I Was Given a Political Marriage

38 – Deprived of flowers (5)

While Eileen and the princess were having a war of nerves, the other two were walking around the lawn normally.

As winter approached, the grass, which was a symbol of vitality, was gradually fading.

“But it’s a relief that it’s a bit warm today. A week ago, it would have been difficult to go outside.”

“So… Sian, since there’s a tree over there, shall we go over there?”

“good.”

While walking together, Xian carefully observed Scarlett, who was walking quietly beside him.

I haven’t become a guardsman yet, but I feel like I’ve gained some dignity.

I felt like I knew what it was like to be someone who really ran towards my dreams.

‘Well, I didn’t have a dream… Still, it’s not bad to watch from the side.’

I didn’t know that seeing her dream from the side would be so proud.

I haven’t done much for you, but it’s only natural to congratulate your friends on their success.

“So, isn’t it really hard these days?”

“Ah? Uh, well… Training isn’t that hard. Rather, it seems less difficult because he takes care of me.”

“It’s fortunate. I’ve heard that there is a lot of discrimination between the royal guards and the princess’ direct subordinates because of the class system.”

“Well, I’m not in group training, the princess gave me an instructor. She’s retired now, but her skills are amazing.”

“Really? Still manages to hold on well?”

It’s been a while since I felt like I was talking to Scarlett normally.

A comfortable atmosphere in which they talk about their daily lives and ask each other how they are doing in a normal way without Eileen.

For some reason, I felt at ease and wanted to stay like this.

Rather than stimulating pleasure, it was a constant sense of security, the realm of freedom I sought the most.

“I have to endure. Later… if I can afford it.”

“what?”

“Well, it’s not that I’m thinking about it, it’s because I need to be able to protect it when something happens.”

Scarlett’s eyes, which were becoming sympathetic, turned her head away in embarrassment.

“How was Xi’an after that?”

“Me? Uh… I don’t know what happened.”

Nothing was reflected in Scarlett’s blue eyes looking at me.

Eyes close to empty emptiness, a shiver rose from the spine for a moment, and it felt like the hair stood on end.

‘why… Maybe I didn’t see it right?’

“Huh? What?”

“No, I just didn’t think it was a big deal.”

I was scared for a moment, but when I saw it again, I decided to quickly forget it because it was the usual Scarlett.

Gulp, perhaps because I was nervous, even swallowing saliva feels vivid.

“Okay, nothing happened. Um.”

“Why? Is there something wrong?”

Scarlett would have smiled and passed it over if it was normal, but somehow anxiety welled up at the different reaction than usual.

When a person feels danger, intuition develops.

Man’s last resort and last chance to overcome the crisis.

“Sian, would it be okay if I ask where Eileen and Jindo went?”

“Uh, uh? Uh… Even if you ask me something like that, I can’t answer.”

He couldn’t open his mouth as he remembered the provocation Eileen had done to her the other day.

I feel like I’ll get hurt again, and I feel like I’ll be sorry to tell you again.

“It’s okay if you don’t have to tell me. But… when you’re with me, just tell the truth.”

“Truth? But I really have something to say.”

I decided to take a step back from the distance that was gradually getting closer from earlier.

It would be difficult for both of us if there was a strange misunderstanding, so we needed a distance between us.

“Sian, do you know why I’m doing my best?”

“That’s why…”

It was a question I had no choice but to know unless I was an idiot.

Maybe it’s because it’s responsible for me, or it’s related to me even if it’s not.

Knowing that, I couldn’t be cruel to Scarlett.

When I push away, she tries to come closer, and if I don’t really hate her, she wants to stay by my side forever.

‘Head hurts.’

If the relationship with Eileen is like a chain that can’t be broken, Scarlett is like a chain that doesn’t know when to break.

Even though we know it will break someday, a strong chain holds us together.

“Let’s sit down and rest now. I brought a handkerchief. Shall I put it on?”

“No, it’s a uniform anyway, so you can just wash it.”

The two of us sat down in front of the tree that arrived before we knew it and looked at the distant mountains.

It was hard there to speak first in Scarlett’s eyes and pressure just before.

‘What should I say…’

It was the first time I had ever been so awkward with her.

“Sian, is it okay if I hold your hand?”

“Uh, yes…”

While sitting, he taps my fingertips and takes my hand.

Warm, rough, but large hands that wrap around my hands easily. It was a very different feeling from Eileen.

‘My hand is very damaged…’

Until the last time I caught it, there weren’t many calluses that were so rough and scarred.

