Chapter 64: Chi Yi Xuan’s Confession
After eating, Lou Mu Yan saw the crescent moon that hung in the sky. Currently, at the location of the small town they were in, the essence of the sun and moon were the densest.
She leapt out from her window and onto the rooftop. She sat cross-legged where it was darkest, closed her eyes and performed a macrocosmic orbit skill that coursed around her body, absorbing the essence of the moonlight.
Two hours later, she discovered that someone arrived on the roof. Her hands danced in mid-air like butterfly wings, waiting for the macrocosmic orbiting skill to be completed.
When she opened her eyes, she met Chi Yi Xuan’s black eyes that carried complex colours. The moonlight poured on his cold facial features, softening his face a little bit.
“Need something?” Lou Mu Yan didn’t look away, only looking at Chi Yi Xuan indifferently.
Chi Yi Xuan suddenly had the urge to hold Lou Mu Yan in his arms. When he was practicing right now, he accidentally discovered that there was Lou Mu Yan’s aura on the rooftop, so came up as if he was controlled by something.
And what entered his eyes was a graceful woman with her eyes closed, breathing beneath the moonlight, her hands dancing as part of a skill, and a thin, white, soft light enveloped her, giving her a kind of cold and ethereal feel that he had never seen before.
“Mu Yan, can we discuss something?”
“What do I have to discuss with you?” Lou Mu Yan smiled with ridicule.
The colours in Chi Yi Xuan’s eyes were clear to her. This man fell in love with her. But so what? She was no longer the Lou Mu Yan she used to be.
“Must we choke each other like this when we talk?” Chi Yi Xuan couldn’t help but furrow his brows. Since when did Lou Mu Yan change her docile personality towards him to constantly fighting against him? It seemed that it was since Gu Yan Ran injured her…
Lou Mu Yan didn’t want to be entangled with Chi Yi Xuan too much. Clearing things up was good, so she nodded: “Speak.”
“Can we go back to how we were?” Chi Yi Xuan pressed his lips together tightly, his jawline clearly defined.
“Cannot.”
“Why? Are you still blaming me for not preventing Gu Yan Ran from injuring you last time?” The veins on Chi Yi Xuan’s hands that were hidden in his sleeves popped as his palms were full of sweat.
Lou Mu Yan raised her eyebrow and said: “You know, and you still ask?” This man definitely had a problem.
“Last time you targeted her first. I don’t know when your temper became so unreasonable. Last time she taught you a lesson, I didn’t do anything not because I supported her, but because I wanted you to be more thoughtful after experiencing that.” Chi Yi Xuan’s expression was stained with a layer of helpless sadness.
At the time, it’s true he didn’t stop Gu Yan Ran from teaching Lou Mu Yan a lesson. But when Lou Mu Yan’s dan’tian was almost destroyed by Gu Yan Ran, he was about to act, except Yun Jin was one step ahead.
It was true that he used to find it bothersome to be pestered by Lou Mu Yan, but they essentially grew up together since they were children, so he wouldn’t watch her be beaten to death.
It was just that he didn’t expect that when he fell in love with her now, that incident would cause an irreparable gap between them.
“When I was unconscious last time, that Soul Condensing Pill was sent by you?”
Seeing that the helplessness in Chi Yi Xuan’s eyes when speaking about the incident wasn’t fake, Lou Mu Yan suddenly remembered that she had relied on that Soul Condensing Pill to merge all of her into this body, so she took a guess and asked.
After waking up last time, she asked her grandfather and the others about the Soul Condensing Pill, but they all hesitated. Not long ago, the Lou Clan even inexplicably helped the Chi Clan find a rare Crystal. At the time, she felt that something was strange.
The most important thing was that there were only two clans in the entire Imperial Capital who had a Soul Condensing Pill, and the Chi Clan was one of them. The other Clan and the Lou Clan had a bad relationship, so it was impossible for them to take out such a precious pill for her.
“Grandpa Lou said it?” Chi Yi Xuan didn’t want to use the situation of the pill to seek any rewards from Lou Mu Yan, so he never mentioned it in front of her.
