I Don’t Want This Bad Ending

As I was contemplating my counter plan to escape the impending engagement, the sun was now rising, indicating the start of a new day... and a dilemma for me.

I didn't realize that it was morning because of how focused I was on my memories.

Okay! For now, I'll pretend I lost my memories. As far as I know, I got injured when I was playing in the garden where a big tree was and climbed it. It was my secret place whenever I was lonely. Well, suddenly, the tree branch broke, and I fell... headfirst

Sigh... 

I hate making excuses but with my situation, I can't possibly just let it be and If I act strange in front of them, I don't know what they'll think. I mean, I'm mentally 21 years old and if I want to escape my downfall, I need to stop acting spoiled. I can't just tell them that the reason I changed was that I got my memories back from my past life... and the spoiled brat you know was just me being a kid. No one will believe me, I won't believe myself too. Sigh...

I placed my right hand on my head to massage the temple due to the stress that built up and has been aching since yesterday's events.

I was staring into space when a knock came on my door. My maid entered my room and rushed to my side when she saw me.

"Oh, Young Miss Evelyn! You're awake. Should I get you a meal first? Or would you like to take a bath?" A warm smile was plastered on her face and she obviously looked relieved.

'Okay... here goes nothing Adelyn. I need to act right.' I stare at her for a long time before opening my mouth and act as innocently as I can.

"I'm s-sorry b-but... who are you?"

I nervously said the words while I stared at her as I watched her reaction.

"What are you talking about, Lady Evelyn?... I'm your personal maid Sheila"

The lady in front of me who's wearing a maid uniform that you can see in a maid cafes, she introduces herself as my personal maid she had brown colored hair, a small face with freckles, fair skin, a petite lady around 20's with big boobs, and has a face that with a looked of concern and serious gaze directed to me... I think she's trying to figure out what's happening with the young miss of the Emsworth Family that she was serving.

I just blankly stared at her as a reply.

"No way... I'll call the doctor young miss!" Then Sheila ran out at my room with a face that was obviously confused and panicked.

Sigh...

'I've been sighing since I came here... seriously I'm tired but I can't put my guard down. This household neglects me but at the same time, they're monitoring everything I do. I just saw at a glance earlier that there were two guards standing at my front door when Sheila ran out. I need to be careful.' I silently thought.

A few minutes later, the personal maid, Sheila, the doctor, and her assistant are in my room doing a checkup...

The doctor was walking towards my bed, wearing a white robe which resembles a doctor's uniform back home, and his white beard and hair, a sign of his age and wisdom. He was accompanied by his assistant, he has green hair, blue eyes, tall stature, around the age of 17, and is obviously handsome and is on his tail as they move towards the Young Lady.

'Wow!... I wonder what's his name.' I thought as I never saw a handsome face around me back on earth. I was single all my life, okay?!

"The Young Lady has suffered a concussion because of the accident, and she's been asleep for two weeks now..." The doctor said, as he gave out his findings.

'So that is why this body becomes so weak, she's been asleep for half a month...' I was in deep thought when I heard the doctor continue his diagnosis.

"It's a side effect of her fall, the Young Lady suffered from the shock and resulted in her losing her memories..." He continued.

"Can we do something... for the Young miss to remember her memory? Doctor Lloyd? Like re-enacting or maybe telling her stories of herself?... or maybe..." The maid was cut off by the doctor before she finished her statement.

'So, his name is Lloyd. Wait... Doctor Lloyd Von Harise? The imperial doctor? What's he doing here? Why does someone important check on me?' As I was like in a jetlag, I was confused and my thoughts were cut when the doctor was still explaining the best course of action.

"We shouldn't stress the young lady, instead of helping, it can have a reverse result and permanently losing her memories... let the young lady rest, her memories will eventually come to her, hopefully," Doctor Lloyd said.

"I'll give her some prescription to heal the wound around her head," He added.

I give the doctor a nod, indicating my thanks after the doctor and his assistant left my room, I went and had my bath and my breakfast.

"Young miss... you should rest first. Call me if you need anything... I'll come back before lunch... Just rest, okay?!" The maid, Sheila said while her face has a hint of worries.

'I'm not a kid but… whatever.' I inwardly thought.

"Mmn." I just gave her a small reply.

