I Became a Villainous Character with a Limited Lifespan

Episode 39

“I didn’t remember most of it from the part where I met you.”

“Hmm.”

“Why are you suddenly being like this? It’s not like you didn’t know. You directly told me what happened that day.”

Ah, that’s right. Jae-young nodded dumbly. He slowly and in detail told Seung-hyun, who couldn’t remember what had happened, about what occurred that day.

“But you remembered at least what we did.”

“That’s… I only remember to the extent of what happened.”

Seung-hyun tried to recall the memory of that day that was now as faint as a dream, but the memory that wasn’t clear from the beginning was now completely blurred.

When he first found out that he had died and that he would be living someone else’s life. Half excitement, and half with a feeling of come what may, he had thought he wanted to try it even just once with anyone.

‘I went there so solemnly, but I don’t even remember what kind of night I spent, and come to think of it, I was so surprised that day that I lived without even thinking about sex or anything afterward.’

In fact, since he didn’t remember it properly, it felt like he hadn’t done it yet, but still, perhaps because he had tried it once, he had no lingering feelings.

“Well, it wasn’t that great anyway…”

“Aha.”

It was something he said because he didn’t remember, thinking it must not have been a big deal, but apparently that remark rubbed Jae-young the wrong way. Seung-hyun glanced at his oddly furrowed brows.

It wasn’t intentional, but somehow it felt like he had won. Seung-hyun shrugged his shoulders and got up from his seat.

“Thanks to you, I ate well. It’s not bad.”

“You said you don’t even remember, so how do you remember if it was great or not?”

He tried to slip away, but it was no use. Jae-young stared at Seung-hyun persistently and said,

“As I remember it, it doesn’t seem like it wasn’t.”

“Well… No matter how drunk I was, if it was an intense memory, I would remember it accurately, but seeing that even what I remembered is now hazy, I guess it wasn’t an important memory.”

Seung-hyun thought, how often would I get to tease this man? And said,

“You said it was your first time too, so how do you know if it was good or not? Acting so competent.”

“Even if there’s no point of comparison, you can tell by how the other person reacts. People who usually dislike it don’t make that face and beg.”

If it had been light like a joke, he would have hit his back once, asking what nonsense he was saying, but at the answer that was even serious, Seung-hyun froze on the spot. He was moving his lips, unable to answer easily with a flushed face.

“What kind of thing to say…”

Jae-young, who had been blankly staring at Seung-hyun, who was flustered with a red face even though he hadn’t said it in much detail, had his playful side tinged with competitiveness activated.

He had been a bit careful, worried that he might get kicked out if he acted up, but now his pride was hurt.

‘He clearly liked it too, so it’s a bit unfair that I’m the only one remembering.’

“Well. I guess people who dislike it don’t get intoxicated by another alpha’s pheromones, twitching their waist and turning their eyes red while being held…”

Seung-hyun, who couldn’t stand it anymore, abruptly got up from his seat and covered Jae-young’s mouth. His face that was red to the tips of his ears showed how little immunity Seung-hyun had to this situation.

But Jae-young was still more displeased that he was the only one remembering that night rather than liking that appearance. Jae-young recalled that night that came to mind as clearly as yesterday.

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“Why? Didn’t you say you would show me?”

“No, when did I say that?”

Bringing the drunk Seung-hyun to his house was a bit of an impulsive action. It was true that he had become interested in this man who was different from what he knew and expected, but coming home, he felt skeptical about whether he should really do this.

“Then why did you bring me here?”

I didn’t know he would have this personality, no. He must be more like this because he’s drunk. Jae-young sighed, looking down at Seung-hyun who had a sulky face as if he was upset.

“Do you regret it?”

“Life is about not knowing what will happen even tomorrow, so today you have to do what you want.”

For a heavily drunk person, his eyes were clear. Jae-young asked once more to confirm.

“You won’t wake up and get angry that it was a relationship not agreed upon, that you don’t remember, right?”

“Stop talking and…”

Seung-hyun’s pheromones leaked out a bit more. Pheromones between alphas usually showed intimidation to the other person and gave an irritating feeling.