“I guessed.” Lou Mu Yan half-closed her eyes, covering up the change in her eyes.
She really didn’t expect Chi Yi Xuan actually helped her once. If it weren’t for that Soul Condensing Pill, even if the previous Lou Mu Yan had willingly offered her body to her, her Soul wouldn’t have been able to merge so perfectly with this body.
“Count this as me owing you a personal favour!” Lou Mu Yan said after a long silence.
What the previous Lou Mu Yan did for Chi Yi Xuan was more than what a Soul Condensing Pill could be used to repay, so she would repay this personal favour, but to Chi Yi Xuan, it was just
a personal favour.“No need. I never thought to make you pay back that favour.” Anger slowly rose on Chi Yi Xuan’s face.
He also didn’t know why, at the time, he would send his family’s precious Soul Condensing Pill, that was rewarded to him, to the Lou Clan. Maybe because he felt he owed her a lot, but at the time, he was certain he hadn’t fallen in love with Lou Mu Yan yet.
Right now, he didn’t want Lou Mu Yan’s return of favour for giving her the pill. He only wanted her, nothing more. But he didn’t want to say it, afraid that it would scare her away.
“If I owe it, I owe it. Whether you want it or not, I’ll remember the favour and will eventually return it to you.” She hated owing favours, not to mention a favour from Chi Yi Xuan who had once hurt the original owner of this body, so whether this man wanted it or not, she would repay it.
“Must you really be so distant with me?” Chi Yi Xuan suddenly stepped forward and half-squatted in front of Lou Mu Yan, with a trace of anger in his eyes.
Lou Mu Yan didn’t avoid him, and met his fiery gaze coldly. “Are we familiar?”
“Then what was your affection for me before? Just because of a past event, are you going to completely erase our affections?” Chi Yi Xuan couldn’t accept the indifference and coldness in Lou Mu Yan’s eyes, as if they had really become strangers.
“Ha…” Lou Mu Yan raised her head and let out a soft laugh, then stared at Chi Yi Xuan and said: “The feelings I had for you, did you accept it? No. Have we ever had love between us? Even more, no.
“So, Chi Yi Xuan, don’t imagine that your love’s being reciprocated. When I genuinely liked you, you didn’t cherish it, now that I hate you, you come to pester me. You really are looking for pain.” Lou Mu Yan raised her hand and pushed Chi Yi Xuan, who had gotten close to her, away. She didn’t like men who were strangers to be so close to herself and hoped even more that this man would stop pestering her, so her tone was very awful.
Chi Yi Xuan took a deep breath and resisted the urge to strangle this cruel woman. A little madness appeared on his face, “Yes, I’m looking for pain. I admit that I like you now.”
Then he suddenly stretched out his hand and grabbed Lou Mu Yan’s beautiful wrist, his eyes firm and eager, saying: “Mu Yan, can you give me a chance?”
The corner of Lou Mu Yan’s lips curled up, then approached Chi Yi Xuan’s ear. Her red lips uttered cruel words, instantly shattering all of Chi Yi Xuan’s illusions and hopes.
“Can’t. There is absolutely no possibility between us. Even if I die, I won’t choose you again.”
“Lou Mu Yan, you’re truly ruthless.” Chi Yi Xuan turned his head and a faint fragrance of medicine lingered around his nose from Lou Mu Yan. Finally unable to control himself, he pulled hard and wanted to hug this woman, who he loved and hated, tightly in his arms.
Except, before the person was pulled closer, Lou Mu Yan flexibly pulled her wrist out of his grip, out of his control.
She looked at him with an unhappy expression and said something that made him heartbroken, “You were asking for everything. If you want to look for pain, then do it yourself secretly. I don’t have time to be entangled with you.”
Translated product by May Our 梦 Come True
Random Note: Love her direct personality, honestly. Tell him, tell him! Make this clear, that’s how you do it. Don’t be wishy-washy. I actually can’t remember what happens to him eventually even after re-reading this novel so many times HAHAHA. I only remember the main events (mostly) and the main characters. Oh well, let’s see how he develops. I mean, I guess it’s a good thing I can’t remember, whenever I read, I’ll still be curious hahaha.