Lost

On a scorching summer day so hot it made you want to die, Jung Woojin was shining under the intense sunlight.“Sunbae, I’ll buy you lunch.”

“What?”“Something expensive.”That day, following our school’s idol Jung Woojin—someone I wasn’t close to and hadn’t even had a proper conversation with—was the biggest mistake of my life.＊ ＊ ＊It felt like my head was going to explode. I wasn’t usually one to experience headaches, so the pain in my head was unfamiliar. Why does my head hurt so much? I couldn’t even open my eyes, groaning in discomfort, when something cool touched my forehead. It seemed to ease the headache a bit. As the pain subsided, I began to regain some clarity. I struggled to lift my eyelids. Everything was blurry, as if covered in a thick haze.“You’re awake?”“…”As soon as I heard the unfamiliar voice, my head started to ache again. I squeezed my eyes shut and buried my face in the pillow. As I wriggled like a worm, I heard a laugh nearby. The sound of that laugh jolted me back to full consciousness. I opened my eyes wide and tried to sit up, but I quickly collapsed back down. My whole body ached as if I had been beaten.“Ugh…”“Stay down a little longer. The medication is still in your system, so you’ll feel dizzy.”A cool hand brushed through my hair, and I felt goosebumps all over my body, as if every pore had suddenly opened up. I slowly turned my head, searching for the owner of the voice.“Jung Woojin.”It was only after calling his name that I realized my voice was terribly cracked and hoarse. As I let out a dry cough, Jung Woojin gently patted my back. He looked at me with his dark eyes full of concern and spoke softly.“Are you okay?”“….”“Sunbae, are you in a lot of pain?”As I stared back at Jung Woojin, who was gazing at me with worry-filled eyes, I tried to piece together my memories. I couldn’t understand why this guy was here, looking after me with such concern. Frowning, I closed my eyes again.Jung Woojin had offered to buy me a meal. An expensive one, too. Normally, I wasn’t close with Jung Woojin. He was quite famous at our school. Smart, handsome, wealthy, and with impeccable manners—an ideal guy in every way. On top of that, he had become even more well-known after starting some modeling work. Anyway, I didn’t understand why someone like him wanted to treat me to a meal, but I didn’t think much of it at the time. So, I followed Jung Woojin out of the school. But after that, my memory goes blank.To be precise, I lost my memory after getting into Jung Woojin’s ridiculously expensive-looking car.As I slowly opened my eyes, a cool hand covered them.“Get some more sleep.”“Jung Woojin.”“Yes, Sunbae.”I reached out and grabbed his wrist. As his hand lifted from my eyes, I saw Jung Woojin’s clear, sharp face. His jet-black hair and dark eyes contrasted sharply with his pale skin. And that gentle smile on his lips. An inexplicable sense of unease washed over me. I swallowed hard and looked around.“Why am I… No, why are you… No, where is this?”“Sunbae, don’t get up. Just stay lying down. The effects of the medication are still lingering, so you’ll feel dizzy if you move.”“…Medication?”Jung Woojin nodded at my question, flashing the same smile that the girls at school would rave about, calling it heavenly.“Sorry, I won’t use any more drugs next time.”Suddenly, my mind went blank. My breath caught in my throat, and my eyes throbbed as if they were about to burst. I clutched my chest and hunched over. Familiar yet strange images started flashing in my mind. A man, spouting all sorts of filthy words I had never heard before, was frantically trembling like a leaf in a storm. Begging, crying in pleasure, and screaming to be saved.The loud, panting moans and wet sounds echoed in my head, making me feel nauseous.The man beneath was covered in blotches, as if suffering from a skin disease. He shook his limbs like a puppet, crying out like a beast, all the while leaking clear semen as if he were urinating.“Sunbae, can’t sleep? Want to take a shower?”Jung Woojin’s voice pierced through the chaotic moans. I looked at him with a pale face, feeling my mind slipping away.“I’ll help you wash up.”“…”The man who had been writhing and crying under Jung Woojin was none other than me. The moment I realized that, it felt like all the blood drained from my body. My throat tightened as if something was lodged in it, making it hard to breathe. I just stared blankly, dazed, as Jung Woojin lifted me up.“Let’s get to the bathroom first…”Before he could finish his sentence, I reflexively pushed his hand away. It was an instinctive reaction. Since I had woken up, he had been constantly smiling, but now his expression turned blank in an instant. His dark eyes, which had been staring at me, seemed to deepen like a dark abyss.“Are you angry?”Breaking the brief silence, Jung Woojin asked. Angry? Was I angry? I couldn’t easily answer his question. Was I angry right now? No, it wasn’t anger. I was just confused. What exactly was happening here? Why was I here? Why was Jung Woojin here? And what was that cheap porn-like memory that just flashed in my mind?“Sunbae, are you angry?”Jung Woojin asked again, looking anxious. I felt my fingertips grow colder as I opened my mouth. Figuring out the situation was the priority.“Jung Woojin.”“Yes, Sunbae.”“…Where are we? And why am I here?”As if he had been waiting for my question, Jung Woojin immediately answered.