Chapter 86: [Rossie] …I’m not angry (she is angry)
THIS BITCH!
SHE DARED GET A FAST ONE ON HER!
AND SHE EVEN TURNED TO LOOK AT HER BEFORE DOING IT!
Who was she speaking about? Rena of course, even though she sent Aura to give her the side room with access to the shared bathroom, the girl didn’t bite. She wanted Elizabeth to deal with this instead of dancing around the issue as she had done with her, and what did she get from her effort?
One, Elizabeth didn’t even turn her attention toward the door, even though she eyed it from time to time while bitting her lips (She didn’t mind it that much since Elizabeth biting her lip while having that longing stare was hot), the blonde didn’t make a move and only undressed and jumped into the jacuzzi.
It was kind of cute how Elizabeth looked guilty at her as she undressed slowly, she could see the emotions on her face, hunger, arousal, guilt…Desire…and then Elizabeth would turn to stare at the door where Rena’s room was, and more guilt would come crashing down.
And now?
Now she was passionately kissing the red-haired girl on the bed, making sure that she was covering the other nude girl with her bathrobe as if she was defending her honor… Or something.
“Do you want some space? Some oil? Lotions? A cucumber?” She heard herself speak, her voice cold.
That surprised her, was she angry? She had planned to hook Elizabeth up with Rena to get it over with, and then slowly indoctrinate Rena into a submissive role within their relationship, she would play the role of a third wheel or a toy to distract Elizabeth, to make sure their relationship stayed fresh and dynamic. All so Elizabeth wouldn’t get tired of her, all so Elizabeth wouldn’t discard her when another pretty face showed… So when she inevitably found someone that wasn’t broken…. Someone that didn’t need so much help and care…
All so when someone normal came she wouldn’t leave her.
And yet…
“Ah…sorry, got into the mood there…” Elizabeth said sheepishly while standing and closing her bathrobe, then with a flick of her wrist she threw a robe to Rena.
It was one of the loose ones Elizabeth liked to wear, another reason for her mood to sour, that one would barely fit Rena… And on her own body, yes. She would have a baggy robe to deal with.
“Sorry about that Elizabeth… I’m still dealing with some after effects…” Rena said while putting on the robe, it was a tight fit. “...I know you don’t see me like that, that you only love Rossaline. It will not happen again.”
…tch, this bitch knew how to talk. A faint pulse into the ring on her finger and she could already feel the guilt and sadness flood Elizabeth.
“ It’s fine, I will take this chance to address it. I don’t mind it if Elizabeth wants you into our relationship.” She said as she walked toward the red-haired, unlike Elizabeth or Rena. Rossaline hadn’t secured her bathrobe, so she was exposing her front. “ I don’t find you that distasteful, and don’t mind sharing…”
And while she wouldn’t ever [Love] this red-haired girl, she doubted she would ever Love anyone besides Elizabeth, but if Elizabeth cared for her, she wouldn’t mind accepting her.
“...That is unless you want to keep her only for yourself, I will not allow that.” And while saying that she grabbed the red-haired girl's head and joined her lips with her. The feeling was substandard at best, and the other girl seemed like a starved puppy for affection since she shoved her tongue into her mouth. As if she wanted to make sure to taste and get as much from her as possible.
Just like how Elizabeth had done the first time they slept together after the coma. Only, unlike that one time, this didn’t arouse her at all, she still went through the motions, hell she even grabbed Rena’s breast to play a little and see if it would get her in the mood.
It didn’t. She could feel the starts of a tingle, but that was about it, perhaps she needed to heal more of her Soul first? She was aware that she liked girls, and that she was lesbian. But this one didn’t arouse her at all. Was it because she was a contender for Elizabeth? Or was it because she was more broken than her?
“.... I want too….” It was the voice of Elizabeth that got her to react and separate from Rena, who seemed to want to cling to her like a child to her Mother… Okay, that got her into the right mood. She could play with that.
“No, that will be all for tonight, we do need to rest.” Was her ultimatum, both Rena and Elizabeth deflated, and she felt herself more calm, really. This was ridiculous.
She was the incarnation of [LUST] for god’s sake, how was it that she was the only one who was capable of not letting herself drown in pleasure? They were at her parent’s house!
Have some shame!
…Okay, she wasn’t doing it for that, but mostly because both Rena and Elizabeth had gotten into the mood and left her to the side, but still!
“Okay…Do you…can she sleep with us?” Elizabeth asked her with her usual innocent eyes, it was quite incredible.
