NOVEL NEXT Chapter 97: Please believe me once
"Si An..." Ki Mi Ran's breathless whisper is loud in my ear. "Faster... please."
I hear him groan before he fulfills his demands. I pour the wine in the glass. I need to drink.
My senses are stronger because of the time crystal. My hearing and smelling power are also stronger. But, I don't know why I still don't have much physical power. If I had, I would like to tear the wall and kill them both. That would probably end wrongly for me. My family would also suffer.
He doesn't remember. He doesn't know. Whatever supernatural connection we had, it's gone with the timekeeper. So, it's not his fault that he can't recognize me. He will probably never remember me.
I am desperate. Li Jun remembered his other life before he died. That is the reason behind the tiny hope in my chest. I want him to remember me even if it is impossible. We have promised each other so many times. I can't... I don't know what will happen in the future. It's making me crazy.
Hearing those sounds is torturous.
The wine bottle is finished. I pick another one from the refrigerator. I want my brain to become numb. I can't endure this with a sane mind. I don't know how not to hate him for this. I don't know how to leave either.
He doesn't know. He doesn't know. He doesn't know.
I keep telling myself until I fell asleep.
The doorbell wakes me up in the morning. I grunt because of the sharp pain in my head. The hangover. The person doesn't stop ringing the doorbell. It's too loud. I force myself to get out of the bed and open the door.
"Ki Mi Ran." The first person I see in the morning is her. I don't know how my day will go now. "Why are you here?"
"Junior Kwon, Kang Si An already left for the suit. I was curious why haven't you left." She smiles gently at me and steps inside like she owns the place. Her voice is full of concerned when she notices my face. "You don't look too good. How much did drink last night? It's not good for your skin."
"Stop pretending," I tell her bitterly. "I already know what kind of person you are."
She frowns. "According to you, what kind of person I am?"
"The kind of person who would drug someone else's drink to ruin that person reputation." I have looked into her in my free time. She has used similar tricks to remove her competition. However, nobody, including the victim, would ever doubt her because of her false personality. "So, stop being friendly to me. I already know how two-faced you are."
"How do you know?" She bites her lips in anger and fists her hands. To show up like this at my door just after meeting me last night, she must be quite possessive of Kang Si An. I don't know whether she loves him or not.
"Does it matter how I know?" I cock my head.
Her perfect face contorts into an ugly form. I wonder how the nation would react if they see her right now. She scrutinizes my face before she pulls her hair to the side, revealing the hickeys on her pale neck.
"Did you cry?" She laughs. "Don't tell me that you could hear us from your apartment?"
"Leave him." I cross my arm. "I can't leave that man in the care of a woman like you."
I have a bitter taste in my mouth. I can't believe that I am playing the role of a woman who is asking the girlfriend to break up. I feel dirty.
My phone is ringing. Ki Mi Ran says nothing and leaves. I don't think that she's that obedient. I take the call. I am late for the shoot. I get ready in 5 minutes and leave. When I reach there, I don't see Kang Si An. A staff informs me that the shoot is canceled. Kang Si An left because of personal reasons.
I am worried. Is he okay? I hail a taxi and come back to the apartment. He's not at his apartment. Feeling like something is going wrong, I call his number. I can still remember it from my memories. His manager picks it up and tells me that Kang Si An is okay.
I don't feel good. I don't know why. The ugly thoughts aren't going away. I dislike the person that I am becoming. I drink another bottle of wine to numb my brain. Will he ever remember me? It hasn't been two days and I am already tired.
I don't know how much I drank. I end up sleeping on the floor. The sound of doorbell wakes me up again. Unsteady on my feet, I manage to go to the door and open it. It's Kang Si An.
"You are here." I burst into tears and take his hand. "Leave her. Be with me. She's not the right person for you. I am the right person. Look at me carefully. Remember me."
He pushes me away and closes the door behind him. His eyes are cold. So cold. I feel it piercing my heart.
"I thought that I was wrong." His voice is dripping with a deep hatred. "I thought that you were not that kind of person."
What is he saying? I can't understand. Am I too drunk to comprehend?
"Why did you do that to Ki Mi Ran?" He grasps my hair hard. "Why?"
The pain clears my head a bit. "I didn't do anything to her."
"You didn't?" He slaps my face. "She is in hospital. We lost our child. I saw the CCTV with my own eyes."
CCTV? My lips are torn. A few drops of blood fall on the white floor. "What are you talking about? Speak what I can understand."
"You don't understand?" He raises his hand to slap me again, but I catch his wrist. He hits me with his other hand and pushes me on the floor. I try to get out of his grip. He's stronger and faster than me. I don't want to fight him, but I am not taking this treatment either.
"Ki Mi Ran wanted to befriend you. She came to see you and you insulted her. You asked her to leave me. You even beat her up when she told you that she couldn't leave me. She told you to stop beating her because she was pregnant." His hot tears descend on me one by one. "I didn't want to believe this. I don't know why I didn't want to believe that a woman like you would be this cruel to someone else. I checked the CCTV and saw Ki Mi Ran leaving your apartment while crying and holding her stomach. She went to the hospital alone. She didn't call me because of you. How could you do this to her?"
I can't believe what he's saying. Who is this person? Does he really have Li Jun's soul? None of Li Jun's reincarnation ever hit me like this. They have never physically hurt me like this. They never talked to me like this. "Kang Si An, I didn't do it. She's lying."
"She's lying and you are not?" He spats. "I know women like you. Obsessive women like you would go to any extent. They don't know morality or humanity. What did my child do to you? Why can't he come to the world? Because of you, Ki Mi Ran is hurt both physically and psychologically. My child is gone."
"Kang Si An, please believe me," I beg him. "I didn't do it. I would never do this to another human being. I did tell her to leave you, but I never raised a hand on her. I didn't kick her. I didn't even know that she was pregnant."
He laughs at me, but his tears haven't stopped. I feel like crying. I didn't know that she was pregnant. I only thought that she was his girlfriend. There was a chance of pregnancy because it happened to me in the original timeline, but Ki Mi Ran was different. I was hoping that she wasn't pregnant like I was. If it was like this, I could still bring him to my side. If there wasn't a child involved, I could break up their relationship before they got married.
I realize how ugly that thought was. I have really reached the lowest moment of my life.
"She won't hold charges against you." I hear him say. "She's that kind. She has already forgiven a
disgusting creature like you. But, I can't forgive you."
"Kang Si An, I didn't do it," I whisper in a low voice. "I swear, I didn't do anything to her. Please believe me once."
"You want me, right?" His expression turns sinister. I don't recognize his man anymore. I feel the same fear that I felt when I saw myself being killed by this man once. "I will grant your wish."
"No, don't do it," I scream when he tears my clothes. "Kang Si An, I didn't do it. You will regret this moment in the future. Please stop now. Please."