But it was too insignificant of a pheromone to be irritating. He didn’t know how Seung-hyun would feel when he released his pheromones, but at least that’s how it was for Jae-young.

“I went to a place where I wanted to have sex in the first place, so I won’t think ‘why did I do that’ when I sober up.”

The straightforward words that didn’t match the neat face made Jae-young, who hadn’t even touched alcohol, feel more dizzy. Yeah, when his intention seems this firm.

“Do you have experience?”

“Do you?”

“Not ‘you’, Ju Jae-young. Why do you, a smart person, call someone else’s name like that?”

“Do you, Ju Jae-young?”

Jae-young didn’t answer and took off his top. Seung-hyun had such a workaholic image and had lived busily, so it would suit him more to not have experience, but it wasn’t like that for himself.

If he asked why he had no experience at that age, he could just not answer… but in his mind, he would have to recall his long-time first love.

“Does it matter?” 

“Not that… but still, wouldn’t the one with experience be better…”

It was Seung-hyun mumbling, but he was definitely saying what he wanted to say. Jae-young, who had been looking at him with a reluctant gaze, tried to release his pheromones but stopped.

If it was a relationship with an omega, pheromones would be helpful, but now it could have the opposite effect. So now he had to focus on something other than pheromones.

Seung-hyun, who had been looking at Jae-young’s naked body for a moment, began to take off his own clothes, grunting. At first, it seemed like he would fumble a bit, but soon he took off his top and threw it, and even took off his pants without hesitation. The surprised Jae-young watched that sight for a moment with only his top off.

His body was so pale, it was questionable whether he had been in the sun. It wasn’t extremely skinny, but it was a body with a slender frame and no noticeable muscles.

“…What are you doing?”

Seung-hyun, who had already taken off his underwear halfway, looked at Jae-young. His gaze was blatantly directed at his crotch.

He didn’t say anything in particular, but at the face that seemed to say ‘Are you not confident?’, Jae-young, whose pride was hurt, finished taking off his clothes, leaving behind his hesitation. The moment the object he was curious about was revealed, Seung-hyun unconsciously swallowed his saliva.

Seung-hyun, who had realized quite early that he was gay, had tried not to pay attention to other people’s bodies out of guilt, even in the bathroom or sometimes when sharing the bathroom.

But since he was a man too, and the people around him were all men, he naturally knew things like the average size of genitals.

And Jae-young’s thing, still hidden in his underwear, was clearly non-standard, enough to be certain just from the outline.

He knew how men had sex with each other, but could something that big really go inside a person’s body?

“Why? Not confident?” 

This time, it was Jae-young provoking Seung-hyun. Seung-hyun, who flinched, crawled on his knees and approached Jae-young.

“No way. What’s the big deal?”

It was true that he got a bit scared, but well, would he die from having sex? Even if he died, it would just be moving up something that was scheduled to happen anyway.

The smell of the orange juice he had last lingered faintly on Seung-hyun. The rough breathing could be heard loudly from the face that had come close.

“Do you really not regret it?”

“Why? Are you going to regret it when it’s over, Ju Jae-young?”

“That’s not what I mean, it doesn’t matter how I live… but it’s not like that for you, Han Seung-hyun.”

It was Jae-young who was reminded of reality once again as the relationship approached right in front of him. The possibility with Seon-hu was over now, and the man in front of him was definitely interesting.

But was it right to have this kind of relationship that could cause an unknown butterfly effect just based on one interest?

Now was the only time to pull out. Seung-hyun, who had been looking at Jae-young with a dissatisfied face as he hadn’t finished contemplating, got a little closer to him.

“…!”

Seung-hyun’s lips covered Jae-young’s slightly parted lips. A tongue with a subtle taste, mixed with the smell of alcohol and orange juice, dug through the gap and entered his mouth.

It was a kiss that clearly felt clumsy despite it being the first for both of them. However, Jae-young left Seung-hyun as he was, who looked like he would fly to the edge of the bed if he just slightly pushed him.

“Now it’s enough. I won’t regret it, so if you have time to ask that, hurry up and do it.”

Perhaps out of surprise or not disliking it, after a kiss that was neither very long nor short, the hesitation had definitely flown away.