Chapter 56: Please Stay Alive
"Are you saying because she has similar background and lifestyle as you, you relate with her?" David wanted to make him realize that maybe it is not love.
"That is indeed something because of which I felt a connection with her but after the dinner I had with her and the whole day she spent with me while taking care of me, I realized I like her, I like her presence around me, her company and companionship is what I seek. But when she left me, with no scope of contact, I realized I have fallen in love with her. I know it is not believable for you and you are thinking I am crazy but I am not able to put a finger on any moment when I realized this, somewhere it was always there."
"Chance, are you sure about what you are saying?"
"Hmm, I was this sure in my life when I took the decision to be an assassin and after that today, the decision of being with Samantha forever is again something I am very sure about"
"Chance, if that's the case. Shouldn't you tell Samantha the truth about your life?" David was now able to understand what Chance was trying to say.
"That is the catch here David, I want to lead a normal life with her. I don't want this secret side of mine to come out."
"Chance, this is wrong. It is equivalent to deceiving her" David couldn't believe Chance was suggesting something so ridiculous.
"David, I will not tell her the truth until she doesn't"
"What do you mean?"
"David, I felt mutual feelings when I was with her and you know me. I am never wrong about a person. If I meet someone once, I get a hold of their personality and you know that David"
"Yeah, it was very beneficial for our business"
"Exactly, and I can tell you, Samantha too likes me and if she decides she doesn't want to reveal her truth of being an assassin and wants to keep it hidden from me then I will do the same, I'll too hide it all."
"But why?"
"I got the feeling, just like me she too wants to lead a normal life where this dark side of ours is nowhere affecting us"
"Are you planning to give up on being an assassin?"
"Not sure, maybe or maybe not. I spent more than half of my life as an assassin, I don't think I can part away with it so easily"
"But…"
"But I also want to lead a normal life where this profession of mine does not affect my life in any way"
"You could have done that with any woman. Marry her and hide your truth"
"Yeah, but I never came across anyone I fell in love with, Samantha is the first one"
"Chance you are confusing me. Samantha too is an assassin like you. You both can just tell the truth to each other and spend your life together"
"Yeah, true if she is willing to let Chance know the truth about Danger-Ace then Grim Reaper too will introduce himself to Samantha but if she does not want that then I too wouldn't want it"
"Oh, now I am able to understand what you are saying"
"Really?" Chance asked him in sarcasm.
"Hmm, a bit"
"Good, because I am still not able to understand what I am doing" Chance honestly confessed.
David laughed at his helplessness, "It's okay, such things happens, at times you are not very sure of why you want something but you know you want it"
"Yes David, now you are right"
"Why do you not want to tell her your truth first?"
"Because I don't know how she would react, maybe just like me she too decided to spend her life alone because of this profession."
"Then she would never fall for Chance but there is a chance that she might fall for Grim Reaper"
Chance laughed hearing his words, "She hates Grim Reaper, she would never fall for him"
"What if she falls for Chance and after knowing he is the Grim Reaper, the man she hates the most, what do you think she would do?"
"No idea" Chance honestly answered him, "But I don't want to bother about future so much. You know David, our future is uncertain. Did we ever predict Lucas will die so suddenly? No, right?"
David nodded his head.
"Who knows, maybe I'll die in a week or maybe Samantha will die in a month. Our lives are uncertain. Don't I deserve to lead a normal life like Chance Miller? Is it too much to ask for?" Chance looked lost when he questioned David.
"Hmm"
"But of course, not at the cost of deceiving Samantha. I would see what she would do, if we meet and she too falls for me. If she decides to hide her truth from me then I'll assume just like me she would like to lead a normal life and I will respect her decision and will pretend I don't know anything"
"In spite of you knowing everything?"
"Hmm"
"Chance, is Samantha worth all this?"
"You will see, she is worth more than this"
"What is it about her that you like so much?" David asked him.
"What is it about Mia you like so much?" Chance counter questioned him instead.
"Umm" David thought for a while, "I love her smile, it brightens my day. Umm, I also love the fact that she is very understanding. If I ask her to not question me about something, she really does not and even though she knows I am hiding a few things from her, she respects my privacy. She is very understanding and doesn't expect anything from me" David answered him.
"Okay, so if some day she doesn't smile or is in a bad mood, you won't love her?" Chance questioned him seriously.
David was annoyed, "What logic is that Chance? Of course, I won't stop loving her only because she is in a bad mood"
"Then, if some day she doesn't respect your privacy and questions you what you are up to and expects answers from you, will you stop loving her?" Chance threw another question at him.
"Obviously not. By the way, this already happened, few months back she got annoyed by my lies and confronted me about what am I hiding."
"Oh" Chance had no idea something like this happened.
"Yeah, I handled her carefully and I assured her that there is nothing to worry about it and after lot of consoling and pacifying. She finally calmed down"
"Did you stop loving her when you fought?"
"Of course not, what the fuck is wrong with you? That's not how relationships work"
"Exactly David, to be honest there is no reason why you like Mia, there is always no reason why you like or love someone, it is just that your heart knows they are the one and you know you love them. The qualities you just mentioned you like in Mia; the same qualities can be in some other woman too. But will you like this other woman? Of course, not"
"What's your point?"
"I don't know what is it about Samantha that I like her so much, I just know I am in love with Samantha and that she is the one."
"Chance, do one thing. Meet Samantha, see where you two are about all of this then if she too is into you then date her and then you can decide if you want to marry her or not, don't come to this marriage decision right away"
"Why not?"
"Because it is too soon"
"Why delay everything if I know she is the one, what's the point in waiting?"
"Think about her, you might want to marry her but she might want to take things slow, understand you, date you and if she loves you then she might think of marriage" David tried to explain it from Samantha's perspective so that Chance doesn't take any decisions in haste and would think more before doing something.
"Hmm, I am not going to ask her to marry me immediately, what the fuck do you think of me?" Chance laughed as he understood David's fears.
"Was just worried"
"Don't, I am fine and I know what I am going to do"
"And that is?"
"You'll see"
"Chance, don't freak her out"
"I'll try not to and come on she is an assassin, if she gets irritated by me, she will just kill me" Chance again joked.
"Dude, please stay alive" David was worried as Danger-Ace is indeed capable enough to kill Chance Miller if not the Grim Reaper
"Let's see" Chance smiled and the two headed back to their rooms.
Later, they all left Hawaii and flew back to New York.
For a week, Chance tried to concentrate on his work but he was not able to as his mind kept drifting back to Samantha.