I Don’t Want to be a Villainess

Should I have stopped thinking?

Maybe so. Because after that, I was stuck with the kids for quite a while.

I can’t quite remember who took me away from Ha Neul’s embrace. Maybe it was Sohee? I think Sohee is the most likely candidate since she was the strongest among the three.

One by one, I got hugged in turn. And then I filled my own desires too.

That plan was fundamentally doomed from the start. Obviously, the kids hugging me would also fill their own desires—I just didn’t see that coming. That was my downfall.

I ended up receiving hugs that could last who knows how many hours, and countless kisses too.

Though no kid crossed the line to actually kiss me… it was pretty stimulating to receive kisses on places like my nape or collarbone, which are, in some ways, way more sensitive than lips.

…Hmm, I can’t be entirely sure that lips didn’t touch. My memory got fuzzy towards the end. Near the end, there was nothing but the harsh breaths of four girls, including me.

Oh, I see.

I thought I wouldn’t be in that state of consciousness anymore after getting used to it, but it seems like there’s still a way to go from here.

I thought the more I was stimulated, the more I’d adapt, but it seems everyone has their own threshold. Just look at Sara; she changed her consciousness with just a kiss. I’d say mine is a bit higher than that.

I’m not sure how high it might go from here.

“You said I was pathetic, but you’re pretty pathetic too.”

But still, I didn’t want to hear that. If we’re getting technical, I lasted way longer!

“But I didn’t change after just one kiss.”

When I opened my eyes, as expected, Sara was right in front of me. I guess I passed out from not being able to withstand the constant stimulation.

…Fainting from being hugged and kissed by girls, I can’t tell if I should be happy or embarrassed. Now I’m just lost.

…

By the way, this position is a bit weird.

All I can see is Sara’s face. Her hair flowed down both sides, blocking my view a bit. If that face wasn’t familiar Sara’s, I probably would have fainted again if it was another girl. But this time, I likely fainted from fear.

“…What is this?”

As I opened my eyes slightly and looked at Sara, she, being clearly taller than me, blushed slightly.

“Oh, are you asking on purpose? To a girl?”

Generally, when you say “girl,” you wouldn’t be talking down to the girl in front of you while your hands are clasped together.

And I should clarify, in case anyone thinks I’m a chauvinist, it goes the same for “boy.” Most people know how serious the situation gets if you do such things to a sleeping girl.

“I didn’t do anything either! So you should hug me too!”

Where do I even begin to tackle that?

“First of all, when you say you did nothing, it just means you’re in a state where you can’t do anything. Since you and I are sharing the same body. Moving this body falls to either you or me, and if we can’t access consciousness, then we can’t do anything.”

“So you’re saying you won’t praise me? That’s unfair!”

I wanted to let out a huge sigh but held it in, continuing my words.

“And how would we even hug in this state? Since you’re holding me so tightly that I can’t escape.”

“…Well, that’s true.”

Naturally, Sara couldn’t properly respond to what I just said. It was simply a fact with no room for excuses.

“If I don’t do this, you’ll run away.”

What kind of ridiculous statement is that?

“Have I ever tried to run away from you?”

At least, I have no memory of that. Whenever Sara came to me in my dreams, I would always welcome her just like that.

If not, she wouldn’t hold the record for most kisses among the girls around me.

“…But you said something this morning.”

Looks like she’s referring to when I warned the three girls.

“…And so you’re holding me like this? To prevent me from running away?”

“But! If I don’t do this, it would be unfair!”

Let’s emphasize again, Sara currently holds the record for most kisses among the people around me.

“Sigh.”

In the end, I couldn’t hold back a sigh.

My breath slightly rustled Sara’s hair. And her eyelids too. It seems my sigh scared her a bit.

“I won’t run away. Does that promise even mean anything anymore? Your body is in the hands of those kids right now.”

Only after I said that did Sara’s face go pale.

And she hurriedly let go and said, “Uh, shouldn’t one of us go check?”

As she said that, Sara cast a glance at me.

Is she telling me to go?

“No way. I know exactly what would happen if I went out.”

“But we really don’t know what might happen! Like, you know? They could try for a deeper kiss or something!”

Wait, is she talking about our mouth structures getting tangled up?

If that’s the case, I’m not too worried. They probably want to kiss me while I’m awake rather than forcibly doing it while I’m asleep.

…Right?

Now that I think about it, that’s a bit unsettling.

But that doesn’t mean I’ll rush out there.

“It’s fine. I trust my friends.”

Seizing the moment when Sara momentarily moved away from me to sit up, she looked at me with slightly worried eyes and asked, “Trust them?”

“Yeah. Well, they’re friends after all.”

“So you’re telling me they’re sticking by you and spending practically date-like days together, even taking baths together and cohabitating in the same room just because they’re ‘friends’?”

“….”

Hmm, I’ve gotten a bit more anxious.

“But, still…”

I thought for a moment and continued, “If that’s the case, wouldn’t it be more appropriate for you to go see instead of me?”

Since this body fundamentally belonged to Sara.

“…Eh.”

Sara seemed a little flustered after hearing my words.

Now that I think about it, if I kissed with this body, who would actually be kissing—Sara or me? Would Sara end up losing her first kiss to me?

Well, considering Ha Neul, who distinctly separates us, there’s no reason to think Sara lost her first kiss. I think of it as I had my first kiss with Sara here.

The problem is, when I’m unconscious.

If someone crossed the line while I was out… would that count as something done with Sara, or with me?

Since I was the last to fall asleep, I could say it was with me, but if Sara woke up next, it’d count as her!

…Honestly, I can see why she’d be freaking out over this.

But you know, Sara.

I’m a little scared too.

“What should we do?”

But when she looks at me like that, my resolve weakens.

“…Should I go take a look?”

I’m not sure if I can just wake up because I want to, but I can at least try, right?

But after thinking alone for a moment, Sara shook her head.

“…No, I’d rather trust my friends.”

“Right? That’s a good idea?”

“….”

A moment of silence.

In the end, it seems neither of us was a hundred percent sure.

“Whatever. Let’s stop thinking about that. We’ll know what’s going to happen tomorrow.”

Sara, acting like she couldn’t be bothered to think about it anymore, said that, and then suddenly came towards me and pushed me down.

“But right now we’ve got things to do, right? Since you’ve done that for the others, do it for me too.”

“Uh… Ah, fine! Just give me a moment to prepare my mind…!”

But it seems like, unlike me, Sara was already mentally prepared.

She leaned in and buried her nose into my nape.

…From my point of view, she must have seen everything that Ha Neul had done.

And probably also everything that Sohee and Sua had done.

It seemed she was going to do all of it too.

In the end, I decided to just stop thinking again.

*

“….”

When I woke up in the morning, a few buttons were undone.

One side of my pajamas had slipped down, exposing my shoulder.

But even just sitting up seemed to drain all my energy. I didn’t even have the strength to button up again.

What on earth happened yesterday?

Hehe.

What happened, you ask? What I experienced in my dream must have played out in reality too.

As proof, three faces gleamed at me, having already gotten up to wash and change into their uniforms before me.

“Good morning!”

“Oh, you’re awake.”

“Sara, did you sleep well?”

…Seeing them act so confidently makes me feel slightly annoyed.

Knock, knock.

There was a knock at the door.

“Miss, it’s time for breakfast—”

Yang Hye-in opened the door and then stopped dead in her tracks.

She glanced at me, then at the three girls wearing refreshing expressions before turning back to me.

“Uheh.”

She opened her mouth to say something but all that came out was that sound from my mouth.

…Somehow, I feel like I’ve been in this situation before.

Just a feeling, right?

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