Churu for the Angry Guide

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Siwoo just stared at Jihan’s hand for a moment. A subtle tension spread across his face, which was pale to the point of being white.

He tried to swallow as inconspicuously as possible, but the gulp sounded clearly. He simply couldn’t hide his nervousness.

“Why are you so tense? It’s not like this is our first time.”

“Just shut up.”

Jihan’s accurate words were especially annoying today. Siwoo glared at him and bit his lower lip.

As Jihan said, they had already done light contact guiding before. When Siwoo held Jihan’s hand, he didn’t show any noticeable rejection. He just got very angry.

“Close your eyes.”

Jihan obeyed Siwoo’s order and closed his eyes tightly. Freed from the intense gaze, Siwoo first took a small deep breath. He was excessively tense.

“Don’t move.”

It wasn’t just aversion to contact guiding that made him nervous. In fact, Siwoo didn’t know why his mouth kept getting dry. He just felt uncomfortable.

“Just stay still. If you don’t, I won’t do guiding for a week.”

When he hugged Kang Geonho for guiding, there was no hesitation. He just acted as his heart pulled him.

Perhaps because Geonho’s embrace was familiar, it didn’t feel awkward at all. Though he stiffened at the thought of holding hands with other Espers, it wasn’t like that with Geonho.

“I’ll only do it until I want to stop.”

Siwoo rambled on, recalling the moment he attempted contact guiding during his trainee days.

“Don’t get angry if I stop in the middle. If you curse, I’ll never do it again.”

He glared at Jihan’s hand, his eyes wide, asking if he understood. His expression was sharp, trying not to be overwhelmed by the Esper’s energy.

Peeling away that sharp expression revealed a frightened little cat underneath. Jihan, with his eyes closed as Siwoo instructed, imagined a white cat with its fur puffed up.

The unusual talkativeness seemed to be due to nervousness. Siwoo wasn’t normally the type to ramble on like this.

“Guide-nim.”

“What.”

“Should we do this another time?”

Jihan’s face tilted slightly to the side. He still had his eyes closed and didn’t move his hand.

If Siwoo said he couldn’t do it, Jihan planned to stop here. Though he wanted to properly receive Siwoo’s contact guiding, he had no intention of pressuring him.

“It’s okay if we do it another time. It’s okay if we don’t do it at all.”

Since the guide was known for running away, Jihan felt uneasy even if Siwoo showed the slightest discomfort. Afraid he might disappear again.

“What do you mean another time.”

With a faint voice that vanished like a brush, a warm energy enveloped Jihan’s hand.

“I’m starting.”

Siwoo grabbed Jihan’s hand and immediately sent out guiding. It was still unbridled guiding.

Jihan hesitated for a moment, then stretched his lips into a smile and fully absorbed the energy transmitted through their touching skin.

The aggressive guiding clung desperately to Jihan’s body. As the guiding continued, the strength in Jihan’s tightly closed eyelids gradually relaxed.

“Can I open my eyes?”

“No.”

Accepting the flat refusal, Jihan quietly received the guiding. An amount incomparable to radiation guiding poured down like heavy rain. Even though only their hands were touching, it felt like their entire bodies were in contact.

I should tell him to go a bit easier.

Jihan, who had been opening and closing his lips, lightly licked his lower lip with the tip of his tongue and swallowed his words. For now, since it was their first official guiding session, he decided to let Siwoo do it his way.

Knowing this would happen, he had deliberately maneuvered to receive it first. Although both Geonho and the maknae had strong control, you never know what might happen. They say accidents always occur suddenly.

“How is it? Are you okay?”

He felt slightly frustrated not being able to see Siwoo’s expression. He needed to see his face to know how he was feeling, but with his eyes closed, he couldn’t check Siwoo’s condition.

“Can you continue?”

The guiding was proceeding smoothly. However, given how tense Siwoo had been before starting, Jihan was concerned.

Judging by the lack of response, this much seemed to be fine. Even though quite some time seemed to have passed, the guiding didn’t stop. Rather, as time went on, more and more energy began to pour out.

Why did he say he wouldn’t do contact guiding? When he’s so good at it.

No matter how he thought about it, Siwoo didn’t seem to have any aversion to contact at all. Jihan’s eyes moved left and right as he pondered his thoughts about Siwoo. His closed eyelids twitched slightly.

