I Want to Be a VTuber

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To be honest, Ji-yeon had a lot on her plate during the filming of <Gyeongseong Young Lady>.

It was all about the genre of the film.

Or maybe the pressure came from being the main character.

But that wasn’t really it.

Honestly, she was just feeling the pressure of filming alongside Seo-yeon.

“Weren’t you two close?”

So at first, Ji-yeon often asked Jo Seo-hee for help while practicing to pass the audition.

Even after getting the role, she was taking advice from Seo-hee all the time.

Seo-hee would grumble each time.

“Being close and all is one thing.”

“What on earth are you talking about?”

“Hey, Seo-hee, do you really have a lot of friends?”

Of course, Seo-hee just found Ji-yeon’s response frustrating.

In reality, Seo-hee didn’t have many friends her age.

She had a lot of acquaintances in the industry, that’s all.

Yeah, networking.

But if you ask if those acquaintances are friends, well, not really.

That’s just how it goes.

From the start, Seo-hee was in an environment where making friends was difficult.

The people around her were all from rich families, and she was always on edge, worried that her personal info might leak.

The only peers she was somewhat comfortable with were, amusingly enough, those she met through Seo-yeon.

For example, Park Jung-woo and Lee Ji-yeon.

So for Seo-hee, who was generally disarmed around such people, Ji-yeon’s behavior of building walls felt strange.

“It’s not that I’m afraid of disappointing you.”

Of course, she must have already seen her acting.

After all, she had been on display for the public through cable dramas.

Naturally, Seo-yeon must have seen Ji-yeon’s performances too.

In fact, they had casually discussed it a few times.

Where she was good, where she was lacking.

But isn’t it different watching on TV and actually filming together?

For Ji-yeon, this was the first time she was witnessing Seo-yeon’s heartfelt acting on set.

And while she thought she’d gotten a bit used to filming <Gyeongseong Young Lady>,

Well…

“You’re trying to die, aren’t you?”

The chilling voice of Yuina echoed.

Yuina had been exuding a tremendous presence up until now.

However, her current intensity could not be compared to any previous moments.

“Why? Weren’t you satisfied? You’ve got everything!”

Yuina thrust forward, choking Michiko, her signature red eyes now blazing as she confronted her.

“Oh, I see. The things I desperately wanted were meaningless to you? So you can’t be satisfied even after getting everything? You think there’s nothing left in your hands?”

Every word from Yuina felt scripted.

It was probably a direct reflection of her own confusion.

It wasn’t just that she realized Michiko was trying to die.

It was the questions about herself that arose here.

And the anger she felt at Michiko’s state.

All of this was causing her turmoil.

“You’ve always been like this.”

Yuina muttered, like a low beast groaning.

“You always jump to conclusions.”

In fact, the parts that Seo-yeon struggled to understand about Yuina revolved around things like these.

Her emotions.

Not just those related to love.

Yuina’s behavior was often contradictory.

Despite trying to kill Michiko by using Yeon Seon-ye, she stops when she sees her trying to commit suicide.

Even though she intended to cast aside Yeon Seon-ye to use her, she quickly developed attachments to her.

Knowing that Isamu had been using her for a long time, she still chose to deny it and live in such a way.

That entire series of actions felt foreign to Seo-yeon.

For her, emotions were more straightforward.

If she was happy, she was happy.

If she was sad, then she was sad.

Especially most of Yuina’s actions were based on love.

The emotion that Seo-yeon found most unfamiliar.

“Isn’t love a positive feeling?”

Seo-yeon had thought vaguely that way, so she couldn’t understand Yuina’s persistently negative attitude.

However, Yeo-hee had said to Seo-yeon,

“Not every love is positive.”

“Is that so?”

“People like me who live without a care are rare.”

If there’s lingering attachment, it means that the person can’t let go of those feelings.

Living with those feelings intact is tough.

“The Yuina you mentioned is a kid with a lot of affection.”

Because she has a lot of feelings, she’s a girl with many desires who refuses to let go of things.

In fact, in the story, Yuina is just nineteen.

She was still young and emotionally capable of being shaken.

“Simply put, the environment around her prevented Yuina from acting that way.”

Yuina is a villain, but she’s also a victim.

Hearing such things made Seo-yeon watch numerous productions.

