Chapter 5: Chapter 5: Shadows of Grief
The days following their mother's death were a blur of silence and tension. The house, which had once been a haven of warmth and love, now felt cold and empty. Life did not improve for the Pages—it unraveled, thread by thread.
Serena, at just seven years old, found herself retreating into her own world. Once a chatterbox full of energy and life, she became quiet and withdrawn, her expressive eyes now clouded with confusion and sadness. She no longer painted, her vibrant colors now tucked away in a dusty corner of her room. Her sports gear remained untouched, and her school grades, which had always been decent thanks to her mother's support, began to plummet.
Ryan, once the steady and responsible elder brother, was changing too—and not for the better. The pressure of grief, compounded with the weight of responsibility thrust upon his young shoulders, made him bitter and angry. At just nine years old, he was navigating emotions he couldn't fully understand, and his frustration often boiled over. He found himself drawn to the wrong crowd—boys from his school who hung out late, cracked crude jokes, and got into trouble.
Their father, Mr. Page, was a shadow of the man he once was. When he wasn't at work, he was in his room with the door firmly shut. The once involved and doting father now seemed lost, unable to face his children or the gaping hole left by his wife. He provided for them, yes, but the emotional support they desperately needed was gone.
One fateful evening, Ryan's anger reached a breaking point. Serena had been sitting quietly in the living room, her small frame hunched over as she fiddled with the hem of her dress. Ryan stormed in, slamming the door behind him. His face was flushed with frustration, and his fists were clenched at his sides.
"Why are you just sitting there?" he snapped.
Serena looked up, startled. "I... I wasn't doing anything wrong," she stammered.
"That's the problem! You're always doing nothing!" Ryan shouted, his voice cracking.
Tears welled up in Serena's eyes. "I'm sorry," she whispered.
Ryan's expression hardened, and before he could stop himself, he said the words that would haunt them both: "It's your fault she's gone. If you weren't so difficult, if you hadn't been so much trouble, maybe she'd still be here."
Serena's world crumbled in that instant. She stared at Ryan, her heart pounding in her chest. The words cut deeper than any scolding or punishment ever could. She opened her mouth to respond but found she couldn't. Instead, she ran to her room, slamming the door behind her.
Ryan stood there, the weight of his words sinking in. He knew he'd gone too far, but his pride wouldn't let him apologize. Instead, he stormed out of the house, meeting up with his friends to drown his guilt in their reckless antics.
Serena's withdrawal deepened after that. She stopped trying at school altogether. Her teachers' concerns fell on deaf ears, as neither her father nor Ryan seemed to be in a place to help her. The little girl who used to light up a room with her smile now spent most of her time alone, staring out of the window or curled up in bed.
Her cousin Nicole tried to reach out, but even she couldn't break through the wall Serena had built around herself. "Serena, do you want to paint? I brought your favorite watercolors," Nicole would say, but Serena would simply shake her head.
Meanwhile, Ryan's behavior continued to spiral. He stayed out late, skipping homework and picking fights at school. His once-impressive grades began to slip, and his teachers grew increasingly concerned. But Ryan didn't care. He was angry at the world, and more than that, he was angry at himself.
One night, he came home past midnight, the smell of cigarettes clinging to his clothes. His father, hearing the door creak open, stepped out of his room for the first time in days.
"Ryan," he said, his voice hoarse, "where have you been?"
"Out," Ryan replied curtly, not meeting his father's gaze.
Mr. Page sighed, running a hand through his disheveled hair. "You can't keep doing this. You're better than this."
Ryan snapped, "Better than what? Better than you, hiding in your room all day? At least I'm not pretending everything's fine!"
The words stung, and Mr. Page retreated to his room without another word. Ryan stood in the hallway, his chest heaving with anger and guilt.
The family was breaking apart, each member lost in their own pain. The once-united Pages were now three individuals, each struggling to cope in their own way.
One rainy afternoon, Serena sat by the window, watching the raindrops race down the glass. She hugged her knees to her chest, her mind replaying Ryan's words over and over. She felt like a burden, like the reason everything had gone wrong.
She wanted to cry, but the tears wouldn't come. Instead, she sat there, feeling hollow. then she found herself standing in front of her mother's old wardrobe. She opened it slowly, inhaling the faint scent of her mother's favorite perfume. She reached for a soft, worn shawl and wrapped it around herself, hoping to feel some semblance of her mother's warmth. But all she felt was the crushing weight of her absence.
She sat on the floor of her mother's room, clutching the shawl tightly, and whispered, "Why did you leave us?"
Her words hung in the air, unanswered.