To some extent, I believed it was a managed hand, but now it’s just a rough and painful hand.

It was like an indicator of how much she had suffered.

“warm.”

Grab my hand and slowly bring your body closer.

I couldn’t resist the warmth approaching beyond my shoulders and gradually took over my body.

And Scarlett slowly leaning her head against me.

Her red hair flutters in the wind, catching my gaze and enticing me.

“Sian, is it okay if I lie down? It’s been a while… I want to rest.”

“That’s about it.”

hair stone. As hard as it was, as soon as I gave my permission, her head fell vertically onto my leg.

“Good work, I don’t know if it will be difficult in the future… Rest well, Scarlett.”

“It’s warm, Xian.”

Even if the atmosphere changed, there was also a figure that was the same as the face on my leg.

As always, like a cat, it closes its eyes on my legs.

“It’s not bad to stay like this for a while.”

It’s uncomfortable, but I feel the warmth of my legs.

My upper body is cold, but I thought it wouldn’t be too bad to stay like this.

***

I thought I had closed my eyes for a moment, but the sun was setting in the distance.

Scarlett’s hair seemed to burn with the red sunset.

“You’re sleeping hard.”

As he stroked the sleeping girl’s hair, he turned his head while hearing a sound close to sleep talk.

‘But I think I’ll have to get up soon.’

Watching the sun go down, it seemed that we would have to go back to the tea party.

The other day, I was like an animal, just sleeping mildly was obviously funny.

“You have to get up anyway.”

First of all, I quietly lifted Scarlett up to raise her sulking body.

Move carefully so as not to wake up…

dump. After successfully moving to the soft lawn, I tried to stand up with joy.

Support your body with one arm and brace your legs.

“Huh?”

dump. The moment I was about to get up, the pressure I felt in my hand made me fall.

I closed my eyes at the pain I felt in my tailbone.

“Don’t leave me…”

For some reason, Scarlett, who was on top of me, was looking down at me with sad eyes.

My arms trembled as if I had a nightmare, and my eyes were full of anxiety.

“Don’t go… please don’t change, Xian.”

I resisted and tried to push it away, but for some reason my body couldn’t move.

Rather, she tried to wipe Scarlett’s tears, but her body tried to move.

“You must have had a nightmare. It’s okay… I’m by your side.”

A drop of hot water fell on my body

“draft…”

“I will never forget you, and I will never abandon you.

And Scarlett’s tears stop and her face starts to blush.

Scarlett quietly descending on top of me as if she had finally come to her senses.

“Can you come to your senses now?”

“Ah, yes. I’m sorry, Xian.”

When you wake up from your dream, it starts to change 180 degrees.

“That just wasn’t intentional…”

I hugged Scarlett’s head, who kept feeling apologetic, and rubbed her back.

I put it close enough that I could hear my heartbeat, and whispered that it was okay.

“It’s okay, I don’t really care… It’s because you’ve been having a lot of trouble lately, right?”

“…”

She didn’t speak, but I could tell from the look in Scarlett’s restless eyes.

I don’t know what’s going on, but my mind seems to be quite worn out.

I didn’t fully understand Scarlett, but I was still able to do something to soothe her.

Like a mother hugging a child having a nightmare, I held her head over and over again.

“Tell me later if it’s difficult. Like you said, I’ll only tell you the truth.”

“Yeah… Sian, I was too tired.”

Saying it was hard, I patted her on the back once more.

***

“Sian, did anything happen?”

“Yeah… uh, nothing happened.”

After soothing Scarlett for a while, they returned to the tea party with Eileen and the princess.

‘I’m sweating a lot.’

Even though the cold winter was approaching, Eileen was breaking out in a cold sweat for some reason.

“Huh, let’s end today’s tea party with this. Eileen, if there’s something you want to say, why don’t you do it again tomorrow?”

“Tsk, I get it.”

Let’s meet again in words, but it’s probably like a promise to meet tomorrow unconditionally.

“What a f*cking b*tch… what to do with that bad taste.”

“What’s wrong? Shall I rub your shoulders?”

“Whoa, yes, that’s fine.”

Even after returning to the dormitory, he slowly rubbed her shoulders, still not feeling relieved.

I didn’t hear their stories, but seeing Eileen’s emotional outburst, I knew it wasn’t normal.

“Then shall we sleep now?”

“Ha… that’s how it should be.”

I dressed lightly and went up to bed.

He hugged Eileen tightly and fell asleep with his body tightly pressed against him.