Back To the Past To Fall In Love

Chapter 80:

The room was silent for about a moment, Xu Ziran and Tian Jiaqi spoke at the same time—

Xu Ziran: “Let me go quickly.”

Tian Jiaqi: “I’ve come here…”

After saying this, the two were silent for a moment at the same time, and then Tian Jiaqi glared at Xu Ziran, “Are you talking human words! It’s so late now!”

Xu Ziran was not to be outdone: “What’s wrong with it being so late? Is it dangerous to just walk like this?”

Tian Jiaqi glared at Xu Ziran with narrowed eyes and pursed lips for a long time, and finally nimbly bypassed Xu Ziran and threw the blanket on the bed, then lay down in big letters.

“I won’t leave anyway!”

Xu Ziran tried to pull Tian Jiaqi up, but Tian Jiaqi rolled back and forth on the bed like a loach, making Xu Ziran unable to start. The two entangled for a long time, and finally Xu Ziran panted and feigned angrily: “With you, there is no me!”

Tian Jiaqi pouted on the bed, took out a comic book under the pillow and read it.

Xu Ziran guessed that Tian Jiaqi came here today just because she was curious about what they were doing in the room. She might go back when it was time to go to bed, so she ignored her and went to take a shower.

However, when she came out of the bathroom, Tian Jiaqi was already lying on the bed and looked like she was about to fall asleep.

Xu Ziran sighed and said, “If you’re so sleepy, go back. I slept very late.”

Tian Jiaqi raised her eyelids, snorted, and said, “If you don’t want to sleep with me, then I will sleep with Yurou.”

Xu Ziran didn’t think about it, and said, “No way.”

Tian Jiaqi stared at Xu Ziran, who touched her nose.

Qiu Yurou was packing her things, and when she heard this conversation, she poked Xu Ziran’s back and said, “Then let’s sleep together?”

Xu Ziran still didn’t think about it: “No, no!”

I used to be able to hide my ears and steal the bell when I slept together, but now there is only one layer of window paper left. What are you doing to test humanity!

But when she turned around and saw Qiu Yurou’s puzzled look, she knew that the other party didn’t think too much, it was because she was too dirty.

So she thought about it and said, “It’s not suitable, your bed is relatively small.”

Although it was also a single bed, Xu Ziran’s original bed was wider, so there was no problem sleeping two adolescent girls, but Qiu Yurou’s bed would be a little crowded.

Qiu Yurou said, “Then I and Jiaqi sleep in the same bed.”

After she said that, she whispered again: “I don’t want you to sleep with Jiaqi either.”

The voice was inaudible, only Xu Ziran who was in front of her could hear it.

So when Xu Ziran heard this, he was stunned and tangled again.

At this moment, Tian Jiaqi, who was on the bed, slammed the surface of the bed, and then jumped off the bed.

Xu Ziran turned around.

Tian Jiaqi threw the cartoon in her hand on the ground, glared at Xu Ziran, and ran out.

Xu Ziran was stunned for a moment, but also panicked in his heart.

Because in that glance, Xu Ziran clearly saw that Tian Jiaqi had tears in his eyes.

When she saw the blanket on the bed that Tian Jiaqi didn’t take away, she picked up the blanket and said to Qiu Yurou, “I’ll go out too”, and then chased out.

Tian Jiaqi walked too fast, Xu Ziran didn’t see her when she chased to the door, so she was in a hurry, so she didn’t wear shoes and chased out barefoot.

In this way, he bought time and chased Tian Jiaqi at the gate of the yard.

Xu Ziran chased after Tian Jiaqi, and then felt as if he had stepped on something, and felt a piercing pain, so he took a breath of cold air “hiss”.

Tian Jiaqi was attracted by this, so she turned around and looked at Xu Ziran.

Under the moonlight, the other party’s tears flashed, but he looked at her stubbornly.

Xu Ziran was a little helpless: “I’m sorry, I was just joking.”

Tian Jiaqi looked at the blanket in the other’s hand: “You even took this out, you still don’t want me to go back.”

Xu Ziran was stunned, then hid the blanket behind him and said, “It’s easy, alas, it’s easy.”

“It’s not easy at all, you are subconscious!”

Xu Ziran was a little helpless.

She didn’t know what happened to Tian Jiaqi, wasn’t she already fine before.

What’s more, her excuse was really lame at the beginning, but now it has come true.

She sighed and said, “Because it’s really troublesome, you see…”

Before she could finish her sentence, Tian Jiaqi interrupted: “You have to say it again, because you like Qiu Yurou!”

Xu Ziran: “…”

Xu Ziran was speechless, because under the moonlight, Tian Jiaqi’s eyes made her feel both familiar and unfamiliar.