Maybe it’s not that he dislikes it, but just that it’s unfamiliar and awkward?

This sudden hypothesis turned into conviction. It was because he knew Siwoo’s background.

Just looking at his profile, it was clear that Siwoo had grown up in an environment where he couldn’t interact with people at all. At a time when he should have received parental love, he moved between orphanages multiple times. It was an environment where hostility towards people was bound to increase.

It couldn’t be easy to hold hands with strangers and do guiding just because he became a guide. There must have been difficulties.

To those who didn’t know his background, he probably just seemed like a picky and sensitive guide. They would have held prejudices about cat beastkin and not even tried to look closely at his heart. He probably didn’t want that either.

Jihan’s fingertips gently stroked Siwoo’s white hand. It was an unconscious action.

Siwoo, engrossed in guiding, didn’t notice this. He was so focused on guiding that even when Jihan slightly pressed his hand, there was no reaction. He just sent out more energy.

Thanks to this, Jihan, surrounded by Siwoo’s guiding, was feeling comfortable at an amazing speed. The chronic headache that didn’t stop even while sleeping began to gradually diminish like fog clearing.

It was a moment when he felt newly grateful for the 74% matching rate. Although not as much as the leader, Jihan also had a sufficiently high matching rate with Siwoo.

Sufficient guiding was achieved just by holding hands. Of course, more contact would be much better.

“You can reduce it a bit.”

Jihan forced his lazy lips to move and make a sound. It was to regain his own composure.

If it had been another Esper, they would have already devoured Siwoo with crazed eyes. His guiding was too dangerous.

“Go easy. I might collapse.”

When he whispered lightly with a playful tone, an unexpected response came back.

“…”

Siwoo spread Jihan’s fingers and interlocked them. While making a ‘Shh’ sound with his mouth, imitating a snake.

Jihan opened his eyes as if entranced and looked at Siwoo, who was immersed in guiding. With his eyes closed, Siwoo was earnestly caressing Jihan’s wavelength. Judging by his concentrated expression, he didn’t seem to realize he had interlocked their fingers.

That’s how focused Siwoo was on guiding. So much that his upper body was gradually leaning towards Jihan.

“I really might collapse.”

Jihan muttered softly, gladly welcoming the white head approaching him. When he playfully offered his shoulder, Siwoo really rested his forehead on it.

“Guide-nim?”

By this point, it was becoming clear that Siwoo wasn’t in his right mind.

“Guide Han Siwoo.”

“Stop calling me.”

Siwoo’s small voice was mixed with hot breath. Even trying to listen without lewd thoughts, this was clearly an excited voice.

“Stay still…”

Siwoo rubbed his nose against Jihan’s neckline and let out a deep sigh. The guiding that had seeped into his breath touched Jihan’s neck and flowed to a deep place. It was guiding that made the body heat up.

“This is really dangerous.”

Jihan muttered softly to himself and stared at the ceiling for a moment. He tried his best to ignore Siwoo, who was sniffing at his neck as if smelling his own scent. It was an impossible task.

Jihan’s gaze naturally came down to Siwoo. Siwoo was getting irritated with his face buried in Jihan’s neck and shoulder.

“It won’t go down any lower…”

He seemed frustrated that Jihan’s wavelength wouldn’t go below a certain level. Despite pouring out guiding to the best of his ability, Jihan’s tangled wavelength wouldn’t completely unravel. Jihan’s wavelength had been tangled for quite a long time, too long to be resolved with just one guiding session. It wasn’t energy that would go down immediately just by holding hands and rubbing cheeks a bit.

“It doesn’t have to go all the way down today.”

Jihan slowly released his hand from Siwoo’s grip. They had to stop here for today. Seeing Siwoo with unfocused eyes, he was convinced they shouldn’t continue.

He had heard many cases of Espers losing their minds to guiding, but this was the first time he had encountered the opposite. Usually, it was the Espers who felt sexual excitement from guiding. Of course, guides could get excited if they concentrated excessively, but it was extremely rare. Unless the matching rate was abnormally high, guides generally maintained their composure.

“Let’s stop here. You did well.”

“Why?”

When Jihan released his hand, Siwoo blinked rapidly and put his hands on Jihan’s shoulders. Then he approached Jihan closely, kneeling on the sofa with his thighs spread wide.

“Was it not good?”