I Picked Up the Greatest Villain in the Story

62.

I had thought too lightly of it. Even though I knew what Sehun had gone through before meeting me, and I had clearly witnessed the trauma resurfacing when he was kidnapped again, I failed to properly look into the child’s inner world.

I thought it would be enough to just give love unconditionally. I believed that if I kept him close in my embrace so that he wouldn’t feel any more threats, the dangerous nature lurking somewhere inside him would disappear.

The handcuffs tightening around my wrists now told me it was all an illusion.

My lips trembled, unable to find the next words to say. My vision blurred, and Sehun became submerged in tears.

When I blinked, Sehun’s face came into clearer view, his eyes wavering just like mine.

Despite having just said something shocking, a small sigh escaped me at the sight of his reddened eyes, looking as if they might shed tears at any moment.

Sehun’s grip on my wrist tightened. Even though I couldn’t move much due to the restraints anyway, his grip was desperate, as if I might run away somewhere.

‘Is it truly crazy to think it’s fortunate Hyunsu didn’t go through this?’

What should I do? My chest felt tight, as if I was looking at an unsolvable problem.

The scales of my thoughts were tipping to one side without my realizing it.

If his personality that could only be satisfied by kidnapping and imprisoning someone wouldn’t change, if someone had to endure Sehun’s obsession, wouldn’t it be right for me to be the sacrificial lamb?

I thought I had raised him well, but I realized it was an illusion. If Sehun came to like Hyunsu with this irrational nature, Hyunsu’s future might not be much different from my current situation.

It was all my fault. I was arrogant enough to think I could heal Sehun’s wounds and change the child’s tendencies.

It was clear that my actions and words had triggered Sehun’s dormant obsessive nature.

Was it a problem that I said I’d briefly go to America? Was it the starting point when I lied about having already kissed? All sorts of thoughts crossed my mind.

Seeing Sehun confessing his love to me instead of Hyunsu made everything go dark before my eyes. When I first heard his confession, I rationalized that it was because Sehun hadn’t yet realized his feelings for Hyunsu.

But now, seeing this, if these feelings were directed at Hyunsu, it seemed the original story would unfold exactly as it was.

Perhaps the moment I carelessly reached out to the child being beaten mercilessly in that dirty alley was the beginning of this obsession.

Just as the small kindness Hyunsu showed had planted the seed of obsession in Sehun’s heart, I couldn’t blame anyone else when I thought about how my actions had made Sehun like this.

‘This is all my karma.’

I tensed my lips, feeling like a hollow laugh might escape. I felt breathless looking at Sehun’s eyes brimming with tears.

Certainly, it seemed better for me to embrace this than to watch Sehun do this to someone else. As this thought occurred to me, the tension in my shoulders relaxed.

Sensing Jian’s change, Sehun blinked slowly. Tears rolled down his cheeks, glistening in the light.

“Don’t carelessly talk about killing anyone. And don’t talk about dying either. Not unless you’re determined to break my heart.”

Surely he hasn’t sent someone to the afterlife already? The people in the research facility weren’t human, they were monsters, so that didn’t matter.

But from what was described in the novel, Sehun didn’t distinguish between whether the person was good or evil when killing. He just decided to take a life according to his own needs.

I believed he hadn’t committed murder yet, as he had only recently awakened as a hunter. I gently transferred warmth to our interlocked hands.

I felt drained watching his eyes narrow as if curious about what was going on in my head.

It was also remarkable how my manhood maintained its firmness, not subsiding even in this situation.

The thought of having to rehabilitate this guy again felt overwhelming, but I couldn’t just give up like this.

Even if I went back to the past, I would reach out without hesitation to that wounded child with nowhere to go.

I didn’t mind if this was the price for daring to try to change the original story. I couldn’t live without Sehun anyway.

The past 10 years were the happiest moments in Jian’s life. The fact that I didn’t notice until Sehun had made such plans, created a hideout, and obtained artifacts to restrain me was because I only saw what I wanted to see.

“That was my first kiss with you. I’ve never kissed anyone else before.”

To soothe Sehun, who had gone mad enough with obsession and possessiveness to imprison me, I first had to correct the lie I had told.

“… Is that really true?”

My prediction was right. A strange expectation was evident in his slightly trembling voice. When I nodded slightly, Sehun leaned forward and hugged me.

I looked up at the ceiling somewhere, feeling the rubbing below. Even though I had made up my mind to endure it, having sex right away was a different matter. I had to adapt to this relationship while maintaining my sanity as much as possible.

I raised my hands and patted his broad back. The clanking sound of chains rang loudly in my ears.

“I was busy raising you, where would I have time to date? I lied because I didn’t want you to know I had no experience.”

The vibration of Sehun’s laughter transmitted through our touching chests.

“What I said about going to America was also because it was really necessary. I was planning to return as quickly as possible. If possible, I was going to use teleportation. I decided to leave you in Korea rather than take you to America because I thought I might have to leave you alone there. Hyunwoo hyung and Hyunsu are here. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you in advance.”

I had been contemplating. While racking my brains about when would be the best time to go, I ended up telling him the day before departure as if I was just notifying him.

From Sehun’s perspective, it must have been surprising. Of course, I couldn’t understand why he was shocked enough to do something like this, but considering Sehun’s nature as described in the novel, it was entirely possible.

As the heightened emotions seemed to have subsided, I watched him carefully. Just as I was thinking about asking for clothes first, Sehun lifted his head from where it was buried between my neck and shoulder.

His eyes sparkled as they met mine up close. I smiled back like a fool, forgetting the situation, as his eyes curved into crescents.

“Then you can date me. You’re going to keep raising me from now on, right?”

His bright voice momentarily left me speechless. How could I raise someone who was already a head taller than me and had a magnificent elephant between his legs?

“… No? Was what you just said a lie?”

As my response was delayed, the smile gradually faded from Sehun’s face. A chill ran down my spine as I met his cold gaze, fitting his cool features.

If I said it would be better to date someone else here, the relaxed atmosphere would probably return to its original state. Jian, moistening his dry lips with his tongue due to tension, carefully began to speak.

“That’s not it, but… don’t you think you should give me time to prepare mentally? As you know, I first met you when you were ten. Even if you’re an adult now, to me, you’re still like a young child.”

He may have been ten, but Sehun’s appearance back then was so small and delicate that you would have believed it if someone said he was five. Traces of his childhood were clearly still visible in his handsome face now.

Accepting Sehun and having sex with him as if flipping a coin would mean that my mental state was also seriously problematic.

Even now, I was holding back the urge to pull my hips back. The nape of my neck felt hot at the blatant traces of sexual desire.

“Do I still look like a young child to you?”

His face blocked the light as he trapped my face between his arms and looked down at me. Despite the backlighting, his sharp nose bridge, melancholic eyes, and plump lips appeared as delicately as if painted with a brush.

“Look, hyung. I’ve been like this the whole time. Just smelling your scent drives me crazy.”

Swish, swish.

My body hair stood on end, right up to the fine hairs on my earlobes, as he pressed and rubbed his lower body against me. I bit the inside of my lip and tensed my toes, but my manhood was gradually responding to the direct stimulation.

This is truly maddening. I was left speechless by my needlessly vigorous body.

Just moments ago, I had told Sehun that his childhood image was still too vivid in my mind to accept such acts, and now I was getting aroused. Even to myself, it was a perfect inconsistency between words and actions.

Sehun grinned as he felt the hardening sensation. The rubbing dick made squelching sounds as they became more uninhibited.

The rough pubic hair continuously stimulated the testicles and the base of the dick. The slick fluid made it easier to friction against the foreskin with protruding veins.