Dungeon jumper [bl]

P.O.V. Izel (second oldest and first born girl)

It has been one and a half months since eldest brother died leaving me to take care of everyone in the family, one week after his disappearance we were told that Aadi had left all the money he saved up to me the second eldest. As time went by however it became more obvious how much control and say in the family he had, without him here trying to keep everything clean and in order while making sure everyone completed what they were meant to do it became a animal pen in less than a week after he left.

Although we have slowly adjusted there are always fights and arguments on who has what chore and who cleans what up. It took two weeks for everyone to start getting up on their on and even now a month and a half later their are still some who subconsciously fall back on old habits calling out his name to ask a question, to ask where something is. The silence that permeates the house following times like this is enough for the person to realize what they had done.

She knew that it would take a long time before hearing his name wouldn't spark a certain amount of pain and loss for those old enough to remember him.

However she also knew that those to young would forget him quickly leaving them without any good and loving memories. She felt both comfort and sadness at that fact as she felt they shouldn't have to deal with it while still so young but somewhat wished there would be a few more with precious memories with him.

While getting ready in the morning at 4 O'clock like he used to and waking the others I head out to prepare food for myself and those who aren't yet five years old, those over five have begun preparing the food on their own since Aadi left.

Everything is the same but also shifted slightly like a missing row that causes just slightly off alignments on both sides the only change that has occurred is when bed time hits those older than five have to stay awake all but one night of the week to cultivate.

This shift in habit makes me feel better like he truly had meaning in our life and with him gone we feel less safe. 

I know the younger kids will forget him but he will always be more of a parent to me then my real ones.