Sheila went out and I searched the whole room to find my diary...

"I think I hid it here... yes!"

I found my pink diary in the third drawer. 'Ughh... it's pink again... I really need to do something about this room!"

***

I sat down and started to read my diary...

Calendar 18 of month X, Year 228c

"I'm going to have dinner with my father and brother later. I'm so excited, it's been a while since I saw them and had dinner with them..."

Calendar 19 of month X, Year 228c

"The dinner was filled with silence; they didn't even look at me. My brother just glanced at me with his cold eyes and my father just ate without looking at me... what did I do wrong? No, no... next time, I'll be the one to start the conversation. Maybe, they just don't know how-to, it's been a long time since they saw me so maybe they're shy... hehe"

Calendar 30 of month X, 228c

"I saw my brother having his tea in the garden, I asked if I could join him, but he just stared at me then he walked away. I wonder if he's still shy."

Calendar 2 of month Y, year 228c

"My father called me to his office, I was so happy because he never does that on a normal occasion. I wonder what we will talk about"

Calendar 3 of month Y, year 228c

"I was reprimanded by my father about the tea party that I attended. It was not my fault, to begin with, that girl insulted me, so I just talked back and after that, she just started to cry...

Father, he didn't listen to my reason and now I'm banned from attending tea parties for a month.

I hate this!"

***

As I read my old diary, I felt sad. "So, in this world, I'm still hoping huh?"

A realization started to form, and the acceptance of how my family treats me makes my cherry lips go upward.

I sarcastically smiled, I never noticed the despise look on my brother, the cold face of my father when they looked at me.

I know now how naive and stupid I was back then. I was trying so hard to form a bond with my family but all that's returned are full of disgust and resentment from them and I didn't even notice it.

Thank God! That the memories from my past life came to me and because of this I learned my lessons and knows that stupidly waiting for this family to accept me will never happen. I know it! Because that's what I did in my past life, but not this time.

I have more problems now, to begin with, I have to start devising my plan to escape this hellhole arranged marriage with the crown prince to avoid getting my head chopped off.

I grabbed a quill or I don't know this? Their pen? Anyway I dipped it in the ink to start writing what I know from the story, the characters and their personality.

There's a five-male lead in the story and one heroine. The female lead of the novel, A happy ending, is Lady Elise Letisha von Acker, a baron's daughter, age 13 right now, the same age as me.

She has pink hair, innocent blue eyes, small pink lips, and her cheeks that have a tint of pink blush making her look cute when she smiles and a small figure that makes you want to protect her from the scheming world of the nobles.

She was bullied by "me", or I should say the villainess of the story, Lady Evelyn.

Because of jealousy and envy, she eventually started to bully her at the academy with the followers Evelyn gathered and when there was an opportunity, making the five male leads protect Lady Elise, and that's when Evelyn started her own downfall leading her to be executed by the public by a guillotine.

I shiver at the destiny that awaits me.

The first ML is my future fiance, the crown prince of this kingdom, Edickart Adalbern Baldwin Von Langton.

He became my fiancé in the story when I was 14 and him 15. His looks are dashing, he has blond hair and green eyes that are a sign for nobility indicating that he has royal blood.

His domineering aura that evokes dominance every time he speaks to his subordinates that can send shivers down the spine.

He is a calculating, schemer, deceiver but at the same time wise that he becomes the crown prince at the age of 5 because of how he manipulated to show off his talents, impressing the king and the congress.

When he smiles, a fake smile rather, a flower blooms in the background, emphasizing his angelic face.

Evelyn falls in love with him at their first meeting, sadly, the crown prince just sees her as one of those typical noble girls who flaunt and cling to him because of his face and his statues.

So when the Female lead met her, he was amused at how innocent and nice she is that he started to watch her and eventually fell in love with her.

And that's when my demise starts.

"Tsk. Can't he just exile me, that crazy crown prince?! Why punish me with a guillotine?! I would be thankful If I can leave this sh*t country"

"I need to tell my father that I don't want to be engaged but... will he listen to my plea?" I Sighed...

I pick my quill again and start to write the other male leads of the story.

The 2nd male lead is the Young Master of The Emsworth household and my big brother, Allan Augustus von Emsworth.