At first, this look may be a precursor to a breakup.

Xu Ziran can’t figure it out, just like she didn’t understand why Tian Jiaqi was like this at the beginning, she still can’t figure it out now.

So she asked the question that had been hidden in her heart for so many years: “Why, what are you thinking about now?”

At this moment, even Tian Jiaqi’s heart was a little dazed.

This is first because Xu Ziran asked this question without thinking, and secondly, when she was asked this way, she found that she really seemed to have something to say.

But what to say?

She is neither as eloquent as Xu Ziran, nor as smart as Qiu Yurou.

Among the people around her, she seems to be the most ordinary one. Xu Ziran has changed so much, she walks in front of her and throws herself farther and farther away.

It feels as if they will part ways one day because they have taken completely different paths.

So what is she going to say?

These days, she tossed and turned, and lost her sense of normality more and more, what was it?

She looked at Xu Ziran’s face, there was no change in this face, but she was taller and her hair was longer.

In Xu Ziran’s eyes, apart from worry, there was still something she couldn’t understand.

She finally blurted out: “…I’m not reconciled.”

– “Really, I’m so unwilling.”

Saying this, Tian Jiaqi squatted on the ground, covering her face and crying.

And it was as if something opened up the two veins of Ren and Du, and Xu Ziran was empowered.

It was because of that.

It was just that.

Xu Ziran wanted to help Tian Jiaqi up, but had no strength.

She murmured to herself: “But I don’t understand, what are you unwilling to do?”

This question, rather than asking Tian Jiaqi in front of him, is asking Tian Jiaqi who will do that thing in the future.

Just being unwilling to destroy everything?

Such a thought popped into Xu Ziran’s mind, but then he smiled first.

Thinking of it this way, it might really be Tian Jiaqi’s character.

The other party looked careless and didn’t care about anything, but in fact, it couldn’t be more staunch.

Tian Jiaqi, who heard Xu Ziran muttering to herself, turned the question around in her mind, and finally said, “I am the most unwilling, you like Qiu Yurou.”

Xu Ziran opened her eyes wide and looked at Tian Jiaqi.

Tian Jiaqi squatted on the ground and raised her head: “Then I like you too, what should I do?”

Xu Ziran smiled bitterly.

This scene reminded her of Tian Jiaqi’s first “lovelorn”.

At that time, she was just a freshman and fell in love with a minister of the student union, but after she confessed, the other party simply refused.

When talking about this on the phone, Tian Jiaqi didn’t seem to care, but her voice was a little regretful. However, two weeks later, the other party went to Xu Ziran’s school on two different trains, and called Xu Ziran out of the dormitory in the middle of the night, crying. Said, “I really like him.”

While sitting beside Malu Yazi while drinking and venting, Tian Jiaqi said loudly: “…the past two weeks, I have been thinking about him all the time, thinking about him during the day and at night, and thinking about it in my dreams, I’m finished, I I fell in love with someone who would never fall in love with me.”

At that time, Xu Ziran only felt that the injured Tian Jiaqi was really pitiful, and helped her to curse the minister fiercely. However, when she woke up the next morning, she thought that there was one sentence that Tian Jiaqi said was right.

She likes people who will never like her.

So it’s not so much that she likes someone, it’s better to say that she likes someone she can’t get.

Is this also a kind of dissatisfaction?

Xu Ziran understood that some people are afraid of pain, some people are afraid of suffering, some people are afraid of debt, some people are afraid of emptiness, and perhaps the most torturing mood of Tian Jiaqi is unwillingness.

Looking at Tian Jiaqi like this, she smiled bitterly: “You don’t know what true love is at all.”

Tian Jiaqi asked, “What about you, how can you be sure that you really like it?”

Xu Ziran stood barefoot and felt a little pain in his feet, so he squatted down too.

Feeling tired after squatting down, I simply sat on the ground.

She thought about Tian Jiaqi’s question: how did I know for sure?

The cool night breeze swept across him.

Xu Ziran wore thin pajamas after taking a shower, so when the wind blew, she felt goosebumps all over her body.

She folded her arms around her chest and said, “I found out that others can’t.”

“What?” Tian Jiaqi didn’t understand.

“I – I can’t choose anyone else. She’s the only one who makes me feel like this. She’s the only one who shines in my eyes, and everyone else is dimmed. I think, this is probably love.”

Tian Jiaqi looked at Xu Ziran, she was speechless because of the way Xu Ziran spoke.

She couldn’t describe it, she just felt that this look was indeed something she had never seen before.

But she was still stubborn: “How do you know that I don’t feel that way?”

Xu Ziran looked at Tian Jiaqi, her eyes couldn’t help becoming regretful, and she decided to tell Tian Jiaqi this thing in advance that she might take a few years to realize.

