Ch. 170
When Chen Yao woke up, it was exactly eight in the morning.
This was his biological clock. No matter how late he went to sleep at night, he would basically wake up at eight, then wash up and head to class, walking into the classroom just as the bell rang.
Only today, the atmosphere felt somehow strange.
He looked down from his bed. Across from him, Tu Junhui and Xiong Da had obviously pulled an all-nighter and were still battling away in their game. When he craned his neck to look at Lin Nan, he suddenly noticed that Lin Nan sitting at the computer seemed exceptionally feminine.
???
He slowly formed a question mark in his mind. Although Lin Nan had been becoming increasingly feminine before, and even before today had already possessed female appearance and figure, his overall aura had been like a trap or tomboy. But looking today, he felt that Lin Nan seemed to have no difference from a normal girl.
This transformation in temperament couldn't be expressed in words. He also couldn't say exactly what had changed about Lin Nan, but he just felt that today's Lin Nan was full of feminine charm, making him feel somewhat distant from him.
Getting down from bed and taking a closer look, he saw that although Lin Nan appeared to be seriously playing games, he was obviously absent-minded.
"Stop playing, it's time for class." Chen Yao said while organizing the textbooks he needed for today's classes.
After all, it was finals period. Classes were mostly about review and highlighting test points, so textbooks were essential. Otherwise, he'd probably have to rely on imagination.
"I'm skipping class today." Lin Nan answered listlessly.
"Skipping class even during finals?" Chen Yao asked in surprise.
Although their dorm usually played with phones during class and occasionally skipped, now that finals had arrived, except for students who were good-for-nothing and didn't even want their graduation certificates, other students had all gotten serious.
Lin Nan didn't answer him, still staring at the screen, looking like he was focused on the game.
But when Chen Yao passed behind Lin Nan with his towel, he discovered he was actually playing Spider Solitaire, randomly clicking with the mouse.
He didn't know if something had happened.
Last night Lin Nan had been dejected because of his period, but at that time he could at least still communicate. After waking up, Lin Nan seemed to have even bigger emotional problems.
But if Lin Nan wouldn't talk, Chen Yao had no way to help.
So he could only go wash up, occasionally glancing at Lin Nan in the room from the balcony, worried.
The last time Lin Nan ignored people was when he came home and was heartbroken by his father. The time before that was after the physical examination when he learned he was actually a girl.
Counting them up, each time was actually after encountering a huge blow... But it was only one night, and he stayed in the dorm the whole time. How could anyone have dealt him a blow?
After washing up, Tu Junhui and the others had also finished their game and were putting on shoes and clothes to go to class.
"Lin Nan, are you really not going to class?" Chen Yao asked again, then gave Tu Junhui a confused look.
Not hearing an answer, Tu Junhui also shook his head, just as puzzled as him.
The three could only temporarily leave Lin Nan behind and go to class. Chen Yao had originally wanted to stay in the dorm to accompany Lin Nan, but thinking about it, if he had received some kind of blow, then what Lin Nan might need more was to calm down alone in the dorm, rather than having him provide so-called care on the side.
Hearing the sound of the dorm door closing, Lin Nan, who had just been sitting at the computer with a stern face, turned around. Confirming that finally only she remained in the dorm, she could finally drop her pretense of being strong.
How did I suddenly become a girl...
She only felt her nose becoming sour, with grievance and unwillingness quickly welling up in her heart.
Her shoulders trembling slightly, she grabbed the flesh on her arm and pinched hard, but it hurt so much she grimaced. She pulled open her waistband to check again and again, hoping this was some prank by Lilith or Lina, hoping this was a dream, but was disappointed time after time.
Her head felt somewhat heavy. That organ that was completely foreign to her was as terrifying as a huge scar growing on her body.
Lin Nan swallowed and finally decided to give up checking again.
Even though she had long known she would become female, she had wanted to have mental preparation, a buffer period. She had already resigned herself to her fate, just wanting to accept her destiny during winter break, hoping to properly be male for the time before winter break. But she didn't even have that much time.
It was like a terminally ill patient who, even after being told he would definitely die in three months, hoped to enjoy worldly pleasures as much as possible during those three months. When he could accept his fate, the doctor suddenly told him they had made a mistake before—actually, you can only live one month.
Anyone would break down, right?
For some reason, Lin Nan's tears were flowing, but she didn't have particularly intense emotions.
Unlike last time when her father broke her heart and she cried and screamed hysterically, this time she cried extraordinarily calmly, just sitting quietly, letting tears blur her vision.
It must be Lilith deliberately playing tricks on me.
Lin Nan naturally blamed Lilith. Or was it Lina?
She sighed softly, gently wiping away the tears on her cheeks with the back of her hand, feeling physically and mentally exhausted.
Living is so tiring.
She was clearly just barely an adult, yet she bore the pressure of studying, family pressure, life pressure, and the pressure of becoming female...
She always felt like she was a pressure cooker that would one day be unable to withstand the pressure in her heart.
And she seemed to have not much attachment to this world either.
Lin Nan glanced at the railing outside the balcony, imagining herself flipping over and jumping down, but this scene suddenly transformed into her mother's smile full of guilt toward her.
Then came Chen Yao, who had taken special care of her since middle school, and her uncle Wu Guodong, who had been particularly indulgent with her since childhood...
Although Lin Nan seemed to only care about these three people, thinking carefully, if she really chose to seek death, these three would definitely be extremely sad, and she didn't want that either.
She had to leave the dorm next.
Lin Nan pressed her lips tightly together, finally temporarily suppressing the complaints and sadness in her mind, turning instead to think about practical problems.
Although in her view this could be called the "Little Lin Nan Running Away Incident," in her roommates' view, she seemed more feminine than before. "Feminine charm"—this phrase spoken by Tu Junhui and Chen Yao made Lin Nan somewhat confused, but at least she understood that she was now indeed more likely to be treated as female, even though Tu Junhui and Xiong Da had always thought she was a naturally beautiful man.
Being treated as female while living under the same roof as males. The danger in this was obvious without thinking.
She really needed to discuss this with the advisor.
Lin Nan sighed deeply, rubbing her eyes that were red and swollen from crying, sniffling, then got up to prepare to go to the advisor's office.
Although she would most likely be refused permission to live off-campus, if she was refused, she would use magic.
Charm magic was embarrassing, but it was better than being violated.