No Dark Secrets In This Book

Episode 30

Is this the real life?

(Translation: Is this fucking real?)

Even trying to comfort myself with the lyrics of a historically famous song doesn’t work well. Of course not. Because a major setting error has occurred.

Fuck! Why is this real?!

‘Would it be okay to add a setting that Cassice Demillang’s mysophobia is suddenly cured?’

Of course it’s not okay. Even I, who knows very well how extremely sensitive Cassice Demillang is about gloves, can’t believe I committed such a stupid act.

This guy’s so-called mysophobia is actually closer to “fucking personality disorder if not wearing gloves.” The reason was not specified in the work, but at least there was an agreement among the characters not to provoke it. Because if provoked, he openly goes crazy.

Then, naturally, the Demillang family and the novel’s protagonist would be aware that Cassice can’t live without gloves for whatever reason.

But I suddenly unveiled Cassice Demillang’s bare hands.

‘Without any cause or reason…!’

It becomes problematic for me to abruptly show a change in a character like Cassice Demillang without setting up what triggered the change and why, but I did just that. Fuck, God, will I end up getting completely screwed by Demillang, skull crushed, throat slashed? I need to at least make up an excuse, but my tense head couldn’t find a proper way out.

I’m just in despair.

‘Ah, aah. Why did I make such a mistake?!’

Damn it. This is all because of Ryuseong. I was out of my mind because he dissed me. Fuck, I just ran my mouth a bit lightly, but if you diss me like that, wouldn’t my pride be hurt? Honestly, it was you who rushed in at the infirmary, but now you’re acting like you’re the only one not at fault? So I cursed at him behind his back. I thoroughly made sure he left and wasn’t coming back, and even locked the door before doing it.

I remember straightening my outfit while thickly spitting out vulgar language with a crisp pronunciation.

Wearing a stiff, starched silk shirt instead of the school uniform shirt, and putting on a shirt garter belt on my thighs. And wearing knee-high stockings, sock garters, and pants.

The pants also have a similar design to the uniform but are custom-made to be a bit more luxurious. So my skinny legs look quite stylish. On top of that, I tighten a corset belt, wear a shoulder holster, and instead of wearing a tie around my neck, I put on a jabot with fancy lace and fasten it with a brooch mixed with diamonds and emeralds. Shoes are boots that cover up to below the knees. Setting every strand of hair naturally and coming out.

I remember this much, but I forgot to wear the most important gloves.

‘Damn Cassice Demillang. You wear a lot of clothes at once. If you went around naked, this wouldn’t have happened, you bad guy.’

Ah, since it’s already my body, I’ll take Cassice’s side. Cassice, don’t listen. It’s not your fault. This is all because of Ryuseong. Not because of my memory, not because of Cassice Demillang’s fashion preference, but because that fucking bastard Kim Ryuseong trampled on my pride, this kind of major incident occurred.

Even if I try to turn on the happiness circuit like that, cleaning up is still my job anyway. Damn it. I had to clean it up somehow. So I don’t die.

So I smiled nonchalantly. 

“I had a change of heart.”

“……”

You know, there’s an old saying. If you break up, you cut your hair. I’m saying I’m like that too. Since you dissed me, I’ll take off my gloves… Haha! Ha.

Ha……

“Change?”

But seeing Ryuseong make a somehow uncanny expression, it seemed he misunderstood my words. Not only Ryuseong, but the students who were pricking up their ears exchanged glances and engaged in a battle of wits that I couldn’t understand, and this time too, Logan opened his mouth first.

“C-Could it be, Your Excellency, are you getting married?”

…Hey, you. You’re not a gentleman, you crazy bastard. How can the one who’s supposed to be the most gentlemanly come up with this kind of thought every time he speaks? From the idea of getting a wedding ring fitted just because I showed my fingers, what country’s gentleman etiquette is that? I unconsciously revealed the contempt that came to mind and Logan, realizing his own mistake, apologized.

“Ah, I’m sorry. Then could it be at the stage of giving a gift?” 

…Cancel that. It seems he hasn’t realized. I felt the urge to roughly hit his head with the item I was holding like Professor Pung Sun-ja, but I forcibly suppressed it. The magic textbook is as thick as an encyclopedia. No matter what, it’s problematic to kill someone, you know. There are many eyes watching here. Right? So let’s do well. Okay?

With that in mind, I just smiled fixedly.

Like a pacifist. Kindly.