For someone that held such incredible [Hunger] for her, to be able to contain herself this well, and yet at the same time want to increase the amount of flesh she could feast upon.
“I don’t know, do you want to sleep and ONLY SLEEP with us, Rena?” Why was she even entertaining the idea? Rossaline didn’t know.
“....I want to meditate more before. It isn’t an excuse, I do have some things to look upon, some aspects of myself that I didn’t know I had need to be examined.” Rena answered while turning to the bed.
Well well, this was interesting. She obviously wanted to go, and yet…
“I see, I understand,” No, she didn’t, “And we will honor your opinion.” GO AND SLEEP IN THE DOG HOUSE.
“...if you feel lonely you can come with us, Rossie has the biggest bed you have seen, we could probably squeeze you, Aura, and Beato there with no problem!” Elizabeth said with a smile on her face.
…Did this girl want to include Aura in their relationship? And their non-euclidian daughter?
She didn’t feel any lust from Elizabeth toward either… Was…Was this girl really only wanting to sleep as a family?
What kind of household did she live in? No wait, she knew the answer to that already, she had her full memories of pre advent, hadn’t she seen her parents? Yes, the woman that ripped out part of her [Soul] because it had some remnants of Akira’s brand.
And the stoic young man with the soul of an old geezer. She still couldn’t see those two together, but apparently, they were a thing, and they also were the most powerful entities in this world BEFORE they became gods. So some weird quirks were to be expected…
“...Maybe limit it to two people, we don’t want to hurt anyone while sleeping,” Rena said before turning to her bed and sitting in the lotus position, and closing her eyes.
That still let her see more than she wanted to, that position isn’t good to use while dressed in a loose robe.
“Then let’s go, Rossie, we have a long day ahead tomorrow!” Elizabeth said while using one of her shadows to fix Rena’s robe so she wasn’t flashing anyone.
After doing so, Elizabeth guided her back to her room… The place that had changed so much since her last time here, when she left this was a gray colorless bedroom, it was also very minimalistic, she didn’t have any furniture that wasn’t needed. One king’s size bed, her vanity that wasn’t used, her wardrobe. And that was it. The walls didn’t have any image, her bed didn’t have any extra decoration, her wardrobe barely had two to three changes of clothing, and she only had two pairs of shoes and a pair of sandals.
Now?
Now she had a fully stocked vanity, mostly with stuff that came from Elizabeth, true. But way more than any sane person could ever use, all neatly set up so half of it was in the right tone for her use and the other for Elizabeth.
Her wardrobe had more clothes than she needed, mostly from one of the shopping trips she did with Elizabeth while getting her new clothes, half of it was for her, half for Elizabeth. It was neatly divided into two, one with pink and gold tones, and the other one with yellow and blue colors.
And then a new dresser with multiple kinds of chests to have some other clothes that could be folded and stored safely away from the wardrobe, some blouses and pants. One part was dedicated to all the sweatpants that Elizabeth loved to use when she was supposed to be presentable and couldn’t get away with using a nightgown (That girl loved a little too much those).
More pajamas than one could use in a year…
A new desk with some books and their holopads from the school, was to be checked upon by the Singh Tinkers to make sure they were safe to use. Also Elizabeth’s cell phone, the one she got from The Hydra’s fang, that one would raise some eyebrows, she could already see that one coming.
She needed to make sure if Elizabeth would need a new one.
And of course, a bookcase, neither Elizabeth nor she had a taste for books, or not as far she was aware, but this one was full of pictures of both girls, there was also a photo that shouldn’t exist there. The photo of a blonde girl with a black-haired young man and a blonde woman with green eyes.
On the side, the names are written by hand.
[Papa, Mother, and eight-year-old me.]
Jack Brighton, Catherine Starlight, and Elizaeth Starbright.
“What are you thinking about Rossie?” Elizabeth said while throwing away the bathrobe and putting on one of the pajamas she liked, it was a cotton one that was composed of a long-sleeved shirt and a pair of pants.
“No fun tonight huh” Was the first thought that came into her mind as Rossaline went for a gown for her. She liked more these ones, they were more breezy and were easier to accidentally [Lose] while asleep.
“Nothing…What are we Elizabeth?” She asked without thinking, immediately cursing herself.
“That is the question right…I have proclaimed you as my girlfriend very often haven’t I?” Elizabeth answered as she looked down at her chest thinking, and without any input from her, she unbuttoned the top three buttons of her shirt, creating a large enough cleave that let her chest have free air (And allowed her to ogle her chest). “I like kissing you, I love touching you. I crave for your body…But that is me… or part of me that I’m coming to terms with.”
