Back To the Past To Fall In Love

Chapter 104:

Probably on the day of the results, Xu Ziran found that her mother’s reaction was a bit strange.

First in the morning, she suddenly asked, “Is the result out today, are you going out?”

Xu Ziran was at a loss.

It’s obvious that she can check the results by phone, why does she want to go out?

So she shook her head and said, “Forget it, it’s so hot.”

Her mother then said, “don’t you want to know Rourou’s grades?”

Xu Ziran didn’t think much and replied, “It doesn’t matter, she will call me.”

Her mother said nothing.

And Xu Ziran didn’t turn around until the afternoon to think that her mother’s expression and content of what she said seemed a little wrong.

Xu Ziran is not a sensitive person, but after all she has been outside for a long time, she still has this level of observation, but at this time she just thought her mother was curious about Qiu Yurou’s grades, after all Qiu Yurou’s previous grades were exaggerated. .

By the afternoon, things got weirder.

Her mother was sitting on the sofa with a serious face, her face was as dark as a dark cloud, Xu Ziran didn’t know why, and said, “Don’t be so serious, I didn’t lie to you, I really did well in the exam.”

Mother Xu just nodded.

It’s not the first time for Xu Ziran to take the college entrance examination. She still remembers that the last time her grades were much worse than this time, and when she was very anxious, her mother didn’t react like this.

Could it be that because she was too relaxed, her mother was nervous for her?

– It doesn’t make sense.

Xu Ziran cut a watermelon in the kitchen, and when he was cutting a watermelon, a call came from his phone, it was Qiu Yurou.

Qiu Yurou didn’t say anything on the phone, she just asked if she would check her grades today, and if she wanted everyone to go out to dinner after checking her grades.

Xu Ziran was ready to agree at first, but then changed his mind and said, “Anyway, it was originally going to be a class dinner. If there is anything, it will be said at that time.”

Qiu Yurou said something softly on the other end of the phone, but Xu Ziran didn’t hear it clearly, so she said “Huh?”

Qiu Yurou raised her voice slightly and said, “But I want to see you.”

It was obvious that he mustered up the courage to say this, so as soon as the words fell, there was no sound.

Xu Ziran could almost imagine Qiu Yurou blushing on the other side of the phone, because she herself was similar.

So she coughed and said, “Well, I think so too, let’s meet at night – I’ll go to your house?”

Qiu Yurou said, “Really?”

Xu Ziran laughed: “How can this be true or false.”

But after saying this, she remembered something and said, “Why don’t you come here. My mother is in a bad mood today, and I’m worried that she doesn’t want me to go out.”

As soon as she finished speaking, someone suddenly said in her ear, “Of course, come out with me.”

Xu Ziran trembled in fright, and the fruit knife in his hand fell on the cutting board.

She patted her chest with her hands regardless of the watermelon juice in her hands, and her voice changed: “Mom, you startled me.”

Her mother didn’t respond. She glanced at the phone in her hand and said, “How long will it take?”

Xu Ziran was inexplicably flustered by her mother’s eyes, and hung up the phone after saying “talk back”.

At this time, I don’t know if it was some kind of intuition based on blood, she already had some guesses in her heart.

It’s also because, among the things she’s concealed, there’s only one thing that deserves her mother to show such an expression after she finds out.

Although he had already made preparations, the assumptions in his heart were completely different from the feelings when he faced this situation.

Uncontrollably, Xu Ziran’s back was sweating. She looked up at her mother’s face, but felt that she was looking at the most terrifying person in the world.

—It wasn’t the first time she felt this way.

Many years later, her mother looked at her like this, and said in a disgusting tone of hatred, “You are not normal if you don’t get married. Can you not disgust me in front of me?”

If not even getting married has been classified as abnormal… now what?

Did she really know?

Xu Ziran’s thoughts turned back, but her expression was calm. She knew that if she was too excited or reacted too much at this time, she would provoke her mother’s emotions. This is a long-term experience many years later, so she just pretended to be calm and said: “Why Well, what are you going to do, let me pack the watermelon first.”

Mother Xu seemed to want to say something, but she opened her mouth to speak for a long time, and finally she just nodded and turned around and said, “Then come out quickly.”

Xu Ziran held the watermelon on a plate and found that his hands were shaking.

She swears that she has absolutely no hidden Parkinson’s problems, but even if she squeezes the wrist of her right hand with her left hand, the result is that both hands are shaking together.

So she had to admit that she was feeling scared.

After many years, she once again felt this familiar sense of fear, and this fear was only because she would be questioned and spurned by her mother, and she also – also absolutely couldn’t step back.

In the end, she held the plate in both hands and walked to the living room until her hands stopped shaking. She first put the plate on the coffee table, then sat on the other sofa, and smiled, “What do you want to ask?”

Her hands were behind her back, pressed between the sofa and the back, and clenched into fists, her neatly trimmed nails still digging into the flesh.

Mother Xu asked, “Did you talk to Rou Rou on the phone just now?”

