My Ex-Girlfriend Regrets Dumping Me

40 – Hair (5)

At first, I honestly had more than just concerns.

I didn’t explain everything to Ji-ah.

It was too long to explain about Ha-yeon’s terminal illness and our conflicting feelings.

And it was too personal to tell her all that.

Despite the insufficient explanation, Ji-ah took it more calmly than I thought.

“…Still, I’m relieved.”

The truth is, there was no real reason to keep Ha-yeon as a friend.

If someone were to ask if I had no feelings for her, that would be a lie.

Although we shared memories over a long period of time, that was all there was to it.

“But I’ve already spoken about it, so I can’t retract now.”

After forgiving her, I couldn’t suddenly break off my friendship with Ha-yeon.

So all I could do was ask Ji-ah to understand.

Ji-ah empathized enough with the emotions that Ha-yeon disliked.

If I were in the same situation, I would have felt uneasy too.

So I had to persuade her and bend over backwards.

I was willing to do anything to console Jia.

…Although I didn’t expect it to be in this way.

“…Sigh.”

Pressing our lips together, Jia tightly closed her eyes.

She held onto me even tighter, as if riding a terrifying amusement park ride.

As I sensed her reaction, I gently separated my lips from hers and distanced myself.

“Is it your first time kissing?”

“…Can you tell?”

As I distanced myself, I opened my weary eyes and nodded at Jia, who was looking at me.

She seemed visibly nervous.

Well, it’s not like someone who has never been in a relationship would have kissed before.

Her eyelashes, which were tightly closed, trembled slightly.

She definitely seemed frightened by the experience.

Just like Ha-yeon and I were at the beginning.

“Are you scared?”

“No. Not scared…”

It was clearly a lie.

Her pupils wandered aimlessly as if pierced with pain.

After begging for it herself, it turned out like this.

In some ways, her innocent appearance felt cute to me.

Considering Jia is usually assertive and proactive.

I often forget that she doesn’t have much experience.

Even though I have more dating experience, I often find myself being led by Jia.

“If you’re scared, we can stop here.”

“…Ugh, no. I hate that. Absolutely hate it.”

Jia shook her head vigorously, making an expression that showed she wasn’t scared.

She clung to my shoulders tightly, pressing her body against mine.

For some reason, it felt like a child afraid of having their candy taken away.

“…Hurry, oppa.”

Trembling voice.

With hurried gestures and a poignant plea, I somehow recalled our first date.

Come to think of it, even when she had nothing to worry about, she was always an anxious girl.

I could always see her fearing that love would be taken away from her.

When I see such an unsettling element right in front of me, anxiety quickly fills my mind.

…I feel somewhat sorry.

I gently caressed the back of Ji-ah’s head, as if consoling her for not wanting the kiss, with a compassionate tenderness.

In a comforting tone, I assured her that everything would be alright, very lovingly and kindly.

“First, let’s release the tension. My body is completely stiff. Shall we try some slow deep breaths?”

“…Ah. Okay.”

Perhaps she was embarrassed to admit that she was nervous about kissing.

She lowered her head deeply and accepted my touch.

After a few soothing strokes, she took a long exhale.

“Yeah. I feel much better now than before. My shoulders are no longer trembling.”

“…Honestly, I was a little scared. But now, I’m feeling a bit better.”

Ji-ah confessed her true feelings in a whispering voice.

Once I confirmed that her body was no longer shaking, I held Ji-ah tightly in my arms.

To the point where I could feel Ji-ah’s heartbeat against me.

“…Take your time. Leave it to me.”

“Yes… Oppa…”

As I whispered softly into her ear, Ji-ah trembled slightly.

It seemed that her ears were a weakness after all.

I gently pulled away from her and looked into her eyes for a moment.

Then I brushed away the fallen strands of hair on her forehead and smiled softly.

Awkwardly, Ji-ah mustered a smile in response.

“…….”

Silence fell for a while.

Now, it seemed that the atmosphere had been somewhat established.

I gently lifted her arms and held onto the back of her head.

And with those small, rosy lips, I brought my face closer.

“…Urp.”

Once again, my lips met with Jia’s.

I felt the softness of Jia’s lips.

I could feel the warmth of a girl’s unique body temperature through her thin skin.