“This is my villa near Jeju Island. You’re here because I brought you here. Is there anything else you want to know?”“…What? A villa? No, Jeju Island? Why the hell… No, what on earth…?”Before the words and phrases coming out of his mouth could even register in my ears, it felt like everything in front of me was shattering. No matter what I heard, I couldn’t make sense of it. As I started babbling incoherently, Jung Woojin placed his hand on the back of mine, as if to calm me down.“Relax. How about a shower first?”“What?”When I dumbly asked again, Jung Woojin let out a small laugh. For a brief moment, his dark eyes seemed to glint with something. Suddenly, his face drew closer. He kissed the corner of my eye with a soft smack, then smiled gently.“When other people do that, they just look stupid, but when you do it, Sunbae, it’s really cute.”“…”“Those wide eyes, constantly asking questions. It’s incredibly cute.”He then kissed the other corner of my eye with the same sound, and before I could even think about how ticklish it felt, he began licking my eyelashes one by one. I pushed him away before I could even fully process what was happening. Jung Woojin backed off without resistance.“What the hell do you think you’re doing…!”As I glared at him, he interrupted me and spoke.“Okay, okay, I’m sorry. This is my villa near Jeju Island, and the reason you’re here is…”“Why the hell am I in Jeju Island…!”“The reason you’re here is because I brought you here. You drank that drink when you got into my car, remember? It had a sleeping pill in it. So when you passed out, I carried you here.”“…What? What the hell are you even…?”My brain couldn’t process anything. My head started hurting again, and the scenes that had flashed through my mind earlier made me even more confused. As I clutched my head and groaned, I suddenly found myself being lifted. When I slowly looked up, I realized that Jung Woojin was carrying me like a child.“Let’s get you cleaned up first.”“Jung Woojin, this is…”Before I could shout for him to let me go, he licked my ear with a sticky, warm breath and whispered softly.“You might have a stomachache since you released so much yesterday.”I froze mid-movement as he licked my ear. Released so much? What did I release? Why would my stomach hurt? My eyes widened as I stopped breathing. Goosebumps spread across my body, and I was suddenly paralyzed, unable to move a single muscle.While I was too stunned to react, Jung Woojin carried me all the way to the bathroom. It wasn’t until then that I tried to squirm free, but he didn’t budge. I wanted to struggle more fiercely, but my body wouldn’t respond, and my vision began to spin, making me feel nauseous.Jung Woojin set me down and started filling the bathtub. As I stood there, trembling, clenching my fists with difficulty, my gaze landed on the mirror. At first, I didn’t even recognize the reflection as my own.I looked like a monster.“Aren’t you hungry? I’ll make you something to eat after you’re all cleaned up. I’ll prepare what you like, Sunbae…”“Jung Woojin.”At my quiet call, Jung Woojin fell silent. His smiling face hardened into a cold expression, as if something had displeased him once again. I stared at Jung Woojin’s reflection in the mirror, then slowly turned my gaze back to my own reflection. It was a grotesque, filthy sight—too vile to even call human.His entire body was covered in blotches, as if afflicted with a severe skin condition. There wasn’t a single spot left untouched, everything was red, bruised, and discolored. On top of that, there were deep red handprints, presumably left by Jung Woojin, and clear bite marks as well. But the most alarming part was that something cloudy and dried was stuck all over his body. His chest was so red, as if someone had peeled the skin off, that it stood upright stiffly, to the point where it was almost frightening to touch. And then, there was the reddened and drooping genitals. I raised my hand to look at my wrist. There were clear marks, as if it had been tied with something.“Sunbae.”At that moment, Jung Woojin gently took hold of my wrist. I wasn’t in a state where I could hold myself properly due to the pounding headache and dizziness. My breathing was labored and I felt lightheaded, so I slowly lifted my head as Jung Woojin pressed his lips to my wrist. It was a soft and ticklish kiss, as light as a feather landing.“I’m sorry. I promise I won’t let you get hurt again.”The more Jung Woojin spoke, the more my vision flashed like fireworks, and it became harder to breathe.“It was my first time, and I got too excited. I’m really sorry.”First time? Excited? As soon as I heard that, a sharp pain suddenly shot up between my legs. I reflexively tried to shake off his hand, but Jung Woojin tightened his grip on my wrist.“But Sunbae, can you call me Woojin instead of Jung Woojin?”“Ugh, urgh!”I hunched over, curling my body tightly. The searing pain between my legs started to itch. I tried with all my strength, but my body didn’t feel like mine, and it wouldn’t move properly. Just as I thought I was at my limit, something trickled down between my buttocks. Even though it wasn’t visible, it seemed like Jung Woojin knew everything as he reached out with his other arm and wrapped it around my waist. His cool fingers slowly slid downward.“I made your favorite galbi-jjim. If you go out and eat, then get some rest, you’ll feel better.”