Chapter 187: It turns out, you have always been silently doing things for me.
He searched frantically everywhere but could not find the missing Yilian. During the search, he kept calling her phone, but it remained off and went unanswered.
Gazing into the vast sea of people, Lin Yifan felt helpless; he didn't know Yilian well enough to know the places she frequented, so now all he could do was to let her heal on her own, to recover by herself.
"Please don't do anything foolish!" Lin Yifan prayed in his heart, not wanting anything bad to happen to such a lively young girl.
Afterward, feeling resigned, he drove to the base of Su Qingqing's apartment building, ready to take Su Qingqing out for a meal.
On the other hand, the crazed Yilian arrived at the beach; this place was her usual escape from troubles, where she hoped to find some solace.
"Why? Why? Why?"
She screamed at the ocean three times in a row, venting the frustration inside her.
In this life, the biggest mistake she had made was falling in love with someone she shouldn't have.
"Why does heaven want to punish me like this? Why did it let me meet him? What did I do wrong? Ah!!!"
The more she thought, the more frantic she became, the more agonized she felt.
Then, she continuously kicked away the wet sand at her feet, as if she bore a grudge against it. But the wet sand was never fully gone; each wave would come and smooth out the uneven beach again.
At this moment, her troubles were like the wet sand on the beach, impossible to kick away, and even more exhausting to deal with.
So, she ran into the waves, hoping to use the ocean's force to wash away the vexations in her heart.
"Boom!!!"
A wave, powerful as a collapsing mountain, surged toward her; the next moment, she closed her eyes, spread her arms, and quietly awaited the arrival of that unstoppable force.
"Slap!"
The next second, the surging water hit her body, soaking her clothes through; and the accompanying force nearly knocked down her frail figure.
"Ah!!! Bring it on!"
This thrill was exhilarating, giving her a chilling sensation through her core; this was precisely what she needed.
"Boom!!!"
Without her having to say more, another turbulent wave rushed towards her.
"Slap!"
Another collision, another baptism; at this time, the vexation in her heart began to lessen!
"Keep it coming!"
Seemingly addicted to the impact, she clenched her fists tightly, anchored her feet firmly into the sand, and stood resolute as the powerful waves crashed over her.
The surging waves seemed to interpret her desire, so they suddenly rose higher and became more ferocious.
"Boom!!!"
The roar grew more intense, the anticipation building before it even arrived; she looked forward to the coming wave with eagerness.
"Slap!"
A few seconds later, the anticipated wave arrived, crashing mercilessly against her; this heavy blow washed away much of her inner turmoil, leaving her feeling exceptionally refreshed.
Wave after turbulent wave followed in succession, each hitting her, taking away little by little of her distress.
Gradually, she calmed down; gradually, she found peace.
And just like her mood, the waves also weakened, becoming gentler and softer.
After the waves, droplets of water steadily dripped from her drenched clothes; along with them fell her tears of heartbreak and hatred.
"Heh heh! Lin Yifan! Heh heh! People of the Lin Family Village! Heh heh! Brother! Heh heh! Heh heh..."
At this moment, her heart was filled only with cold laughter; because it was too funny, too ridiculous, too absurd. She had actually fallen in love with her own blood brother—there was nothing more ludicrous in this world.
"Ten years of not seeing each other, ten years of hatred, and now to meet like this, haha!" Yilian sneered over and over.
As a child, when her brother enlisted in the military, it was she who gradually shouldered the heavy burdens of family life on her slim frame; during junior high and high school, every vacation was spent working in the fields to help her parents, without a moment's rest; although these chores seemed minor, her entire school vacations were spent in the fields, her once delicate hands thick with calluses, totally unlike those of a youthful girl.
If during that time she had had a brother at home to share the farm work, perhaps she wouldn't have been so exhausted; perhaps she could have had joyful holiday times; perhaps her hands wouldn't have developed thick calluses.
Six years later, despite having been accepted into a university in the city, she had to drop out and start working, for her family, for her sister who was still in school.
If she had a brother at home then, she could have attended the university she wished for; she could have experienced the college life she had always dreamed of.
At eighteen, when she went to work in a strange city, she often suffered hardships, was frequently scolded by her boss, bullied, and almost kidnapped and raped by a villain.
If at that time she had had a brother by her side to comfort her, to protect her, perhaps her heart wouldn't have felt so weary; perhaps she wouldn't have found herself crying in a corner every silent night; perhaps she wouldn't have harbored thoughts of dying.
All of this was caused by his leaving without a word; thus, she harbored hate in her heart; a hate that accompanied her for ten long years, growing from a grain of sand into the boulder it was now.
Today, to learn that the brother she had despised for ten years was the same man she now had feelings for, in that moment, she completely broke down.
From enemy to lover—was this some kind of joke? And the most laughable part was that this lover was blood-related to her, truly leaving her at a loss for how to face it all.
Endless troubles suddenly converged on her from all directions; then, she leaned back and submerged into the cold sea water.
In an instant, the world seemed to stand still, silent and sorrowless.
"Brother! I want to play with the kite too!"
"Here! Hold onto it!"
"Brother! I want that red fruit from the tree."
"Alright! Brother will pick it for Yilian right now."
"Brother, that little doll is so pretty!"
"Does Yilian want it?"
"Yes! But… we don't have money."
"You little rascal, why did you steal Auntie Li's money? Do you want a beating? Alright! Here it is!"
"Smack! Smack! Smack!!"
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"Brother! Help! The fatso is bullying me again!"
"Don't you dare hurt my sister!"
"Humph! Kid, you're asking for it!"
"Bang! Bang! Bang..."
"Brother, wake up! Brother, are you alright?"
"I'm fine, Yilian, let's go home!"
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"Let go of that girl!" (Huancheng KTV)
"Don't be ungrateful!" (Bar Shanchicken)
"Beast! Stop it!" (Hotel interview)
It turns out, you've always been in my heart; it turns out, you've always been silently giving for me; it turns out, you've always been by my side.
The next moment, a pair of bright eyes suddenly opened in the water; then a petite figure vigorously emerged from the sea surface. She opened her mouth and let out a loud shout toward the ocean: "Brother!"