She said, “But Jiaqi, it’s not me that you like, what you like is the feeling that you can’t get it.”

Under the moonlight, Tian Jiaqi, who heard this sentence, stood up on her knees, feeling her head dizzy.

-Is it?

She couldn’t tell for the time being.

“…But-”

She said “but” without knowing what to say next.

Perhaps Xu Ziran is someone who knows herself better than herself.

Because they are the best friends who grew up together.

But…

Everything will change.

Tian Jiaqi went home.

Xu Ziran sat for a while, and when he stood up, Tian Jiaqi turned back again.

Xu Ziran thought that the other party had something to say, but Tian Jiaqi only pulled his blanket and left again.

Xu Ziran felt heavy.

After thinking heavily, since Tian Jiaqi still remembers her blanket, she should be able to recover.

But… I don’t know what to do next.

Xu Ziran sighed and stood up against the ground, thinking that he would have to wash again when he went back, so he endured the pain in the soles of his feet and went home.

When he opened the door and walked to the entrance, he was slightly taken aback.

When she came out, she hesitated whether to wear shoes or not, so she carefully looked at the direction of the shoes, but now she saw that Qiu Yurou’s shoes had obviously changed direction.

So, did she come out?

Xu Ziran’s face suddenly became hot, thinking to herself, she didn’t know how much the other party heard.

She was in love just now, and now she can’t remember what she said. She patted the ashes on the bottom of her feet, hugged her feet and looked at it, and found that there was an obvious red shadow on the forefoot. Fortunately, There was no bleeding either, so he put his feet down and limped home.

When he reached the stairs, he saw Qiu Yurou sitting on it.

Xu Ziran quickly stood still, but Qiu Yurou had already seen her walking posture, so she stood up to help Xu Ziran.

She pulled Xu Ziran’s hand to her neck, and as a result, Xu Ziran seemed to be being held by her, so she put her hand down and held it instead.

Xu Ziran: “…”

After the two went upstairs, Xu Ziran looked at Qiu Yurou’s blushing cheeks and steamy hair, and said, “You…you heard me.”

She didn’t say what she heard, Qiu Yurou hesitated for two seconds, and finally nodded.

Xu Ziran felt that his head was stabbed by a needle, and then he didn’t know what acupuncture point was stabbed, and he felt dizzy.

As a result, she said again: “You heard me.”

A person who can say something meaningless over and over is definitely not in the state, Qiu Yurou certainly understands this matter, so he ignored the sentence, bit his lip, and said, “I… can you say that I am very happy? ?”

Saying this, his face turned red to the tip of his ears.

At this time, when he arrived at the door of the room, Xu Ziran lowered his head and opened the door, jumped into the room with one foot, and sat on his bed.

Qiu Yurou’s words just now reverberated in her mind, and then she felt that she was shamefully adored.

Because she was caught in her own emotions and knew that Qiu Yurou grabbed her ankle, she realized that Qiu Yurou was squatting down and looked at her feet.

It was obvious that in the future, I would also enjoy wearing sandals, but now, when Qiu Yurou stared at her feet like this, Xu Ziran felt inexplicably embarrassed.

She tensed her toes because of nervousness, and said, “It’s nothing.”

Qiu Yurou looked at the red mark on Xu Ziran’s feet and touched it.

Xu Ziran suddenly felt that a burst of electricity was transmitted from the soles of his feet to his brain stem, making his hair almost stand up.

She shrank her feet back uncontrollably, and said stiffly, “Itchy.”

Qiu Yurou glanced at Xu Ziran several times, and her expression started to go wrong again: “You, don’t be embarrassed, I’m going to be embarrassed if you are like this.”

After saying this, she put Xu Ziran’s feet down and said, “It’s nothing, I’ll help you twist a towel to wipe your feet, and then compress it with cold water.”

Xu Ziran hurriedly stood up: “Don’t, I myself… hiss—”

She sat down again because of the pain in her feet when she stood up.

Qiu Yurou smiled and went to the bathroom to twist a towel. When he came back, seeing Xu Ziran looking awkward, he handed the towel to Xu Ziran and said, “Then you can wipe it yourself.”

Xu Ziran breathed a sigh of relief, quickly took the towel, and after wiping his feet, he hugged his feet and applied them to the wound.

Qiu Yurou sat on the opposite side of her bed, the two of them looked at each other for a moment, and said at the same time—

Qiu Yurou: “You…”

Xu Ziran: “You…”

The two stopped at the same time, and said—

Qiu Yurou: “You talk first.”

Xu Ziran: “I’ll talk about it first.”

As soon as the voice fell, the two laughed together.

Xu Ziran said: “I knew you would tell me to tell me first, so I should come down first.”