She revisited ones she had already seen.

So she found new insights.

“That makes sense.”

Especially thinking again about the lingering attachments from her past life, she began to understand the script more deeply.

And at the moment she saw Jo Seo-hee’s acting, everything clicked into place.

To be honest, Yuina’s emotions in the script weren’t meant to be this intense.

Upon realizing that Michiko was trying to die, Yuina was supposed to tease her by yanking on her sleeve.

“You’re trying to die after getting everything, huh? How foolish.”

That was more or less the vibe.

Of course, the feelings packed within weren’t much different from what Seo-yeon was conveying now.

But the attitude was different.

Mockery and anger are completely separate emotions.

But the moment Seo-yeon saw Jo Seo-hee’s performance, she could only act this way.

She assumed Yuina must have been genuinely angry at that moment.

“The connection between Yuina and Michiko runs deep.”

At one time, they could have been called friends.

Even though that setup doesn’t come through in the film, given their environments, I thought their relationship could be fairly special.

If Yuina is an affectionate person, she would unquestionably have difficulty forgetting her past.

What if.

Yeah, what if.

What if the reincarnated mother she met again had a sorrowful expression?

Wouldn’t she have felt angry?

In this life, she got what she wanted in her past, so what was her grievance?

“Of course, she wouldn’t have understood the meaning of that anger.”

It just so happened that the face Jo Seo-hee showed through her acting was something Seo-yeon was familiar with.

It was the same expression her mother from her past life used to always wear.

Perhaps that was why.

Seo-yeon instantly immersed herself in Yuina.

***

Everyone on the filming set held their breath.

Director Baek Min raised his hand and then lowered it.

The script and the emotion line had shifted.

He dislikes performances that stray from his intent.

“How many times has this been?”

However, while shooting the film this time, he had already made several exceptions.

The first was Lee Sang-soo’s acting and then followed by Yuina’s scene.

And now it seemed to be happening again.

Not just Seo-yeon.

Even Jo Seo-hee, facing Seo-yeon, had a flame burning in her eyes.

This too was not the emotion he intended for Michiko.

But… it wasn’t a wrong interpretation either.

“Yuina and Michiko are acquaintances from the past.”

They share that setup.

The depth of their friendship is not detailed in the script.

But given the context, they presumably had a friendship.

Moreover, considering the genre of the film, their relationship would likely be deeper.

Director Baek Min recognized somewhat that was the intent behind it.

“These aspects weren’t intended, but…”

The aspect he values most in Seo-yeon’s performance is her ability to convey deep emotions.

You can tell by looking at the method acting she showcased in her child actor days.

She demonstrated it in <The Chaser>, then didn’t take roles that particularly showcased that angle afterward.

However, today Yuina seemed immersed in the role, whether Seo-yeon intended it or not.

More than ever.

So naturally, Seo-hee’s reactions were also coming out.

“You think you know anything about me?”

A sharp voice.

Yuina gripped Michiko’s hair tightly with both hands, pulling it.

Michiko, who had previously shown only dignified expressions, now transformed her eyes sharply.

The slight tremor in her voice revealed the anger behind Michiko’s actions.

“It’s hilarious, Yuina. If you wanted to kill me that badly, you should be grateful. I mean, I’m offering to return everything I took from you.”

“Ever since we were little. Always overthinking, believing you’re the unluckiest in the world? How conceited, Michiko. I hate you for acting as if you’ve lost everything, even while possessing so much.”

“What? I have everything? What do I even have? None of this was for me. It was what my parents wanted. It was what your parents wanted, what you wanted!”

As Michiko shouted sharply, she forcefully yanked at Yuina’s hair.

“You’ve never lost anything, so you can say that, Amanabi Michiko.”

She moved the grip from Yuina’s hair, pushing Michiko towards the nearest booth as if throwing her.

In an instant, the fight escalated.

The staff were taken aback by the fierce performances.

“No way, Yuina is way too strong.”

“This isn’t even a fair fight.”

While the script suggested a fierce tugging between them, in reality, it seemed like Michiko was just getting beaten up.

However, this somehow matched with the calm vibe Yuina exuded.

The frustrated look on Michiko’s face also suited her well.

Director Baek Min repeatedly raised and lowered his hand.

