Soon she stared at the moon with a green eye that had no emotion at all.

“Anyway, it’s all going according to schedule. ”