NOVEL NEXT Chapter 32
The pain of happiness
Lyla started following me with Dredd from that day on.
What’s funny, I’m with the youngsters hunting for slime. Especially compatible with Cain, who says clearly. That’s how it folds.
“Hey, what’s that kid thinking right now?
“Shaw is now, what do you think?
I hear.
“I’m getting tired of slime hunting, so I’m worried about making it sword training, but we’re all not done yet, so I’m gonna wait a little longer”
“The sky turns blue.”
Shaw responds one by one.
“The sky is blue…”
“I don’t need to tell you, but it’s what I think.”
“Right.”
This is how it goes. I’ll be watching Falco this time when I get home. Falco seems kind of uncomfortable.
In the meantime, Dredd said:
“Isn’t Shaw that hard to work for?
I’m busy right now because of the two guests.
“You know, I think Hal was, too, but I was busier before I got here. I work late at night, I’m tired, I can’t even make rice. Compared to that, I can’t help but have fun every day.”
I think most people on that train were such busy people. Hal. I guess you really say Hal Na, or Hal Mi.
“Hal says he spends time studying at the magic school, not being allowed to chore, not working,”
Study. Enough, I guess.
“I wish Hal had gotten easier”
“You are”
Dredd said it like it was out there.
“If, you know, I’ve seen Hal, and he seems to be following me, say this. Shaw said he was in Deep Forest country, waiting for him anytime. He wants to relax with me. But I’ll let Slime hunt.”
“Let’s tell him.”
That’s how three days before we went to the North Forest, the two finally got to travel. Oh, boy.
A lot of people were coming to drop off the two of us who stayed long enough to play with the youngsters.
“Bye, Falco, Leon, Shaw, thanks for your help”
“It was meaningful. I’ll be back.”
Will it come again? Both Falco and Leon were smiling bitterly. That’s how when I tried to get in the carriage,
“Falco”
Lyla turned around and said.
“What?
“I gave birth because I wanted to give birth to you. We went on a journey together because we wanted to be together. Your father told you to leave, but I didn’t want to leave Falco on the plains, where I could see the qualities of the hunt from a small age”
Lila went on to say to Falco, who was taken lightly and couldn’t say anything.
“I enjoyed every day. And he became a better and better hunter. So much so that I have nothing to teach.”
“So that’s why you left it”
“Yes.”
“I didn’t want you to leave me. I just wanted to be there for you!
“I didn’t know. I had no idea.”
Lyla looked like she was laughing, like she wanted to cry. Falco is holding both hands. Now, yes, even if they talk about it now.
“I’m not regretting it. That’s all I’m saying.”
“… what”
“Falco, as the same hunter, I’m proud of you”
That’s all I said, I got in the carriage.
“She’s an unsolicited woman, Lila is. Just say what you want to say.”
Soon Gina was here to drop me off, too. The carriage runs off. And, Lyla looked out the window.
“Falco, I love you!
The carriage ran off.
“She’s a very unsolicited woman, Lyla. Really.”
Really, Gina. I think I’m going to cry.
There will be no one to drop off by pounding Falco’s shoulders and back, one at a time. The youngsters slap their thighs. At the end Leon greeted him and signaled him to leave. Shaw grabbed Falco’s hand softly.
“Shaw.”
“What?”
This is it.
Falco held onto the top of his chest.
“This is where it hurts. When you have a snack with Shaw, this is where it fills up. Like it can be tightened up. Me, I wonder if it’s bad.”
“It was too full.”
“This is it?
“There’s always too much happiness in a place that fills up as often as you do, and it’s stuffed with cucumber.”
Isn’t happiness a good thing?
“Good stuff, but too much hurts.”
“What am I supposed to do?”
I can’t help it. The carriage has just left. Shaw took Falco, with no people, holding his chest to the bench in the carriage waiting room.
“Sit down?
“Here.”
“Yes.”
That’s how Shaw got on Falco’s lap softly.
“Try me first.”
Do you mind?
“Yeah.”
Falco seemed bitter, and a little happy. Shaw said with his face buried in Falco’s chest.
“Then say” mother. ”
“You mean Lyla? Don’t call me Mother anymore.”
“What you don’t have in person. Say it.”
Falco said a lot.
“Mother.”
“One more time”
“Mother.”
……
“Mother, Mother, Mother, Kaa!
Falco hugged Shaw so hard. Too much happiness is the only way to get it out. This is how I have to teach this kind person who doesn’t even know how to cry. Shaw, Tong, rhythms with his hands turned to Falco’s back.
Shaw’s head, his shoulders get wet. Shaw’s gentle rhythm continued until Falco stopped crying.
“Doesn’t it hurt anymore?
“… oh, it stopped hurting”
“Empty?”
“… no, it’s still full”
“Oh well.”
Now Falco gently triumphs over Shaw. As Shaw tried to raise his face, Falco hurried and rubbed his face with his sleeve.
Oh, I can’t do this anymore. Shaw thought. I tried, but I couldn’t.
I like Falco. He’s only an 11-year-old little body, but his heart is an adult. Can you not like such a cute person? I didn’t want to like it. When I grew up, I was going to travel.
Let’s go home today.
“Well, I’m ready for the North Forest.”
“Well, we’ll stop by the baked confectionery shop on the way”
“Why?
“You might have your heart nourished again.”
“You just want Shaw”
“No.”
Come on, Falco, you ready? Because I’ll try to change the way I only think I’m cute now, one day. I’ll always be happy when I do, because my breasts are full and it’s painful. What? Shaw declared so with his heart.
If Shaw was here, my heart would always be filled with something. Falco held his chest with one hand and thought so relaxed. Yes, this is it.
Let’s go.
Shaw reaches out. Falco takes the hand.
“I’m sure Leon’s waiting for you!
“Right.”
Someday I will too. I wonder if I can say it.
Without even knowing Shaw’s determination, Falco looked up at the blue sky. For the time being, those two don’t have to come.