Chapter 36 Secret Feelings
The size of the stone room is not large, not even the size of a room, and there is no trace of people living in it, only a delicate small wooden box.
"this"
Kamisato Linghua was a little surprised. She was just trying to find something, but now she actually found something.
She stepped forward, opened the small wooden box, and found that there was also a notebook inside.
"Is this Tsubaki's notebook?"
Kanli Linghua took out the note, she opened it for a while and looked at it, because the light in the cave was very dark, so she couldn't see anything at all.
"Let's go outside and have a look."
Afterwards, the two came outside the cave, and the light suddenly became brighter.
Kamisato Ayaka concentrated on looking at the notes, while Suzumiya Yu stood beside her, neither saying a word nor stepping forward to disturb her.
After about ten minutes passed like this, Kanli Linghua suddenly put down the note, she closed her eyes slightly, and then looked up at the sky, wondering if she had finished reading it.
"So it is"
She whispered softly, not knowing what to say.
"What was written in the note? Is there any clue of Tsubaki's whereabouts?"
Suzumiya asked anxiously, he knew what was written in the note, but in order not to arouse suspicion, he chose to pretend not to know.
"Tsubaki is actually my mother."
Ayaka Kamisato handed the note to Suzumiya Yuu.
"If you want to know exactly what happened, just watch it for yourself."
Suzumiya Yu was not pretentious either, he took the note and read it over carefully, his expression remained unchanged, and there were no subtle movements such as frowning.
"So? What do you think?" After reading the contents of the notes, Suzumiya Yu said, "My mother, who usually looks dignified, has such a childish side behind her back. Do you think it's ridiculous, or is it unbelievable? "
Kamisato Ayaka was silent for a while.
"I think I should be able to understand my mother's thoughts, because I am the same as her."
"Really? I'm a little curious, why don't you tell me?"
"I like beautiful clothes, I want to try the cuisine of each region, and I long for the beautiful scenery that I have never seen, but because of the trivial things of the family, I have never had time to do these things. Even if I have time, I can't easily do it in front of people. Such a thing that damages the image of the family."
Every move represents the Kamisato family, people are always watching her, and Kamisato Ayaka is troubled by this, this kind of thinking has been there since a long time ago.
The mother in the notes is the same as her. For some reason, when she reads the contents of the notes, she always has a feeling that her inner thoughts are being seen through.
Is it true that they are mother and daughter? Even the worries and wants to do are exactly the same.
"Is it normal?"
"Eh?"
Ayaka Kamisato raised her head and looked at Yu Suzumiya in disbelief.
Suzumiya Yu ignored her and continued talking.
"Everyone has their own things they want to do, but these things are often incompatible with their usual self. Because they always care about other people's eyes, they have not practiced it. Over time, another side of themselves was born."
"Just like me, I usually don't say that I enjoy killing people, but there must be a lot of people who died at my hands. Like this, I also like light novels, and I am easily moved by the stories in them, even if I cry because of it. No surprise."
Kamisato Ayaka opened her mouth slightly, her face was full of surprise, as if she had heard something terrible.
Most importantly, Suzumiya You said these words, could it be to comfort her?
"Don't look at me with that look, I'm just stating the facts, everyone has an unknown side, it's normal, it's not something strange or shameful."
"Is that so, I see, thank you."
"Actually, I still have a secret."
Suzumiya Yuu paused.
"My name is not Oni Wu Tsuji Mumi, but Suzumiya Yuu. Because I don't want people to find out my identity, I use a pseudonym to the outside world."
"Then why tell me?"
Ayaka Kamisato was very puzzled, since Yusuke Suzumiya didn't want others to know his name, why did he tell himself?
"Ordinary people, I wouldn't tell him, but you are different. Can you understand what I mean? Linghua, you are a special existence to me."
"Special existence?"
Suzumiya Yu's words touched Kansato Ayaka's blind spot in knowledge, so it was difficult for her to understand the meaning of the other party's words for a while.
"That's right, to be more straightforward, this sentence can be translated into: [You are a very important person to me]."
When Suzumiya You said this, Ayaka Kamisato understood.
But she was still a little hard to accept.
"If that's the case, why do you do this to me? Imprison me, is that enough for you?"
"Besides, what do you say that I am a very important person to you, but why? I have never felt your feelings for me from you? "
Kamisato Ayaka said a lot in one breath, and this was the first time she showed such emotions in front of Suzumiya Yuu.
"What kind of way do you want me to express my feelings for you?" Suzumiya You asked back, "Is it to touch your heartstrings with sweet words? Or to play a play on purpose, so that you are so moved that you cry?"
"But, I don't understand. If you want to get me, there should be a better way, right? Why do you have to do such an annoying thing?"
Kamisato Ayaka stepped forward, her face was so close to Suzumiya Yuu's that they could even feel each other's breath.
But even so, Suzumiya Yu's expression remained calm.
"I am a very ambitious person. I do this not only to get you, but also to keep my plan going."
Suzumiya Yu held this sentence in his heart and did not say it. He knew very well that once he said this sentence, all his previous efforts would be in vain.
Even if it is possible to re-develop the relationship with Kanli Linghua, this barrier will never disappear.
Therefore, facing her questioning, Suzumiya You chose to remain silent.
"Then what do you want me to do?"
After a long time, he finally spoke.
"Things have developed to this point, it must be impossible for you to let me go? If this is the case, please let me feel your heart."
"Intent? Can you be more specific?"
Suzumiya Yu could understand the deep meaning of this sentence, but could not understand its literal meaning.
"Like... help me fulfill my wish."
After finishing speaking, Kanli Ayaka hastily added another sentence.
"I know you don't like to do things that are not good for you, so if you can promise to help me fulfill my wish, I can also promise you a request. Except... that kind of thing."