“…”

Jia’s reaction was not much different from before.

She closed her eyes and held onto my arm tightly.

But at least her trembling had subsided a lot.

Now it seemed like we could begin to properly kiss.

*

Gyun-yul approached Jia kindly enough that she wouldn’t be surprised.

A gentle gaze that looked at her.

And every finger that caressed her.

It all felt like he was delicately taking care of her.

“…Urp.”

As our lips met

Although it might not have been the ideal first kiss, it was a shocking happiness for her.

She knew they had to set the mood, but she still regretted why they had postponed the kiss with such prudence.

“…Ha…ha…are you okay…?”

Gunyul also seemed to be consumed by excitement in an instant.

The movements of his lips and the back of his head were much rougher than at first.

But soon he pulled his lips away and asked about her well-being.

If it were just a wasted opportunity to taste the pleasure of a kiss, she wouldn’t know, but now it was different.

Taking the time to perform such a confirmation ritual with her felt too wasteful.

She wanted to continue pressing her lips against Gunyul’s even just a little bit more.

“Whew…it’s okay…don’t worry and do as you please…faster…”

His tongue loosened, causing his pronunciation to slip.

Even the sound of his breath was rough to his own ears.

It should have been as simple as breathing through his nose. But perhaps because it was his first time, it wasn’t easy.

Before he knew it, he had forgotten to breathe while indulging in pleasure.

But more important than that, Jia felt it was crucial to urge Gunyul.

With her slender fingers that wouldn’t enter, Jia tugged at the sleeve of Gunyul’s shirt.

It was a signal telling him that she was okay and to continue.

Upon receiving the signal, Gunyul again pressed his lips against hers.

His gaze was slightly clouded and hazy compared to before.

‘…Yes. This is it.’

Was he wearing the same expression too?

It was embarrassing for herself to be seen that way by Gunyul.

But she couldn’t afford to lose her current happiness to something like embarrassment.

Their lips, now touching, felt burning hot.

“…Mmm…chu-lip…huff?”

The tension in her back loosened, and naturally, she leaned against the bed.

Gunyul gradually covered his lips as if pressing harder.

And suddenly, something hot bumped and tapped her teeth between his lips.

Jia instinctively realized that it was Gunyul’s tongue.

It seemed like Gunyul wanted to move on to the next stage.

……Even with just a touch of our lips, what will happen when our tongues entwine?

A greedy desire began to bubble up inside Jia.

It had been a long time since the fear of a first kiss disappeared.

Only women who are faithful to their instincts for pleasure remained there.

Naturally, Jia opened her mouth.

Gyun-yul’s tongue swiftly flowed into Jia’s lips.

And it began to play havoc inside her mouth.

“Mmm… Mm… Ha… Mm…”

It was hot yet gentle, like a soft burning ember.

And a pleasure stronger than before pierced through her chest and passed by.

A strange sensation as if they had become one.

As if exploring, he explored every corner of her mouth.

The kiss became even more intense as his tongue entered.

Her head grew hazy, indicating a lack of oxygen.

But the pleasure coursing through her brain via her spinal cord was impossible to give up.

Gradually, her mind turned completely blank.

She could think of nothing other than the person in front of her.

“…You’re mine. Oppa, you’re mine now.”

She felt the sense of possessing him.

This kiss was something he would never do with any other woman.

Now, Gyun-yul belonged to her.

She didn’t want to have this intense affection and sensation taken away by anyone.

“It’s so hot. My body tingles.”

As their kiss continued, the feeling of being filled gradually disappeared.

Her body heated up, and her toes curled.

There was a fluttering sensation in her abdomen.

“Huhaa… Ha… Ha…”

Perhaps she couldn’t hold her breath any longer.

Eventually, Gyun-yul reluctantly pulled his lips away from Jia.

A sorrowful feeling welled up at her fingertips.

It was lacking.

It felt like shoveling dirt into an enormous hole with a spoon.

How can I solve this frustrating feeling?

It was the first time Ji-ah’s mind had faced such a thing, but her body knew the answer.

The only way to calm down this heat.

When his hand touched her body, she had already figured it out.

She was afraid of what he might think of her, but just for that reward ahead of her, she unabashedly asked for something shameful.

“…….hah… oppa. Please do something else besides kissing.”