Chapter 545
As a node of the Silk Road, Dunhuang, in the past, the desert fortress that people remembered has already reappeared green due to the government’s efforts to improve, and the vegetation coverage has reached 70%. If you don’t know the destination of travel, It’s hard to imagine that the sky was filled with yellow sand, and it refused the easy prying of travellers.
However, there are still a few ancient ruins in the desert that have not been rectified and preserved the ancient historical features, such as the Dunhuang Mingsha Mountain where Chen Dongsheng lived at this time.
This is a deserted village in the desert. It is quite far away from the scenic spot. The residents in the village basically migrated out. Only a few old people who can’t give up their homeland are willing to accompany the village that is gradually gnawed by fine sand to perish.
At seven o’clock in the morning, the wind blew up in the desert, and the fine sand lightly patted the decaying door panel, awakening Chen Dongsheng who was still in deep sleep, trying to drag his tired body to sit up, but after struggling a few times, he felt the rapid loss of physical strength. , He finally gave up the idea of getting up, lying on the bed, gasping for breath.
Among the four students, his living environment is the most difficult. If it’s just a simple life of poverty, it’s okay to say that the most painful thing is the long-term low-grade fever and diarrhea caused by the inadequacy of the water and soil. It started from the second day after coming here. To this day, I still haven’t recovered. Forget it, I’m afraid it’s been nearly a month.
It doesn’t matter what medicine to take or what bottle to take, as long as he takes a sip of water here, he will have diarrhea, even if he has been taken from the bottle, his condition rarely improves.
At this time, his face was sallow, his lips were chapped, and his eyes were no longer vigorous. He looked at the ceiling hollowly, his hair had been trembled, and he could not catch a few lice in it.
His stomach began to gurgle again. He held on, gently rolled over and got out of bed, pulled some rough straw paper, carefully picked out the grass stems in the paper, and staggered towards the dry toilet. It took a long time before he came out of the toilet. With his legs spread apart, he walked back to the room with eight-character steps. Everyone could see this final wheel. His chrysanthemum suffered a lot.
Soon, the middle-aged female PD who followed Chen Dongsheng to Dunhuang pushed the door and walked in. The smell in the room was not very good, and the dust was obvious in the sun. She frowned slightly and walked motionless as if she was dead. Chen Dongsheng put his warm palm on his forehead and felt it carefully.
“I didn’t burn much today. Did you still have a bad stomach?”
“It’s kind of.”
“Take some medicine, the mineral water I brought, have you eaten in the morning?”
“There is no food at home.”
Helped Chen Dongsheng to get up and let him lean on On the wall beside the bed, she leaned to the window to look at the instructions of the medicines with the help of sunlight, turned her back to Chen Dongsheng and asked about life trivial matters, squeezed out three pills on his palm, and PD walked to the grain tank and opened it to take a look. , Sure enough, the food has bottomed out. This is because Chen Dongsheng is saving and having a fever and can’t eat. Otherwise, the food prepared by the film crew should have been eaten up a week ago.
“I’ll take you to the county to buy some food, and eat some nutritious tonic for the body. I told Teacher Lu yesterday and he approved me a note.”
Looking at the lack of energy, he sips a little bit of mineral water. Chen Dongsheng, she was a little unbearable, Chen Dongsheng was originally a little thin, and now she was tortured with the skinny side. She didn’t think that Chen Dongsheng would give up shooting, so as to avoid any problems with her body, the program team and her share the responsibility. Not to mention, she really didn’t want to ruin the body of this talented young man on this show.
Originally, she had communicated with Lu Ze. If he still had a fever in the next few days and the local hospital couldn’t solve it, let him come back. Otherwise, it would be troublesome if some root causes were left. Lu Ze didn’t want to happen.
But this kid is still a bit stubborn, and he has to hold on here. No matter who persuades him, it’s no use. Repeatedly stressing that he can overcome all the problems and complete the homework assigned by Lu Ze. This kind of non-entertainment really makes the show. The crew had a headache, but the middle-aged group of film crews admired the young man’s perseverance.
Hearing that PD would take him to the county, Chen Dongsheng hesitated and didn’t really want to go. He could clearly perceive how heavy his body was. Forcing his body to move is very difficult for him now. , But this is another thing that you must do when you experience life here. In the end, he gritted his teeth and stood up on the head of the bed. His head was a little dizzy. He didn’t dare to shake his head to make his brain awake, so he could only close his eyes and wait. The dizziness passed.