Xu Ziran raised his eyes to look at his mother with a calm expression: “Well, what’s the matter.”

“I always thought that your relationship with Jiaqi was better.” Mother Xu said.

Xu Ziran nodded: “There is nothing better or worse. I have a good relationship with them both.”

Mother Xu raised her eyes: “I know, the relationship between girls will always look closer before, just like you and I, Aunt Chen, have had a good relationship since the school days.”

“Yeah, I know.” Xu Ziran pretended to smile easily.

However, the more relaxed she pretended, the heavier she felt.

She knew that her mother still had some guesses.

It was as if the previous coat of whitewashing Taiping was suddenly removed and the naked truth was revealed, Xu Ziran suddenly felt that even the hypocritical self-reconciliation himself was unbearable.

She suddenly had the urge to admit this matter here again, in front of this person who loves her without a doubt but cannot understand her, loudly announces her relationship with Qiu Yurou, and tells her , this can never be changed.

and then? – As for the then… The next thing, Xu Ziran has already experienced it once.

She might be kicked out of the house, she might be locked in a room, she might be declared cut off – all of these things, she’d been through.

Because of the difference in concept, this short-lived peace and happiness will eventually end. This is something Xu Ziran already knew from the very beginning.

She tried to change, she said a lot to her mother, and said a lot of words that now seem to be deviant because they are ahead of time, but these words are still for a man in his forties with fixed ideas. Too superficial and shallow.

The weight of words may be enough to change a teenage girl, but for adults who already have their own worldview, it can only be said to be a child’s babble.

So, although Xu Ziran was sure that he had brought up the topic of homosexuality more than once in front of his mother, Xu’s mother still said at this time: “…a good relationship may make you misunderstood, but the real relationship is between a man and a woman. It will only happen, you should know that, right?”

Xu Ziran knew that he might be pretending to be stupid at this time, but when the words came out, he still became—

“It’s not like that, love can also arise between same-sex relationships.”

After these words were spoken, Xu Ziran realized that she had already admitted something when she said these words at this time. She suspected that there would be a storm, but unexpectedly, her mother didn’t even change her face.

The other party only said coldly: “You are still young, you may not understand, but you will know later.”

Xu Ziran didn’t know whether to breathe a sigh of relief or sigh.

The reaction from her mother was much more stable than in her previous life when she didn’t want to get married, but at the moment it seemed that the reason was simply because she was not yet an adult.

Since he is still a minor, all ideas are of course not worth mentioning.

Although the boundary between adult and minor is only one day.

Xu Ziran suddenly calmed down.

She realizes that she has had more opportunities than in her previous life.

She may have more time for her mother to adjust and understand—or not, and thus more time to adjust to disappointment.

So she stopped talking, just nodded indifferently.

Mother Xu breathed a sigh of relief: “I knew it, you’ll figure it out.”

Xu Ziran wanted to swallow her anger for a while. Seeing that Mother Xu was taking it for granted, she couldn’t help but want to refute. When she was about to say it, the doorbell rang.

Xu Ziran stood up faster than Mother Xu. For some reason, she thought of Qiu Yurou for the first time.

But she quickly realized that even if she drove over, Qiu Yurou would not be able to get to her house so quickly, so she was undoubtedly thinking too much.

But she still went out to open the door, because if she didn’t go out again, she couldn’t help arguing with her mother – which would definitely lead to some unmanageable consequences.

She opened the door across the yard and saw Tian Jiaqi standing impatiently at the door.

Sure enough, there was such a slight to imperceptible disappointment mixed in, Xu Ziran spurned in his heart how could he have such an idea of living in a TV series.

Tian Jiaqi wore a T-shirt with a cartoon pattern on it, hugged her chest and said, “Why, your phone is broken, let Qiu Yurou call me and ask me to come over.”

As if drinking the sweet spring water in the midst of thirst, Xu Ziran suddenly laughed: “Fish called you?”

Tian Jiaqi raised her eyebrows with questioning eyes: “Didn’t you call me here? What are you doing?”

Xu Ziran shook his head: “It’s nothing, just asking if you want some watermelon.”

Tian Jiaqi had a ghostly expression on her face, and finally followed Xu Ziran in to eat melons with the mentality of not eating for nothing.

Because of Tian Jiaqi’s arrival, the original condensed atmosphere gradually dissipated, Xu Ziran and Tian Jiaqi were watching TV in the living room while Xu’s mother cooked dinner.

Xu Ziran saw two text messages from Qiu Yurou-

:What’s wrong? Was that Aunt Xu just now?

: I won’t be here tonight, please call me.

Xu Ziran looked at the screen of the mobile phone, her eyes couldn’t help becoming gentle.

If there is a person who is so smart and understanding, is he really worthy of her?

At the same time as this thought flashed by, Xu Ziran edited the text message and sent—

: everything will be fine.

Just after the text message showed that it was sent successfully, Tian Jiaqi patted her on the shoulder and said, “Ah! You can check the results…”