…Was…was this girl going to break with her? WAS THAT BITCH ON THE OTHER ROOM THE REASON?
SHE WOULD KILL HER! SHE WOULD RIP HER FRAGILE SOUL APART AND BASK IN THE MOTES THAT SHOWERED WHEN SHE CRACKED THAT GIRL’S SOUL LIKE AN EGG AT EASTER!
“Don’t get me wrong, I like this part of me. Even if it seems that part of them came from my [Heart]... From the more…wild part of me, the one that wants to gobble you up and doesn’t want to share you. The part that wants to rip apart the eyes of anyone that dares to look what is [MINE].” Ah…there it was, the look of hunger, the unsatiable and unadulterated desire to grab and [DEVOUR].
“But what we are… I…am not gay. Or I don’t think I was before meeting you, I always thought that I would end up marrying some son of a rich guy and buy an island somewhere to spend my life lazing around.” Elizabeth smiled as she turned to her and grabbed her hand pulling her into the bed, “I didn’t think too much about other girls’ bodies before, then one day I found myself staring at your chest, but not with envy for other girls having a better body. Or because I wanted to have less meat in my chest. But because I wanted to touch them, to kiss them…to pinch them…”
…Was she going to get some action then?
“So I found myself asking this…Do I like girls? Since when?” Elizabeth turned to her and smiled, “I found that…I can enjoy the look, but I don’t feel cravings toward other girls, I can admire a nice bottom, and a nice pair of breasts for what they are. But I don’t want to ravage other girls. So I thought…Is this love then?”
…WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME WOMAN? I ALREADY LOVE YOU!
“The answer I arrived was yes, I do love you. But my next problem was twofold…” Elizabeth smiled sadly at her, the same way she looked at Rena. Guilt.
What? Did…Did she do something? Was it because she didn’t let her have a threesome? WE CAN FIX THAT, WE CAN EVEN GET THE GODDAMNED CUCUMBER!
“I…Rossie, I’m sorry. I know you said that it wasn’t like that, but…I… I know your soul is hurt… And that you are healing with my love, with my care, with…my [Hero] skill.” Elizabeth smiled sadly at her. “Same with Rena. I don’t know, maybe there is a mental aspect to my skill? Maybe this is what a [Hero] is, my skill comes from Mother. She [HATED] those who abuse girls using their power. Did you know that the first generation of Magical Girls came from rape victims? From abused girls and women. From people that no one came to rescue.”
…She did not.
“Maybe Mother put some mental aspect to make sure I would rescue someone, maybe my feelings are true… But maybe you will stop loving me when your soul is whole? Maybe Rena will be the same? Maybe…Maybe I’m no different than Akira…” Elizabeth finished speaking in a low tone, she had turned her face away from her. “So what are we? Right now you are my girlfriend, one I will not change for anything in the world. Maybe one day your soul will be whole and you will decide to love someone else. But at least till that day arrives I will continue being this. So tell me Rossaline Singh…Do you mind if I indulge in this? At least till you decide to move on…”
…….
“I can rip apart that [Hero] skill right now, I can make sure that isn’t a problem anymore.” Rossaline said, “I can make sure that is no longer part of the equation.”
“Rossie No.” Elizabeth said quickly while placing one of her hands on her chest, as if that would protect the goddamned skill.
“Then stop saying stupid things, this is why people think you are a bimbo. I don’t love you because some [Skill] says so. I will not lie and say that it wasn’t part of the reason I got close to you.” Rossaline started saying, remembering the first time she saw Elizabeth. “When I saw you for the first time it was as if a ray of color came upon my gray world. So yes, I did come close to you because I wanted to experiment colors. Wanted to know emotions.”
Elizabeth nodded at her, of course, she did.
“But that was then, as I got more and more emotions back I saw a girl who saw the world with wonder…But when comparing with the others? Do you know what I saw in others?” Rossaline asked.
“The same? No wait, it was at the MPI…Stressed students?” Elizabeth asked turning her head to the side, the silly girl.
“I saw envy, wrath, lust, greed, pride, gluttony….and sloth. I saw all the sins in this world. I saw a boy who abused his skills to rape others. I saw a girl who was seething with anger at the world that didn’t save her from her pitiful spot and lashed out at anyone who came close. I saw men who only wanted to learn everything they could without regard to anything. I saw a kid who prided in his mastery over magic… I saw the maw under the school who wanted to engulf everything…” She was more sensible to the emotions of others after she moved her [Origin] closer to emotions after all, “And then…I turned back to you and saw a girl who didn’t see the bad in the world even though everyone shunned her for something that wasn’t her fault.”