Taking advantage of Chen Dongsheng’s effort to get up and put on his coat, PD is also helping him to gather the items on the table. The square font is covered with manuscript paper. Her gaze swept across. There is no smearing of typos in the book. This is already the first time he has written here. Four biographies have been published, thinking about him under the camera, dragging a sick body to write a book, I can’t help but sigh again for his perseverance and hard work.
In a short time, the two of them went out and drove by PD to the county. The bumps all the way made Chen Dongsheng’s face whiter and whiter. At the same time, he began to sweat and swallowed saliva constantly. The PD who was driving intently did not notice his abnormality at first, but thought He closed his eyes to rest, and turned off the radio to make him have a quieter rest, but gradually, PD found that his gasps were getting heavier and he couldn’t help worrying.
“It’s uncomfortable? Do you want to vomit?”
Chen Dongsheng didn’t dare to open his eyes, his hands clenched to death, he squeezed out the words from the roots of his teeth and replied: “It’s okay.”
“Don’t be okay, tell me if you want to vomit.”
” Yes … Kind of.” At the
moment of parking, Chen Dongsheng opened the door and jumped out, supporting the trees on the side of the road and vomiting constantly. PD handed over a bottle of water and waited patiently until he re-searched his empty stomach. After he was completely out of food. , This feeling of nausea slowly faded, leaving only the weaker and weaker Chen Dongsheng being helped back into the car by the PD.
The vehicle continued to drive and finally arrived at the county seat, but it was intermittently driving along the way. From time to time, something went wrong. PD knew that he could not drag on any longer. Taking advantage of the effort of bringing Chen Dongsheng to breakfast, he quietly called Lu Ze and informed him. At the moment Chen Dongsheng’s situation, Lu Ze also has no objection to this, but the last time he persuaded Chen Dongsheng to give up, he failed. This time the PD had to notify his parents again, hoping that he would listen to their parents.
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“Dongsheng, answer the phone, your mother is calling.”
He was drinking soup. Hearing PD’s words, his hand holding the spoon trembled, turned his head and stared at PD’s eyes for a few seconds, and slowly moved the spoon. Put it next to the bowl and didn’t respond, just put it to the ear after answering the phone.
“Hey.”
“Son, why are you uncomfortable?”
“It’s not uncomfortable anywhere.”
“I heard the teacher from the program group say that you have been ill for a long time. If it doesn’t work, you should come back. Your health is important. I want to listen to you. I just miss you.”
“I’m fine.”
“You are obedient. , pay close attention to home, the teacher told me that the program set up, you go back now is not out of you, so you can still keep a good disease to audition, you listen to me, now back to pack up and go back …… “
” beep …”
Before his mother could say anything more, he hung up the phone and returned the phone to PD. However, PD did not answer and saw that she did not take it. Chen Dongsheng put the phone on the table and drank the clear soup without raising his head. , It’s just that the action of drinking soup is much faster.
“What did your mother say? You can go home with me to pack things after you drink it.”
“I’m fine . I’ll get used to it in two days. The five-week experience cycle will be here soon, and now I don’t want to leave.”
“You also say The days are coming, so let’s do it a few days in advance.”
“No.” The
call came again, with soft piano music playing, neither of them went to the phone for the first time, looked at each other and looked at each other. At the familiar phone number, Chen Dongsheng finally took action, but did not answer, and hung up.
Within thirty seconds, the phone came again, he hung up, then rang again, and he hung up again. In the next few minutes, Chen Dongsheng hung up several calls. Even though PD was dissuaded from the side, his action of hanging up the phone became more and more serious. Resolutely.
The call came again, and he wanted to hang up again, but he was blocked by PD, grabbed the phone, and didn’t speak after connecting. He just held it in his own hand and held it in front of Chen Dongsheng, but what she heard was not what she heard. The envisioned mother was comforted, but she could clearly hear her anger without turning on the speakerphone.
“I’ll let you come back! Give me back now! You don’t want to participate in the show anymore! Chen Dongsheng, I’m talking to you, can you hear me! I’m talking to you! Don’t go to college even if you do this! Book! Who taught you to hang up my phone? Go home! Did you hear? Go home!!”
The last shout to go home was hoarse, as if anger burned from the heart to the throat. The uncontrollable anger obviously made Mother Chen out of control. The swear words used in the past when he lost his temper were also scolded out of his head, without any scruples. Her child is being photographed.