“Ugh… ah!”Jung Woojin’s long fingers slid between my buttocks. He slowly rubbed something sticky that had dripped down my leg with his fingers.“Do you want to lie down? This position is too difficult.”“Ugh, no, stop!”Jung Woojin easily made me lie down. I could only squirm like a bug. He gently stroked my buttocks with his palm, then spread them apart.“They’re really swollen. But don’t worry, it didn’t tear.”“Ah, fuck, what the hell are you—ugh!”Suddenly, something soft pressed against my buttocks. I slowly turned my head, my face pale with fear. I saw Jung Woojin burying his face between my buttocks. It felt like someone had hit me over the head with a hammer. I couldn’t even find the words to tell him to stop. That’s because Jung Woojin was relentlessly licking my anus.“Ugh, urgh… ah, ah!”The obscene sound of licking filled the room. I trembled uncontrollably and tried to crawl away, but Jung Woojin wouldn’t let me go. Every time I tried to crawl forward, he tightened his grip on my waist. I had no feeling below my waist. No, I only had feeling below my waist? Amid the dizziness, my strength left me, and my whole body shivered. His soft tongue licked my anus and then stiffened as it pushed inside, making my mind go blank.“Hng!”It wriggled inside, as if searching for something. In the end, I could only press my face to the floor, trembling violently. My head hurt. I was dazed. And I couldn’t move my body. I had no idea what was happening, or what had happened to me. I didn’t know how much time had passed. Just when I thought my anus was going to melt from the heat, Jung Woojin made a loud sucking sound as he pulled away and lifted his head.“It won’t hurt to put in the water now. Just a moment.”“Ugh…”“Sunbae?”Jung Woojin called out to me in a puzzled voice, as if sensing something was wrong. He looked at my face and clicked his tongue softly.“It looks like the drugs are still affecting you. Sunbae, do you know who I am?”“Ugh, ah… fuck…”Tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. Jung Woojin looked at me with a sympathetic expression and wiped my tear-stained face with his large hand. After thoroughly wiping my face, he sat me on his lap. He lifted my arms and forced them around his neck.“Sunbae, please bear with it a little longer. I’m sorry, it’ll be over soon.”“Ugh… hng…”The tip of Jung Woojin’s finger slipped into my anus. He gently stretched it with his fingernail and then withdrew his hand. I didn’t even realize I was shaking my hips.“I’m just going to put in some water.”Water? Why water all of a sudden? Where was he going to put water… Before I could finish my thought, something cold and hard touched my anus again. I gasped as it entered, and Jung Woojin gently patted my buttocks, as if to reassure me. Even as the hard, cold object entered my anus and released lukewarm water, Jung Woojin continued to whisper softly into my ear.“Sunbae, it’s okay. There’s nothing to be afraid of. I’m here with you. Good, just hold on for 10 minutes, so don’t cry. Sunbae, Sunbae.”“It hurts, it hurts, my stomach… ugh, ah…!”I could only repeat that it hurt, like a broken doll. My stomach felt twisted. It felt as if my organs were moving around inside my belly, trying to burst out. I curled up from the pain in my stomach, and Jung Woojin gently patted my back. Even in my dazed state, I could constantly hear Jung Woojin’s soothing voice. The more he reassured me, the more distant and foggy my mind became. I wished I could just let go of my consciousness. I wanted to faint. If I fainted, I could wake up from this nightmare. As tears streamed down my face, I slowly tried to close my eyes, but then I trembled again.“Ugh!”“This part is really swollen too. I’m sorry for grabbing you so hard yesterday.”“Ah, ah… ah, ahhh!”“You wouldn’t tell me you love me, and kept wetting yourself…”The moment Jung Woojin’s long fingers brushed against my genitals, my anus twitched widely. Soon, water began to trickle out from between my buttocks. The overwhelming sense of humiliation left me gasping for breath, and Jung Woojin kissed my forehead. He was rubbing the tip of my tailbone with his fingers.“It’s only been a minute.”His knees and legs were soaked with the water coming out of my anus, but Jung Woojin didn’t seem to care at all. With a smile as gentle as an angel’s, he whispered into my ear.“It’s okay. We can do it again. This time, I’ll plug it for you.”Jung Woojin inserted water into my anus again. But even with a plug, holding it for 10 minutes was too much.By the time Jung Woojin filled my anus with water for the fourth time, I was begging him to stop as I lost consciousness. He agreed to reduce the time from 10 minutes to 5 minutes in exchange for me telling him that I loved him. When he filled my anus with water for the fifth time and I managed to hold on for 5 minutes, I was sobbing in his arms.“Woojin-ah, I love you. Woojin-ah, I love you.”I repeated those words over and over again.The following novel is from 피폐 keyword which roughly translates to being exhausting or devastating. The characters in such novels usually go through extreme hardships, trauma, or psychological stress, leading to a feeling of mental and emotional exhaustion for the characters. TLDR; every chapter is a trigger warning so be warned and practice discretion as you proceed!The chapters will be divided in chaptered numbers (while translating) rather than parts of a volume.