He hates her sister or rather me because he believed that his mother or our mother died because of Evelyn, which I don't know why because the story didn't really tackle why mother died.

And I also don't have my memories of when or how it happens. So, I don't have a clue.

Allan has a cold domineering and prideful attitude like his father, with silver-blue hair, a piercing sunset eyes that shows a coldness with a hint of loneliness. He met the heroine at the academy.

They become acquainted when he finds out that his idiot sister bullied the barons' daughter, he eventually protects the Young Lady from his sister, and he falls in love with how forgiving the heroine is, despite his sister harassing her.

Elise defended Evelyn and always said that it was her fault to begin with, making Allan hate his sister more which led to agreeing to punish his sister.

"A big moron! It's not like Evelyn poisoned that girl! I mean… Yes she bullied her but the execution was totally unnecessary for, the heavy punishment to chop a head off! I know that he hates me, but how can he agree to punish his own sister with a public execution?!" Evelyn was so frustrated with her own brother.

"I know that Evelyn bullied her, but it's not her fault to begin with. The heroine covets her fiancé, who wouldn't get angry with that?!" "Tsk." I clicked my tongue as my frustration arose with every minute that I remember how stupid and irrational are the characters in the story. Then I continued.

'Next is the 2nd prince, the younger brother of crown prince Edickart. His name is Adley Athelstan Clyde von Langton, his mother is the queen of the kingdom.

The siblings both hate each other, and he also hates me because of the engagement, the duke will stabilize and support the crown prince seat making the 2nd prince situation hard to compete for the throne.'

"Wow! I never did anything to him, but he hates me already because of that damn engagement. Welp! I don't even like it either! Then he hated me more when I started to harass the heroine... like I would do that! That's the old Evelyn in the story, not me."

There's also the Young Heir Cabel Trimitry von Sigrid, he's cool, mischievous, and flirty. He has a manly stature, silver hair, red eyes, a rigged body that every woman would admire.

No wonder, he's popular, with his handsomeness, his hot physique and adds to it his status, a list of girls would want him. But when he met the heroine, he started to change and focus only on her. And was so angry at me, for bullying the weak Lady Elise!

"Wh*t a sh*t damsel in distress! But truthfully, she's just a walking troublemaker!"

The last fish is, Prince Silvester Aud Ramond Von de Sirille, the prince of the neighboring kingdom.

He's in the St. Prisch Academy as an exchange student, where he met Lady Elise. I don't really know if he did fall in love with the heroine because before my execution he wasn't there, and I think he goes back to his country because of the conflict for the throne.

But he also hates me nonetheless, for the same reason of course, plus he hates a person whose self-centered, selfish, cannot accept their mistake— which Evelyn had it all. I guess that's enough reason to hate me.

"I'll try to not get engaged with the crown prince, but if that didn't work out. Then, I'll avoid the heroine at the academy as well as the other fishes. I'll stay low so that no one notices me... yup! Right now, this is only the solution that I can come up with. Hopefully, I'll avoid my death."

***

After writing down the Male Leads and Heroine's characters, the door burst open, and my maid Sheila can be seen, panting.

"Can you at least knock?! Even if you're my maid, you should still knock!" I said to her with an irritated look while my hands abruptly closed the diary.

"I'm sorry Young Miss, but the duke wants you to see him in his office... that's why I went straight here. I'm sorry young miss."

"What?" I stood up, my face was shocked and scared.

'Why does he want to see me? He didn't even visit me when I was on the brink of death and now, he wants to see me?'

"Sheila, help me prepare. We don't want Father to wait" I said with a hurried voice.

"Yes, Young Miss..."

As Sheila was helping me, I was in deep thought.

'How am I supposed to face him. I didn't even have a plan on how to handle the duke.'

After Sheila was done dressing me in a more constricted dress, we went straight to the Dukes' office. I didn't even prepare myself and now I'm in front of the door. I held myself up and took a deep breath.

'Inhale... Exhale...'

*knock... knock

"The Young Lady is here, my lord..." said the head butler.

"Come in..."

'Adelyn, wait...no! I'm now the Young Lady of Emsworth. Now, Evelyn takes a deep breath.'

'Inhale... Exhale...'

As I step inside his office... My palms started sweating.

I bowed and...

"You called father?"