Should he call cut or not?

“Separately, their immersion is at its peak.”

Especially Jo Seo-hee.

She charged right back at Yuina.

This time, Yuina also took Michiko’s actions and rolled around on the ground.

The sight of them grappling and fighting on the street had other actors walking by gathering into the crowd.

“It’s the first time I’ve seen Seo-hee immerse herself in a character like this.”

The reason Director Baek Min was adamant about including Jo Seo-hee in this <Gyeongseong Young Lady> wasn’t for just any reason.

He believed the character Amanabi Michiko suited Jo Seo-hee perfectly.

Having lost her mother as a child, Seo-hee was chasing after her shadow.

In a way, Michiko was similar.

After all, Michiko had always been overshadowed by her parents.

Moreover, the fact that she was a conglomerate’s daughter added complexity to her relationship with her father, providing elements that allowed Jo Seo-hee to connect with Michiko.

Right now, as Yuina and Michiko rolled around, it wouldn’t be an exaggeration to say it was Michiko herself rather than Jo Seo-hee.

The staff were transfixed by the wonderful synergy between the two actresses.

Some were watching with excited expressions.

Others were nervously watching.

And for Director Baek Min, he raised his hand once more, pondering.

It wasn’t that their acting was bad.

The scene would not only feature Yuina and Michiko.

There also existed the character who needed to intervene in their fight.

That was the main character, Yeon Seon-ye, who was watching them with a flustered expression.

Is that acting?

Or was she truly flustered?

Either way, it still felt natural.

However, it was unacceptable to just watch the fight unfold.

Ultimately, if Yeon Seon-ye didn’t step in, the fight would just go on.

“But how could she step in there?”

“More importantly, is Seo-hee okay?”

If it continued like this, it would be an NG.

This was an understanding everyone was coming to at that moment.

“Stop it now… Agh?!”

As Yeon Seon-ye forced herself into the fray, her feet got tangled and she fell.

And in that fall, she collided directly with Yuina’s face.

***

To be honest, it was partly coincidence.

Yuina and Michiko were rolling on the ground ahead.

Watching the performance of Seo-yeon and Jo Seo-hee, Ji-yeon couldn’t bring herself to jump in with dialogue.

From her childhood, Seo-yeon had always been a point of reference for Ji-yeon.

Back when they played prince and princess.

She had thought to herself that she wanted to perform like that too.

“I want to act with you confidently like Jo Seo-hee.”

Jo Seo-hee could do that.

You could tell just by looking at now.

Had there ever been a moment in all her performances where she was as immersed in her role as she was now?

Though amusingly, it was during a rough and tumble scene.

Despite that, Ji-yeon found it difficult to insert herself between the two actresses.

She felt like Yeon Seon-ye, whose role it was to meddle in the genuine fight between Michiko and Yuina.

Although she was the main character, all the staff’s attention was on the two.

The audience would probably feel the same way.

In this moment, she found herself in the position of an extra mixed in with the crowd.

“If this continues, it’ll be an NG.”

Realizing that truth made Ji-yeon feel a chill wash over her head.

She had delivered such a passionate performance.

But if she messed up one line or had a poor acting moment, she’d have to start all over again.

Would she be able to exhibit such immersive performances again?

To be honest, she wasn’t sure.

So, a sense of urgency drove her.

That anxious feeling led to her tripping.

She fell forward, directly hitting Yuina’s face.

“Yeon Seon-ye, you?!”

With her face in her hands, Yuina rolled around.

Her fingers covered her face.

The eyes peeking through her fingers seemed to gauge whether it was acting or real.

In the blink of an eye, the situation had turned into chaos.

This was behavior that wouldn’t typically happen in the scripted performance.

Jo Seo-hee looked at Ji-yeon with wide, surprised eyes.

Surely she believed that wasn’t acting.

However, Ji-yeon felt herself calming down as she crashed into Seo-yeon’s face.

“It’s good that I bumped into Seo-yeon.”

She was the kind of person who could receive hits like that without a scratch.

So in the moment of confusion, Ji-yeon decided to take advantage of this coincidence.

“Don’t you dare bully the lady, you wicked witch!!”

As if the already chaotic situation erupted, it turned into a complete ruckus.

But in a good way.