“You are the one who asked me to sign the contract, and now you are also the one who asked me to go home. Why?”
“I am your mother! Isn’t it enough? Go home!!”
Chen Dongsheng didn’t say a word, just glanced around, in the restaurant Many people were curiously watching him being filmed. Now that they were caught in a quarrel, more people couldn’t help but slow down and look curiously. The next second, PD got up and walked out the door, carrying Chen Dongsheng on his back and starting to talk with Chen’s mother.
After a long time, PD returned to the seat, but her face was not very good. She glanced at Chen Dongsheng’s bowl, the soup had already bottomed out, she resisted her emotions and smiled at Chen Dongsheng: “Are you full? Come again. A bowl?”
“She’s going crazy with you, right.”
Chen Dongsheng sank his head and did not answer PD. Instead, he asked his question. In fact, he already knew the answer in his heart.
“It’s okay, I’ll give you something.”
“She has always been like this . She never controls her emotions. Once she gets angry,
she scolds whoever she sees, even outsiders.” “Your mother is just anxious. , But it’s also for your own good. Your physical condition is indeed too bad. This time you will listen to your mother. Go back and pack your things later. I will send you home.”
“She always does something that makes me feel embarrassed .” thing, this is for me, okay? she called me does not matter, I’m used to it, but she always even my friends are cursing, then everyone away from me, so I like it? “
he It seems that he has hidden a lot of thoughts. The things that made him embarrassed or even become knots were caused by his mother, but many elders, including PD at this time, said that his mother was very used to him, which made him very confused. , I still don’t understand where his mother is used to her.
He has a strong and irritable and reckless mother, which leads to the coexistence of his cowardice and rebellious consciousness. The two are constantly intertwined. In the end, the cowardice will win with the help of filial piety and defeat his instinctive spirit of resistance.
Every time he experiences this kind of involuntary pain, his spirit and self-esteem will be tortured. Just like his father who always emphasizes that men must have backbone but is always silent and scolded, he will be blinded for life by this woman who is always full of swear words. Shadows.
In the end, he chose to accept, and he began to flee again mentally. He even wanted to escape PD’s side as soon as possible, because his mother lost her temper at this aunt who had been taking good care of herself when she was in a frenzy. The feeling of faceless facing others is not his first experience, but no matter how many times he experiences it, he will feel shame of facelessness, and it will become more and more intense.
He didn’t eat another bite of food, but got into the car on the way back with a low expression. There was no more words along the way. Perhaps this bowl of soup had an effect, or perhaps the medicine he had just taken was so good that he went back. He didn’t vomit on the road until he returned to the room alone and gathered up all his little luggage.
The four biographies of characters were grasped by hands, the pages were flowing, and the text was neat and beautiful. He stared at the manuscript in silence for a while, and finally, he put all his efforts during this period into a woven bag.
When he went out again, the young heroic spirit who appeared in the imperial capital under Lu Ze’s hands was like bacteria, and was killed by the sun.
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“The boarding of flight XX123 to Tianfu is about to start. Passengers who take flight XX123 should go to boarding gate 6.”
This time we were in a hurry, the program team had to deal with the scene, so only one camera was sent. The teacher went back with him. Chen Dongsheng was in poor health. Brother cameraman helped him carry his bag, and the confiscated mobile phone returned to his hand. Chen Dongsheng was wearing earphones, sitting in the window seat, and visiting the busy ground staff.
Fifteen minutes to take off, the time for a few songs is comparable to other passengers in a hurry. At this time, Chen Dongsheng hopes that the time will go slower, or even stop here forever.
But suddenly, the music stopped, the screen turned on, and after a glance at the caller, he answered the call.
“Mr. Lu.”
” Have you boarded the plane?”
“Hmm.”
“It’s not late, it’s fine, how are you?”
“Me?”
“Yes, I heard Gao PD talk about this morning, and I called Come here, I just hope you don’t feel low, you just experience life for a few days less, it’s no big deal, people’s time is limited, you can’t take a script and find a suitable place to find inspiration for a year and a half. The most important thing is what you can experience in a limited time. The so-called experience life requires quality, not time. Your personality is more sensitive. I believe your feelings will be stronger than the other three students. , I heard Gao PD say that you have written four short biographies, and send them to me by courier when you go home. As for you, take a good rest when you get home, keep your spirits up, and try some mirrors
if you are physically broken.” “I know the teacher. .”