“You missed sloth there.” Elizabeth smiled, as if the girl didn't know from where she felt sloth.
“So you asked me, if I mind you indulging?” This got the blonde girl's attention back at her from her joking manner, “Girl, if you wanted to rape me at my parent’s bed while they stare I wouldn’t mind at all. Actually, we can do it right now, if it wasn’t for your silly motion of waiting for our coming of age I would have you screaming my name so hard that you would turn mute for a week.”
“Rossie, this is serious,” Elizabeth said with a scowl, but she was serious!
“No Elizabeth, I will not let you go, ever. You aren’t the only one who has guilt because of the nature of our relationship. I know that I am abusing your good intentions, I know that you didn’t look at other girls like this before. Rena is probably the same, she knows that part of the reason her body thirsts for you is because you are healing her soul.” And to make her point more obvious she used the spell that made the threads visible. The one that made the symbol of their union visible to [The World]. “I can cut it you know, unlike Rena I can survive without this. If something is making me love you without my input. This is the reason.”
And there, Elizabeth wavered.
“I am the most powerful and best [Healer] in this city. I can precast healing spells and leave some ritual magic for your [Royal Mages] to cast. Then if that doesn’t convince you we can hire [Mentalist] and [Soul Mages] to make sure no one is tampering with my mind.” She…Rossaline didn’t want to do that.
That [Lock], those [Chains] gave her comfort, gave her peace…Gave her a guarantee that Elizabeth wouldn’t discard her.
But…she didn’t want the woman she loved to suffer like this.
“...Can you let me think about this?” Elizabeth ended up saying.
“I will not force you to do this Eli-Eli. I don’t want to sever this, but breaking the chain doesn’t mean we must part ways…There are plenty of relationships that don’t have one of these.” Rossaline said, granted, most of those were normal human relationships, “And besides, when you finally see that I will still Love you even without it we can form it again!”
That was a lie, maybe Elizabeth didn’t know, maybe she did. But forming one with such a sturdy [Chain] would be almost impossible, well, normally. She had an ace under her hand, the [Soul Gem] that held her memories of past lives would be a good catalyst to form one.
If it could tie Elizabeth and Rena who didn’t have anything before…What would it do to Elizabeth and her? Two people that loved each other?
The idea of how [Deep] that connection would be… It made her to look forward to it.
“ And what about Rena?” Elizabeth said diverting the conversation.
“What about her? She is probably a victim of Stockholm syndrome. She will love you no matter what, she can't be trusted to be left alone. And no facility has the right things to cure her. Sadly that one must stay with you. My [Soul] can’t heal her…I doubt there is anyone that can on this planet at least.” And even if her soul could heal her. She wasn’t Elizabeth, she didn’t do charity.
“...But isn’t it sad?” Asked Elizabeth, her lovely and innocent Elizabeth.
“It will be okay, you aren’t taking advantage of her if anything. She is taking advantage of you, of your good intentions…she is taking advantage of your [Heart]. But it’s okay…” Rossaline whispered in Elizabeth’s ear, “I will stay with you to make sure she doesn’t abuse your feelings… I will always stay with you, [Lock] or not, unless you don’t want me…But that’s only if you don’t want me…”
And she didn’t say the last part, she wasn’t sure if Elizabeth knew what would be, some days the blonde girl acted like a bimbo…others she seemed to be smart.
Would she remember? The reason that [Lock] formed and the words she engraved it there?
The day that Elizabeth Starbright got tired of Rossaline Singh… Would be the day that Rossaline Singh would die. So Rossaline prayed, prayed at those gods that didn’t help her, to those demons that wanted her to embrace their [Sin], to the entities within the void…
She prayed…that Elizabeth wouldn’t leave her, that she wouldn’t get tired of her…That even without their [Lock] she would allow her to stay…That Watanabe Rena (The BITCH) wouldn’t take her spot… She prayed as Elizabeth snuggled and rested her face on her chest… She prayed as the girl’s breath evened out as she fell asleep.
She prayed as she hugged the blonde…As she fell asleep to a dreamless sleep.
She prayed that the love of her life wouldn’t discard her… And she hoped that tomorrow it wouldn’t start with Elizabeth cutting the chain that joined them.