“It would be better for your well-being to keep that tongue of yours quiet rather than have it cut off.”

“……”

Oh, did my sincerity get conveyed to people’s hearts? The surroundings that were murmuring also shut their mouths. Somehow it feels heartwarming? Haha.

If everyone didn’t shut up, I was thinking of blowing up Logan’s head, so thank goodness.

‘It would be hard to deal with if blood splattered on the textbook.’

Anyway, this was my thought. It’s awkward for me to say I was dissed first, and it’s also awkward to say that bastard dissed me, so I shouldn’t say anything at all!

But as always, the strange one is Ryuseong.

I thought I should pull him back and kiss him before he opens his mouth of truth and gives me humiliation. Huh? Kiss him? It’s a figure of speech, but I really wish I could kiss him. Deep kiss, good.

No, anyway. I got sidetracked for a moment, but what I was trying to say is this. It’s suspicious that Ryuseong, who doesn’t say a word to a strange degree even though I didn’t shut him up. Isn’t that right? He doesn’t refute whether nonsense spreads or not.

Why is that? What’s good for you if rumors spread that you’re dating Demillang? 

‘Do you want to become a traitor of the Korean Peninsula?’ 

What the hell do you want?

‘Why are you trying to take three magic classes unlike in the original work?!’

But before I could pull him, I had to select and submit my courses first, and in the end, I ended up learning three kinds of magic following Ryuseong. Fucking son of a bitch……

I swear, this time, no matter what, I will expose your intentions.

Really. Sniff.

***

“Why don’t you explain what kind of trick you’re pulling, while I’m giving you a chance.”

And as expected, Ryuseong was caught as soon as the magic orientation was over.

To be precise, he was guided to a shaded spot in the rear garden with no people around to have a conversation, but to be honest, the sight of Cassice Demillang guiding him to a secluded place with ‘that’ kind of expression was quite eerie, so when the expectation that he would demand a conversation was met, Ryuseong smiled faintly.

He thought it was fortunate that at least it didn’t start with a death threat.

“Are you laughing?”

What returned was a voice full of malice, as if to rip the corners of his mouth right away. But Ryuseong was not surprised.

Cassice’s reaction was within Ryuseong’s expected range. At least for now.

“In the morning, you said you didn’t even want a kiss, what is this? Why aren’t you refuting even though you’re involved with me? Was it a tantrum by any chance? Did you play tricks to get even a little more attention? Were you that horny? Were you in heat wanting to sleep with me?”

However, when Cassice opened his mouth again, Ryuseong never anticipated this kind of reaction among countless possibilities, and felt all the planned answers being discarded.

It wasn’t that he was surprised by the vulgar words. He was just surprised by the speaker. To think that words like asking if he was horny or in heat would be grinded out between the lips of a noble person like Cassice Demillang.

Ryuseong tried not to distort his expression like a novice greenhorn, but couldn’t stop a dumbfounded sound from leaking out.

“…Saying such things in broad daylight?”

But Cassice seemed angry. As if some territory exclusive to Cassice Demillang that Ryuseong could never understand was invaded.

“Haha, don’t hold back and open your mouth. Before I bite off that petty tongue. I’m a master who overlooks a clumsy scheme or two, but it’s troubling if you overstep your bounds.”

“…Ha.”

“Say what you want straightforwardly. I’ll tolerate it, you know. Right now.”

This kind of reaction was unexpected. However, for Ryuseong, a vicious sneer was several times more comfortable than a melted face when dealing with Cassice Demillang, so he was rather glad.

That he reveals his teeth fiercely while curling up the corners of his mouth cynically once again. 

‘Just seeing your anger makes me feel like I’m standing on a battlefield.’

, that is Ryuseong’s true name. The other name that was destined since birth was ‘Guardian’, but in the true name that he awakened to before regression, the modifier ‘World’ was attached.

Ryuseong is the one who protects their world.

In the future before regression, following his own beliefs and will, Ryuseong was finally defined as the unique existence to protect the world.

The one Ryuseong is more intensely wary of than anyone else is the young man in front of his eyes……

No, that’s not it. He is a man. The fact that his features are thin and beautiful is not important. Not only in terms of age, but he is an existence that can only be called a man as he is already a complete independent personality.

And he, Cassice Demillang, with an immeasurably mystical face, smiled freshly and tried to crush the world. That’s why Ryuseong couldn’t protect the world.

None other than you.

Because you were the enemy.