Qiu Yurou smiled and said, “I actually don’t know what to say. I really envy your cumin state when you get along with Jia Qi. I always feel like I can never do it.”

Xu Ziran knew that Qiu Yurou really cared about this matter, because she said in the future that she used to envy the kind of person who could get along well with everyone.

At that time, Qiu Yurou must not be envious anymore, so when she said this, she just had a faint expression—

“I seem to have always been the person in the cold field. Even if I am famous for being a chatter, I will gradually become speechless in front of me, and I don’t know what a terrible physique it is.”

“But then I didn’t force myself. Instead, I felt that I didn’t particularly like talking to others.”

When Xu Ziran heard this, he smiled and said, “Those who will be cold with you are just passersby. Look, we will not be cold if we don’t.”

Qiu Yurou laughed softly, “This is different.”

At that time, Xu Ziran didn’t know what Qiu Yurou meant by “different”.

But now, she finally realized it, so she looked at the now young Qiu Yurou and couldn’t help but say, “This is different.”

You did your best to keep the conversation going in front of me.

I don’t know what to say in front of you.

It is because of different emotions that different changes occur.

Xu Ziran finally said, “Because I like you.”

After she said this, it was as if a huge stone that had been stuck in her heart for a long time finally fell, and the chest cavity, which had been so heavy that it started to make breathing difficult, finally relaxed.

After she relaxed, she felt that the scene in front of her was a bit funny.

She was wearing pajamas and covering her feet with a towel. Qiu Yurou was sitting on the bed in pajamas, looking at her in astonishment.

This doesn’t seem like a suitable scene for a confession.

However, when the love came, it came out naturally, and it seemed that it was impossible to set a suitable scene.

Probably because love is such a sudden thing.

Xu Ziran lowered his head and dared not look at Qiu Yurou, and said with a wry smile, “Am I being a little hypocritical?”

As soon as she finished speaking, Qiu Yurou, who rushed over, was startled by the constant “ding ding ding ding” in her head.

She didn’t have time to look at the system, and watched Qiu Yurou throw her on the bed and buried her head in her neck.

“I like you too, very, very much.”

After saying this, Xu Ziran felt the warm liquid dripping from his neck, and then gradually became cold.

Xu Ziran’s body was stiff at first, but then gradually relaxed, and gently stroked Qiu Yurou’s hair.

She felt Qiu Yurou’s warm and soft body, and smelled the faint scent coming from the other party’s body. She suddenly wanted to hug Qiu Yurou tightly and do something that she had thought she was probably not interested in.

But she took a deep breath to calm herself down, and warned herself: Xu Ziran, you are still a child!

After a long while, Qiu Yurou seemed to gradually calm down, so her body became more and more stiff, and the hand that was holding Xu Ziran’s collar gradually loosened.

She raised her head, stood up from Xu Ziran, sat aside, lowered her head and said like a child admitting her mistake, “I’m sorry, I lost my way.”

Xu Ziran thought to himself: I almost lost my temper than you.

But she said, “It’s nothing, it’s inevitable.”

The two people poked at the edge of the bed like a log for a while, and finally Qiu Yurou stood up and said, “I-I’m going to take a bath.”

After saying that, I stood up and walked to the bathroom hand in hand…

After that, the two turned off the lights and fell asleep in their respective beds.

Of course, they still couldn’t fall asleep. Both of them tossed and turned for a long time. Just when Xu Ziran was about to be forced to sleep, Qiu Yurou said, “What are you going to do next?”

Xu Ziran was in a daze, unable to understand what Qiu Yurou was talking about.

What to do next?

Qiu Yurou said as lightly as a mosquito: “Then… is it going to be like Reiko and Yui?”

Xu Ziran finally reacted.

Then she was so startled that she almost rolled off the bed.

“Then that’s a game!” Xu Ziran blurted out.

At the same time, she added in her heart: It’s still an 18x game.

Qiu Yurou asked, “Is it different in reality?”

Xu Ziran is in a tangle. She has never been in love, so she is not very clear.

But it is absolutely impossible to be influenced by h-games. Xu Ziran felt that she had to change Qiu Yurou’s mind, so she said, “In short, minors can’t do that kind of thing!”

There was silence in the room for a moment.

In the quiet darkness, the sound of breathing was a bit obvious. Xu Ziran, who was barely sleepy at first, had a fluctuating mood, but she couldn’t be awake.

The system starts the countdown for forced sleep.

Then she heard Qiu Yurou’s voice, it was soft and soft, and she could see how embarrassed the other party was just from the tone of voice.

Qiu Yurou said, “I-I’m not talking about… not that, I’m talking about… dating…”

Xu Ziran: “…”