“In addition, I want to talk to you about your mother. I don’t want to excuse her. Today, your mother did not do the right thing. But you also have to know that human thinking is limited, and all extreme personalities have limitations. It is caused by the stress response after being hurt. If you understand your mother’s life, you will actually find that the irritable mother in your eyes is actually a victim of life. Although her stress response will also bring It hurts you, but you have to believe that she is definitely not intentional, just like the person who brought her trauma can hardly realize what kind of harm he has brought to others, and her desire to control must come from treating you Absolute love. These words of mine are not just for your mother. I just hope you can understand. When you understand the reason for a person’s emotional change, you can prevent his emotional change in advance. Your mother is getting older, and I am afraid that you will change it. Nothing, but you can help her. You are her son. She needs you to save her. Her inner wounds can only be healed by you. No one else can. Why is she so impatient? It’s nothing more than life. Too many grievances hurt her self-esteem, just like when she hurts you, you will also have that kind of powerless anger, eager to find other people to vent, I hope you can understand what I am saying, and you must stand out. You and your mother are holding this breath, come on, I’ll be waiting for you in the Imperial Capital.”
Lu Ze hung up the phone, leaving Chen Dongsheng who hadn’t recovered, his thinking gradually returned to himself, and his vision was restored. The ground crew did not know when they left, and they were nowhere to be seen. The flight attendant reminded him to turn on the flight mode.
Perhaps big data eavesdropped on the conversation between him and Lu Ze, or it may be a coincidence that the song in the earphone was broadcast to the end just before the flight mode was turned on, and the next song that was loaded was a song about mother.
The plane began to accelerate and flew to the sky. He watched as the desert that he could look out from standing in the village became the size of a fingernail from what he thought. For some reason, a tear suddenly fell down.
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“If you see or don’t see me, I will be there, neither sad nor happy.”
“If you love or don’t love me, love is there, not increasing or decreasing.”
“Come in my arms, or, Let me live in your heart.”
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Silence , love each other.” “Silence, joy.” The
phone hung up, Lu Ze walked out of the corridor and looked towards the playground. Wu Chun stood on the stage and softly read the poem “Class” that appeared in “If You Are the One 2” The Silence of Zagul Pema.
When Li Xiangshan was about to pass away, the appearance of this poem was paired with this slightly melancholic light music. The uneuphemistic sadness gradually made the children in the audience cry. It was another movie and another school. Wu Chun and several other TV hosts stood on the stage. After accepting the heartfelt applause from the children, they slowly stepped off the stage, took the children by the hand, and led them back to the classroom.
“Cries …… call.”
Shortly before the finish, Judson did not let cameraman with the film, went to the front of his car drove up, back door, left heel stepping on the pedal, lit a tobacco, a deep one, looking at the blue The sky slowly exhaled the smoke, and footsteps sounded in my ears.
“Teacher, although you are handsome, you are suspected of being handsome like this.”
” Stop talking nonsense, get in the car, and behave okay today.”
“Really? Thank you teacher!”
Wu Chun grinned, carrying a small schoolbag. Jumping into the co-pilot, Lu Ze put out the smoke, the vehicle started, and drove towards the hotel where Wu Chun was.
The little girl was praised today. She was obviously very happy. Sitting in the co-pilot, she leaned her head against the window and fiddled with her phone. She laughed from time to time. She didn’t know what she was looking at. Lu Ze glanced and asked.
“You have a boyfriend?”
“Come on, teacher, you asked it all the time last time, I said no~~ I will set up a script for the next time with Brother Chen. They said that next time I will read a line more Role.”
“I’m not nervous anymore? I dare to take the big job.”
“I ‘m nervous, so I have to seize all the time to rehearse, so I think it’s better to let go of finding a boyfriend first, not in a hurry, but in a hurry. No.”
” Did n’t you say that you were looking for a boyfriend? Why are you not in a hurry now?”
“Because I have thought about what you said last time in the past few days, and I also think that now I can help more people, I feel it… can make these children happy and moved because of me, It’s really much more fulfilling than finding a boyfriend to take care of me. I want to do more meaningful things when I have the opportunity. As for boyfriends, let’s step aside.”
Her vocabulary summarized something. It is general, but it is understandable. Seeing her seriously uttering this sentence, Lu Ze looked at her a little bit, with the corners of his mouth curled up, his eyes were relieved under the sunglasses, and his speed increased after passing the ramp.
“…”